Loss of Oneself

by Nightwhisper

Rating: teen
Tags: Dark
Length: 997

The journal of a human

Eric, a human landed in Equestria not long ago as a pony, after befriending some of the main six he writes in a journal given to him by Twilight.

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2016-06-06 07:30:01 UTC

Entry's 1-4

Entry 1

3/12/????

Twilight got me this journal to write down my thoughts, although to be honest I didn’t use it at first. I just sort of started using it today but I didn’t tell Twilight that.

I suppose I should start with how I got here and all that but no. Why write down how I got here when I already know? Anyway, I will write down on how I met Twilight and her friends. I stumbled into Ponyville. I most likely looked like I had a little too much to drink with the way I feel and teetered from side to side. Ponies looked at me with a strange look, kinda a mix of suspicion and curiosity. The only one that did talk to me was the pink mare I now knew as Pinkie. Pinkie talked about a lot of things, mostly about a party she was apparently going to throw me. It still baffles me that someone can just throw a party for a random stranger. Pinke after asking me a bunch of questions about stuff I liked(Thank god, that I got to sit down)bounced down the road.

After that, I moved from the wall only to fall face first on the ground. That's when I met Twilight who asked to help me up when I said yes(Reluctantly)she levitated me up. Levitated! I know right! I asked her how she did that and she answered with ‘I used magic, shouldn’t you already know that?’. I was then and still am skeptical about that. To make this story short, Twilight took me back to her house I met all of her friends. I think the only ones who are my real friends are Twilight and Pinkie. Whenever me and Rarity talk it’s awkward and filled with uncomfortable silence. Applejack is suspicious of me ever since I mentioned that I was from another dimension or place. I never really talked with Fluttershy or Rainbow Dash.

With all that written out, I’ll leave this entry here.

Entry 2

3/19/????

While I’m embarrassed to put this down, I finally learned how to walk properly, still working on running, though. It's also been another week since I wrote down another entry, I should really try and do this on a constant basis. That stuff aside, I got a job working at Applejacks farm. Yea I know what I said about Applejack last entry, but this job helped us become friends. The first day was a little rocky and silent, Applejack merely told me what to do and how to do it. Now we're talking while we're working, it’s fun. That weird I never thought that I would say that about a job, ever. Me and Applejack haven't done anything outside of work but that could change, who knows.

I met a group of three fillies while walking around, they seemed keen on helping me with something called a ‘cutie mark’. Once I told them that I didn’t know what that was they went on an unnecessarily long description of how it was an important part of a pony's destiny, etc. They attempted to help me with my problem. I was okay with it at the start but things start to escalate, cave exploration, monster hunter which was done in the Everfree. I simply told them that I had to go, luckily they let me. I don’t think I could survive another round of puppy eyes.

On a side note, I noticed my use of ‘everyone’ is lacking and that I find myself using ‘everypony’ as a replacement. Strange but not overall bad.

Well another entry for myself done, I think I’ll do these weekly. It's obvious that I can’t do these every day.

Entry 3

4/3/????

I been thinking of asking Twilight about sending me home with magic. I know, I know sounds ridiculous that I would ever use magic as a legitimate way to get back. But after multiple demonstrations from Twilight(Which I found amazing that such things could be done!), I was thoroughly convinced that magic existed or at least existed here.

Things with Rarity are much better than they used to be, with the silence being filled with more talking, mostly about what humans wore. Afterwords Rarity asked if I wanted to take a trip to the Ponyville Day Spa. I accepted, the experience was enlightening and overall enjoyable. After that, me and Rarity agreed to meet up every two weeks for another trip to the spa.

Nothing much else to say for this week so, I’ll end it here.

Entry 4

4/10/????

I asked Twilight a little bit after writing my last entry, she said that she would look into it but one of the most important part of this conversation is when Twilight asked me for the name of where I came from. I couldn't and still can’t remember, I told Twilight that it didn’t have a name. This is gnawing away at my mind on how I can’t even remember my own planet's name. Thinking about it now, I can’t remember movies, books, I can’t even remember some of the favorite songs that I used to listen too. Those, however, are less important and don’t pop up as a problem in my life here as those songs, books etc don’t really matter.

Besides that, I talked with Rainbow Dash for the first time last week, in the time that we spent I learned that she is really self-motivated more than I am anyway. The stuff she could do in the air, flying high doing all manner of things beyond that of a machine's capabilities. I attempted to talk to Fluttershy but she wasn’t home. After saying goodbye to Rainbow I headed home? Huh, I just now noticed my use of ‘home’ when referring to Twilight's house, I wonder it that could have been brought on by staying there for a prolonged period of time.

That's all for the weekly entry.