A Diary Of A Diamond
October 10th Afternoon
I get home from school. I can't wait to tell Daddy about all of the new friends I made today! Unfortunately, I forgot all about Mommy, and she's waiting for me as soon as I arrive. She's not happy about me embarrassing her in public. She shouts and screams, and says a lot of words I've never heard before. I'm scared. I want to go upstairs, but she won't let me get past her.
That's when it happens. She hits me in the face. She seems as surprised by her actions as I am, but she seems to enjoy it as she does it again. And again. Eventually I hurt all over, and that's when she decides I've had enough. When she finally leaves me alone, I crawl to my room and pretend none of this happened. Sadly, the pain all over my body tells me otherwise.
October 10th Evening
Daddy finally arrived back, to see me hurt in bed. I'd like to have told him all about the bad stuff Mommy did to me, but she's standing near the door, looking at me in a nasty way. So I tell him I just fell down the stairs... and he believes me. After all, why would his precious Diamond lie. I know it's not a nice thing to lie, especially after I told everypony I'd turned over a new leaf today, but I can't help it. I don't want Mommy to get mad again and take it out on me. I skip dinner, and have a sleepless night.
October 11th Morning
My body still tingles a bit this morning, and you can still see some bruises, but mostly I feel fine. Unfortunately, Mommy is downstairs alone again, since Daddy had to leave early for work. She holds me by my throat and said she has very tired hooves after hitting me yesterday, and blames it on me. Before I know it, she's hitting me again, this time with a stick in her mouth. It hurts even more than before.
Now, through my sobbing, I can just about hear her say that unless I want her and Daddy to split up, I'll carry on making excuses and not tell anypony what really happened to leave me this way. Then, she finally let me go to school, watching me all the way through the window with an evil stare. If I thought things were bad before with my mother, now they're worse than ever. I'm beginning to regret ever trying to be a better pony, if it's this much trouble.
October 11th Evening
School was a complete nightmare. Everypony wanted to know where I got my injuries from, and I had to tell them the 'I fell down the stairs' story until my jaw felt as sore as Mommy's hooves. I think everypony believed me, although Miss Cheerilee asked me a few more questions than she should. I swore on my tiara I was telling the truth, and I think I convinced her, though I still saw some doubt in her eyes. Well, she can mind her own business. I'm not splitting up Mommy and Daddy for anything.
When I arrived back at the mansion, the place was thankfully empty. I got myself a drink, and started doing my homework upstairs. Just when I thought everything would be alright though, Mommy came crashing through my door. Apparently, I'd spilt something downstairs, and must be punished. It's funny, because I'm quite sure I didn't. I must have done though I suppose, why would she lie?
Anyway, the same thing happened as before. Hits. Whacks. Slaps everywhere. This time though, what hurt worse than the physical pain were her words. She kept telling me what a worthless daughter I was, and how it may look as if every pony in town liked me now but they were all faking it. Of course. It all made perfect sense now. No wonder they forgave me so easily... it was just a show. I really was all alone. The only pony who loved me was Daddy, and even he'd hate me if I told him about Mommy. What do I do? Needless to say, I had another sleepless night.
October 12th Morning
I try to walk downstairs this morning, but my hind legs hurt so much. I have no choice but to call for help, and thankfully my Daddy is still there. As he give me a horsie-back ride downstairs, he says his top physician knows all about my 'accident' the other day, and if I don't feel better by the end of the week he'll take me to see him. Then, we'll go to Sugarcube Corner together and he'll treat me to the biggest ice cream there. I don't deserve such special treatment, but I nod and smile anyway.
Mommy is still here too, but as I'm with my Daddy there's nothing she can do to me. She just sits there and puts on a fake smile, before doing something completely unexpected... she hoofs me a packed lunch. I can hardly believe it, she's never done anything like that before. Maybe she feels bad about what she did, and is trying to make up for it. This happy thought puts a spring in my step, and despite the pain I feel I can walk to school by myself now. Maybe everything will be alright from now on. Maybe I've been too negative. Maybe...
October 12th Afternoon
I was wrong. Very wrong.
The start of school went normally enough. Same old questions, mostly about when I was going to get better. Same trouble going up and down stairs in my weak state, but I'm learning to cope. And the same weird stares from Cheerilee, who looks like she wants to say something, but always bites her tongue just before it comes out. I'll never understand grown-ups.
Oh well, at least I have lunch to look forward to. I open up my satchel next to my new friends the Cutie Mark Crusaders, wanting to know what tasty snacks Mommy has packed for me... wait a second, this box is empty. Hang on... no it isn't, there's a single note inside, written in her handwriting. It says... oh no.
Leaving behind everypony else, I run around the corner because I feel like I want to cry. The note is basically a reminder of everything Mommy said last night, about how pathetic I am, that I'll never amount to anything and how everypony really hates me. The worst part of it is though, was the P.S at the end. It says my Daddy will be away on business tonight, so it's just us for a 'girls evening'...
I know enough by now what that means, and that's why I'm so upset. I must have been very loud with my crying, since everypony there has stopped what they're doing to stare at me. Through my blurry vision, I can see Silver Spoon approaching me on one side, and Miss Cheerilee galloping towards me on the other, but I don't stop. I run right out of that playground, into the main street, to try and find someplace to hide. I must be safe, I must be safe, I must be safe...
OUCH!!
Just my luck. I run right into my mother, who has taken one of her rare trips into town to buy some flowers for the bathroom. She recovers first, and swiftly grabs me as a concerned Cheerilee approaches. Using the lying skills she taught me so well, Mommy tells my teacher that her and my Daddy are going through some marriage difficulties, and that's why I'm so emotional. I'm obviously in no fit state for school that day, so she better take me home early.
I want to protest, but I'm too frightened to even move as Mommy pushes me away. I think Cheerilee knows something wrong is happening here too, but with me not saying anything all she can only watch as I'm pushed further and further away from safety and into danger. Who cares, she can't do anything, she hates me along with everypony else there. My Mommy is right, they're all fakers. I have to face what lies ahead like a mare.
Here's what my Mommy said to me just before we got in the house, and I remember it well because she spoke it in such a horrible way. "Well, my Diamond. It looks like our evening of fun will be starting a bit earlier than I thought. Brace yourself... this is going to hurt you a lot more than it hurts me..."
I have to go now... she's waiting for me downstairs.
Wish me luck...
October 12th Evening
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October 19th
Oh Diamond... why didn't you tell me the truth... I could have helped you. I would have always loved you no matter what your mother said... but now, it's too late. At least with this diary, we should be able to put her away for life... as soon as we find her, that is. Rest in peace, my precious Diamond... you'll always be my shining jewel. x x x
