Close to the Edge

by King_Again

Rating: teen
Tags: Equestria Girls, Tragedy, Dark, Sad, Drama
Length: 2047

It's prefectly normal to cry and say your not okay, but why doesn't it feel normal?

I'll admit it, I'm not okay! I'm broken, hurt, sadden, and pushed! I've lost the only thing I could call friend, could call loved one, and now, how am I going to deal with my actual friends pushing me around with favours and stuff? I could only think of one way, ending it, but can I pull myself to do it? Or will something stand in my way? My own friends stand in my way, but what if I forgot them? My memory lost is taking over me, and the only one of my friends I can remember is my best friend…. Will my best friend be enough to stop me? Or will even my best friend fail to save me from the darkness?

Warning!
Acts and thoughts on Suicide! And almost committing!

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2016-08-24 20:15:03 UTC

Memories forgotten

Hunter's POV

I'm on the edge of committing! I can't stand it! My fucking life is one big fucking lie! No one cares! My friends only use me for favours! They never repay me! So why live!? They won't miss me! They'll find someone else to boss around! I'm useless! I'm broken! I'm...I'm one big fucking mistake! So why live!? My parents don't know, and they never will! I keep all thoughts to myself! I write in my notebook in class, saying I'm worthless and stuff like that, one day it'll all end. That day, will today! After school, I don't want to see the ones I call friends! So cares about me anyway? I know no one does, so why brother? Why brother being alive? Something needs to be done, and I know just the thing....Committing Suicide, they won't know. I didn't tell them my feelings, they don't have the right to! If they cared then, they wouldn't use me for favours! They would see that their friend does mind! They wouldn't guess that their doesn't mind, they would ask first! But they don't....

If they truly cared for me, then they would've seen I'm broken...

One fucking lie! My so called friend, Rarity, asked me for a favour! I say the only answer they would even hear, yes. Why? Why did I have to say yes? It ends in the same way, her not thanking me...I'm done with life now. It's not worth it! I better get it over and done with, I'm so saying we're done being friends after this! I've fucking had it! Once I got back to Rarity, she turned to me and smiled, fucking great! The same damn thing! It's always, Smile and he'll go away! Perfect! Fucking Perfect! I walked away from all my friends, even my best friend, they didn't notice, they never did. Everything was the fucking same for me, doing favours, being ignored, and being pushed, kicked, and hurt! Every god damn fucking day! Fuck! I hate my life! Fucking perfect day to end it, isn't it!? I'm mad, and that's not good. I have anger issues, but I'm also color blind and sometimes, I go deaf! It's common in my family, my father and mother are lucky, since they don't have it. But I do! My friends don't know....

If I can make it through this school day, I can make it through anything...Right?

I heard the fucking bell ring, great...Fucking math block, always math first. I didn't sit beside my best friend nor my friends, they didn't care, I only saw them gazing at me with confusion. What? Do they need fucking favours?! I'm done, I can't anymore. It's almost time...Almost there...At the end of school, head straight to the roof, look down and jump, nothing more... And nothing will hurt, just like they said, it's fast and it won't hurt right? Right. It won't hurt, some guy said so, right before he jumped off a roof...So why not? Why not try?! It's the only fucking way.....Uh-oh....I'm feeling dizzy, not in math! Not here! Not now! I also have this thing, I don't know what but, I always find myself getting dizzy in random places at random times, and then I pass out....I swear if I pass out, it better let them know what I feel! Damn, my head feels like it'll explode! Fuck! I need a drink or something! I can barely hear too, is that the teacher calling my name? I can't see right, I'm not blind but still.....No....I'm about to....About to.....

Thump

My head, it's hurting badly, huh? Who? I can see some heads, who do they belong to? I still can't hear anything....What happened? My god...Is that? No, it can't be the principals right? Maybe it is....Not even they know about my problems I have...No ones here? I can't see anything and my head hurts! I feel dizzy again, sorry whoever trying to wake me up....I gotta go back to sleep....I'm taking a guess at this point, they must be scared and concerned about me....I want something to hold on to, is that a hand? It feels warm....Please, let it be someone I love and know...Just please...Let it be someone I know at the least! It's all blur at this point in time, I feel weak, like I killed myself or about to, someone please it hurts...I wanted to tell, wanted to talk about it...But no one listened, not a soul....So please, let it be someone who'll listen to me....

"I think he's coming through!" That voice...Is that....The teacher or the Vice-Principal...Please, I didn't want this at all, wait...Six heads...Who are they? Is one of them my best friend? Sunset? Please! Help me! "He's ok! But I think he may have memory lost..."

"But just from a pass out? How?! And why!?" Sunset, my best friend...The one who truly cares....No one else, I can remember that voice any day and anywhere! But she doesn't care right?  She's like everyone else isn't she? "Please! He can't have memory lost! He's my best friend! I can't lose him!"

She does care, but why? Why? I'm a mistake! Nothing else! Fucking why does she care!? I'm worthless! Useless! And so much more! No one cares about me! Everyone could hate me! But, why? Why only her? What gave her the right to care about me? Just why? Why? WHY!? Sunset, if you really did care about me, then why didn't you ask if I was okay? Did you just think I was? Did you just assume I was fine and happy? Not Sad and broken? Please, I need to know! I need to know why? So, please...Tell me....I just want to know about how much you care about me...

"I don't know, but also we don't know if he has memory lost yet..."Something tells me, that you'll know in due time, and it'll hurt me way more after the day's ended. Because, that's when I'll be gone and out of this world, I don't need their thoughts on the matter or choice that I've made, I just don't. "Sunset, calm down. We'll find out soon, if he does, then he does. If he doesn't then, he doesn't. You can't control things like this.."

"NO! You don't get it! I could always tell there was something he was hiding! He never told me, but I wish he did! I care about him!" She does...? What? Someone actually cares for and about me? What!? Why!? Why didn't I tell her!? She could've asked! I would've fucking told her about it! I would've told her fucking everything!

Feelings told

Sunset's POV

It was scary to see him just black out like that in class, I didn't know what to do either, yet our friends only stared at him like he was nuts. Deep down I knew something was up with Hunter, but he never said anything. I keep seeing writing things in his notebook, on his own time of course, but I'm guessing it's not good. Whenever we're going somewhere, he was trailing behind, I did stop and walk with him, but Rainbow Dash kept calling towards them. Like's it he's their favour and worker guy, they never say thank you, expect for Fluttershy, but other than that, nothing. It's scary to see him like that, but it's also weird to see that, I just wish he told me about what was wrong. Hunter's not easy to get through, when we meet him, he was quiet and sometimes he wouldn't talk to just. At first we thought he was mute until he talked, then came the hearing issue. He went deaf sometimes in class, he was also color blind too. I figured that out by him getting his colors mixed up once in class too.

I swear if he doesn't tell me soon, I'll ask him myself. No one deserves to be like that, nor does anyone deserved to be pushed around, sure sometimes it good to point out the mistakes but not always! Sometimes, you can really push it to their edge, yet I keep thinking that he's on his edge too. No matter where I go, I just can't help but see him being sad, Fluttershy keeps saying that he'll be okay, but I know he won't. When we figured out that he had color blind, the favours popped up, they gave him colors he could mix up easily, unknown to them, I helped him out. He was never thanked, it hurt him, I could see that. They wouldn't take him seriously, so why brother being friends with him? Sure Twilight wouldn't be happy with them, but, she's in Equestria. So, if Hunter needs help, I'm helping him, no matter what.

"Ah! Hunter! Your okay!" He looked at me, then at our friends, he gave them a confused looked but me, a normal one. Did he really lose his memories? If he did, then....Why did he give me a normal look instead of a confused look? Could he only remember me? "Hunter? You okay? Say something....Please."

"Sunset? Who are they? What happened?" He looked at our friends, so he only remembered me. Why though? Why could he remember only me? "Sunset? Please tell me....I want to know...."

I could only tell him the truth, but he looked like he didn't understand who they were at all. He only got more confused, shit. He really did have memory lost, fuck! Now what? Damn it, I wish I knew what to do! My friends only looked at me, it didn't seem like they cared at all, only I cared for him. I would always care for him, but what was he feeling? "Hunter, how do you feel?" No answer. "Hunter, come on! Tell me! Please! I need to know!"

"Broken." Huh? Broken? Why? "Sad, pushed....On the edge....So many things that aren't good." Hunter....Shit. If you told us before your memories were lost then...."I want to go home...." Hunter, maybe you should go, but your in not shape to walk, let alone stand up...."Please, I just want to leave...."

"Hunter, your not in good shape to walk or even stand up! Your hurt yourself if you do! Hunter, lay down." I swear no matter what they stayed quiet, most students were trying to see what was going on, but the teachers stood in their way..."Hunter, please I need to know. Why didn't you tell me before?"

"Afraid. I was afraid you would think less of me...." Think less of him? I wouldn't have, he's great the way he is! So why? Why would he think that? "Sunset, where am I?" He doesn't remember?

"Y-your in School! You passed out in school." He gave a confused, yet painful, look towards me. Please don't tell me that he forgot me too! "Hunter, you okay?"

"I....I don't go here....I go somewhere else...." Somewhere else? No he doesn't, he goes here. "What...Happened?" The same question as before, even if his memory is that bad, then, can he forget things easily? "Sunset, who are they?"

"Hunter, you asked that before! And I said they were our friends!" Nothing, he only looked at them, then, he stared going pale. Was he okay!? Shit! He didn't look alright! No...No don't tell me he's going to die! "Hunter!? Are you alright!? You look pale!"

"Tired. So tired. Just need rest and I'll be fine..." Why don't I believe him on that? I can't tell if he saying lies, but something tells me, it's a lie, I hope he's telling the truth on that. "Don't worry....."

"HUNTER! Shit! Come on! Wake up!" He's...He's still breathing, that's good. But....It's odd to see him like this, he's broken, sad, pushed, and hurt, yet he could've told me before all of this..."Hunter, why? Why didn't you just say something?"

"Sunset, ah don't about this." Them, maybe they had something to do with this! His so called Friends could've done something to him. "Maybe he ain't going to make it."

"SHUT UP! You guys could've done something to him!" I felt rage, madness, and more, but seeing how this wasn't end so easy, I knew it would be one rough week for all of us. Mainly for Hunter.