More than just words

More than Just Words

Lying in bed, staring up at the ceiling, Spike let out a deep sigh. Most of the time he wouldn’t let this bother him; he could normally just leave the problem at the back of his mind. That uneasy feeling, the feeling like something has been left unsaid. Tonight however, that feeling did not leave him alone; it kept on reminding him of something he knows he cannot say, but something that he must say...

He loved Twilight Sparkle.

He loved her more than as a friend, more than as a sister, more than anything. Sure, Rarity was beautiful, and her beauty had captured his infatuation, but the true depths of his feelings towards Twilight always outweighed his infatuation with the fashion guru. In his heart and soul he knew he cannot ignore these feelings, but the possibility of being rejected by the one whom he cared for so deeply was too much for him. What if she cannot see him as anything else than the little dragon she hatched as a foal? What if she cannot see him as anything else than an adopted brother?

But, nevertheless, he needed to get his feelings out, or this discomfort would never ease. In an attempt to break the back of his mind free from his internal struggle, Spike began to write. Consciously he did not mean for Twilight to ever find his poetry about her, but to his subconscious, that was moot; from the bottom of his heart, he truly wanted her to find his writings.
And that is why he always addressed Twilight at the end of each poem...

----- Two months later -----

It was a warm summer’s day in Ponyville. Rainbow Dash was lazing on a cloud, foals where playing in the streets, Applejack was hard at work in the orchard, and the birds where singing in the trees. Everyone was enjoying the great outdoors, everyone, that is, other than a studious purple unicorn.

Twilight was busy sorting through her books, specifically her private collection. Many of these books she hadn’t read in a very long time, having brought them from Canterlot. After noticing how dusty some of the books have gotten, she decided it was time to sort through them and see if some shouldn’t be placed in the public library, or maybe read again.

As she sorted through the hundreds of books, she noticed a small notebook that she hadn’t seen before. It had a plain black cover, and looked well taken care of, yet clearly used. Curious about the notebooks contents, she opened it to a random page, and here she found this:

She is a diamond,
diamond, diamond in the rough
inside she does shine

My love she doesn’t know
Inside my heart I do long
that she finds my love

Love shall cut diamond
and diamond shall shine true
and love will be known

Diamond finds diamond...
through love we shape each other
and our love shines true

As true love shines through
lights blaze prismatically
igniting our souls

As passion is sparked
engulfed by warm tenderness
you enchant my soul

your eyes mesmerize
me in profound ecstasy
you enchant my soul

you enchant my soul
to the end of all that be
you enchant my soul

looking in your eyes,
spellbound by your brilliance
you mystify me

My heart and my soul
is filled by your splendor
captivating me

you fill me with love
my breath a heavenly fire
fueled by your essence

Illuminated
your quintessential beauty
inspires poetry

Here I ask your love
and as our hearts become one
being wakes and time stops.

by Spike the dragon, written for Twilight Sparkle

Tears well up from deep inside, and Twilights emotions go on a roller coaster. She had no idea the little dragon could harbor such deep feelings for her. She often felt a deeper connection between the two, but she never quite realized how deep his love was for her. Or how deeply she cared about him...
One thing was for certain though, she loved Spike, and she needed to let him know.

Spike was working in the main room of the library, restacking returned books.

It was mostly fiction, as the only pony who ever checked out any non-fiction, other than Twilight herself, was Cheerilee, the schoolteacher. Daring Doo was the most checked out series in the library, with at least three volumes being checked out at any given time. This at times frustrated Twilight’s pegasus friend, Rainbow Dash, who was very much addicted to the series. She often times would sit in the library and read for hours on end. Today was no different.

Dash was seated on one of the stairs so engrossed in ‘Daring Doo and the Lost Ark’ that she could have been mistaken for furniture. Just as Spike shelved the last book, Twilight came down from her room, with a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eye.

“Spike, can you come up to my room?”

Spike turned around, curious about the strange tone of her voice. A certain unease in the back of his mind was rushing forward, but he quickly pushed it back to the depths of his subconscious.

As he came into the room, Twilight turned and shut the door behind them, and the uneasy feeling came back with more force than ever before... Then Twilight turned to Spike, and looked him straight in the eyes, with a slight blush creeping into her face.

She smiled, and said; “Spike, I’ve read your poetry.”

Oh GOD no, nononononono!! Spike wanted to die right there; his deepest secret was discovered, and there was nowhere to run, to do, or to say other than panic. oh God oh God OH GOD!!!
“Please, please don’t hate me, please don’t send me away!!!”

“But Spike, why would I hate you? What you wrote was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever read. Spike, I LOVE you!”

Spike’s mind froze, and his heart melted. What he heard couldn’t have been right, his mind must be playing tricks on him, it cannot be...

“Spike, did you hear me? I love you.”

They were the most beautiful words he had ever heard, and his mind finally ceased, and his heart took over. He did the only thing that he could, the only thing that made sense...
He lunged forward and pulled Twilight into the deepest, most passionate kiss of either of their lives, their tongues twisting around each other, swirling and dancing a divine dance, as their souls met for the first time.

After what seemed to be an eternity, Twilight broke the kiss. Her purple eyes stared into the depths of Spike’s emerald green eyes. In that moment, they both knew that they have been brought together by a fate too complex to understand. In the eternal game of love, their pieces have been brought together for a reason, but somewhere in the mix their minds have started to resurface, they started to think...

Oh God what did I just do?! Spike’s mind was racing, What THE HELL just happened? Twilight HATCHED me; she might as well have been my MOTHER! I should never have let my feelings get in the way of that, I should have never allowed them to even happen. Spike was filled with regret. What in the name of the Princess herself was I THINKING? I should never have let Twilight see my notebook, heck, the book shouldn’t even have existed! They were completely different species, she was a soft, warm blooded mammal, and I’m a cold, scaly reptile. I never deserved her love. I never even deserved to be hatched by such a beautiful creature...

While Spike was suffering his internal disaster, Twilight couldn’t help but get caught in one of her own...

Oh, NO... Why oh why oh why oh why?! Of course Spike harbored feelings for me; I cared for him for YEARS. I was a fool not to see it sooner! I could have stopped his suffering and frustration years ago... But how is it that I can feel anything other than motherly love towards him? How could I abuse her role as caretaker for this little dragon and let my own selfish desires take control? What is HAPPENING to me? Am I falling in love with the dragon? Is it even possible for a mammal to fall for a reptile? How can I possibly allow this to happen? THINK THINK THINK THINK!!!!

As the two of them where caught in their individual mental prisons, they didn’t notice that Rainbow Dash was knocking on the door. Getting impatient, the pegasus decided to just barge in, finding the pair staring at each other with looks of pure terror in their eyes.

“What just happened? Why do both of you look like someone just told you that you're about to be eaten alive or something?”

Twilight nearly jumped out of her fur, and Spike just froze.

“Uh, Rainbow, uh...” Twilight found herself incapable of coherent speech, and her mind was rushing too fast for her to comprehend the process of logical thought.

“Seriously guys, what happened? You both are acting seriously weird, like 20% weirder than weird...”

After a long silence, Spike spoke up; “I made a big mistake”

Wait, what? Twilight felt a stab of pain in her heart.

“Is that what that was to you, a mistake?!”

“Wait, no, that is not what I meant!” Spike found himself stumbling with his word choice.

“Guys, what is going on?!” Rainbow Dash was as confused as ever and was getting just a little impatient.

“I kissed Twilight.”

Rainbow Dash looked at Spike with an expression of mixed shock and awe, before bursting out laughing.
Twilight was blushing like mad, looking down at the floor with her ears laying back. Spike wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out.
“Spike, you gotta stop making jokes; we both know that there is no way that you just kissed Twilight.”

Silence...

Rainbow’s face changed from amused, to confused, to awkward...

“Wait, you’re serious?”

“Yes”

“Does that mean that you...”

“Yes, I am in love with Twilight Sparkle.”

The awkwardness was so palpable you could taste it.

“So...”

“Yea”

“Um...”

“I think I should be...”

“Yea...”

“Uhh, see ya...”

Rainbow did her last name justice and disappeared from the room before you could say dash.
The remaining two looked at each other, but quickly looked away. Spike mumbled something about needing to go help Pinkie at Sugarcube Corner. Twilight just went to sorting, or rather fiddling, with the books on her floor.

As Spike left the library and walked through the streets of Ponyville, walking past Sugarcube Corner without even registering it, his heart and his mind fought in dangerous duality. His mind was telling him to just RUN, run out of Ponyville, out of Equestria, maybe all the way to Mexicolt country. His heart told him to run back to the library, tell Twilight he made no mistake, and that all his feelings towards her cannot be ignored and are honest, regardless of what anypony or anydragon may say about it. Without noticing it, he started walking faster and faster until he was running at full speed. His mind and soul were at war while his body just tried to escape, and next thing he knew all he saw was stars; his consciousness faded to black...