I Will Break The Silence

"Mondays suck..."

Vinyl sat at the table with her six friends poking her plastic spork into her chicken fried steak. Ever since Saturday she had been dwelling more and more on the Raven haired girl she worshiped. The more she tried to shove her feelings down the harder it got to keep them buried. Every time Octavia texted her heart sped up and a smile took over her face, every time she saw her in the halls her eyes dilated and she felt warm and happy and every moment they were separate at the very least was boring and dull.

Her world wasn't without joy or fun but whenever Octavia was around to share it with her the enjoyment of everything was multiplied. She loved her but didn't know what to do or say. Should she tell her? Should she keep quiet and hope it went away? She didn't have the answers she needed to these questions. So there she sat poking her food with no apatite for even the best looking things on the menu, how could she eat while being eaten on the inside?

"You gonna eat that?"

The DJ's vision was suddenly a blur of pink as the party loving girl to her left turned and leaned so that she could look directly at her. Still frowning Vinyl shook her head and pushed the tray to her friend. Pinkie took no time at all to dig straight in and had devoured a good portion in the time most would have taken a few bites. It was almost as if her mouth was a black hole or at the least could unhinge it's jaw. As the rest of the girls continued to eat (Or in Rarity's case shield her eyes) Vinyl could no longer stand the public setting. Pulling out her notepad and pencil she quickly scrawled out "I'm not feeling well I'm gonna get some air." With that she stood hoping to leave without any questions being asked, naturally what you want and what you get tend to be very different.

"Vinyl darling if your ill you should go home and rest, or if you like we could get you some tea? The cafeteria has hot water dispensers and I try to keep some echinacea on hand for when I'm not feeling too well."

After Rarity made her offer Twilight was quick to chip in and Applejack soon after.

"Rarity is right, the tea would likely ease your stomach if that's what's bothering you."

"And if your not a tea person I'm sure Granny Smith has some soup in the kitchen. Aint nothin better for a sick day meal than a good bowl'a soup."

Vinyl smiled at her friends but shook her head with a sad smile. She pointed through the window outside than just gave a thumbs up. While most wouldn't get the gesture the group had been around Vinyl enough to understand most of her gestures fairly well. Unknown to Vinyl her fake smile had been seen through by a Sunset and a pink haired individual who with a glance and a nod knew they had seen the same thing. With a few words and a quick "excuse me" the two of them headed off after their sad friend.

/l---)O(---/l\

Vinyl leaned against the front of the C.H.S. statue facing the street watching cars go by as she mulled over her thoughts unhappily. She was starting to reach the point where she was thinking about calling Neon for a ride and asking if he wanted to hang out or go to the arcade again or something when someone behind her broke the silence.

"Hey Vinyl how you doing?"

She turned from behind the statue to see Sunset and Fluttershy both looking at her, concern in their eyes. Still trying to keep up the façade the DJ gave a thumbs up with an unconvincing smile.

"V I'm good at knowing when someone is lying to me and I can tell you are right now."

Vinyl's head dropped as her feet suddenly became very interesting. Sunset took a few steps closer putting her hand on her shoulder before continuing.

"Hey Vinyl listen. If you don't want to tell us what's wrong that's up to you but we're your friends. We want you to know we're here to help whenever you need us."

To Vinyl's surprise Fluttershy moved towards her and reaching into her backpack pulled out a bunny.

"Here hold Angle, you'll feel better I promise."

The DJ accepted the small furry animal and gently held it in her hand. To her surprise soon after the small criter began nuzzling her and she felt compelled to lightly hug it causing it to nuzzle even deeper into her tummy.

"Ahhh he likes you!" Cooed the pink haired girl quietly.

Sunset moved so that she was half hugging Vinyl with her arm draped around the DJ's back and her hand on her opposite shoulder.

"Do you want to talk about what's bothering you now?"

Vinyl's defenses broke and the tears started flowing freely as she sniffled and sobbed huffing in small gasps of air. Nodding she handed the bunny back to Fluttershy before slumping down against the statue and crying into her hands. Sunset took to sitting on her left and the animal lover sat taking up a post on her right. Sunset pulled Vinyl's head onto her shoulder as she waited for V to write out her reply. After about five minutes of crying she managed to pull herself together enough to pull out her pad and scribble somethings down.

"I'm in love with Octavia and I don't know what to do! I've been crushing on her since freshmen year and now were friends but I feel worse than ever but I can't tell her that because it would hurt her and I don't think she feels the same! It's eating me up inside and I don't know how much longer I can hold it in! I don't know what to do!"

She broke into tears again as she finished writing the last part and dropped her notepad on the ground. Sunset had been watching as she had written with wide eyes and when Vinyl broke again she went back to consoling her to the best of her ability. Fluttershy picked up the paper pad and read it quietly with a contemplative look. Sunset hugged the weeping girl a bit harder before speaking up again.

"It's ok Vinyl, everything is going to be ok..."

The DJ's reply was continued sniffling.

"Hey listen this is just my opinion but what I would suggest is you try to work up the nerve to tell her. If you don't it will just fester inside you till your being eaten from the inside out. It's not healthy for you and even if Octavia says no at least you'll be able to start healing. I know you're worried about hurting her but if she's a real friend than she'll at least be nice about it and if she doesn't feel the same she'll let you down easy. Don't worry about wrecking your friendship, if she's a good friend she'll understand and stick around."

Vinyl sniffed a few times and wiped her tears away with the back of her hand.

"Keep your chin up V. Your a great girl and someday I just know your gonna meet someone who's gonna make you as happy as you make them. Whether or not it's Octavia remains to be seen but someday you'll have a very special person in your life."

Her tears coming to an end at last the DJ reached out and hugged her friend tightly receiving a few assuring pats on the back in return.

"Just tell her when the time feels right, don't try and plan it out too much just let your heart do the talking and it will speak the truth."

Vinyl hugged her tighter and while she may not have said anything the message was clear.

"Thank you Sunset."

Fluttershy joined in the hug as well to show her support in the matter and the three sat there for some time letting the atmosphere they were in do the talking for them. No words needed to be exchanged they all knew what needed to be said already. Vinyl finally found herself ready to stop crying. Sunset was right, a time would come when she would tell Octavia and when that time came for better or worse it would be worth it. It might not be now, It might not be next week but when she did she could finally know she had been brave enough to not run and hide from herself or her feelings.

Sunset left first after a brief whisper exchange with Fluttershy turning back to the school doors as the pink haired girl moved a bit closer.

"Umm... Vinyl I want to help so-o-o I'm gonna tell you something I've only ever told two other people..."

/l---)O(---/l\

The end of the school day saw Octavia riding the bus home with her cello beside her. While she enjoyed her lessons with Fluer she had to admit that the walk home she had to take was a bit tiresome and often she found herself wishing that the bus schedule coincided with her lessons. At the moment she was having trouble staying still and not fidgeting in excitement. Fluer De Lis had called her before school to let her know she had secured the spot for her to have a solo performance and even a mention in the venue! Safe to say it had taken up all of Octavia's mind all day and she had trouble thinking or focusing on anything else.

When the bus came to it's stop at the crystal apartments the Cellist heaved her cello up and began to make her way towards her home. As she disembarked she felt a rough shove on her left shoulder and a quick glance forward showed a Dark two toned stretch of long purple hair and the showy cloths one would expect the daughter of the schools dean to wear.

"Oh my Octavia I didn't expect to see you here! I expected you would be off with that Dike girlfriend of yours Mute Mouth!"

The raven haired girl had not had to try this hard to keep her poise and not strike the girl in front of her since the time she saw Snips and Snails messing with her cello in the music room.

"Vinyl is my friend Amethyst, I would kindly ask you not to be so rude towards her."

"Really no snappy comeback this time? Not to mention you never said I was wrong about you being her girlfriend, that said I'm not surprised you probably hopped in bed with her right after she beat up Bulk's brother! Oh and by the way just so you know I can rat you out to your parents any time I want so watch your step, I own you now!"

"I-I..."

"Oh poor Octavia, at a loss for words all of a sudden? Tell you what, keep your mouth on that mutes crotch where it belongs!"

"You know what? At least I'm not so full of hate from my abusive father that the only way I can be happy is to be a sadist! You may be high and mighty now but once high school is over you'll just be another average airhead heiress living by licking her parents boots!"

Red faced and not as good at holding her temper Amethyst recoiled her hand and brought it back across Octavia's face. The slap echoed across the open area as the cellists head reflexively turned downward and her hands came up to her hurt face as her cello case fell to the ground with a thud. Through the ringing in her ears she could hear the girl in front of her yelling something with hate but suddenly the shouting turned to a scream of fear. When Octavia came back to her senses she was once again faced with an angry and vengeful blue haired girl.

/l---)O(---/l\

At first on her walk home Vinyl had been feeling a lot better about herself and her emotions. After her talk with Sunset and Fluttershy. She had even felt well enough after some venting and compassion from her friends to be able to make it through the rest of the day. She was on her way home getting close to the Crystal Apartments when the bus her beloved Octavia took went passed her.

"Maybe if I hurry I can meet her as she gets off the bus! I may not be ready to tell her how I feel just yet but maybe I can ask her if she wants to spend some time together this weekend!"

She picked up her pace as the bus got a bit farther away. She assumed she would have about a block to go by the time the bus stopped at the waiting station so she would probably have line of sight of Octavia by the time she rounded the corner, that is if Octavia didn't head straight inside. When she got closer she could hear Octavia's melodic voice but as she neared her black haired angle she could tell that she was fighting with somebody. She rounded the corner and had line of sight just in time to see Amethyst slap Octavia across her ear and side of the face.

Something in Vinyl snapped when she saw that happen. Her good mood was dead but she was no longer sad, she was enraged. In seconds she had dropped her backpack and was charging a surprised Amethyst Star at a speed Rainbow dash would find impressive. Her enemy barely had time to scream before she was tackled to the ground having blows rained upon her all over. Their was no aim, rhyme or reason to were Vinyl struck her. All the rage, sadness, confusion, frustration and hate she was feeling was being channeled into her fists, she struck her in the chest, stomach, gut and anywhere else she could land a blow.

Her usual pale skin was crimson with rage and she could hear something in the background but not enough to be intelligible. It wasn't until she felt a soft hand on her shoulder that she saw sense enough to stop swinging blindly. Somehow that touch and it alone whipped away her rage like it had never been there. She knew who was trying to stop her before she even looked behind her. Breathing heavily she climbed off of the crying Amethyst who as soon as she could scrambled to her feet and ran painfully into the entrance of her home. Vinyl finally caught her breath enough to see a teary and frightened Octavia in front of her.

"Vinyl why did you do that? Do you have any Idea who her father is? Do you have any Idea what you've gotten yourself into?" She exclaimed through sobs in a shrill voice.

The DJ Instantly felt ashamed of what she had done and began fumbling through her pockets for her notepad or phone whichever she found first.

"Vinyl why did you do that?" Octavia said quieter still crying from the intensity of the scene she had just witnessed and the sheer shock of the experience.

The Blue haired girl stopped fumbling in her pockets trying to figure out how to convey why she had acted that way. Looking at the developing bruise on the Cellist face she reached out and gently cupped her palm to it before pulling Octavia in for a hug. No words were said but the raven haired girl knew what Vinyl meant instantly.

"You did all this because she slapped me?"

Vinyl withdrew from the hug but kept her arms on her Octy's shoulders nodding, shame written on her face.

"Vinyl her father is the dean! He could have you expelled from school! do you have any Idea what you've done to yourself?"

Her head got lower and a few tears fell to the pavement as well.

"Damnit Vinyl you worry too much about everyone except yourself! You are so reckless!"

Vinyl had gone back to crying quietly her face towards the ground and tears raining on the pavement. Octavia swayed her head from side to side in a mix of frustration and worry before hugging her friend and leaning the crying girls head on her shoulder and shushing her quietly.

"Come on were gonna go upstairs to my house and get you some tea. You'll feel better with some food and a hot drink."

Vinyl nodded and slowly backtracked to grab her backpack before returning to Octavia. Ushering the girl towards the doorway the pair made their way towards the inviting apartment above.

/l---)O(---/l\

While most of Vinyl bruises from her fight with Granite brick where healing well, those on her hands were now freshened and painful again. She even had small cuts on her hands from the ferocity her strikes had wrought and it was likely that at some point it the commotion Amethyst had used a book or something as a make shift shield given the present damage. Octavia sat across from her friend who at the moment was staring into her mug like the secret to longevity was in their somewhere. Cupping the small porcelain tea cup in her hands the cellist lifted it from the saucer and took an awkward sip before setting it down. Finally deciding to break the Silence she spoke.

"I'm not mad at you Vinyl I'm just...mad about what the consequences of this could be. I don't want to see you get expelled and there is no way this isn't going to be all over the school by tomorrow with the way the student body is! My parents will no doubt be upset about the whole ordeal as well and will want to wash their hands of every aspect of it they can."

Vinyl gave a heavy sigh through her nose. pulling out her pad she scribbled a question, one she feared the answer to.

"Do you still want to be friends? If you don't I can leave, it's probably the wise thing for you to do."

"Oh Vinyl of course I want to stay friends! You have to be one of the most loyal people I've ever met even...even if sometimes you take it too far."

The DJ felt relieved as she gave another huge sigh through her nose.

"But Vinyl, we have to be secretive about it. My parents won't like this one bit and...I'm scared of what could happen if they found out I was still spending time with you."

With a perplexed look Vinyl wrote another message out.

"What do you mean?"

"Vinyl my parents are very influential and are extremely...fussy, about their public image. If they found out we were friends after all this...they would do whatever they could to make sure we never talked again. I wouldn't even put it passed them to ship me to Baltamare for a private school like they did to my brother when he *ehem* made certain friends, that liked to smoke a certain plant, that is not legal in certain places."

Vinyl nodded in understanding before responding.

"I suppose I should stay away from your recital then. Your parents will want to see you play and if I'm there it would cause problems to say the least."

"Actually you can still come just be discreet, my parents won't be attending."

Vinyl quirked a curious eyebrow.

"They would come if they could trust me, it's a big event, but they were just asked to come to a business conference that is more pressing. If you come they won't be there to stop us spending time together."

Vinyl cheered up a bit at that and gave a small smile as she wrote her last reply before holding it up for Octavia to see.

"Thanks Octy. I promise I'll be there."