Fluttershys secret

Chapter 4

It was surprising just how oblivious the world was to the true nature of the irredeemable monster known as "Dash".

He did indeed in his own words "act pretty heroically that day".

But with just one well thought out and short line, Fluttershy easily shattered his justification for his unforgivable actions to irreparable pieces.

"You did indeed act awesomely heroic" muttered Fluttershy to herself angrily "Awesomely heroic and awesomely arrogant ever since. Everyone should know that a real hero doesn't brag"

"I'm sorry dear and distinguished fans of Rainbow Dash. I am sorry dear and distinguished Bronies, but Flutterdash will never exist until Rainbow Dash mends his selfish, obnoxious and reprehensible ways" sobbed Fluttershy, tears filling her eyes as she gazed upon webpage after webpage of beautifully drawn art depicting her and Rainbow Dash as the most intimate and joyful couple whose closeness with one another rivaled even Romeo and Juliet.

"I'm sorry" she stated apologetically, fully aware that there was no one around to listen "but I just can't bring myself to love the man who made my life the living hell it is today. And who knows how many countless other lives he ruined. I'm sorry but I just can't not hate Rainbow Dash"

But many others did. Many others loved Rainbow Dash to the extent where they believed him to be flawless. The majority of the world would give their lives for the good and great hero they dubbed "Dash" and would not hesitate to quickly deal with those who would speak even a single world of criticism against "Dash".

But Dash did not love them back. He did not love or like his supposed friends, he did not love his mother or father in the slightest and he held a causeless grudge against Fluttershy.

But if Fluttershy said so much as a word against him, then her head would be hacked off where she stood and her corpse thrown to wild beasts. No one would listen and no one would care what she had to say.

So Fluttershy said nothing and continued to spend her days in horrific pain, and a deep and incurable depression which only grew stronger daily.

Made worse by the fact that she could trust no one but herself, partly because of the wise advice her father gave her but mostly out of the deep paranoia Rainbow Dash's influence had left on her, And unlike most cases of paranoia, it would never go away.

It left her lonely, very lonely. It was this loneliness that made her depression drop from agonizing to intolerable and insufferable.

"All I want" sighed Fluttershy as she sat in her apartment clutching her diary and scrawling the summary of yet another joyless and grim day "is to have a friend. A friend who I can trust in. A friend who I can depend on. A friend who I can actually say is my friend. Just someone who cares about morality like me".

"Is that too much to ask?"she sobbed as tears welled in her eyes "for there to be just one person like me in this cruel world, who isn't a selfish reprehensible asshole like Rainbow Dash?".

She wanted to say Twilight and the others were her friends, but deep down in her heart she held no love for them. Though she did to an extent find Twilight and the rest of the her small clique of friends somewhat more tolerable than Rainbow Dash, the sad truth was that she did not like them.

They did not understand morality like she did. Nor could they relate to her struggle any more than the rest of the cruel, uncaring world could.

They were not emotionless sadists like Rainbow Dash but they weren't exactly saints either. They did not actively attempt to act immorally like Dash, but were still immoral in their own right. Not to mention that they did not even know how to use a firearm and the use of a firearm was the first thing Fluttershy looked for in any potential friend.

"people who don't know how to use or fire a gun are worth nothing" Fluttershy's dear father used to tell her "Using a gun is the first thing any decent person should learn how to do. Take it from me, people who don't know how to use a gun well aren't worth your time and you should ignore them".

"Of course" her father would also add "using your gun responsibly is another important thing, but the first step is knowing how to use a gun in the first place. Its a key step to acting morally in life".