Derpy's Dream

The three made their way up to White Tail. In the time it took to travel there, the sun had begun to set, and a marvelous array of colors flooded the sky. Reds and blues collided and made purples, and the green and browns of the trees seemed to wash out and blur into the sky, making it the most beautiful sight Derpy had ever seen.

“This is really a something huh Derpy.” Said Skyblue, observing the scenery.

“…  Yeah…” said Derpy, with delay, she was too busy marveling at the splash of colors that illuminated the slowly darkening sky.

“You know, back when we were fillies, the switch from Day to Night was nowhere near as graceful as it is now.” Added Krest, as the sky began to take a dark blue, and the curtain of night drooped low across the red sky.

For a little while longer, the three just observed the gorgeous sky, and until darkness consumed every last once of color, not a word was said. And they moved the highest point of White Tail they could see.

“This really is something.” said Krest,  “But I gotta head outta here, I’ve got a date with SureFire!” She ended an a happy, energetic note, as she flew off, back towards Ponyville. "I'll see ya tomorrow guys!"

“Bye Krest!” called Skyblue with a smile for her friend.

I feel like something just punched my heart. Derpy thought to herself.  Skyblue, looked at Derpy, who hadn’t said a goodbye to her friend. Derpy looked like she had just run a marathon, her breathing became more sharp, and her mouth hung ajar.

“What’s wrong Hun? You look exhausted!” asked Skyblue, sounding very concerned.

“Nothing… I… I just…” slowly, tears began to run down her face, everything seemed to be slowing down.  Oh god… I can’t believe it… More tears ran down her face, Skyblue was holding her now and trying to say something to her, but all Derpy heard was muffled speech, Derpy hugged Skyblue. I can’t believe it, I’ve lived my whole life, not knowing what love is. She was sobbing on Sky’s shoulder now, Sky kept hugging her, and was saying something, but her voice was drowned out by Derpy’s thoughts. All the emotion she’s ever felt, every feeling, was bottled up, and now, it was all hitting her in one moment. Everypony thinks I’m retarded! All I wanted was to be normal, why can’t they see that? Suddenly, Skyblue’s words shone through with such pristine quality, Derpy channeled all her focus to hear Skyblue.

“Derpy, its ok, I’m here for you. Please Derpy, stop crying, the weight of the world is heavy, I know. But we all have to share the same planet, and weight it brings, its ok, I’m still with you. I won’t leave.”

Her voice sounded so clean, her words were so soothing, Derpy’s tears ceased and she looked up at Skyblue, her eyes were aligned with hers, Derpy’s looked sore, but they stole away the world for Sky looked back into them. Sky’s smile was the most calming thing Derpy had ever seen, all of the wonders she had seen tonight had no chance in competing with what Derpy saw in Sky’s smile.

“I’m sorry I broke down like that.” Derpy apologized, feeling guiltier due to the overwhelming beauty of Sky’s smile.

“Derpy, I understand, and that doesn’t matter. We all cry, life’s a tough burden, and sometimes the weird things make us break.” Said Skyblue, bolstering Derpy’s mood.

“Wow, you’re right, I never really put much thou—“Derpy was cut off by Sky pulling her into a kiss, though merely a second long, it felt like an hour. Derpy felt shock at first, but then affection. The one person that really understood her, is kissing her, she just had shown Derpy that she cared for her to. The world around Sky went dull, and she was the only thing that mattered. Derpy closed her eyes, and almost as soon as they closed, Sky pulled away. Derpy stopped her eyelids in mid descent, and saw Sky’s eyes slowly open back up, she was looking downward.

“That was my first kiss Derpy.” She said, very quietly, but Derpy heard every last syllable.

“Mine too.” Derpy replied.

Skyblue’s eyes made their way back up towards Derpy’s, and the moment they met, Derpy felt a sense of fullness that she had never felt before. Is this love? I can’t think of what else it may be. There was a pause, and then Sky’s eyes looked scared, fleeting even.

“I have to go, I’m sorry, but I have to go.” She said franticly, as she stood up.

“Sky, wait! I don’t understand?” cried Derpy after Sky, as she ran off. What did I do? Her eyes began to cross again, and some tears began to form. What did I do? She lied down quietly sobbing, What did I do? She began to fall to sleep, What did I do? Then finally, she was asleep. The sun was rising, but rain still fell, but it got lighter. The Earth beneath the shining sun was hit with such radiant light, that it shone like the cities of heaven. Marvelous reds, and blues, and greens are filling my eyes with brilliant colors. And a gorgeous Sky, not the sky, but Sky. What did I do wrong. I’m so sorry Sky.

Derpy eyes, fluttered, and she awoke from her dream. Why, why did she leave me? Is it because I’m a mare? Is it because of who I am? What did I do wrong? She got up, her feet trembled a little, and she looked down the edge of the cliff she was on. It was steep, and at least seven stories before any contact would be made with the rocks at the bottom. She turned around, walked down the path to the rest of White Tail. The sky was a light pink, as the sun peaked above the trees. The trees brown leaves, hanging on to the tree ever so diligently. Everything around Derpy had some significance to Sky leaving. Even if it had no direct relation to her at all, it still mattered.

Derpy’s eyes were hanging low, and half closed, she stopped looking up at the world around her as she re-entered Ponyville. Her head hung low, and her gaze was angled towards the earth directly beneath her. Her mind was empty, and she continued to walk, as she felt gazes of pony’s eyes. Whether they were in concern, indifference, or anger, they were unwanted. When she arrived at her doorstep, she saw that two letters were placed between the crevice in the door and doorway. She grabbed the two letters, and entered her home.

“One from Dr. Vinyard, and the other doesn’t say…” she said aloud to herself. She tossed the anonymous letter aside, and it slid on the floor beneath her bed, without her noticing. She opened the letter from Dr. Vinyard, and read.

Dear Derpy,

I’m terribly sorry to have to inform you of this ill news by pen versus conversation, but I will no longer be your mentor, you no longer require my services. And from what Krest has told me, you seem to be very capable and adaptable. I do believe that by now Krest is no longer the only one that knows you’ve been working on mental rehabilitation. And I’m sorry that we won’t be able to finish our lessons properly. The last lesson was to and pivotal one, but unfortunately due to personal complications on my part, that lesson will not be on hiatus, but cancelled. In case you are curious, there’s been a killing in my family, and due to the conditions of the situation regarding their death, I will not be able to tend to anything but my family. Please Derpy, stay safe, and remember that you’ll always have friends in this big, big world.

-Sincerely

Dr. Vinyard

Derpy re-folded the letter, fit it back into the envelope, and placed it on her bed stand. She sat down on her bed and thought to herself. What will happen now? No more meetings? He said I was ready, nut I’ve never felt more ill prepared. Why doesn’t he get it! She began to get angry and frustrated. No, there’s no way he’d ever know about that. It’s not his fault, he’s only ever helped me. But Skyblue, she abandoned me. She kissed me, and made me feel *loved*, for what? To leave and tear me apart! She only got angrier, but she held back the tears. I don’t care how many ponies see me, I’m going to find Skyblue and… and… give her a taste of the confusion and sadness I felt!

Derpy stormed out of her room, and out the door. She looked to the skies and took flight. She had never flown over Ponyville before, it really was a beautiful town. But then she spotted Sky, her yellow mane and blue coat. She was sitting down in the town park, it was mid-morning so adults were at work and children in school, very little amounts of ponies were populating the streets, let alone the park. Derpy nose-dived down towards her, and landed harshly feet in front of her, Sky was startled and jumped a little. Derpy came closer to her animate and began to yell.

“What the hell were you thinking? You left me there! Alone in the night! You just ran off right after you kissed me! What’s wrong with you! You made me feel as if I actually mattered! You were the first person to EVER SHOW ME AFFECTION! AND YOU JUST RAN!” Sky looked horrified, she was tearing, but there were already patches of her coat that had seen tears. Derpy took a step back raising on hoof slightly off the ground, look terrified at what she had just done. “I-I’m sorry… I-I… I’m sorry…” Derpy said, her voice quivering.

Sky’s eyes closed and she opened her mouth to yell, but nothing came out. She tried again and succeeded.

“How could you say that? Why don’t you understand!” once she had completed her sentence, she ran off, Derpy was awestruck, she couldn’t rap her mind around what had just happened, it was all too much. O god, the letter… It was from her! I’m so stupid! She took flight, and flew home fast than she’d ever flown before. She almost crashed as she attempted a high speed landing. She swung the door open. She flew up the flight stairs with one powerful stroke of her wings, and ran into her room. She searched her room for the letter, but to no avail. As she stood in the middle of her room, she fell to the floor in exhaustion. O god… what have I done? In her peripheral, she could see a white, dusty card, beneath her bed. She pulled it out, got up, sat on her bed, and read the letter.

It’s me Sky, I know you probably hate me right now but please try to understand. Derpy, I didn’t want to run away, I wanted to stay there with you for the whole night, but I was scared. The way those ponies were looking at us in the park, it scared me. I’m so sorry, I really do want to spend more time with you.

There on the cliff in White Tail, was the most magical moment of my life, and I’m sorry, but I didn’t want it to be. I was afraid, two mares? In this town? The town may look nice on the outside, but it’s full of prejudiced ponies. And the way they looked at you, the way they looked at me. I was scared. I’m so sorry, I didn’t think. Right after I left, I felt awful, I felt sick to my stomach. And I realized, I do have feelings for you Derpy. I hope you can accept my apology.

Skyblue

“O god, what have I done… I’m a monster… I can’t believe I yelled at her like that, what’s wrong with me…” Derpy said to herself. “I have to fix this, but how… “

“You can start with leaving the door shut.” It was Skyblue, she was in the door way of Derpy’s room, she had more tear tracks down her face, but she looked happy. Derpy shot out of her bed and walked quickly towards her, and Sky did the same. They met in a tight hug.

“I’m so sorry Sky, I was just so confused.” Said Derpy, with much empathy in her voice.

“It’s alright, that was then, and this is now, and we’re together. That’s all that matters.” Replied Sky. They broke from the hug and starred one another, again Derpy’s eyes were align with hers.

“You look real tired Sky, did you not get any sleep last night?” asked Derpy.

“No, I didn’t get any, I couldn’t fall asleep.” She said, and as she said this, Derpy noticed how listless she was.

“Here, I think we both need some sleep,” said Derpy as she started to make her way to the bed. “My beds a twin, so there’s plenty of room.” Derpy and Sky made their way to the bed and fit themselves beneath the covers. They both moved close to one another, and progressed further until they were in a close embrace. They began to slowly slip into sleep, and the trees outside the house seemed greener then they’d ever been before.