Spike's suicide

It has been 2 months since the death of Twilight Sparkle. She has been Spike's most trusted and best-est friend he could ever have. Spike was seen,inside in his bed, covering himself with his own blanking crying. His eye's were red due to the crying, his entire body was sweaty due to lack of cold for being under the covers too long,his mind was filled with sadness, anger, depression and he can't get over what has happened to Twilight sparkle.

He had feelings for her.

He loved her but he couldn't tell her how he feels because she's already dead and can't get over the fact that its all his fault.

2 MONTHS EARLIER....

"Alright Spike,are you ready?"Twilight said confidently.She and Spike were going to do something a little...dangerous.

They were going to do target practicing and Twilight wants to improve her magic accuracy, after a remembering earlier battles she fought with and against, she could use some improvement and target practicing. Spike was carrying some useless objects like broken, furniture, chairs, electronics, mirrors etc...

...wait, did i just say mirrors?

*cough, cough*Anyway, Spike got tired after carrying all of Twilight's targeting equipment and sat down on the ground. He wanted to criticize Twilight for being lazy and too controlling but he couldn't because...he loved her.

He loved her so much but he can't tell his feelings to her because he's afraid that she wouldn't accept or believe he's being ridiculous, but she was very understanding and he knows that she'll always listen to her friends no matter what.

"Is that all Spike? "Twilight asked. Spike nodded tiredly.

Twilight then spoke"Alright, im gonna try to hit every-single target with my Alicorn magic and this may get dangerous so you can take a break if you want spike." Spike thanked Twilight and walked to their picnic basket that they prepared after Twilight's exercise.

He opened the picnic basket and grabbed a vegetable sandwich. Inside were Lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, cabbage and cooked onions but this time Twilight cooked it all and did not allow spike for obvious reasons.

He then took a bit of it whilst grabbing an orange juice box. He was enjoying the sandwich including his orange juice but there was something that didn't feel right.

He wanted to tell her so bad. A part of him tells him to go and tell her how he feels but another part tells him not to because she might reject him.

"How can i tell her when she's busy? Maybe i could tell her after her practice but she may get tried,wants a break, do some studying and...face it, I'll never tell her." Spike thought to himself miserably. He was upset by the fact that he can't tell his own feelings to the Alicorn that he loves the most.

But how much longer is he gonna have to wait until he tells her? A week? A month? A year?

Spike knew that he's never gonna tell her unless he goes ahead and tells her how he feels because he can't hide his own feelings."No! Im going to tell her and im going to tell today and right now!" Spike said to himself before quickly finishing his sandwich and orange juice.

He was filled with so much confidence and courage. He felt like that he could battle a 90 feet demonic dragon that was terrorizing Equestia...not really though, if that really happen he would rely on the elements of harmony because it would be a suicide mission, but he did have the courage to go up to Twilight and tell her how he feels but just as he was about to tell her how he felt...

...He was horrified to witnessed Twilight. She was lying on the floor bleeding, her deep wounds exposed, her eyes were looking around and now staring at Spike twitching violently and cannot get up due to how weak and messed up she was.

"TWILIGHT!!!" He yelled, trying to believe that this was all just a prank to him. It wasn't. It looked too real to be a prank since so much blood was pouring out. He panicked he didn't know what to do and she was bleeding fast.

He grabbed the picnic blanked and covered her up with it to slow down the bleeding.

"Twilight,please don't die on me!" Spike said as he was clenching her tightly.

"Spike..." Twilight muffled.

"Please don't die on me. Don't ever leave me because...because...because."

And then Spike starts streaming down tears and yelled the words"I LOVE YOU!!!" But it was already too late. Twilight had died from her injuries. She lost too much blood.

Spike saw her dead and this made him even more upset. He then slowly walked away from his lifeless body. He just wished that all of this was just a dream as the dam in his eyes burst before running away to gather help with only 1 thing in his mind:

Did she hear what he just said?

2 MONTHS LATER A.K.A PRESENT....

Spike got up from his bed and went towards his bathroom. Rarity was in his house too because she felt like she wanted to cheer him up after what has happened since he does look a little miserable...

...Who am i kidding, Spike's a mess. He hasn't showered in a month, hasn't been eating or drinking anything for every 3-4 days and loosing a little more weight due to him lacking of eating. Rarity was forced to come in to be able to help him with his situation but it looked as if he was only getting worse and worse by everyday.

The main 6 went to Twilight's funeral and was well aware of Spike's depression but no matter what they say,Spike would just yell or shout at them to go away and leave him alone and this has been going on for almost 2 months ever since Twilight's death.But Rarity however,refused to take no as an answer and after time and time of convincing...

...He agreed.

As for the rest of the main 6,they were counting on Rarity to fix Spike up since she is the element of generosity. Pinkie pie was preparing a cheerful party for Spike knowing that it would cheer him up, Rainbow Dash was gathering everypony in Ponyville because she's some sort of celebrity to them even though she's NOT, Applejack was cooking up some of the best apple recipe's she could ever come up with and make and as for Fluttershy...well,unknowingly she was taken hostage and held captive by her pet Angel.

Rarity was cooking up some of Spike's homemade pie, but mince the whole disgusting Spike's cooking part since he was a horrible chef and had 0% cooking experience or cooking lessons. She didn't want to know how Spike makes his pie for 1 good reason so she decided to make a mixed berry pie with white frosting and the mixed berries were cherry-berry and and blueberry's.

As she was cooking up the pie, she noticed Spike walking towards the bathroom."Are you OK Spike?" She asked in a concerned voice.

Spike replied"Yeah i am Rarity its just...i feel like i need a shower."

Rarity smiled, she knew that Spike was slowly improving. She guessed that Twilight's advice that somethings needs time to recover was right and after lots of waiting and worrying, Spike is now finally back on track.

"Well that's good to hear.Don't forget to scrub your claws Spike."Rarity asked happily.

Spike replied"Yeah,no problem Rarity."before walking into his bathroom.

After realizing Spike's change,Rarity singed a humming tune. Its tone felt as if it was happy and excited about something. Rarity was happy to know that Spike was slowly getting better and finally becoming the old Spike that everypony loves...

...Unknowingly,taking a shower is not what Spike wanted to do.

Spike looked at himself in the mirror.

His face was a horrible mess.

It smelled horrible, his armpits is so smelly that it is enough to cause a filly or an elderly to faint, he had eye bags because he wasn't getting enough sleep and his teeth looked very yellow because he hasn't been taking care of them during the 2 months.

Spike then looked down at the wooden drawer beside him. He walked over to it slowly and opened it revealing...

...a H&K VP70z 9x21mm handgun.

He looked at the gun sadly and knew what he was going to do with it. He grabbed the gun with his claws and checked the upper receiver to see if the gun was loaded.It was.

This is Spike's chance of killing himself.

He slowly walked over to the mirror and saw him staring at the mirror whilst holding the West German pistol.

He looked at the gun. He was scared but he had to if he ever wanted to visit Twilight Sparkle again so he grabbed a picture of him and Twilight hugging each other and placed it onto the mirror.

He then placed the barrel of the handgun onto the right side of his head.His hands were shaking and thoughts in his head are telling not to do it but he didn't listen.Spike was super scared to do this.He really didn't want to do this but he really wanted to see Twilight again even if it means killing himself and then...*BANG*

Just a few seconds ago,Rarity just placed the batter into the oven and set it for up to 40 minutes.

"I hope Spike loves the cake i made for him."Rarity said to herself.

Just as she was about to sit down,watch TV and and wait until the pie was done...*BANG*

She heard a loud gunshot.It had been forever since she heard a gunshot in Equestia and it sounded as if it was coming inside the bathroom that Spike had entered."What in Celestia is that Dragon up to?"

She then went up to the bathroom door and just as she was about to tell spike to open it,it opened slightly just as she touched it with her own hooves."That's strange, Spike would always lock the bathroom doors whenever he's inside. I wonder what he's up to?"Rarity said as she opened the door, hoping that Spike had accidentally dropped something heavy like last time...

...Only later to find a dead baby dragon lying on the floor.

Blood was coming out of both sides of his head, his eyes lifeless and his mouth was drooling out saliva and blood. A Handgun was lying on the floor next to him with his own blood covered on it including the window which has a picture of him and Twilight hugging each other with Spike's and Twilight's face's covered in Spike's own Dragon blood.

Rarity was shocked by her witness. She thought that Spike was just taking a shower hoping that he was just improving only later revealing that he actually committed suicide. She felt like she was about to get a heart-attack. She felt like that she just wanted to run away and scream in panic but all what she could do is stare at the lifeless dragon.

"Oh no-oh Celestia-i just-i-this can't-SPIKE!!!!!" She screamed at the top of her lungs.