It had been so I'd seen since I had seen Celestia happy.
She was able to provide me with a small underground garden in the fort.She had used a life spell to make it look exactly like the outside I never get to see.It wasn't the same though.
I know that my pleasure was the least of the worries but Cadence and my aunts all tried to recreate the outside.
Life in the fort was the same.You rarely saw dirt or worms since it was all lined with marble and truly felt like a castle.Only there were no windows.
I have constantly asked to see outside.My nanny says mom would never approve.
Well I call mom Cadence since I never see her.Ever.
Mom and Dad are too busy with the war and Twilight.
Twilight is half way drawn to depression.All she ever gables about is how Equestria use to be.It only makes me feel worse.And she knows it.
I am her faithful student though.
But if I ever wanted a faithful student of a REAL alicorn it would be Celestia.
She is the oldest and the kindest to me.She gave me my garden after all.Yet I think she wishes we could live in the old Equestria again.She tells me it isn't my fault and that I am special.
I am not.
This whole war happened all because of me being born
Celestia said we would have a free country unless a child was brain in that year.And I was.That meant another generation of the government.Luna couldn't stand it so she rallied up a group of ponies and held a war against us..(that is the Lunar Republic)
Celestia had no choice but to fight back.It ripped her heart out.I think the Heart part of my name should be War instead.
This is unbearable.
Luna is such...such..an donkey.
I bet my nanny would kill me if she discovered I knew the though that.
I know worse words.
Twilight says them all the time.
She says them when Celestia says stop,when I mess up an answer or even when she drops her crown.She is an awful princess compared to the glorious Celestia and Cadence.
My dad isn't glorious.
He is a Great War general and all the mares swoon over him,but he isn't that great.
He always gets mad when Celestia tells him stop smoking,or when I come into the war.All he ever talks about is war.If I to,d him about my day he would nkt be pleased.He would probualy say that I need to prepare myself for war or fighting one day.
Coming into the war means interrupting them when they are talking business.
My life may sound like it sucks but it's fun.
Fluttershy plays with me in my "fake" garden room.
My favorite game is princesses.Fluttershy pretends to be Celestia and I am Twilight the unicorn.We get to have tea,do pretend spells,and summon fairies.Its really fun.
Fluttershy doesn't like the war.She is leader of the nurses and Peace Corps.She comes in secret normally.She says that I am the next generation and very important.
I believe her.
Applejack is fun too.
She always tells me a bedtime story of old Equestria and his Granny Smith found it.She also tells of her love.Rarity.
Rarity left Applejack to support Luna.It broke Applejack's heart and she said she cried the Great River.She jokes about it now.But deep down I know she is still crushing over Rarity.
I constantly laugh at her when I see her daydreaming about her.When I laugh she giggles and ruffles my hair playfully.
I hope maybe I can meet Rarity.Applejack said she was funny and she didn't even know it.She always snapped at Applejexk and Applejack would laugh and say ,"Your so cute when er' mad."
I bet she was pretty.
Maybe we could have done make overs on each other or she could be a Princesss in me and Fluttershy's games.
I always wanna make new friends,but the old ones are pretty good too.
In conclusion I love my life and hate what I have done to this country.
I don't know how to feel but this is between you and me diary.
Ofcourse you promise to keep my secrets and thoughts that ponies don't think I have.
I guess when I am older this will be in some history museum in the future.
I never really thought about the future.
Maybe my life will be a lot better then.I bet I will have a real garden and not just a garden room,a big garden!I bet I will have my own faithful student and be a princess of something.
Until then I guess I have to keep studying.
I bet I should complain about my mom too.
She is the princess of love.She is just a shadow in my life.If I ever see her it is probualy a photo of her in a letter she sends me from up there.Cadence and everyone else can go up there.
Not me I am too little.
Whenever Dad lets me snuggle up with him he says,"You remind me so much if your mom."Then he kisses my head and goes to do some business.
If I was my mom I would at least visit my child on the holidays like Dad does,or write,maybe even play with her.
My dad is a war general and he still plays with me.So why not her?
I bet she would be great at playing dollies if I could just see her.Well at least better than Dad,with his Dolly Insurance he always makes.
Don't ask.
Anyways I just miss her and wanna be with her.I try to write but my nanny says that all my grammar is wrong.She only cares about her reputation and how it looks like she is caring for me.
It's really Dad,Fluttershy,and Applejack.
I just wanna have more to my life one day,but one day I will
Princess Fluffy Hear
