It Still Hurts

by Mashed Potatoes

First published November 5th, 2016 23:50

Spitfire, Soarin and Fleetfoot have been through everything together. But what happens if one leaves the journey, earlier than anyone expected? And what does Rainbow Dash have to do with it? Short poems told by 4 ponies' perspectives. Contains minor SoarinFire shipping.

Image for this story was drawn by a friend of mine, her name's not stated cuz she doesn't want it to be. Also inspired by StrachAttack on DeviantArt

Chapters

If Emotions Can Speak
An Accident
More Than A Best Friend
I'm Sorry

If Emotions Can Speak
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If Emotions Can Speak

Author's Note

So, I was just listening to these songs;

Just A Dream - From NightcoreReality - Song written by Nelly
Slipped Away - Advil Lavigne

And just got the idea of writing this... Btw I would recommend listening to one of these songs while reading this.

If Emotions Can Speak

Why?
Why does it still hurt?
Why does it still ache?

I loved you
I cared for you
Do you still remember?
That time I asked you...

"Umm, Spitfire, may I have this dance?"
I blushed deeply with fear that she might say no.
"Of course you may Soarin, you don't have to be so shy about it."

Of course I shouldn't have been shy
I should never be, not with her...

"Spitfire, can I ask you something?"
"Sure Soarin, you can ask me anything, you know that." I gulped, it's now or never.
"I love you Spitfire, I always have. You mean more than the world to me. It's okay if you don't want to but, do you want to go out sometime?"
I closed my eyes hoping for the worst. What happened next, I did not expect. Tears. Tears from the Wonderbolt captain herself, but not tears of sadness, tears of joy...

I was so happy you know
So happy that you said yes
I didn't know you'd go so soon
I wasn't ready
But no one would've ever been ready

"Spitfire NO!"
Her eyes pleaded for help
I dived after her
500 m
400m
300m
100m
50m
10m
Then she smiled
Smiled at me
A sad smile
"I'm sorry," she said, with tears in her eyes
THUD!

Do you know how much I cried for you?
How much I mourned?
And you know what?
It still hurts
I wanted it to be a dream
But it replays over and over again

I looked up to the sky. I wondered if you were there, up there, looking at me. "Oh don't be such a crybaby Soar!" you would've said. Fleetfoot put her hoof around me, and pulled me into a hug. For the first time, I could let my tears out freely, and so could she. For hours we just stood there, bawling our eyes out.

I will never be the same
No one ever will
No one could ever replace you

I stare at the horizon
Tears well out of my eyes
And for the first time in a long time
I smile

An Accident
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An Accident

I never wanted this to happen
No one did
You were my hero
My captain
My friend

I didn't think
Didn't think when I called your name
Didn't think you would lose focus
Didn't think you would crash
Didn't think you would fall

I can't undo the past
I can't bring you back
I can't apologise for taking away a leader
Taking away an idol
Taking away a fiancé
Taking away a sister
Taking away a friend

I remember when they rushed you to the hospital
I remember when they tried to bring you back, and failed
I remember when the gave the news

"I'm sorry" The doctor said. No. No! This can't be happening!
"NO!! She can't be dead! Not now! I never apologised! I never said goodbye!" Soarin comforted Fleetfoot as she was screaming.
"I'm sorry..." I said with tears in my eyes.
"This is all YOUR FAULT! If you hadn't been so careless I would still have a sister! Now she's gone forever!!' Blaze yelled to my face.
Misty Fly and Surprise was trying to calm her down. "It's okay Crash, it was an accident. Look I'm sorry Blaze is acting irrational. I think everyone is right now" Misty Fly said to me, looking at Fleetfoot, who was now thrashing about. Blaze was right. It was my fault...

When I was little
I used to look up at the sky
With hope
With happiness

Now I look up
Knowing I took a soul

It wasn't your time
I should have fallen
I should've been in that coffin
I should've been the one that was gone forever

Now you're gone
And I can't bring you back

I hope you can forgive me
I hope you can finally rest in peace
I know that I never will

And someday, I will get to see you again
To say sorry
To express my regret
To get punished

To get punished for my foolishness
To get punished for my carelessness
To get punished for my ignorance

I will never be the same
No one ever will
No one could ever replace you

And as I'm standing here upon your grave
I wonder
Will you ever forgive me?

Author's Note

I might add more, depends. I'all put in on incomplete just in case.
:derpytongue2:

More Than A Best Friend
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More Than A Best Friend

Shock
Complete and utter shock
How could I not be?
When my best friend just falls out of the sky?

I didn't want to believe
But I had to
Seeing you
So lifeless on the ground

All of those good times we spent together
All of those good memories we shared
Tell me Spitfire
Did you think I forgot?

"Spitz! Wanna go get popcorn and have a sleepover at mine tonight?"
"Sure Fleets I'll go tell my mom!"

That night was the best
All of the fun we had
The scary stories we shared

"Guess what?!" Spitfire ecstatically asked her bff.
"I have something really SUPER DUPER exciting to tell you, but you go first!" I was really hyped to tell her about the letter I received this morning...
"THE WONDERBOLTS WANT ME TO AUDITION!!!!" Spitfire squealed loudly,
"OMYGOSH ME TOO!!"

Remember how happy
How happy we were?
When we got accepted?

"All of the cadets have been given proper consideration, however, this year 5 cadets showed amazing skills. Soarin, Spitfire, Fleetfoot, Misty Fly and Rapidfire, you have all been accepted into the Wonderbolts. Congratulations!"

Those were the the best news
I have ever received
In my life

I'm sorry
We had a fight
I'm sorry I never got to apologise
I'm sorry I couldn't catch you
Like I promised

I will never be the same
No one ever will
No one could ever replace you

And I promise
The next time you fall
I'll be there to catch you...

Author's Note

I just wanted to say the last 2 lines I got inspired by Vynce in the story 'Every Fire Burns Out'

Peace out ✌️

I'm Sorry
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I'm Sorry

I'm sorry
I let everyone down
I'm sorry
I wasn't strong enough

Falling
Falling away like a rock
Tossed away from the sky

Pain
Pain from my wings
Pain from my heart
I can't let go

I'll never get to see
Get to see anyone
Ever again

Soarin
Fleetfoot
The Wonderbolts
I'm sorry...

I still remember all the good times
All the bad times
I had with you guys

Fleetfoot
I'm sorry we had a fight
I'm sorry I never got to apologise
I hope you forgive me
Even if I can't forgive myself

"You're just saying that so you can get my job!" I screamed at Fleetfoot. "No! I'm saying that because you're a pathetic flyer!!" She screamed back. "Well SO ARE YOU!!!" I yelled with rage
"Get out of my face! I never want to see you again! YOU WERE NEVER MY BEST FRIEND! I wish you would just DROP DEAD!!!!!!" I was left speechless as tears fall out of my eyes. I didn't need her.

Well, I guess your wish came true huh?

Soarin
I'm sorry I never got to say goodbye
I'm sorry we never had a chance
A chance to go on one more date...

"Wow Spitfire you look beautiful!" I blushed. He always knew how to make me smile. "Thanks Soar, not looking too bad yourself!" I replied. We sat down on our table, on the finest and most expensive restaurant in Canterlot. "What would you like to order mademoiselle?" The waitress asked. After we told her what we wanted, and then devoured it like crazy (we tried to hold back for professionalism's sake, but it was too delicious) Soarin flew me home.

Remember that date?
Our first date?

And now I'm falling
Falling away
From the heavens

You know
I will never be the same
Because no one could ever replace you guys
And I swear

I will never forget you...

THUD!

Author's Note

Well, that's all from me.

Peace y'all's! :ajsmug: