Teaching through mystical eyes

“Sorry Mesrian, I am pretty busy right now... why don’t you play alone for a while, mh?”

I snarled and frowned at against her.

“You never have time for me… Fine!” I shouted at her and turned around, headed towards the door, opeedn it and then slammed it with full strength.

And with that... I woke up.

“If it keeps on like this with the dreams... my weak heart can’t handle it anymore...”

It was still night, a silent night and it would be a quiet day too since it would be my and Spikes free day... and I had the whelp now at least for four weeks as my apprentice.

He made slow progress for what I could see... he was un-concentrated and a scatter-mind

He pretty much reminded me of myself when I was younger.

I stood up and went out of the cave, it was almost morning and the tip of the sun was already peaking from the horizon

“I should visit mother again...“ I said to myself and looked around.

“Or is she too busy?” I sighed and sat now on the ground, dug up some diamonds and stuffed them into my mouth.

Diamonds... I am sick of eating gemstones and diamonds everyday... rubies… Whatever.

I looked the last time to the sunrise, then spread my wings and then took off.

While I got into higher altitude I enjoyed the wind against my scales, the fresh cold air streaming through my nostrils right into my lungs, I closed my eyes and flew up as high as I could.

As the air got thinner and thinner I began to flap with my wings and look around in which direction I should fly, that decision was not difficulty since the towers of Canterlot Castle pierced through the clouds and were easy to spot.

I then soared towards the Castle, enjoying the flight as much as I could.

Every time when I would and had the chance to fly… the painful thoughts of the past and all that stress would just vanish and for a couple of minutes... I would have peace and harmony.

But as I get older and older... my chances to fly reduces every day for that my wings would not hold much longer.

But what can I do? I can’t escape death... no one can...

Many... no... Everybody say dragons don’t have fear... they don’t fear in any kind of way.

But I do... I have the fear to die alone... to… be alone..

For so many years I thought that I had hardened myself by living alone, but that’s dead wrong.

I still search for someone to be with... but what’s the point of having friends that only last for almost a century.

It only hurts to see how their light faint away since there is no more and you are left ... alone in the dark all by yourself.

Then see how your own little light faints as well… the light that doesn’t keeps the cold and the gloominess away in the cave that is called Equestria.

I tried to enjoy the sensation as much as I could while I was in the air, but then something caught me off guard... I looked down and saw that I already had arrived at Canterlot and could hear the shouts of the ponies.

I knew what would come next and landed softly on the garden in front of the castle.

Still having the thoughts in my head… I held myself back and looked upon the guard ponies.

They were armed, some of them looked like they were about to soil themselves… but some of them looked bravely and held their weapons firmly in their magical and winged grip.

I took a deep breath and spoke in an calmly voice:

“There is no need to raise your weapons… I come with only friendly intentions and only want to see the two Princesses.”

“Long time no see Mesrian, what is your reason that you came here?” Princess Celestia asked while sitting in front of me... I was getting sick off this game.

“Am I no longer welcome in the castle anymore? Where I was born and raised” I grunted

“And where you left us alone, where you left me alone...” Celestia looked angry at first, but her emotions changed into sadness and disappointed while looking to the side.

I sighed and moved slowly closer to her, nudging her slightly with my head.

“I am sorry... this is the only thing I can say and do... “

And with these words I spoke out, I couldn’t believe what I saw and heard next from Celestia.

The goddess started to sob slowly “It was so terrible... I... I thought I couldn’t live with this guilt anymore… first Luna... and then you... I... I couldn’t... I was so scared that you would hate me forever... s-scared you would get hurt... I was… I was...” Celestia broke into tears and I pulled her into my embrace.

I couldn’t bear the fact that the Princess was crying... I saw how the guards looked surprised about her reaction, but I responded with an simple frown against them.

“I missed you too… even though I could understand why you did this but... I just... I don’t know why I reacted like that” I mumbled and then closed my eyes...

I could remember it like it was yesterday:

I held the letter in my claws and read it:

“Mesrian I hope you’re fine, but, i want to get straight to the point. Luna is acting funny. She spends more time in her room and sometimes she doesn’t responds to me when I speak to her.

Would you please come back, maybe you can speak to her and bring her to tell us what is wrong, so we could help her.

Your one and only ‘waoghntie’.”

Even though the letter shocked me slightly I smiled at the last thing she wrote, I stood up and went to the entrance of the cave that I used as a temporary home near Stalliongrad and looked around.

I spread my wings and then lifted off the ground.

As I flew into the direction of Canterlot I had the feeling in my stomach that I didn’t want to go there, but... I was also happy to be home soon again.

It took me almost a day of flying and as I came closer to home I saw something weird... something unusual ... a dark misty Dome was around Canterlot. I stopped and looked closer at it, but then widened my eyes, I knew that this couldn’t be something good.

I got closer, but the wind was too stormy and  I could barely hold myself in the air, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath while concentrating to keep fighting against the wind around the misty sphere, I then shouted: “LOK VAR KOOR!” and the magic I casted influenced my surroundings, making the mist disappear around Canterlot, only to see that the garden and the city was a battleground, guards fighting each other and then I saw the two peeking out from the skirmish.

Both princesses were casting spells at each other, as I realized it I instantly landed onto the garden knocking off most of the guards off the ground.

But before I could say anything, the Elements of Harmony that Celestia had on, glowed brightly just like her eyes and she levitated over the ground, looking upon her own little sister saying with an echoing voice: “I am sorry to do this, but it is the best for us all”

I widened my eyes as a Rainbow beam erupted from her horn shooting towards Luna.

My body was shaking under Lunas scream as she got hit by the rainbow.

 as i looked back to the spot where she was and the bright light faded away... she was gone... the air stood still and the guards of Celestia, but also the influenced guards that were controlled by Luna laid their weapons down, looked like me, disbelieving to the spot where Luna was standing.

It took me a couple of minutes to comprehend what happened, but then looked furiously at Celestia screaming “WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!” I rammed my fists into the ground, leaving an imprint of them.

Celestia looked sad and turned around; the Elements of Harmony loosened from her and fell to the ground, slowly forming into grey stones.

“Mesrian?” I heard a familiar voice that took me out of my thoughts.

I opened my eyes and could see the dark blue mare smiling at me, Celestia as well looked over her shoulder to Luna while wiping her tears away.

She slowly trotted over to us saying: “I knew you were here somewhere near, but couldn’t somehow believe it...” she whispered and touched me with her front hoof just to be sure.

“I am sorry that I couldn’t come much earlier...” I said and nestled against her now, while closing my eyes and enjoying this moment as much as I could.

We enjoyed the moment for a couple of minutes and then talked about Spike, Twilight and her friends. I told them how he was progressing and asked them... some things as well.

“Don’t pressure him to hard, it’s only bad for him... and praise him when he does something right, don’t be so cold against the little Baby Dragon.” said Celestia while smiling towards me.

“But if I don’t make pressure then... he won’t make any progress at all.” I grunted.

“Did we ever put you under pressure, Honey?” Celestia smiled to me and she was right.

They never put me under pressure in any kind of way.

I then looked at Luna who laid besides me, almost drifted off into sleep and since she needs to watch the Night it was understandable.

“What do you say about this... Mother?”

It was so long since that word came over my lips again.

Luna opened her eyes slightly and smiled by saying:

“Just do your best and if you find it okay the way you teach him, then it is all right honey.”

“Well then... I think.. i should... go back” I said, I really didn’t want to disturb these two in their Duty and these Guards every time looked over to us and it was bugging me out.

“Hun? Do you still have something to do?” Luna spoke out.

“Well... no but I simply don’t want to prevent you two from your Duties.” I mumbled and Celestia just chuckled saying: “Well.. I think Luna can have today some free time... why don’t you stay for a while?”

Luna then looked to me up and smiled.

“You don’t prevent me from anything or even less disturb me.”

“Well then... I still have something to do, I’ll leave you two alone and I hope you’re staying here tonight Mesrian.” said Celestia and winked at me.

I smiled and nodded without really thinking about it, I turned my attention back to Luna, she slowly drifted into sleep as far as i could tell.

And since i was still slightly tired myself i decided to take a quick nap too, so I huddle around Luna and closed my eyes. Slowly drifting like her off to sleep with the Mare that parented me and for the first time after centuries i could sleep well and peacefully again.