The sky is filled with sunshine and happiness
Everypony laughed and smiled on the inside
Everypony except for me
I stood in a corner, lonely and lost
But I wore my mask and smiled back
But inside I was screaming
My tortured soul was burning
But I was still smiling
When the day was done, I crawled into my room
The place for all my misery
I cried and wept
And unbottled the volcano inside
Then I screamed
I screamed so loud it shook the walls
I screamed, wishing for sompony to hear me
But nopony did
My head was bursting
My heart couldn't handle these emotions
So I slept wit the burden
Wedged deep in my soul
Everypony crossed my path, greeting me as they came
But nopony stood long enough to hear me out
This time, I did not smile
I stood with a solemn face
My eyes held no sign of pain
This was the mask I liked best
The mask that held no weakness
I did not like weakness
I hated it
hated it, hated it, HATED IT!
No matter my feelings on the inside
My mask on outside held nothing of pain
Of the darkness that swallowed me whole
I sat in my corner
The Lonely Corner, as I called it
I waited
And waited
And waited
For somepony to come
For somepony to rescue me
From the darkness that held my captive in its chains
Sometimes I wonder
Why?
Why must I be so tortured?
Why must the demons in my head torment me?
They are too strong
They control me
They make me feel weak
Perhaps I really am
Go away, nopony wants you, they say
You are nothing, and you will always be, they say
You are weak, puny, you will never be strong, they say
Go die in a hole, nopony wants you, they say
They say
They say
THEY SAY
I screamed, and pucnhed the wall so hard, my hoof bleeded
But I didn't care
I liked it
I liked the pain
I screamed, and screamed, and screamed
STOP IT! STOP
LEAVE ME ALONE!
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?
STOP!!
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
I punched my hoof into the wall again
The blood ran down my hoof
I enjoyed the pain
It made me feel so much better
It took away my internal pain
I grinned
I laughed and laughed
But I wasn't happy
I was never happy
The world was spinning around me
I was insane
But then I stopped
I fell onto the floor
The external pain gone
Many times ponies look at me
Like I'm a freak
That makes wonder
What was wrong with me
Was it the things I liked/
Was it the way I looked?
Was it... Me?
I don't know
Perhaps I never will
There is one other reason
Of why I hate the voices
I believe they are the demons making my nightmares
Every night
I dream of blood, gore, death, sadness, and more blood
Most of the nights, I wake up
Crying and crying until I have no tears left
This happened for a very long time
And then I got use to it
I felt like the darkness
I felt like a monster
I am the darkness
I am a monster
The world was filled with pain
The world was a cruel place
There will be darkness and evil lurking everywhere
Just like my nightmares
