Disavowed

Pony Warped Tour - Pain Before the Gain

The night winded down faster than you thought, and after being sent home you couldn't be happier. Or, at least that is your current thoughts.

This is it. This is the day, that you finally find a way to tell your marefriend, Carrot Top, the truth. No more hiding it, and no more being scared. It is time, as they say, to nut up, or shut up.

Your eyes are filled with Celestia's sun, as the room around you fully turns it's colors of a dull white and brown. Looking to your right there is a stack of tickets that need to be handed out to your new friends. At least you believe they are. Turning to look the other way is your marefriend, the one you love, and the one you bought that marriage bracelet for. With a slow turn, she leans into you, wrapping her hooves around your body.

"Good morning, Mythy," she says in a tired, crackling voice.

In which you respond, "Good morning, Carrot. Did you sleep well?"

"Mmhm, especially since I had you with me."

"And not in the hospital?" You give a light laugh, and receive a kiss to the side of your mouth. Quite sloppy, but it is early.

The amount of ways she could react to you telling her the truth starts to bother you. Is she going to understand and accept me for what and who I am? Is she going to turn away and never speak to me again? What if she decides to kill me? Even through your thinking, it is true that she is one of the most passionate mares you have ever met. She is sure to understand.

"You alright Hun?" Carrot snapped you out of the trance.

"Huh, what? Oh, yea, yea, I'm fine. Just thinking." Wow, I sound like something is wrong.

"You sound like something is wrong?" She answers in a more worried tone.

Knew it. "No, It's fine, just early. What do you say we get some breakfast?"

"That sounds wonderful, can we get some here? I really don't feel like going anywhere today."

"Of course, I think I have some biscuits and gravy in the fridge. Will that work?" You stand to your hooves, moving every limb letting off a crackle from your joints.

"That'll work."

The kitchen is only a little ways off, but felt like a mile of walking. "Must be side effects of the anti-poison." A look through the fridge and you find the food. After placing it in a pan, you place the pan in the stone fireplace, and light it. The heat is nice, but not as much flow with the outside temperature.

No longer than a few minutes later you hear the bedroom door open and shut. Approaching you is a huge mess of mane. "Carrot, your mane looks like it was rubbed with a hundred balloons."

"Oh quit teasing. I think you should be more worried about the food, rather than my mane."

She was definitely right, as the food you where heating up was completely done, and starting to burn. Taking the pan off the burner you place it in a pot of cool water, then on the counter. Two plates and forks later, you place the food in front of the mare and sit across from her.

Eating for you two was never interrupted with a conversation, unless it was a special date. As long as it took to cook, the food was gone.

Carrot stood up, placed the plate in the sink, and returned to you. "I'm going to get cleaned up, care to join me?"

"I would love to, but these dishes aren't going to clean themselves," you say with a smile. Normally if she asked you would say yes, but this is one of those 'lets not push our luck' kind of days.

"Alright, your loss." After she says this she gives you a kiss on your lips. A short one, but long enough for you to smell and taste the gravy she had just eaten.

Sarcastically you think, that was a treat.

She enters the bathroom and shuts the door, while you turn to the sink, singing a tune that you both know well.

And I wonder

You hear the water turn on in the other room as you place the dishes into the sink, the water on low.
When I sing along with you

A quick dab of soap on the sponge and a good rub you place each dish on the dish rack to dry.
If everything could ever feel this real forever

You hear the shower in the next room stop, and the curtain pull aside.
If anything could ever be this good again

You walk to the door, hearing the rest of the lyrics you had just sing.
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
She sang

Her sweet voice filling your ears makes your heart shatter, knowing what you have to...no, you need to tell her. When she leaves the bathroom, you'll tell her you need to talk. Hooves crossed.

Finally the door opens, and a much cleaner looking mare steps out. You take a seat on the couch and pat the seat next to you for the mare to sit in. She soon obliges, and you take her hooves in yours. "Carrot, I really need to talk to you about something."

"What is it?" The look on her face is a sign of horror.

"It's not that, I'm not breaking up with you, I am still in full heart for you." You see relief plastered on her face. Here goes nothing. "Carrot, ever since I was poisoned I have been regaining much of my child hood memory." You wait to see her nod. She does know you have no normal knowledge of your past already. That makes it about thirty percent easier. "Well, what I remember is of what I used to be...who I used to be. Carrot...I-I am a changeling."

The look she gives you is disbelief, and hurts in one way or another. "No you're not...you can't be...when Twilight hit me with that magic she also hit you. You would have been changed back."

"Carrot, I need you to listen. I am not lying about any of this. The reason it didn't work is because Chrysalis permanently changed me to a pony. For every changeling is a natural pony form, opposite of themselves. If they need to hide, they can use it. This all is only happening because of a disease. This disease is able to change the DNA required to feed off of love, and rearrange it. Instead of feeding off of love, I have to eat normal food...real food for energy." You look to your - as you believe - marefriend, hoping she is paying attention.

Tears.

"I really didn't want to tell you this, but this is why the assassins are after me. I left the army and decided not to be apart of it. As it is really called, I went disavowed. When Chrysalis found out, she changed me into a permanent pony, and temporarily wiping my memory. How she caught me I am still trying to figure out." You feel as if you've just ripped out your own heart. It is painful at the least to tell some truths, but telling this one is the worse.

Carrot looks at you, and blinks a few times causing her tears to fall to the couch. "How? How is...is this possible? I-I need to go." She stands and walks to the door.

"Where are you going?" You hope this isn't as bad as it seems. Hope is all you have now.

"To talk to Derpy, maybe she can help me understand." The door opens, and slowly shuts.

You look to your hooves. Tears aren't something you like to shed, but you do know what it is like to hurt this much. Especially when the liquid drips from your eye to the sofa, leaving a salty streak across your mouth. Is this the end?

No, this is not the end. You have as many chances as possible, and there is no time for lollygagging.

Meanwhile - Carrot with Derpy - Help?

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It took time, but she finally made it. Carrot traveled to her one of her oldest friends home - a mare that is known by the name Derpy Hooves - Ditzy Doo. Carrot approaches the older house, and knocks.

The first pony to answer the door is not who she expected, but was a happy sight. "Oh, hey Carrot Top!"

"Hey Dinky, where is your mother." Carrot tried her best to hide the tears she was carrying beneath her eyes, but failed to do so.

"What's wrong, Auntie?" Dinky was always calling Carrot an aunt, but was never really related.

"Oh, it's nothing, I just need to see Dizty. That's all." Carrots gives a response while baring an almost forced smile, and ruffling the fillies mane.

"Ok, she is in the living room," Dinky said, pointing to the next door.

Carrot approached the next door with Dinky, and opened it. Inside was a room full of paper: mail. Avoiding the mail at all costs, Carrot walks around to find the other mare shifting through the mess. It wasn't long until she realized Carrot standing in the room, and look towards the mare. "Carrot? What's wrong?" Her question was answered almost immediately, as Carrot jumped to the pegasus and pulled her into a tight embrace.

"I...I don't know what to do!" Carrot had no plan, but was piecing it together.

Ditzy could feel something run down her back, and held the other mare away from herself in order to see what it was. Obvious to others it would be tears, but it takes Ditzy a second to realize. No pony comes to her for help, especially when they are crying. "About what, Carrot?"

"Let...let me explain." Carrot looked down, and breathed every word she said. As to not confuse the other mare, she did her best to explain from start to finish without any non-obvious words. Time was short, as she knew Mythic would follow suitably. She was right, as a knock could be heard at the door. "Oh no, Ditzy, I need to hide. Try to avert him away, ok?"

With a solute, the pegasus points to the bathroom and waits for Carrot to go inside. Afterwards she walks to the front door and opens it...

Outside Ditzy's House - Mythic Emerald

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The mare you expected to open the door, opens it, and looks kind of...happy? The only thing to do is break the awkward silence between you and the grey pegasus you speak, "um, Ditzy, is Carrot here? I really need to talk to her."

"I don't know, I was talking to Dinky about something. If she came in, then I didn't hear her." For a pegasus that seems half brained, she is very smart, but you can see through it all. After all, you had heard the entire conversation from outside the door,

"Uh, huh. Ditzy, I need to see her! Please, I can't lose her because of me being a past changeling! I am no longer one at that, I am now a full blooded pony, thanks to Chrysalis for once." You look into the other mares eyes...well at least one of them.

"I don't know, she looked awfully hurt." Ditzy looks to her shoulder, remember the tears that rolled down it.

You are seconds away from hitting this mare, but know it is wrong. Instead of becoming physical, you realize it is all lost and fall to the ground. Tears again. Why is it always tears for these things? With one last burst of energy, you stand and tell the mare off. "Ditzy, I love this mare. I need this mare. Her name is Carrot Top, and no matter what it takes I am NOT losing her! I want to prove that even though I was a past changeling that I am still able to be a fair pony. Please...I-I need to see her." With words trailing off, you turn around and walk towards the mid day sun. It is impossible to beat this pegasus.

One of the doors within the house opens, hitting the wall with a thud. You turn, only able to half speak your loves name. "Car..."

An embrace...a hug? "I heard what you said, and I was wrong in my thoughts. Mythy, I was never going to leave you, I just needed time to think. I believe your story, although it is hard, I really do. You can't separate love forever, right?" She smiles at you, and you're only able to smile back, and return her hug.

By Celestia you love this mare. You finally are able to speak, "Carrot, I need to know...know that you are sure with this."

"There is only one way to prove this to you, and that way to prove it, is this." She places her muzzle to yours, giving you a kiss of true lust. She slightly breaks off, and whispers, "Mythy, I love you."

Her warm breath tickles your muzzle, and you are only able to smile. "I love you too, Carry."

Behind Carrot you can hear a silent 'aww', and look around her to see Ditzy close the door slowly, smiling wide.

You turn towards what in the distance looks to be one of the biggest trees in Ponyville. "I need to deliver these tickets, so would you like to join me, Carrot?"

"Of course!" She jumps to your side, and you both begin to walk.

The scenery around you and Carrot is what you have both always loved to see. Fillies and colts playing in the open fields with their parents, the warm sun beating down through the clouds, and the smell of hidden lilacs sending their sent riffling past your nose. "I hope we could have all of these things at some time."

You are startled at the sudden speaking beside you, but don't show it. Instead you answer, "Me too. Someday though."

She looks to you with a smile, and looks back to the approaching library tree. Carrot knocks on the door three times, and steps back.

Not too long later it is answered by a cyan pegasus. "Hey Mythic, what are you guys doing here?"

"I'm a girl, Dash." Carrot looked at the other mare, confused.

"It's informal...I think...what ever. Twilight's just inside if you need to see her." She points to a desk, where the lavender mare was standing.

"Thanks Rainbow, but this involves both of you."

Within the tree you and Carrot take a seat near the fireplace, the heat and light radiating off of the walls and windows. Twilight and Rainbow soon approached, a plate with cups and a tea kettle floating above Twilight in bright purple pulses. Twilight is the first to speak.

"Would you care for some tea?"

You respond, "Yea, sure. Carrot?"

"I would too, please." Within the magic aurora you can see the white kettle float, tipping into the cups filling them to the tops. It soon after was replaced, almost effortlessly.

"So, Mr. Emerald, what is it that you need?" Twilight levitated the tea cups to everypony in the room.

"Well, as I said at the hospital, I have the tickets for the Pony Warped Tour. I also said that you two would get two tickets, so here they are." You turn your head to the saddlebag on your back, and pull out two tickets. The purple aurora appeared around the tickets, hinting that you should drop them; so you do.

"I would like to thank you for this. Rainbow couldn't be happier to finally go see one and whatever makes her happy, makes me happy." Twilight looked to the cyan mare with a warm smile, then back to you.

"I am also thankful, as it is a really good way to get Twilight out of the library," Rainbow said, the lavender mare beside her blushing slightly.

"Haha, Mythy always loves to keep everypony in mind, and at heart." Carrot spoke, laying a hoof on yours, then giving you a stern look.

After a few seconds, you regain courage and look to the mares across the room. "Um...I really came here for something else. Ever since I was poisoned, I have been regaining my memory. The memory of who I was, and what I was before it all went blank." You look to Carrot one last time, and she gives you a reassuring smile, and peck on your cheek, whispering, "you can do it, I believe they can understand."

With a quick nod, you look to the other two mares. "I really hate this, but this is the hardest part. I am a changeling." The room was quiet, too quiet. Or, was it your initial shock as the other ponies just sat there, nodding their heads.

"I know." Twilight was the first to speak. "That spell is what really brought back your memory, giving me all of your past. I told Rainbow not too long ago, and we had a discussion about what we should do."

You feel Carrot grab on to you, trying to guard you from whatever happens.

"Don't worry Carrot, we are not going to hurt him in any way. In fact, we would have never learned of the disease if it wasn't for..." Twilight trailed off, looking into the shadows towards what sounded like a light cough.

"I told them, Mythic, I had to."

"Bee? Why did you tell them, and how did you know?"

Bee looked to her wing, and then back to Mythic. "I was poisoned not too long before you, and was just as lucky. After recovering in the hospital, I as well started to get my memory back. You and I both have the same virus, and are both changelings. They all had to find out sometime."

"I can't believe this! You knew longer than me, and never told me? What, are you now getting your memory back of childhood? Are we not related as well?" You feel the rage build up, but realize that it wasn't worth it.

"I knew longer, and didn't tell you so that I wouldn't get in the way of your life!" She approached the door, seconds from opening it and looks back. "The worst part, is I am not related to you...and never was." Bee looks to the door, and begins to open it. "I love you, Mythic." With that, she was gone.

The world seemed to of crashed around you. Your apparent sister, isn't what you have believed all of these years. Next to that, she loved you? After a few minutes, you look to the saddle bag, and find the fifth ticket, gone.

Tears again, why is it always the tears?

[Authors Note: I am sorry to say, but as to not spoil the next chapter, or any to follow, there will be NO changeling part. I really didn't want to do this, but it could give away a huge part of the plot line if I am not careful. So I won't take that chance. (Last time for an authors note within the chapters as well)]

~~~I would like to apologize if you received another update about the story. I accidentally hit the un-publish button.~~~