Closing Doors

by ThatGirlOnFire

Rating: everyone
Tags: Tragedy, Pinkie Pie, Sad, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Rainbow Dash, Romance
Length: 1330

Pinkie Pie finds Rainbow's apology letter years later. One-shot.

Sequel to Apologies, my story about Rainbow Dash breaking Pinkie's heart told in letter format.
Years after, once everything is all said and done, Pinkie receives the letter. But there's a note tucked inside with a few words that make her realize what really happened and why she received that letter.

Published 2012-06-16 03:24:01 UTC
Last updated 2012-06-19 00:23:37 UTC

Dear Dashie

Dashie..
I couldn't believe it when I got the letter.
I saw your familiar chicken-scratch hoofwriting and for a minute, I thought everything would be okay, you wanted me back and I wanted you back and everything would be happy-happy-happy.
Then I saw the note, Dashie.
Pinkie-
Rainbow was stunt-flying again, and she had an accident. She's in a coma right now, and we're not sure if she'll ever wake up..
It continued like that, and then I saw the bottom of the letter.
We were getting some of her things to bring to her hospital room, and we found the letter.. we thought you should have it, because it doesn't look like she's going to make it, and you deserve to read this...
Dashie, I cried so hard when I read that. I know you can't hear me, Dashie, but I wish you could.
The worst part is the wondering. Dashie, how could you? You promised me, Dashie, you promised me you would be careful for me because if you got hurt, I would be hurt too. Did you do it on purpose, Dashie? I don't know if I could even bear to hear the truth. Dashie, please tell me you didn't want to die! Please?

I loved you so much, Dashie, and that's why it hurt. Dashie, when you told me about...you and Fluttershy... I cried so hard I couldn't cry anymore. I thought you were all mine, but I guess I was wrong.
Dashie, I know you didn't mean to. I know you were drunk and you do stupid things when you're drunk, but Dashie, I'm not bulletproof.

Everypony told me it was a mistake dating you, you know. They all said that you were a pegasus and I was an Earth pony and we just wouldn't work out and you would break my heart someday. I guess that's one of the reasons I left- Dashie, I couldn't let them be right. Because when they said that, I laughed, Dashie, because I knew you wouldn't do that to me.

Dashie, why didn't you ever send me that letter? We could've been happy right now, Dashie, so happy. But instead you're dying and I'm dying too.
I thought I could make a new beginning, Dashie, but I couldn't not think about you. Everytime I went out with someone, it was because they were a pegasus or blue or fearless. I never got over you, Dashie. And I didn't come home because I knew you had found someone and I would just ruin your perfect family. What would you say? "Oh, kids, this is my bitter ex-girlfriend. She's gonna be around for a while?" Dashie, I didn't want to come back unless I knew I was wanted. But then I read your letter, and I cried so hard because I love you too, Dashie.

Dashie, our stupid pride ruined both our lives. Why couldn't you send that letter, Dashie? Why? If you had, I would've come back to you fast as I could and I would be in your arms before you could blink. Why didn't I just go back? We could've said our apologies and put things back the way they were.

Sometimes I think about the day we talked about the future. We agreed not to get married anytime soon. I wish we hadn't.
Remember how we talked about maybe having foals? We agreed I would have the baby, and you wanted to name them after one of the Wonderbolts. I wanted to name them Jellybean.
What would have happened if we did have foals, Dashie? Jellybean and Soarin' and Peanut Butter Cup. What would have happened to them if I left? I love you, Dashie, but you can barely take care of yourself, let alone foals.
Never mind, Dashie. I know that's just a stupid fantasy that could never come true.

Oh, Dashie, the day you had the accident I had the worst doozy I've ever had. My whole body started shaking, and I started crying without even knowing why. My hair fell all straight, Dashie. It was absolutely awful because I knew something was very, very wrong.

Every time I felt my ear flop, knee twitch, and eye flutter, I hid inside with the door locked and curtains drawn because I didn't want to think of you any more than I did already. Rainbows made me cry so hard because I thought of how maybe you were making a rainbow right now too. Do you remember the day I was sad because I burned the upside-down cake that the Cakes needed for their big order? You took me to the beach, where there was a rainbow across the water just for me. We kissed and snuggled on the beach for the rest of the night, and when I got cold, you wrapped your wings around me. And when I said how warm your feathers were, you said, "Pinkie, I'll always be there when you get cold."
I'm cold right now, Dashie. Where are you, huh? You're supposed to be here to keep me warm.

Dashie, why did I have to leave? I could've stayed and you would've come to say how sorry you were and I would be there to hear and everything would be all right. The hardest thing was not telling the Cakes where I was going. I didn't know where I was going either, Dashie.

I know you can't answer, and I know you never will but Dashie, I have to know, did you date Fluttershy? Maybe if you did us breaking up would all be worth it. It would hurt, but I would be happy, because you're my friend, and Fluttershy's my friend, and I want you both to be happy.
Oh, Dashie, I never thought things would end this way. I thought I could never hurt more than the day you told me, but now I know this is so much worse because I know now you're never coming back.

Dashie, it's all so clear now. I know now what I have to do. Because living without you, Dashie, isn't really living at all.

I love you, Dashie.
Yours forever,
Pinkie Pie.

Endings

Later that night, a candy-colored pony crept into the hospital room of one Rainbow Dash.
She walked towards the bed, sitting carefully.
"This is for you, Dashie," she whispered, pulling out a large vial filled with a milky purple substance. She shuddered hesitantly, pulling out the stopper. She sniffed the liquid and wrinkled her nose. "Smells funny!" she coughed. "But it's worth it for you."
She brought the vial to her face, opened her mouth, and returned it to her lap before it hit her lips.
"Dashie, what if I shouldn't be doing this? What if I'm making the wrong choice? Dashie, you would be so mad if you knew.."
She took a deep breath.
"No. No. I can't think like that. I have to be brave." She leaned over and kissed her unconscious lover's lips. "I love you, Dashie," she said quietly.
She leaned back and raised the vial to her lips. As she was about to swallow, she heard a familiar voice.
A very, very familiar voice.
"Pinkie?"
Pinkie Pie slowly turned her head towards the hospital bed.
"Dashie?" she whispered.
Rainbow Dash tried to grin. "Yeah," she said hoarsely.
Pinkie dropped the vial to the floor in a rush to tackle her Dashie. Rainbow held her close. "Ow. Remember, I just woke up from a coma."
Pinkie blushed. "Oops. Sorry."
As they embraced, Pinkie closed her eyes.
A few moments later, she noticed her arms were empty.
She picked herself up off the floor and looked towards the hospital bed, where a still-unconscious Rainbow Dash lay perfectly still. A tear fell from her eye as she glanced towards the vial beside her. She carefully tucked it back into the small bag it had come from.
She didn't need it anymore.