Nothing

by Sparkletop Rainbows

Rating: everyone
Tags: Dark, Sad
Length: 911

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2016-06-16 18:22:07 UTC

I Am Nothing

I am nothing. I don't matter. Only she matters. Everypony notices her, but they don't notice me. Everypony cares about her, but they don't care about me. Everpony loved her, but they don't love me. I am ignored, I am forgotten. All those days and nights I spent alone, and she never came. I thought sisters were suppose to stick side by side. But I was wrong. She was never there for me when I cried. When I needed her the most. She watched me crumble and die. I watched my soul rot every day. She does not care for me, she does not love me.

I cry and cry. I cry a river of pain and sorrow. A never ending river that won't stop no matter how much I want it to. I wish somepony would care. I wish somepony would listen. But nopony does.

Everyhting is just so black. It doesn't matter anymore. Nothing matters. Not her, not them, not me. Nothing at all.

I yell. But nopony hears me. I shout at the top of my lungs, but nopony cares. They just continue their little blissful, happy lives. Unlike me. I am all alone in this cruel world. I am suffocated in the darkness that surrounds me. It is driving me insane. I don't belong here. My place is in the shadows, my prison. The shadows are very lonely. I hate it there. It hurts so much, it is very painful. I hate it, there, I HATE IT SO MUCH! I JUST WANT TO *SCREAM*!

I am nothing. I am nobody. I am isolated in this p[ainful darkness. It feels as if the whole world is against me. Maybe I should just shut up and stop screaming. Maybe I should just lock myself up and burn away. It's not anypony would care, anyway. But the sounds, the screams, they are ringing in my head. I can't get them out. No matter how much I close my ears, I CAN'T GET THEM OUT!

But... but what if there's a light? What if there's hope? What if I can be freed from the darkness? Can there be a way?

...

No.

The darkness will never let go of me. I am its toy. It cruelly plays with me, tortures me. I am cursed. I hate the darkness so much. But it controls me, I can't stop it. I'm just weak, little Luna. I can't do anything. I'll always be overshadowed by others. All cold and alone for eternity. The chains of my past hurt so much. The chains of isolation and darkness. The chains of weakness and insanity.

I don't want to take it anymore. I can't take it anymore. I'm losing my sanity. I want to get out, I want to be free. I'm just so ANGRY! I SHOULD BE THE ONE WHO SHOULD HAVE THE ATTENTION! I SHOULD BE THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE NOTICED! I SHOULD BE THE ONE WHO HAS THE POWER!

...

Why?

Why must the world hate me so much? Why must I be tormented in this burning madness? Why?

I am nothing. I am just the shadow of my sister. I am nothing more. All I've known it regret. Loneliness. Torture. I wish somepony would love my night as much as I. I wish somepony would admire me, look up to me. I just wish I could be... something. Something big. Something wonderful. I wish that all the ponies would love me. I wish I could be their role model. But I am not.

Was I made to be nothing? Was I made to be my sister's shadow? I do not understand. I do not understand anything.

They said I can't do it. They said I am just puny. They said that nopony loves me. They said I should just kill myself. These voices in my head are cruel, but they are right. Oh, how I envy my sister so much. She is graceful. She is admirable. She is happy. She is normal. But I am not.

They say I should stop being weak. They say I should take control. They say I should be more stronger. Perhaps they are right. The monsters, they are my friends. They are a shadow, darkness. Just like me. I can feel their dark energy burning inside me. I can feel myself changing, becoming more stronger, just like I always wished to be.

I should take control. I am so sick and tired of being tortured and feeling so weak. If I step up, then ponies will love me, adore me. I will be their new leader. And nothing will stop me now. I will show her what I've become. I will show her how strong I am. And she will crumble and fall, and I will become more powerful. The energy is a burning wildfire inside of me. I am growing more bigger. No more weak, little Luna.

Now they will all listen to me. I will have all the power I could have ever wanted.

And I will get my revenge on her. She just stood and watched the burning hole inside of me kill the Luna she once knew. I WILL stand strong! I WILL show her. I CANNOT STAND THIS MADNESS ANY LONGER! I CANNOT STAND FEELING SO WEAK AND HELPLESS! I HATE! I HATE IT ALL!

...

I am nothing, and that is all I will ever be.