Chrysanthemum

by TheEveryDaySparkle

Rating: everyone
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad, Queen Chrysalis
Length: 1005

Chysalis's Thoughts on her journey to feed her hive.

Queen Chrysalis is leader of the changelings, as well as their mother. She has spent years giving them love and affection and trying to find them other sources to feed off of, in case her own love proves to not be enough. And, knowing the minds of children, and how they crave attention, This might be the case. Knowing this, Chrysalis has attacked Equestria many times, and tried to make a home for her children. Now, she sits on her throne, tired of all the fighting, and saddened from her many failures, as she thinks about how she has gone through so much.

Published 2016-12-22 03:30:01 UTC
Last updated 2016-12-22 03:30:01 UTC

I'm Tired Of It All

"Oh how sad it is to be without a home. To have no place in the world and to be ostracized, shunned or altogether ignored by all those around you.

"This has been the life I have led ever since I led my first attack on Equestria. Oh how I regret it so.

"I did not truly intend to rule the empire. In fact, that was never my intention. I assure you my intentions were of the purest nature.

"I only wanted a place where we could be accepted into the world not as scum or as mere bugs, but as fellow citizens.

"I admit my methods were a bit...harsh, but...my children have been so hungry as of late and I know that my love alone cannot sustain them for too much longer. Soon they will become restless and seek out love on their own. So, in allowing them to feast off my love, I have been preventing the inevitable chaos they would soon cause. As is a mother's responsibility and duty.

"The Badlands are barren, devoid of life or love of any kind. What lies here is only dust and dirt and lost hope. The hope of my subjects which has long since left the hearts and souls of those I lead. It is a desolate place full of nothing but regret and pain and sadness and grief. Even more so for our kind.

"It is with this fact in mind that I attacked Equestria, trying my absolute best to overthrow the princess and take her place.

"Some may argue that I did not need to do such horrible things, that I could simply have talked to them and made our true desires known. And to this, I would wholeheartedly agree. However, being the animals that we are, survival is important, and so, I had to try.

"I knew that they would never accept us. That is exactly why we are in the Badlands in the first place. We were exiled there, as punishment for simply doing as our biology commands.

"We came upon Equestria in our search for a new home to inhabit. Once there, we took advantage of their hospitality and made a home for ourselves, but it was soon stolen out from under us by that horrid Princess Celestia.

"Still, I do not hate her. I never have, and I never shall, for I understand her desire. It is a desire I share with her. A desire to protect our children.

"However, it is because we share that desire that it is hard for me to understand why she cannot understand it.

"Is it because we look different from other ponies? Is it because we feast on love or because our appearance inspires fear? We will not, despite possessing the means to do so, change our appearance for the sake of another pony. I am surprised that in such a 'peaceful' country they could be so against others of a differing species. Frankly, I am appalled by it.

"Do we not share the same fears? The same worries? Do we not feel joy and happiness, grief and sadness in equal measure, just as they do? Do they think us unlike them to such a degree that we are to be ousted completely and kept from our goal, our dream, our destiny of a peaceful life with a happy home, all for the sake of satisfying their fragile, weak, narrow, self centered and fearful minds?

"Still, I cannot hate them, for it is simply within the basic nature of all beings to feel apprehension towards that which they cannot understand.

"I too was nervous upon my first encounter with a pony. I shivered and shook as I placed a trembling hoof into my new acquaintance's and accepted his offer of friendship.

"But that was back when they did not know of us. Back when I...was a different being. A kinder soul, a gentler one.

"See, my name was not always Chrysalis. I was once known as Queen Chrysanthemum, leader of the Changelings, and I was loved by all my subjects. I was a beauty to behold and I had everything I could ever want.

"I only took on the name Chrysalis when I attacked Equestria. We used to have many more hives scattered all around the Everfree. That is until it was closed off and had to be cleansed of all possible threats to Equestria. After we were sent there because of a misunderstanding that neither of the princesses cared to try and look into.

"That day many of my comrades died, and the rest were sent away to this wretched desert to rot in the blistering heat.

"That day, as my subjects sacrificed themselves in a battle they knew we would lose, I denounced my royal heritage and vowed vengeance upon them one day.

"I told them that one day I would return, and that Equestria would bow before those it had wronged, all for the sake of our survival, and to make them see their error in judgement.

"I can't take it anymore. Constantly being defeated only to return home like a coward with nothing but empty hooves to show for it.

"I feel as though even now my subjects are laughing at me. Ridiculing and mocking me and saying how worthless I am.

"And the worst part is, they would be right. I only desire what is best for my children, and yet here I am, a rouge queen with no actual achievements to speak of, much less a reason to live without the support of my dear changelings, or a single bit to my name.

"Nor do I possess the long sought after support of the ponies, the friends, that I so desperately want to forgive me.

"I would give anything for a chance to apologize personally to the great princesses, despite our many differences.

"After all, all I truly want, all we truly want, is a home to call our own.