This place brings so many memories. All those moments were unforgettable…they were…they are not anymore.
Who needs memories anyway? What are they good for?
Nothing else then remind me, how great time we had together. We had…we will never have again.
Why?
Because they hate me…but I love them.
They hurt me over an over again.
Why didn’t I protect myself?
I didn’t want to. Just now I can see it clearly. I can see, how they were using me, how they were laughing at me behind my back.
We were supposed to be sisters…but we weren’t…
I looked round myself. Lake was frozen because of extremely cold nights and I was standing there just in my hoodie. Forest behind my back always gave me creeps. Today it is different. Today I feel confident about myself and everything I do.
Everything and anything…
I looked up to the sky, trying to ignore horrible pain as my cheeks wet from my tears were freezing. I couldn’t see a single star or wait. There is one. One little star trapped between big dark clouds. Just like me…an outsider.
Just like me, trapped in this world between people that I don’t know and they don’t know me. In this world isn’t a single person, who know, who I really am. Not even my sisters.
Another tear felt down from my eye, but its just one of a million. It’s nothing special. Even thought it is unique, its different then other ones, because it carries honest pain right from the heart.
Heart hurt more than enough. Heart damaged with fear, solitude and darkness. But still just a heart crying for help, that will never come…not in this world or in Equestria.
I need to be free. That’s the only way, how to be happy again and forever.
I looked down, trying to follow the tear with my tired eyes all bloody from crying. The tear felt on the ground covered in snow and disappeared. Just like my pain and my suffering will soon fall of me and disappear forever…just like chance to ever see my sisters again…
But I don’t care. All they ever did was curse me because of things that I didn’t mean. I can see it all clearly now. I was naive thinking that they wanted well for me…they hate me and they will never mind me dying. I can swear they are having a party to celebrate that I finally left.
I started walking on the ice to the middle of the lake. I walked…walked to the new beginning…
I slipped on the ice. Cracking sound echoed through abandoned countryside…abandoned just like me. I didn’t bother with standing up.
Why should I anyway? This is going to be the best thing ever happened to me in my whole endless life of feared creature, which was never loved.
Cracks drew on ice surrounding me spider web…the web of life from which I am going to break free…soon…
I should be happy and yet something in me wanted to cry. So I did. I didn’t care. My cheeks were freezing. I didn’t care.
Tears turned my vision in blur. Dark fog all around me seemed so soothing for a moment…
--“Help! Help me someone! I can’t see!” I screamed as I was rubbing my eyes. Everything around me turned into fog.
“What happened to you?” Dagis worried voice sounded through blur around me.
I lightly sobbed. “I don’t know. I am scared, Dagi.”
She hugged me. Then she carefully opened one of my eyes. Probably looking straight in it, but all I saw was something big and orange moving forward me.
“Oh, I see the problem.” She said her voice a lot calmer now. “I will be right back.”
I waited. She didn’t take long and came back in matter of seconds.
“Close your eyes, Sony.”
I trusted her and closed my eyes as tight as I could.
Dagi put something dark and cold on my eyes.
The darkness surrounding me was just so soothing. I smiled. “Thank you.”
“You are welcome, sweetie.” No irony in her voice, she meant it.--
I rubbed my eyes.
Well Dagi probably will care, when I will leave. But that’s still only one person in whole world.
Staying here isn’t worth it, even if someone actually cares.
No. I have to stay here. What am I thinking? I can’t leave them. They love me, even though they don’t show it to me the way others do.
I smiled. They were right, I am stupid. Otherwise I wouldn’t be thinking this.
I have to do this. There is no way back.
I stood up ready to break ice under me and die...let my soul be free. However in the moment I get myself on my feet I slipped once more. This time falling on my back and badly hitting my head.
Moon and my star were spinning above me in circles. I became slightly dizzy and sick. I closed my eyes.
--I was crying in corner of some dark alley.
Really high guy was standing before me, holding knife. “I will ask you one more time and you will give me what I want!” He hissed.
I was shaking. “B-but I don’t have any money. I promise. Please let me go.” My voice was cracking with every word that escaped my lips.
“I gave you more than enough chances to change you mind, but now you will have to face your destiny.” He evilly laughed and run to me, catching me by my neck and smashing me to wall behind me. Cold knife touched skin on my neck.
“P-please…don’t.” I begged.
“Let her go you monster!” Familiar voice yelled.
The guy released me and turned his attention to my purple-haired sister.
Aria jumped to him, kicking him in stomach. “Run, get away from here, Nata!” She yelled at me.
I did as she said.
Only thing I heard, when I turned the corner was her crying in pain. But I didn’t turn around. I was too scared and I believed in her. She can make it. She is strong enough.--
I jolted back in reality.
My head hurts like never. I lightly rubbed place, where it hurts the most. Removing bloody hand I realized that I wasn’t alone. I had my sisters. No mater what they were saying to me, they loved me, same way I loved them.
My blood somehow reminded my that day, when we all were all defeated and yet still happy, because we had each other and that is exactly what I need…I need my sisters…my family…
I get back on my feet all exited about seeing them again.
Crack! Cracked ice under me broke and left me diving into cold water.
Blood coming from head colored water around me. My body fast became unable to move. I was unstoppably going downer and downer.
My leg got stuck in some underwater grass. There was no chance of getting out alive.
Ice cold water dig into my skin making it feel like lying on millions of needles.
I screamed. Not even so from pain as from anger at myself for how stupid I was.
In that moment my lungs exploded with horrible pain. I started couching out blood.
My body became almost limb. All I could do was close my eyes and listen to my last heart beats…
…This is it…something I never wanted…and yet I did it…now its ending…I will be free…but all alone…
