My mental process during this

“Come on come on this is the start to an original idea you made! Write the opening Damn it!”

Standing in a room pacing back and forth in an apartment complex is a Texan nerd that refuses to give more information to the people reading this that. He was currently contemplating his thoughts on what to do.

“You know you love this idea! You made it all your own and all the comments in the story love how insane this is. Make the Damn story!”

‘Oh what’s the point. I don’t know what the hell im doing. I want to be a writer hopefully for a TV show at the very least one day but how the hell if I can’t even make a complete story. Every time I tried winging it before collapsed under the writer's block.’

“Shut up! You can do this! All you have to do is stop procrastinating at every opportunity and actually get some work done you lazy ass!”

‘But it’s not just procrastination I have college things to deal with now. I also have many chores to do, personal hygiene, money management, getting groceries, school projects, trying to find a job and actually doing it.’

“Then find a time during the day between all this crap and actually work!”

‘But then it just feels like work I’m not getting paid for!”

“That’s what’s a hobby is so you can develop a skill that can potentially help you later in life! It would also help! It would also help if you put off your Binging of TV shows, movies, comics, and fanfics!”

‘There for research!’

“You literally haven’t made another story in years and any time you do get in on a project hit give up halfway through by losing interest, No matter how planning you do!”

‘I lose interest because when I actually write the story down I see how bad my writing is and I feel insecure and stop. Is that what you want me to say?!’

“...Wow I am messed up in the head. Maybe I should just hire an editor to help and a proofreader?”

‘HOW! I KEEP COMING ACROSS HUNDREDS OF COMMENTS ON MULTIPLE FANFIC INCLUDING MY OWN AND THEY NEVER SAY HOW TO GET ONE!!!’

“Now hold on there was that one we found he was nice.”

‘We have to pay him to do it. We already have budget issues we don’t need more.’

“Wait is that how you get editors and proofreaders on this site. I just find them in pay them?”

‘As far as we know.’

“What are we gonna do about this story. It’s obvious I need to restart and rethink it but every time I write the pressure of quality and my own insecurities and my need to procrastinate keep getting to me.”

‘Well it’s been over a year maybe we should at least inform the fans and our current situation and give it straight why this hasn’t been updated in so long.’

“Yea that sounds good. Plus we can’t decide how to handle these characters that doesn’t feel cliche or boring. We don’t know shit about characters chemistry.”

‘How do you want to write this to them?’

“How about something meta?”

‘Eh… why not?’

Author's Note

I am not actually this crazy but this is basically the reason I have not been writing. I figured I owe you guys that.

I don’t know what to do.