Where Are You?

Twilight lay there next to Spike and cried.

How could she have let him die?

Why did she let him die?

Why did she have to start this?

Why did she have to call him Useless?

Twilight's mind was full of questions that balmed her for the entire incident. As it was her fault. She was the one who got angry. She was the one who called him Useless. She was the one who let this all unfold.

Thinking about all this made her cry more. Not only was her assistant gone, but her horn wouldn't grow back for another 2 weeks, leaving her magicless for all that time.

She turned to her lifeless assistant and said, "I'll never leave your side, Spike."

And she just lay there for the next 5 hours.

Her stomach was growling intensily. She hadn't eaten since 2 days ago, and her stomach was hurting.

But she didn't care.

She didn't care if she died.

She didn't have thoughts of suicide, but if more wolves came and ate her alive, she wouldn't care.

She was going to lay here until she finally decomposed.

Twilight just lay there, and started to think about some nice memories she had had with Spike.

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There was one time she had played with him in the snow back when they lived in Canterlot.

She had thrown a snowball in his face, and he started to cry. That was until Twilight felt bad and offered him the chance to get her back. Immediately, he made a snowball and threw it in her face.

She shook it off and laughed. His crying stopped as he started to laugh too.

~~~

Twilight tried to remember more obscure memories.

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She remembered another time when she gave Spike his first bath.

When she had turned on the water, he had hid behind the toilet and sucked his thumb in fear.

Once Twilight picked him up and put him in the water, he squirmed and splashed at first, wetting Twilight. Once he had gotten used to the water, the baby dragon had almost fell asleep.

Twilight smiled and hugged him.

~~~

All of a sudden, another memory entered her mind. The most important and exciting memory of when she was with Spike. It was the day she hatched him.

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After Twilight had gotten her cutie mark and succesfully hatched Spike, Princess Celestia called her over when the young philly was leaving the building. In Celestia's arm was baby Spike, who she was nurtering with a bottle of milk.

"What do you want, Princess Celestia?" asked a confused Twilight Sparkle.

"I have a question that might change your life forever." the princess said.

"What is it?! What is it?!" the philly asked, pouncing up and down.

She put Spike down on the ground. The baby sat on it's rear and held the bottle with it's hands, savoring the taste of milk.

"Him." Princess Celestia said, looking at him, and back to Twilight.

"What about him?" asked Twilight.

"Do you want to keep your hatchling?" Celestia asked, a smile growing on her face.

Twilight's face went to confused to extremely excited as she pounced up and down.

"Yes! Yes!" she yelled, still jumping.

"Can you promise to take good care of him?" asked the princess, her voice suddenly getting serious.

"Oh, yes! Can I please keep him?" asked an excited Twilight.

"You may keep him." said Celestia, who bowed her head.

Twilight cried tears of joy as she picked up the baby dragon, who was still drinking the milk.

"Before I go, what are you going to name him?" asked Princess Celestia.

Before Twilight could answer, she accidentaly poked herself on one of the dragon's spikes on his back.

"Ouch! Those Spike's hurt!" All of a sudden, her eyes grew wide.

"So?" asked Celestia, her right eyebrow raising.

"Spike! I'll name him Spike!" she cheered.

"Clever choice, my student. Clever choice." Celestia winked, and left the room.

An excited Twilight Sparkle walked to her parents and showed them her new baby.

They were skeptical at first, but the following years would prove that she was a good parent.

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That was until now.

She was a horrible parent.

She called him useless.

She let all this happen.

She let the timberwovles attack him.

She let him die.

Tears started to flow again as Twilight turned towards her lifeless assistant.

His eyes were closed and his mouth was just a straight line that left no opening.

His arms were spread out to each side of his little body.

And his legs and tail were also spread out.

It looked like Spike was asleep. Only his stomach would be moving up and down because he was breathing.

The body lacked breathing.

Twilight cried more.

Finally, she began to speak.

"I'm so sorry Spike." she sobbed. "I never got to tell you-" she stopped to sniff. "I never got to tell you-"

For some reason, she just couldn't speak. She just couldn't. Finally, she took a deep breath and spoke.

"I never got to tell you {sniff} that I love you."

Fresh tears started flowing down her face.

"I love you with my heart. I cared for you. I loved you since I first saw you as a cute little baby!"

Her sobbing became harder.

"I loved you like you were a little brother. No. Not a brother. A son. I loved you like a son. You were like my own child. And now you're gone! You're gone!" she sobbed harder. "Why did you have to leave me! You were too young!"

Twilight fell to the sandy bank and covered her face with her forehooves.

All of a sudden, she couldv'e sworn she heard a noise.

It sounded like a cough.

She turned to Spike. His body still lay there. Lifeless.

Twilight figured it was her imagination and went back to crying.

Then, the noise returned again.

This time, she ignored it.

"I must be going crazy." she sniffed, her face still covered.

Suddenly, the noise returned, but many were followed in a second.

Finally, she turned to Spike.

The unicorn's eyes suddenly opened and fresh tears flowed.

There, laying on his back, was Spike, who was coughing up water. His eyes were still closed.

"Spike? Spike!" Twilight yelled, as she suddenly jumped up and ran to the dragon.

She pushed down on his tender stomach, and more water came out of his mouth.

Suddenly, a smile came upon Twilight's face.

Spike's eyes slowly opened.

"Tw- Twilight?" he muttered, still weak.

Tears flowed as she picked him up and hugged him tight.

"You're alive!" she cried. "I thought you were dead!"

Spike didn't answer. He was busy embracing the hug.

"I missed you Twilight." he said, with a voice only filled with innocence.

"I missed you too." Twilight sobbed, a huge smile invading her face.

The biggest smile she has ever had.

They hugged for what seemed like an eternity. Finally, Twilight spoke.

"How about we get out of this forest and get home." Twilight said.

"Sure." Spike agreed.

They broke the hug, and Twilight put Spike on her back.

"Let's get home." Twilight said, the tears finally gone.

In fact, she had stopped crying a long time ago.

Why should she?

Everything was back to normal. Well, not everything.

She would not be able to use magic for 2 weeks, but she didn't care.

All she cared was that Spike was with her. That's all that mattered at the moment.