Nightmares
She hardly even registered the rain. The most important thing in her life was just walking away from her, without giving a reason.
Vinyl Scratch was kicked in her sleep.
"Hey, watch it," she muttered. Then she heard Octavia murmuring, and it didn't sound like 'I'm sorry'.
"I've told you already, you aren't good enough. You were fun to be with for awhile, but did you really think this would last? I mean, we're not even into the same music, and that's the most important thing in my life."
"I thought I was the most important thing in your life..."
"Geez, did you really believe me when I said that? Music has always been the most important thing in my life, and it always will be. Get over yourself."
"Octi."
"Please...Please..."
"Octi!"
"Vinyl... No... I can change..."
"OCTAVIA!"
"WHA-!"
Vinyl looked down at the mare she was lightly shaking. Octavia looked back up at her, still crying and whimpering from whatever dream she'd been having.
"Octavia?"
"Vinyl... I was so scared..."
"Why? What happened? Was it the dream about showing up to your own concert naked again? Cus I told you last time, it's not like your collar really covers much anyw-"
She stopped when Octavia finally broke down completely. Her sobs grew louder, and her tears came harder. She collapsed into Vinyls arms, almost limp, for ten full minutes before she finally regained enough composer to face the beautiful white unicorn who was so obviously willing to help. How could I have ever thought she'd leave me?
"Never mind, Vinyl. It was just a stupid dream." Vinyl stared in response. Almost inaudibly, Octavia muttered, "Y-you left me..."
"What? Octi, you know I would never do that, right? You don't need to be so scared."
"Yes, I know... I love you, Vinyl."
"I love you too, Octavia. And I always will." Vinyl punctuated her declaration with a soft kiss. "Now, will you be able to sleep alright?"
"I don't know... I-I'm still pretty shaken..."
"Okay. I'll stay up with you."
"Thank you."
"I love you."
"I love you, too."
It was the fifth time that Octavia had had that dream, and every time it changed a little, reflecting whatever she was fearing. The first time had been triggered by her friends, Lyra and Bon bon, splitting up. She'd always pictured them as the perfect couple, so when they had their last big fight and Lyra left town, it had shaken her to her core. And all Bon bon had told her was that she hadn't been good enough for Lyra. But Vinyl was there that time. She helped more than any amount of hot chocolate or instrumental music could. But here she was, on the night before her birthday, all alone. She thought back to her dream, about what had changed.
"You aren't good enough... We don't even like the same music... Music has always been the most important thing in my life..."
'That must be it... Her stupid tour...' Vinyl had left for an Equestria-wide tour a week ago, and she was still away. They had a falling out over the timing, and how Octavia felt like she would be alone on her big day. Vinyl had assured her she would still have all her other friends (she had even convinced Lyra and Bon bon to be in the same room for ten minutes, but that was a surprise), but Octavia still felt like she would be abandoned.
'I have got to get over this, Vinyl will never leave me. Why is it so set in my subconscious that she will? It's just some bad dreams. I'll feel better after some hot cocoa and Beethoofen.'
Hundreds of miles away
Oh no.
She looked at the sleeping unicorn next her.
Oh no.
The mint colored unicorn would be on the earliest train to Ponyville the next day so that she would be there in time for Octi's birthday party.
How am I gonna explain this to her?
She was just supposed to be spending the night at Lyra's house. But... she had been so upset about not being able to be with Octi tomorrow... and Lyra tried to comfort her... and one thing just led to another...
She's never gonna trust me again.
But, then again... maybe she didn't even have to tell her... After all, she hadn't found out about Vinyl and Lyra's affair last year... the thing that had made Bon bon kick Lyra out of the house. Heck, Bon bon didn't even know it had been her, just that there had been an affair.
Yeah, I don't even have to tell her.
Vinyl settled to sleep, her hooves wrapped around Lyra's waist, as Octavia settled down for her third sleepless night that week.
Author's Note
Hi! This was my first story, so I hope you enjoyed it and thanks for reading!
The white unicorn sat alone at the table in her small apartment. She didn't want to be alone, but she knew she only had herself to blame for the turn of events.
"Get out!"
"Octi, just calm down...
"How am I supposed to calm down? You've been seeing another mare behind my back!"
"It was only one time, we were both drunk-"
"I don't care! You slept with another mare in our own home! How am I supposed to forgive you for that?"
"I-"
"Save it for your marefriend! She probably cares!"
And with that, Vinyl was locked out of her own house.
The gray earth pony sat on her bed. Her biggest fear had come true. She was all alone.
"You are not alone, Octi!" Bon bon shouted. "And you never will be. I'll always be here for you."
"That's the same promise she made me... I suppose now you'll go comfort her while I'm still crying my eyes out here... And how can you be here for me? You don't even know what I'm going through!"
It took every ounce of strength in Bon bon's body to not smack the sniveling excuse for a pony that sat before her. Of course she thinks that she thought I never told her, or anyone else for that matter, about what really happened with Lyra. The name was still a stab through her heart, after all this time. I was too embarrassed.
"Octi, I never told you exactly what happened between Lyra and me."
"No, I suppose you didn't, but what does that have to do with-" A horrible realization struck her. "Is that what you meant when you said you weren't good enough? That she had gone to somepony else?" She watched the cream mare nod. "Oh, Bonnie, why didn't you tell me? I always thought we were so close..."
"I didn't tell anyone... I think part of me imagined that if I didn't talk about it, it wouldn't hurt as much..."
"I think I need to be alone now..." She couldn't believe her two best friends in the world had lied to her... She needed time to process this...
"Alright... well, if you need anything, just call me, okay?"
"Yeah, alright." And with that, she was left truly alone.
Vinyl thought back to that afternoon. If only I had been more careful... This was a much easier thought than If only I hadn't screwed up so bad... She and Lyra were both drunk, that hadn't been a lie. The lie was that it had only happened once. The other times she had been sober, and at least had enough sense to rent a motel room. But even the time or two they hadn't, Lyra hadn't left her underwear in plain sight. And even if she did, Vinyl would have been able to hide them before Octi saw them, because instead of hiding under the covers with a massive hangover, she would have done her usual thorough sweep before she even got home. At least Octavia was so mad at her that it happened, that she kind of forgot to ask her with whom it had happened. She couldn't see Lyra just yet, though. She was so mad at the situation that she just rented an apartment and didn't plan to leave for another week, at least. For now, she just needed to be alone.
Author's Note
Hi! This was my first story, so I hope you enjoyed it and thanks for reading! Please give me some feedback in the comments if you have any, because I can only get better from here.
