The Fall of Cloud

I'm fucking crazy, I woke up on the floor of Lunar's house. "Are you okay?" She asked "I need a minute... or a hour or a year" I walked into the bathroom. "What the hell is wrong with him?" I heard NightShade say "everything" I yelled slamming the door. I tried to cry but nothing came out. I started pounding on my face with my hooves, my eyes started bleeding. I let it run down my muzzle and drip onto the floor. I walked into the shower and turned it on, I could feel my flesh burning. I started scrubbing everywhere on my body, I still felt unclean. I scrubbed till my coat started peeling away, I didn't stop. I started pulling out my hair, "fucking idiot!" I yelled hitting the glass door. Glass rained down onto the floor, my hoof had shards in it. I pulled the biggest one out and started skinning myself. I assume my screaming was heard, there was a knock on the bathroom door. "Cloud... are you alright?" It was Snow Piercer "yeah just fine" I said through my teeth. The muscle on my flank was exposed, the shower was more blood than water now. This was my breaking point, I had fucked my clone or twin or whatever the hell she is and my mother. NightShade was right I had a problem, I didn't know it was my mother. I don't even know how she is my mother I was created in a fucking tube. "I want to die" I whispered, the pounding of water and dripping of blood was so loud I couldn't even hear myself. My mane was a pile of black and red on the floor, my foreleg was nearly bone. I tore at my wings, feathers fell to the shower floor and became coated in crimson. I turned off the water and stepped out, I opened the bathroom door. "I'm doing great" I said walking into the middle of the room. Snow Piercer looked like she was about to vomit "C-Cloudy?" NightShade said biting into her forehoof "yes" I asked leaning in close to her face so she could see my bleeding eyes. "No wait don't tell me... it's something like oh I don't know maybe it's what have you done or maybe it's I can't even look at you or maybe it's you're fucking insane... any of those?" I said as she burst out in tears "I don't know how to speak to you anymore." She whined "ahh misery, or life depending on how you look at it" I said sadistically. She kissed me, why would she kiss me. "Why?" I whispered looking down "just because you're changing doesn't mean I can't still love you" she replied. "It kinda does, do you not see what I've done to myself?" I asked chuckling "yes, I do see your self destruction, but as far as I'm concerned you're not feeling right on account of... well this whole thing that happened to you." She said slowly, I started laughing "what?" She asked "Clouds not here anymore" I didn't say that, but my mouth did. I bit her throat, covering my muzzle in crimson. Her flesh tore from her neck swiftly, she fell to the floor with a meaty thud. "Tasty" I said wiping my muzzle with my foreleg. I walked up to Lunar and hugged her, she was trembling "don't worry mom she'll be back soon" I backed away from her and walked out the front door. Snow Piercer ran after me and tackled me to the ground "what the fuck is wrong with you?" She asked pounding her hooves on my face. Ponies were staring at the earth pony beating the face of a pegasus that looked like it came back from hell. "Shhhhh, quiet now" I said, my tooth fell to the back of my tongue and I spat it at her. She got off of me "gah" she yelled "fuck off" she said running back into Lunars house. I wasn't myself, I was seeing through my eyes but I had no control of anything I was doing. I felt like I was being controlled again, but I couldn't speak. I tried to find my voice "fuck!" I screamed, I had control over myself again. What was happening to me, I just killed NightShade, I'm bleeding, and I'm pretty sure I just made Snow Piercer and Lunar hate me. I started pounding on the front door "oh my gosh I didn't know what I was doing please somepony let me in!" I yelled, the door swung open and I was pulled in by a green glow. Snow Piercer had a horn "I'm gonna kick your fucking shit in" she said angrily "no no no please listen to me" I said before she threw me into a wall with her magic. I think I died, when I awoke I had all my hair and flesh back. There was a giant crack in the wall and I was tied down on a chair. "Listen Cloud, we all love you but you're being a pain in the ass lately" NightShade said. "Thank Celestia you're back" I said as she smacked me across the muzzle. "I love you and you killed me" she said "and it's not the fist time either" she added. "I know... but it's not me who kills you, I'm killing myself, I don't know why I do these things to the ponies I love... I just become a crazy sadistic bastard, I think it's because I'm supposed to be a killing machine that kills everypony. But I don't want to do that, my subconscious knows that but my body says kill kill kill, I have a breaking point and it's bad it's when I think about the bullshit in my life that releases my crazy subconscious while the sane version of me is forced to watch all that happens not being in control of any of it... I'm sorry" I said starting to tear up. "You can all kill me as many times as you want in anyway you want... I don't care anymore" I said. "Cloudy, I love you" NightShade said, she kissed me. I felt her teeth sink into my jugular, she pulled it out of my throat and spat it onto the floor. I felt sticky and warm, she kissed me again, holding me there till I died. I woke back up to NightShade sucking on my... bits "what are you doing?" I asked her trying to not feel as hot as I did. She bit it, I winced as she yanked of my cock "you fucking bitch, ah damn it" I cried. "Come on baby it's fine, it'll grow back" she said, I sat there crying for about seven minutes, then she shot me. This time when I woke up it was Snow Piercer standing before me "looks like your cocks not fully back yet, what a shame" she said. She rammed into my stomach with her horn "thanks for talking to that zebra, I love not feeling what you do anymore" she said as the blood dropped down from her horn onto her muzzle. She licked it off and slammed her forehoof into my jaw, the bottom of my muzzle was gone. I sat there watching her lick the blood off herself, I slowly died. I woke up to her licking my face "what are you-" she bit into my eyeball and spat it into my face. I could barely see "y'all might be more sadistic than me" I said trying not to cry. "I think we just might be Cloud" she said before hitting my pelvis full force with her hoof. There was a hole in my pelvis that went clean through the chair as well. "Fuck you!" I screamed "I would but it appears your cock is on the floor... both of them" she started laughing. "Night sweetness" she said before smashing her hoof through my chest. Of course this time it was Lunar  "I really don't want to beat the fuck outta you but it looks like so much fun I have to give it a try" she said "but your my mom." I said "uh huh, so your point?" She had a kitchen knife in her hoof, she went behind the chair and stabbed me in the foreleg "nice one" I said through my teeth, she started slashing at my back. She stabbed the back of my head. This time I woke up she was holding a bat, she struck me across the face with it. "Harder" I said "what?" She asked "I said harder maybe you can knock my head off so I don't have to come back to this" I said. She hit my face again, I felt my neck crack. I woke up again, they were all around me. NightShade approached me "just remember we all love you" she said before she cut the rope holding me in the chair. "Sure you do" I said, she kissed me, Snow Piercer kissed me, even my fucking mother kissed me. It felt wrong "I want to go home... I need rest" I said. "Goodbye uh... mom" I said before hugging her. "You don have to call me that you know" she said "oh thank Celestia" I said "just keep what we've done behind closed doors" she whispered to me "okay" I replied. I grabbed my saddlebag and threw it over my back. Snow Piercer came up to me "maybe we can fuck again sometime?" She whispered "really?" I said sarcastically "hey I wanted to after you got out of stasis and we've only done it once... please" she whispered. "Listen I think I jut got back on good terms with NightShade so... maybe once but it's only a maybe." I whispered back to her "what are you guys talking about?" NightShade asked "how he's still covered in blood" Snow Piercer said "yeah what are we gonna do about that?" I asked "here, Snow Piercer try this spell" NightShade said pulling a notebook out of her saddlebag, she panned through it "ah here it is" she said pointing a hoof at the page. Snow Piercer started laughing "okay ready Cloud?" She asked "I guess" I replied, a wave of water came out of her horn and pushed me back into the front door. "Are ya clean" she yelled laughing "fuck yourself" I yelled back, I chuckled. "Can't I don't have a cock, sorry" Snow Piercer said to me as she walked out the front door. "By Lunar" NightShade waved at her "by you crazy fucks" she yelled back, I closed the door behind me. "Y'all had to go for my dick didn't you" I said "what?" NightShade asked "when I said you can kill me anyway you wanted you really liked beating my dick off of me" I said "well hey look on the bright side mom has something to play with now" Snow Piercer said as she burst out laughing. "Gross" I said "hey you're the one who fucked her" Snow Piercer said "yeah but not everyone needs to know" I replied. "I'm gonna tell everyone when we get to the compound" she said "no you're not" I said. "Well you'll have to fuck me so I won't tell anypony" she snickered "your blackmailing him into sex?" NightShade asked "apparently she is" I said "I'll allow it" NightShade said "wait... weren't you freaking out about how I'm fucking too many mares?" I asked "yeah but I got out all my aggression after I bit off your cock" she said "well that's nice" I said "sooo what I'm hearing is that I can fuck him?" Snow Piercer said "if you want" NightShade replied. "Yeah sure just throw around my cock to anypony" I said sarcastically. "Well she's sorta your sister so she's not anypony" NightShade said. "Didn't you wanna fuck me first though?" I asked her. "Yeah I do" she replied "so calm yourself Snow Piercer" she added. Snow Piercer grunted, we made it onto the train.