Not okay...

by WhisperScale

Rating: everyone
Tags: Slice of Life, Sad
Length: 1185

Everypony is concerned about starlight

Starlight hates herself and she doesn't care what happens to her anymore…

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2016-10-07 19:49:37 UTC

the start

Starlight ran through the halls of the castle."Bye twilight!" she shouted in a seemingly quiet voice.

    "Starlight wait i need to talk to you!" Twilight exclaimed appearing in front of her

     Starlight froze "s-sure whats up twi!"

    "Are you okay?...you have been acting odd recently..where are you going?"

    "Just to help Sunburst i guess"

    "You guess!?"

    "I mean i-i'm fine and i'm going to help sunburst!"

   "Okay,you are not fine one-you are clearly sick" two-you are clearly upset!"

   "I umm have to go now!" starlight said while quickly teleporting outside.

   "Ughh where is spike when i need him!" Twilight sighed in defeat

   "Good morning Starlight!" Sunburst greeted  with his usual nervous smile.

  "Oh hey sunburst" Starlight said dully.

  "So well.." Sunburst struggled to say but eventually managed. "twilight was talking to me yesterday and she said you were acting strange  again..."

  "And?" Starlight yawned

  " Twilight and i are concerned about you that's all"

  "Well i don't want to talk about it so lets just help set up the harvest day celebration...like we came here to do!?"

  "No way!" Sunburst said sternly but softly.

  "What do you mean no!?"

  "Starlight you are  clearly sick and also please tell me what is wrong!"

  "Fine!" starlight shouted in a croaky voice..."i hate myself i hate my life and i just don't care what happens to me anymore cause whatever it   is  i deserve it!" starlight cried before running away

"But Starlight i care" he whispered before following her

starlight?

"Starlight" Sunburst shouted quickly catching up."did i say something?"

"nope it's not your fault i'm a screw-up"

"I don't think that you are a screw-up" he replied.

"That's because you are too nice to say anything" she said tensely

"Do you want to be alone?" he asked as calmly as he could

"No it's fine, i guess its actually quite reassuring to know that you are still here after everything"

"And i always will be"

"Sunburst"

"Yes?"

"Thank you"

Sunburst did not react to her gratitude and instead  he once again attempted to get her to go back to the castle.

"so do you want me to walk you back to the castle?"

"sure i guess" she sighed in defeat

once they arrived back at the castle twilight greeted them at the door and whispered "thank celestia for that to sunburst"

"Starlight i need to talk to sunburst but spike is in the other room if you want to talk to him" she said with a fake smile.After making sure starlight was out of the room twilight turned to sunburst.

"So is she okay?"

"no"

"whats wrong with her!" twilight exclaimed in concern.

sunburst then proceeded to tell twilight everything while she nodded in concern.

"you know sunburst,Starlight needs help and considering what happened today i think she would listen to you more than me.

"really?" sunburst asked while adjusting his glasses.

"yes" twilight simply replied

                                                              -meanwhile-

"Hi spike" starlight greeted

"Hey starlight" spike said with a look of concern over his face

"what now !?"

"nothing its just you don't look so good and twilight said she was worried"

"it's just a cold no big deal" Starlight replied sharply

"still, maybe you should  get some sleep?"

"too much on my mind to sleep just now"

"okay.." spike said with concern still in his voice

"lets just sort these books?" starlight said changing the subject

"no,i will sort the books you just sit down"

"ughh fine i am going to see what Twilight And Sunburst are doing

"Hi starlight"

"Hello Twilight"

sunburst paused for a moment before adjusting hi glasses.

"Starlight?" he eventually asked

"hmm?"she replied not giving him her full attention.

"I have to umm go back to the crystal empire now will you be okay?"

"sure i guess"

"i need to talk to you later so i guess i will see you then?'

"sure whatever" starlight sighed

"bye starlight" he said still a little concerned

"Well done Twilight thats a great idea leaving a pony as shy and nervous as Sunburst in charge of her!" spike whispered in a sarcastic voice

"it's the best i can do spike" twilight said a little unsure

"so i will be in my room since nopony will let me do any-achoo! thing" starlight tried to say while letting out a quiet sneeze.

as soon as Starlight got in her room she locked the door and started to cry and an hour later she fell asleep.

the Crystal Empire

"So-rry i am l-late princess" sunburst stuttered.

"It is okay Sunburst Twilight already told my everything"

"that was fast" sunburst gasped

"well yes,you would be surprised about the things Twilight does when she is worried but i believe she was exaggerating. something about if she doesn't fix this starlight will be in jeopardy and that will make her the worst mentor ever?"

"more like i will be the worst friend ever"

"and why would that be?"

"because if i can't help her then i will have failed her as a friend...i want to help her but i can't"

"as long as you are both still there for each other then that is all that counts" cadence assured

"i guess that makes sense" sunburst agreed

getting worce

"Starlight?"

"oh hey twilight" starlight said sleepily yet still coldly

"sorry to wake you but i just wanted to make sure you were okay."

"yes and no" starlight yawned.

"okay do you need anythi-

twilight was interrupted mid sentence by spike.

"twilight leave starlight alone, will you?"

"but i was worr-"

"Twilight!"

"okay okay fine i will just be a minute."

"i give up" spike sighed.

"okay so your temperature is pretty high so you should probably stay here" twilight said rather creepily

"ugh Twi i think i will be fine and could i be alone for a while?"

"oh right sorry" twilight apologised sheepishly before leaving the room quietly.

it wasn't long before starlight fell asleep again, only to be awoken by Spike who was informing her that Twilight went out

"spike?" starlight said getting out of bed.

"yes Starlight?" Spike replied in his usual happy tone.

"do you think twilight is overreacting again?"she paused for a moment."i mean this is my problem not hers right?

"oh you think Twilight freaked out" he sniggered for a while."you should have seen Sunburst he had a panic attack because he was worried about you!"

"That is just how sunburst is Spike" she paused again. "it doesn't mean anything"

"of course it does!" sunburst corrected from the doorway with Twilight by his side.

"Spike i told you to leave Starlight alone!" twilight shouted.

"actually it was me who told you that and she actually wants me here unlike you"

"What is your problem spike!"

"my problem is you twilight!"

"why!"

"you know why" spike shouted  while Twilight stormed out of the room.

"so i will ugh come back tomorrow" Sunburst whispered.

after making sure they were alone Starlight turned to Spike.

"what was that all about?"

"well"

"well what?" starlight asked curiously.

"this may be hard to believe but Twilight was flirting with Sunburst!"