"I was a kid once, I do remember"
"It's been so long that it does't even feel as a memory anymore"
"I remember little , so little of my childhood memories"
"I remember the faces of what I believe to have been my family"
"It was a small family living in the countryside, and we rarely saw anyone else"
"I am not sure, maybe I am being too vast... I don't seem to recall correctly"
"I can't recall their names or voices, but I do remember their faces"
"If I lose my memories do I lose myself ? And become the new me from those I do remember?"
"I hope not...but I do believe what I thought"
"Welp I can't even remember when I thought of this for the first time"
"I have to focus..."
"..."
"..."
"Why am I trying to lie to myself? I have to admit that I cant remember that far...I have to admit that they are long gone, even from my memories"
"Inevitably I will be long gone too I believe, I can't die but myself can"
"Sometimes I think that I am starting to stop making sense"
"I would not truly be surprised, almost nothing in this universe makes sense"
"Even if it did as in my old universe, it was true even there that everything in order slowly drifts into chaos with the passing of time"
"Some other times I wonder if I am dead already?Or at least the old me? Where do you even draw the line?"
"Others are counting on me, I can't just lose myself"
"And there I am...still lieing to myself"
"I have failed them already, I killed myself leaving them behind without guidance or proof to the truth"
"I have killed myself so many times, it does't seem to work"
Smirk*
"No matter how hard I try or what I try...nothing works, I cant even sleep or lose conciseness"
"My pain became bigger then me, bigger then them, bigger then anything else"
"All it mattered to me was the end of my own suffering"
"I still have a grip on my sanity but I am getting tired of holding that grip"
"Should I let go? heh what's the point?Even if I do I will just end up tied in a cell where I would be left to go savage"
"It never came to my mind that existence can be so painful"
"It is not just me but I think that my very brain can't care anymore, it has become so emphatic towards weak stimuli"
"I am loved, maybe that is what is keeping me sane"
"I see no reason to stop trying"
"Beside my never ending and everlasting depression hidden behind an inhuman smile on my face...anyway here I go again"
"..."
"..."
"I for sure do remember my old universe, the univer-..."
Giant alarm bell:
DING*
DING*
DING*
Sometime before in the magical land of Equestria...
Twilight was terrified by Discord's powers most of the time, but sometimes she was truly fascinated by them.
What she was truly fascinated from recently came as a surprise to her from Discord's last incident with Tree Huger at the last Gala.
Discord almost send an actual pony into another dimension, that rose so many questions for Twilight.
She even brought into question if it was portal into the other dimension in the first place.
And there she was...in her castle wondering if she should bother Celestia with a visit or should get bothered by a visit from Discord. All it would take to summon Discord was to say his name out loud and he would flash into existence instantaneously . While for her to be summoned to Celsetia it would take some time and formalities. She could of course just teleport herself right next to Celestia but that was a reserved option only for certain situations, at least in Twilight's head was like that. Even thought Celestia has never restricted her from a sudden visit Twilight did not want to take advantage of it.
On the other hand, Celestia's knowledge might be limited when it came to chaotic magic. To be honest Twilight had no idea how much Celestia knew about chaotic magic. One thing was for sure tho, no one knew more about Discord and his magic than Discord. Pros go to Discord this time which was an odd thing to happen. After all she thought she might even get a first hand experience.
Sigh*
"Discord"-Twilight said almost immediately regretting her decision.
Flash*
"HoHoHo Twilight, how random of you"- Discord appeared and started to levitate across the room and Twilight.
"Discord I-"- Twilight was cut off by Discord.
"Sometimes Twilight you make me doubt that I am not the true master mind of Chaos"-Discord said before shrinking and appearing on Twilight's head simply leaning on her horn.
"You know because on occasion your mind just goes into such a frenzy it almost looks chaotic. The funny part is that it looks so chaotic it almost appears still"-Discord finished and started laughing, levitating off Twilight head in the process.
"ha ha very funny Discord, I-"- Twilight was interrupted by Discord...again.
"Indeed my dear, so what's been troubling your little head recently?"-Discord said knowing Twilight would never get directly into the point if he did not make her rage.
"I just-"- Discord managed to cut Twilight of again.
"You need a favor?"- Discord said while appearing on Twilight's side giving her that annoying nudge on the shoulder.
"No I-"-
