I know what you may be thinking, why not go with them back to town. That maybe they could help me, but here's the thing, I have a large habit of pushing others away, living in an anti social life.

I was always too shy to talk to people but now, I just don't want to be around anyone with the way I am. Also, it'll be fun making them chase after me and I haven't enjoyed anything in a really long time.

I was hoping from branch to branch through the forest and I felt like a fucking ninja from Naruto. I stopped as I saw a large lake. With a grin, I hopped off the tree and landed on the floor.

I looked at my back and saw the make shift bag I made with the rest of my shirt. It was broken beyond repair so why not use what's left for something useful.

Seeing the lake made me think on the last time I bathed, so with that in mind, I took off the makeshift bag on the floor and took the rest of my clothing off.

I ran up to the lake and jumped in. The water may have been freezing cold but I had always been known for withstanding the cold back home. In fact, my room back at the Mental ward was always set to minus forty degrees.

‘Splish splash I'm taking a bath.’ Ignore this please.

After finishing up and getting out of the water, I read sizzling noises. When I looked around, I didn't find anything but then I noticed my arm, more specifically my fur.

It shone a dim red as steam came out of it. I looked at myself and saw the same thing, steam was pouring out of me as if I was on fire.

It stopped as I felt dry, it still kept me wondering though. Anyway, putting on the remainder of my clothes, then grabbing my bag and was about to walk away but stopped as I realized something.

‘I don't even know how I look like.’ I thought as I walked back towards the crystal clear lake. Standing over the edge and looking down on my reflection, all I can say is that I look intimidating as hell.

I had electric blue eyes, which weirded me out a little. I was so used to having brown eyes, this is sort of a big deal for me.

Under my eyes were stripes of black fur that went down across my cheeks and stopped as they connected on my chin. My mane was a light shade of grew along with my tail.

I straightened back up and turned towards the tree line. Not wasting anymore time here, I started walking.

As I walked, I had noticed that I was beginning to get a little hungry. I looked up to the sun and by God that was the biggest mistake of my life but I did see that it was midday.

Hopping up a tree and running along the branches as I kept an eye out for anything that I could eat. Finding a rather large bird, reminding me a lot of Flut Flut, I summoned a classic spear and threw it.

It hit the large bird in the neck and no blood was spilled due to the spear acting as a plug.

That was awesome! Chicken, it tasted like fucking chicken! I couldn't help but laugh as I took the first bite, though I did almost choke.

But anyway, cleaning up the body and by that I mean burning it in the fire, I stomped out the fire and started walking again.

Now, I would normally just do what I do best, being me that is. But when I heard someone crying, it kinda made me worried.

I followed the sound of crying and as I got closer the cries could be definitely be from a little girl. I decided to hop back up the trees and run along the branches again, making me get closer.

Once I stopped as I heard the sound of a girl crying right under me. I looked down and spotted an orange pegasus with a purple mane and tail.

Her clothes were dirty and old looking, a few bruises could be seen across her cheeks. And I could've sworn I saw blood dripping down.

I was about to leave and pretend this never happened until I heard some growling coming from a bush. Soon two wolves made of wood had walked out, staring at the filly.

She noticed them but was too frightened to move. I sighed as I summoned a bow and a lot of arrows.

I fired an arrow at the closest to the filly, hitting him square in the forehead. The second one saw this and was confused by it, but I didn't give time for anything as I fired another arrow.

The second wolf dropped dead, an arrow stuck out of its side. I dropped down as the bow and arrows dissolved.

I looked at the wolves to make sure they're dead and then looked at the filly.

“What are you doing here, kid? This place is dangerous.” I said to her. She looked at me in awe but a few snap of my fingers brought her back. Crouching down to make eye contact I repeated my question.

“I'll ask you again, what are you doing here?” I asked, not wanting to deal with anything right now. She looked down after I asked.

“I couldn't take it anymore, my life is horrible.” She said with a few hiccups. Alright, getting un-comfortable here.

“Why would you say that?” I asked as I sat on the floor, tired of being crouched.

“I don't want to talk about it.” She said, crossing her arms together. I sighed as I stood back up.

“Fine, I'll be out of your mane.” I said, turning around and beginning to walk away.

“Wait, don't leave! Please.” The filly said as she quickly stood up with much difficulty.

“Then tell me why is that you said your life is horrible.” I said as I turned to look at her as she used a tree for support to keep her up.

“Everything. My dad, in a nutshell, hates my very existence. Diamond Tiara always teases me on not getting a cutie mark and calls me blank flank. And I can't fly! I'm a pegasus that can't fly!” She shouted, tears streaming down her muzzle.

I walked up to her, causing her to close her as if waiting for me to do something. I crouched down again and oh lord it hurts.

“First off, your Dad is a dick. Second, not having a cutie mark isn't necessarily a bad thing and third, I'm not sure what I can say about that, all I can say is that everyone has a disability.” I said to her. I don't think she noticed me saying everyone, good.

I could see that what I had said made her think. She stood there in deep thought like if it was a life and death decision.

“I think I get what you mean.” She said after two minutes of silence.

“Good, then go back to town and tell somepony about your father, they'll help you with that and talk to your friends about your problems.” I said to her, earning a small nod from her.

“It's kinda dangerous for me to go alone.” She said with hopeful eyes.

“Fine, I'll take there.” I said as I picked her up, she's to wounded to walk.

Once she was secure enough on my shoulder, I began to walk towards Ponyville.

On the way, I asked for her name.

“What's your name, kid?” I asked, walking over a small creek.

“My name's Scootaloo, what's yours?” She asked.

“Shade, my name's Shade.” I said after a few minutes of thinking up a name.

Thirty minutes of continuous walked later, we finally arrived at the edge of the forest that led to Ponyville. I was going to take her to the hospital it weren’t for one thing.

“Scootaloo!” I heard the voice of the speed demon pegasus, Rainbow Dash along with her friends. I looked around and found them heading my way, so I gently placed Scootaloo down on the ground.

“Sorry, Scoots. I can't be seen, it'll ruin the fun for me.” I said as I turned invisible as she blinked. She looked around for me but to no avail.

I took the chance and ran up the nearest tree. Sitting on a branch and having a clear view helps.

“Scoots!? What happened to you!?” Rainbow shouted as she embraced the filly.

“I just went out to think to myself in the forest.” Scootaloo answered. I rolled my eyes at that.

“And what happened to you? You look like you've been in a fight?” Twilight came in asked.

“I'll explain when we're in private.” Scoots said simply, keeping her answeres short.

“Did anything attack you out there?” Fluttershy asked as she pulled out a first aid kit from...somewhere?

“Just two timberwolves but I had help.” She said as they started walking back to town. I sighed as I finally got time for myself.

I did notice Twilight in the distance staring at my direction. So what I did was dropped the invisibility and waved at her before I hopped to another tree.

Twilight Sparkle

It was him, waving at me. I need to find him and apologize for what I did earlier, maybe tonight.

“Twilight?” I heard Rarity say. Turning to look at her, I saw the rest of the girls giving me strange looks.

“Is something the matter, darling?” Rarity asked.

“No, I'm fine but we should take Scootaloo to the hospital.” I said, quickly changing the subject.

Walking passed my castle, I noticed a chariot parked out front with a familiar sun insignia on the sides. I told the girls I'll be with them soon, I needed to see what does Celestia need.

Quickly heading inside and find her in the throne room. I closed the doors behind me in case this needs to be private.

“Good day, Celestia. I hope you read my letter about the stallion.” I said to her. She looked at me and nodded.

“That is the reason I'm here. I need to know where he is, he's somepony important.” Celestia said. I told her where I last saw him and with that she just got up and teleported with a flash of light, leaving me confused to her sudden rush to find him.

“Mom?” I heard my only filly. I looked back and saw her at the door.

“Nyx, you'll need to come with me. Scootaloo is in the hospital and I'm sure having one of her best friends over will cheer her up.” I said, walking towards her. She nodded and I casted the teleportation spell and sent us to our destination.

Shade

Heading back to the lake, seeing how it was a good place to set up camp, I began singing a song to myself to pass the time.

“Take on me, (take on me)
Take me on, (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day or two

Oh the things that you say
Is it live or
Just to play my worries away
You're all the things I've got to remember
You're shying away
I'll be coming for you anyway

Take on me, (take on me)
Take me on, (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day

I'll be gone (take on me)
In a day~”

I landed on the ground, tired and hungry, mostly thirsty and walked towards the lake while summoning a spear for fishing.

Before I went to fish, I had built a fire, again. God I make so many camp fires that even Smokey the Bear would disapprove.

Starting up the fire and making sure the flames consume the wood, I headed towards the water and plunged the spear in to the water.

I did that because I felt like I should, little did I know that I had actually managed get a fish with one blind go. I stood there as I watched the fish slowly die out, then took walked back to the fire.

As I walked back, I was blinded by flash of light. Now, I'll be honest with you, me and flashing lights do not mix.

Screaming like a frightened little child and falling on my ass kinda hurt my pride, a lot. I looked to see that it was the sun deity herself.

Princess Celestia stood in front of me. She looked as if she seen a ghost and quickly took hold of me.

“You’re home! You're finally home!” She shouted. Death by breasts, not the way I planned on going out.

She finally let go of me and allowed to breath. I looked at her as if she had gone mad.

“What the fuck, lady!?” I shouted, making her stagger backwards.

“You don't just poof out of nowhere and hug the first person you see! Speaking which, what the hell was that even for!?” I finished speaking. She opened her mouth to say something but I held up a finger, keeping her quiet as I tried to calm down my rapid breathing.

“I'm just happy you're home.” She said. Eyes wide as saucers and choking on air, I looked at her.

“This isn't home. Plus what makes you say that?” I asked.

“This is your home and I would know because you're my son.” She answered.

“And you've overshot the boundary line. It's so far it's just a black dot. There's no way you are my mother. My mother died of deadly disease and was cremated.” I stated, feeling angry at her claim. The bitch calls herself my mother, no one and I mean no one says that to me.

“I know.” She said in sadden tone. And like that my anger was changed into pure confusion.

“You know, how the living fuck would you know?” I asked her.

She looked at me and I noticed something hanging from her neck. It was the same necklace my mom had.

“Where did you get that.” I demanded.

“I made this in memory of you when I got back here. A mother love never dies.” She said as she held out the necklace.

“...” I didn't say a thing, looking at the necklace only made me start tearing up.

“I know it may seem far fetched but I can prove it to you.” She said to me, walking closer to me as she did.

“Then prove it.” I growled, not liking where this was going. Her horn started glowing and I was knocked out cold

I opened my eyes and saw that it was dark out. I seen everything that proves her claims but it didn't help me one bit.

“You left me.” I said to her, seeing her sitting near a well campfire.

“I had no choice.” She said to me.

“There's always a fucking choice, you should know after all you did tell me that. So why the fuck did you leave me!?” I shouted, furious beyond comprehension.

“I know it sounds bad-”

“Bad. Bad! Bad, doesn't begin to describe the two years of misery. Bad doesn't describe my time in the Mental ward and Bad doesn't describe how I mourned for you! And to think that it was just so you go back here.” I said her.

“Please, let me explain!” She yelled as she took hold of my arm only for me to pull it out of her grasp.

“Don't fucking touch me!” I shouted at her as I walked backwards away from her.

“Please, I've waited so long for you to return, I don't want to lose you again.” She said, tears streaming down.

“Then your waiting was all for nothing.” I said as I took hold of my bag and ran towards the forest. I didn't get far as I trip on a root.

‘My life was a lie, everything was a lie. Who am I? What am I!?’ I thought as my vision began to blacken. Before everything went dark, I saw her running towards me, then nothing.

Author's Note

Take on me by Ninja Sex Party

Hope you enjoyed.