This place was nightmare-inducing. Like walking into one of Nightmare Moon's torture chambers or any place else that the Queen of the night had used as entertainment for herself. Rainbow Dash hated it here. She could feel a piece of herself die each day she had to continue working. It was getting under her skin and she could feel it.

She wanted to run away, to bust open those metal doors and fly away as fast she could. There was a shift change coming up and she took advantage of it to write in her journal. This was Twilight's idea of writing down her thoughts. At first she almost threw it in the trash. But the more she kept working here, the more she wanted to keep a record of the going on in this place as cursed as it felt. Something rang through her mind.

"Why'd I even take this job," Rainbow thought to herself. This wasn't the most stellar job in her eyes. Overseeing Spectra production felt like the most tedious thing ever. On one hoof she was good at keeping the other workers in line. Then again that wasn't that hard to be honest.

"What am I saying", another voice said, "I am pretty decent at pushing them to their limits."It sounded like Rainbow's voice, but it was hardened and rough. That was when she looked in the mirror she kept with her and saw something that only seemed to happen to crazy ponies. Her reflection was staring back at her and laughing through it.

"What Dash? Cant look at yourself in the mirror?" Her reflection snapped at her. Maybe it was the stress that had finally gotten to her. That had to be the answer. Maybe she was going crazy. What really caught the mare's attention was how muted the colors of her reflection looked. Her mane was striped black and grey and her coat was a grey color as well. There were four or more slash marks on her cutie mark.

What really got to her was the attitude, and how aggressive it was. It was like her reflection was consumed by rage towards the rest of the world and their friends. Especially Scootaloo. She could only imagine what would happen if she was ever forced to confront it physically.

"Feed my appetite for Destruction, I can feel my rage erupting". She brushed the thought aside as she opened the journal and paused before she began collecting her thoughts as she pressed the quill to the paper. She was still a bit hesitant before she finally sighed and pressed it against the page's surface.

Did she really want to start keeping one of these? She knew Twilight did, and was even the one that suggested she do the same. Apparently writing in it was helping her relieve stress by writing down her thoughts when she couldn't speak them out loud. Dash wet the quill with the ink Twilight had given her and began writing the first entry.

"Well, here goes nothing," she said as she pressed the quill to the page.

Entry 1: I can't stand it anymore, I have to get out, have to get to the fresh air, this place is killing me inside. I still can't believe that I was the one that was forced to do that my Scootaloo, after I went through the hassle of adopting her, of trying to help her to fly, and then this happens. Dear Celestia, what am I gonna do? I cant kill her, I CANT.

A voice echoed in Dash's mind, " Yes you can, She's a Failure. It's the duty to the flock that you are required to end her miserable life."

A voice that Dash eagerly wanted to scratch out of existence. There was no way she could do that to her adopted sister.

She began the second entry after her lunch break. She wanted to drown out the voice that was in head right now. A voice that was tormenting her more and more lately.

Entry 2: That's it, I'm going to sneak her out of here, but I don't want her to remember me like this, to remember the horrors here. I found a spell in one of Twilight's books and can erase someone's memories. I hate to do this to her, but there are no other options on the table. I just hope that in time if she does remember, she can forgive me. Please forgive me for doing this to you Scootaloo. I love you not only as a friend, and adopted sister but like a daughter.

She didn't want to think she was ever capable of something like that. harming another pony in that fashion. She wanted to block out the screams that were echoing in her mind right now. She wanted to run away from this place and never look back. Even when she was able to home to her cloud house, the horrors from the factory would follow her there.

The horrors and nightmares were almost interchangeable with reality. There were times it seemed to blur, like the barrier between dimensions was breaking down inside her mind and the voice in her head would get louder and louder. She wanted to scream, to tell it to stop. She nearly broken down in front of her friends the other day.

"Get out.."Rainbow muttered as everypony in the town market began staring at her," Get out of my Head!!" She screamed before bolting off into the sky. Twilight could only stare after her friend in disbelief. What was that about she thought? Twilight could only pause before rushing after Dash. That last part was what caught her attention. It was clear Rainbow was suffering from mental stress of some kind.

"Rainbow!" she yelled," Wait for me!" Twilight sprinted after her until she finally caught up with her. She knew she'd have to get to bottom of it later. Right now they had a picnic to plan for. She just hoped that Rainbow Dash would be calm enough later to remember and join them.

Rainbow felt that she'd have to explain herself to her friend eventually. Now though was not the right time she thought. She was headstrong enough that she had convinced herself that she would handle it herself. She was way in her over her head and she knew it. She told herself that she'd tell Twilight tomorrow when they were both alone.

She would never hurt Scoots, not like that. she loved the filly too much and ever consider harming her. But the voice in her head was almost relentless in taunting her with that image over and over. There were times she started to doubt herself before regaining her composure.

There was no way in Tartarus that the famed pegasus speedster, Rainbow Dash, was going to bring any harm to her filly friend and 'adopted sister' Scootaloo. She couldn't see herself doing anything to harm a hair on that filly's head. After she wrote her latest entry she went back to work. She was stuck on being the supervisor of the infamous Rainbow Factory until the new management arrived to take over. She had done it before, but only out of fear. She hated that job, it wasn't the same as being a weather pony and just moving clouds around. She had to oversee the maintenance and upkeep of the spectra vats. None of her friends even knew what went on there. Especially Fluttershy. RD knew that the timid pegasus would of fainted at the sight of dead bodies, much less even blood.

The story of the Rainbow Factory was as old as time itself. That it was created by Princess Celestia around the time she had banished her sister Luna. Alot of ponies were clueless to its existence, but the ones that were aware deemed it a conspiracy theory at best. A tale that was also told to scare fillies and colts into doing what their parents wanted. That was when something struck the mare.

Where had Lightning Dust gone after being kicked out of the Wonderbolts. The thought haunted Dash that a pegasus like her could end up being sent to a place like that. She had gotten over the grudge she held years ago. before the day was over she decided to find out where she was

The story was that any pegasus filly that failed their flight test was sent to the factory to be killed and turned into Rainbow Spectra. Vast machines were used to draw the colors out of the bodies through specialized tubes and syringes. What broke her more was that the day the new superior was supposed to take over, was the same day that Scootaloo failed her Flight Test. Dash had helped her practice so hard for it. And when it came she botched the last part of the course and ended up smacking into a cloud pillar, right before the finish line had come into view. Rainbow knew that Scoots might be sent here because of it, but that still didn't make it any easier on her when she saw Scootaloo at the entrance to the facility. She couldn't let her see that she worked there. It would crush Scoot's heart to find out that Dash worked in a place like this. But she saw her anyway. The horrid look on her small orange and tan face was enough to send Rainbow Dash into a frenzy of emotions.

That was when she decided to use a temporary erasure spell that she knew Twilight had been working on , to make sure Scoots wouldn't remember her like this. At least not for a day or so. She hated doing that to Scoots. The filly idolized her so much. And given Dash's foalhood, she wanted it to stay that way. She didn't want Scootaloo to be ashamed of her. She didn't want her to grow up like she did. Never knowing that her own mother abandoned her and her father when Dash was only a week old. Rainbow waited until she was visible to Scoots again and whispered the enchantment. Within moments the filly blacked out, and Dash flew over and picked her up. She told the floor supervisor that she was taking the filly to a hospital. He looked at her furiously, since that would be breaking protocol, but waved the two off in the end.

What did he care, she was probably better off moving to another city then coming back to this place. In the end though, Rainbow Dash whizzed towards Ponyville. As soon as she got there, she set and unconscious Scootaloo down and flew back to the factory. Rainbow Dash got back in time to see the new 'head honcho' of the Factory arrive, escorted by none other than Princess Celestia. And she was in for a shock. An Azure coated and silver white-maned Alicorn pulled off a hooded robed to reveal.. none other than Trixie Lulamoon. HOW IN BUCKS SAKE DID TRIXIE BECOME AN ALICORN?!!? Rainbow Dash thought to herself, very loudly in the recesses of her own mind. The more she thought about it, the more she realized that it must have been Celestia's doing.

Perhaps Ms magic pants tricked the Princess into doing it, making her think that Trixs here had learned her lesson in regards to the Alicorn Amulet. Dash knew if Twi ever found out about this, she'd blow a gasket at the thought of Trixie being an ALicorn of all things. Her thoughts wandered back to Scootaloo. She knew she'd be okay, Dash just hoped in time that the little filly would forgive her and that someday she'd forgive herself for doing that to her.

Several hours later an orange coated and purple maned filly pegasus was discovered outside of Sugarcube Corner, with no memory of who she was or how she had gotten there. She said she had heard a mare's voice call her Absentia, but that was it.

There would be another escape, but this one found a way out on her own, with no help from anypony there. The smell was enough to make her vomit, and sounds of the machinery left a chill down her spine. She tried to be brave and search for an exit to this forsaken place. The Rainbow Factory was no place for a pegasus like her. She had always been picked on as a filly because of her cross eyes and her so-called clumsiness. That and an obsession that the only good thing for breakfast was Muffins. Why she had been sent here of all places after failing a flight test that she had barely passed before, left her somewhat confused.

Please break my shackles i want it to stop
I stoked the fire
the tears of the Broken washed away my soul
I'm sick of hurting
The bright sun is burning...
I tried my best to block out the screams....
I want it STOP!

The air in the factory was almost stale in comparison to the fresh air outside. Of all the places to be, this was the last a certain grey coated mailmare deserved to be. She had been sent to the flight camp to retake her flying test after her license had expired for working at the post office. it was required that all Ponyville pegasi retake the flight test if their license to work at the post office expired.

Why? Why was i sent there of all places? The Crosseyed grey pegasus thought to herself.

She had adequately passed her flight tests the first. But the second time she barely got through the course. No one knew why the Post Office had added that to the notice and made that as part of the job application. It was the one job she managed to become good at. Derpy had always been picked on in grade school for her eyes. It was odd that as clumsy as she could be, Derpy Hooves was still a decent flyer. Yes there was that accident when she crashed into Town Hall as Rainbow and her friends were trying to renovate it. And then there was a little-known incident during the Changeling invasion. Nopony knew this, but during the attack, she watched her friend Amethyst Star and Derpy's daughter Dinky, get backed into a corner by Changelings.

The Grey coated PEgasus landed between the hunters and their prey. She gave her friends a smile, and then turned around and round house kicked a Changeling right in its jaw. She sprinted forward and punched 2 others straight in the side of their heads. She could defend herself when she needed to. Being in a place like the Rainbow Factory brought more of those instincts back when she felt that something was watching her as she looked for a way out. Right then she rounded the next corner.

Derpy walked down the hallway of the building, frantically looking for a way out. but all the windows and the only way out was blocked. Then she heard a voice that made her cringe. before she knew it she had been backed into a corner. Something slipped towards her from the corner of her eye. It was Rainbow Dash, covered in spectra, her magenta eyes nearly glazed over from paranoia. Derpy lunged past her and kicked at the door. Dash tried to get in her path again but was hit with a roundhouse kick. Derpy put her full weight into it as she kicked at the door. It caved under her weight and opened with a loud thud. She flew out and down towards Ponyville, with RD just staring at her Blankly.

Rainbow had no idea that Derpy was trained to defend herself. It had kicked in when the Changelings had invaded. A number were found knocked out, kicked into buildings, and tied up. Derpy had made sure to keep them from escaping at all. Two had openly complained of having a headache. One was found in a different state from the rest. It was the only one that had confessed to talking to Derpy and cut itself off from Chrysalis control. When asked how they could trust it, the changeling walked up to one of the female unicorn guards and gave her the chance to use a mind spell on it to confirm what it was telling them.

"Wow,", she had said," it's telling the truth." That was the only changeling that was also allowed to join Celestia's Royal Guard ranks at all. In a small way, Celestia thought it was comforting that at least one changeling had taken the lessons of Friendship to heart and wanted to better its life and those around it.

Entry #3: What's happening to me? I...I nearly killed Derpy, of all ponies. I can feel it slipping through the cracks. My sanity is breaking because of this accursed place. And that kick. I can still feel where her hooves impacted my side.

"Ouch," Dash murmured as she touched her bruised ribs. That grey pegasus sure knew how to fight when needed. Derpy not only bruised Rainbow Dash's ribs. She bruised the ego of the voice in her head as well. It kept yelling at Dash to get up and go after her. A voice that Rainbow was more than willing to ignore. She did get up eventually, but it wasnt to chase after that pegasus. Rainbow wandered back into the Spectra room instead and checked the storage tanks. They were almost out of the colors aqua and red. That would have to be fixed later. But it wasnt gonna be by her. She had to get out of this place soon.

She grabbed her timecard and clocked out for the afternoon. She had to get to the door and then get outside to the fresh air. She could hear others whispering around her and when she turned there was no pony else in the room. Maybe this place was haunted by those that had been killed. She had to get away from the sounds she was hearing.

She barely believed what she had seen, let alone been through just now. How, how in the name of Celestia could a revered pegasus like Rainbow Dash work in a facility like that. Was she dreaming all of it? Was it a hallucination? All these thoughts were running through Derpy's mind as she tried to calm herself down. She knew one thing though, she had to tell somepony about her ordeal. That pony would be Twilight. Derpy wasn't sure if the Princess of Friendship would believe her at all, but she had to try.

"I just don't know what happened," Derpy said as Twilight levitated her a cup of tea. Derpy picked it up with her front hooves and took a sip. It was Chamomile, her favorite for when she needed to unwind. Apparently, it was Twilight's favorite too.

"All I remember most is that her eyes were glazed over, like she was disconnected and not really there," Derpy hoped that Twilight would be able to talk to Dash about what transpired. She did more than that. There was something Twilight was holding back, but Derpy didn't know it yet.

And Derpy was keeping something back as well. A crush that she had on Twilight for the longest time. She had to keep it from the princess. She had always been told that royalty like Princess Twilight would never date a mare like her. She'd be more interested in a Stallion or even a mare like Rainbow Dash than she would be into somepony like Derpy. Drinking the chamomile tea changed that a little. They had the same taste in tea, they might have something else in common.

She didn't know that Twilight was already aware of the problems going on with the Rainbow Factory. She was having a hard time believing that Rainbow would do something like that, but after Scootaloo's disappearance and then resurgence with temporary amnesia, she was starting to put it all together. Rainbow Dash would answer for her crimes if it was proven to be true. Derpy decided that when the time was right she'd tell Twilight exactly how she felt about her. And that she'd been a good friend to her as well without her realizing it.

Derpy gave Twilight a hug. She looked like she could have really used one right then and there. It was also apparent that she had been harboring feelings for Twilight, she could just never bring herself to saying anything. Twilight was already seeing somepony and it didn't feel right to Derpy to just throw it all out there.

How could she not have seen in her years of knowing, and being involved with, Rainbow Dash that something was wrong with her marefriend. She recalled how traumatized Rainbow had been after she nearly killed Pinkie after the nightmares she was having because of her thinking Pinkie had planned to kill and make her into cupcakes, which turned out to be false.

Twilight took Derpy with her to the Canterlot Palace to inform the Princesses of what they both had discovered. The only Princess they found at the castle was Luna, Apparently, Celestia had needed to go inspect something in Cloudsdale personally. It didn't take long for Luna to realize that her sister was hiding something from all of them. Celestia HAD ORDERED THE FACILITIES CREATION. There was something else that none of them knew, There was a fifth Alicorn in Existence, one whose identity had been a secret for some time. Celestia had taken a light blue Unicorn under her tutelage in recent months, She apparently felt that doing so might reform this pony into doing something good with her magic, instead of choosing to remain selfish. That pony was none other than Trixie LulaMoon. And she feigned reform just so she could learn of where Celestia had hidden her amulet. As far as Trixie was concerned the Alicorn Amulet was her property since she had gone through all those bits to find and buy it, it was hers by RIGHT. Trixie was the one that Celestia decided to put in charge of the Rainbow Factory was of late.

Rainbow Dash didn't know that Celestia had turned Trixie into an Alicorn, she also didn't realize that she was going through madness until after she remembered what she had done to Scootaloo at the facility. Her sanity had cracked under the weight of knowing that if Scoots failed her flight test, she'd be sent to the Rainbow Factory. Luna decided that all 3 of them would confront her sister, Rainbow Dash, and Trixie if it came to it, about what was going on in the Factory. As they approached the building Derpy began to suffer from panic attacks. She couldn't go back in there, she was scared that Rainbow Dash would be waiting for her. Luna coaxed her inside, doing her best to allay Derpy's fears.

Luna and Twilight followed right behind her. As soon as they were inside Rainbow Dash had just walked around the corner, much to Twilight's surprise. Rainbow turned to see Luna, Twilight, and Derpy. Wait she thought.. TWILIGHT!?! Oh my god she thought to herself. She realized that Twilight must of found out about the Factory from Derpy. And there was no getting around the intense glare Twi was giving her right at this moment.

Dash took a moment and decided that if she was going to salvage their relationship, much less their friendship, she had to come clean with Twilight. It wasn't going to be easy though. How could she make Twi see it in a way that wasn't going to make her out to be evil or something? They had shared a bed for ponies sake. None of their other friends had a clue that they were romantically involved. None of them, not even Scootaloo. Regardless of her amnesia.

"Twilight," RD started, " I can explain."

Her friend just stood there with the most uncompromising glare.

"How could you Rainbow?" She asked the cyan coated pegasus in a tone laced with anger and confusion.

"If i tried to quit this place, they'd come after me." She could tell Dash was filled with dread as she told Twilight this.

"Who would come after you Rainbow?" Twilight asked. The Princess of Friendship was in for a bit of shock. The impact of it would shatter her faith in her former mentor.

" Celestia." was the only word she uttered.

Author's Note

Edit 6/9/2018 : Updating this when i can.
Who could of thought of Trixie becoming an ALicorn?? XD more chapters to come when i have the time. I miss Trixie, and we havent seen her since season 3's Magic Duel.