Hello Spike. Here I brought you flowers. Still playing the silence game are you. Well Spike... I cant be mad at you. Were I you I wouldn't forgive me either. I came here to say that I love you.
You might have heard from Rarity or Fluttershy that I am moving to Canterlot. Oh Spike it has nothing to do with you. Ponyville just feels like its moved on and I should respect that. There is really no reason to stay. Rarity is moving to Manehatten soon. Rainbow lives with the Wonderbolts now. Pinkie travels Equestria looking for sad ponies to cheer up and Starllight goes around Equestria with Trixie. Fluttershy... well Fluttershy... She and Applejack are staying in Ponyville but I don't think either of them like me much any more. Last time I went to AJ's she just shut the door in my face. I know it's what I deserve but it still hurts. Fluttershy is a recluse now. You are lucky she is still talking to you. You are the only one she talks to.
I know by now you have probably noticed my round belly. You always were perceptive. Spike don't worry I haven't forgotten about you. Oh Spike... I could never forget you. Flash Sentry and me are having foals and he and I think it is best if we move to Canterlot. That way he can still go to work. Princess Celestia say's having foals as an alicorn is very dangerous. She wants to keep an eye on me. This is probably the most important reason for me moving to Canterlot.
Ponies say that I will be a good mother. They say I was with you. Spike I don't think I was the best of mother's to you. I took advantage of you wanting to be my assistance and I ignored you right until the end... Don't forgive me Spike. you are to forgiving; I don't deserve to be your mother. Mother's look after their foals. They don't ignore them.
The funny thing is that ponies think I don't miss you. They think me heartless and cruel. Those ponies are probably right. However if they knew how much I cried in private I think they would know that I had some feeling in my cold heart. I miss you Spike, really I do. I miss your enthusiasm to learn and help. I miss your optimistic outlook on everything. I miss the warmth of your claws when you hugged me. I miss everything. Even though I didn't show it I loved you from the day you hatched. You were my world. But one day I was selfish and ignorant and it cost me everything.
"Twilight, Twilight!"
"Quiet Spike I'm trying to read."
" Twilight train!"
I felt myself being pushed far away from the rath of the train
" Spike no!"
" Twilight I--------------------
The day you left Spike. I can remember it as vividly as if I had just been there. I mean how can you not remeber a moment when it haunted your dreams for years. Every time I do something I have regret that you are not their to share it with me. Whenever I do something fun I feel guilty that I am the one have the fun instead of you. Sometimes when I am tired I find myself speaking to you as if you are still there with me.
Ponies don't know how horrible it is not to be able to grieve in peace. I should be able to explore my grief and let it out. It is hard to do that when the paparazzi follow you around like your not a pony with a life but some pony with a reality tv show and they are the film crew. Flash tries his best but I know that they are always ready to pounce. One step wrong and my face is all over the newspapers.
Oh no! The flowers are getting wet. Oh well I suppose they were a pointless gift anyway. The gifts I leave you you don't even touch so it is rather pointless leaving them. But even though I know that it is pointless my heart still says "mabey one more gift will bring him back" It isn't logical and I try and ignore myself but it is like an annoying friend that won't shut up. I have to give you something to appease my broken heart. Look at me stil being selfish. That's the one thing you can rely on. Me being selfish and arrogant. Flash says not to think of myself so lowly but Flash didn't know you or know how I treated you.
Oh spike look at the long speech I've ended up saying. To get to the heart of my speech I came here to say... I love you Spike please come home. I'll give you the best treatment I will give my life to you. Princess Celestia is going o be annoyed at me. She said I shouldn't get myself worked up. She said I should try and forget you. If I remember correctly that is when I shot a magic beam at her.
It's going to be high noon soon. We'll be heading to Canterlot. A new adventure. Woo hoo. If you couldn't tell Spike, that was sarcasm. I just need time to collect myself before I head to the air balloon. I can't travel by train any more for obvious reasons. Well Spike I'll see you later then. I love you my n- number one as-asi-assistant.
Here lies Spike coragous and kind
Brother and son
Loved by all who knew him
R.I.P
To the number one dragon
And every ponies best friend
Spike we will miss you.
You have made a dragon shaped whole in our hearts
- from all those who love you
( 1266- 1292)
