No where to go after this
No where to go after this
"So this is it I guess, you can't sit around and do nothing with your life and you and I both know that school ends at some point in time so what now Sunset?" Anon says in a monotone voice
"I don't know, I don't even know where to start and I obviously can't go back to Equestria thanks to this world's Twilight." Sunset almost yelled, "Even if I did fix the portal and got it connected between the two dimensions I would have no where to go even in that world."
The next few minutes are just Anon and Sunset yelling back and forth on what she is going to do with herself after school, it got a little violent with the throwing of lamps and someone telling the other to 'lighten the fuck up' because they were over reacting to something that could have been easily overcome with planning and reasonable thought.
"Get the fuck out of my apartment Sunset if you don't want to do anything you can leave" Anon said now with a falter in his voice.
"I don't have anywhere to go, no where to sleep." Sunset said with a shaky voice and tears welling in her eyes, "You can be a pain in my ass sometimes you know that, I hate you."
"I know how much you hate me when I bring up real world shit that you cant face because you're scared to accept reality, let me tell you something about this world besides school life that you are living right now. It's not all sunshine and rainbows here and people have problems that only they can fix or fix with medication or some other form of medical aid." Anon yells at Sunset while she was packing a small duffel with clothes.
"Oh you don't think I know that, every dimension has that problem and people do the same fucking thing. I just have seen more shit than you and anyone else combined. So I guess I am having a mental beak over this shit." Sunset said between breaths as she bent down to grab the loaded duffel bag. "I don't belong in this dimension I should belong in Equestria but no I had to fuck that one up as well because I was power hungry, now I can't go back there I'll never go back there."
Anon watching Sunset walk past with loud foot falls and then opens the door, looks back and slams it behind her as she walks into the hall. Out at her car she throws everything into the trunk and takes off down the road, "Rope, duffel, pen, notebook; everything is here. Time to get away from that fucking asshole." Sunset said to herself as she plugged in the aux cord into her phone. Blasting music as she took off down the road.
Open road and hard liquor
Open road and hard liquor
She has been driving for over an hour, not knowing where to go. She just knew that she had to get out of this town but not until she got a bottle of the strongest and hardest liquor she could buy. Looking at her city map and finding a liquor store that was close by and checking her wallet for money she drove as fast as she could to the liquor store.
"A fifth of your strongest whiskey please." Sunset told the shop keep.
"Alright miss, that will be twelve bucks even, also I'm going to need to see some I.D. as well." The man behind the counter said. Sunset pulled her fake I.D. out of her wallet along with twelve dollars and placed them on the counter in front of the clerk.
"Thank you, why do you need this much if you don't mind my asking?" The clerk asked.
"I'm throwing a party for my friend's brother who just graduated college." Sunset told the clerk, obviously it was a bullshit excuse but he didn't know she was going to drink it when she got out of the city.
"Have a nice afternoon miss." The clerk said as Sunset walked out the door.
Unlocking the doors to her car and getting in she started up her car and backed out of the lot, knowing where to go so she could drink herself and her depression away. Driving down the main stretch of road listening to music was kind of relaxing and cleared her mind of all the shit that had transpired the hour before.
Sunset was headed down the road and she didn't know where she was, lost without a place on the map she had. Now out of the city and not knowing how to get back was nerve racking and stressful, these mountain roads look all the same with all these curves and bends. Sunset didn't think she needed a map for these county roads and now she was shit out of luck and lost. "Fuck my life right now, I can't believe that I got lost on these county roads." Sunset was talking to herself, " now I'm talking to myself."
It was getting dark and no one was around for miles, so she decided to pull off into a place that looked promising. It was one of those places where you can have lunch and walk around if you want, you know the kind.
"Okay, this isn't so bad." Sunset told herself, "I have what looks like an outhouse, water fountain, and trees to provide cover for my car."
Setting up her back seat so she could sleep on it since she was no longer sleeping in a bed, luckily she remembered to bring her pillow and a blanket, so things aren't that bad. Shutting off her car and getting everything in place and setting her new best friend for the night on the floor next to her head, Sunset opened the bottle and began her downward spiral for the night.
Night time and bad memories
Night time and bad memories
"Why do I have to fuck everything up, like everything good in my life I have to fuck up." Sunset said aloud to herself, "Equestria, fucked up that chance, now Twilight is a princess and I'm here drinking myself to sleep in my car."
The music is almost like dark western and dark western blues type music. Sunset knew she had to slow down on the bottle because she was half way through it and it was now almost one in the morning. She lay with her back up against the door using her pillow for back support and leather jacket for her head and neck while holding the bottle of half empty booze by the neck, softly crying and makeup smearing making her look like a raccoon. There were times where she wanted to kill herself but realized that it wasn't the best option and thinking of all the people that would miss her because of her actions, then again the thought was still at the front of her mind and if the scars on her wrists were anything to tell it was that she was in deep pain that no one could understand not even her friends.
Sunset was in the worst place that she could be in, the pit as some call it but it goes by many names. Drunk, homeless, and lost in a world that has been foreign since day one and that was just the first few steps on this long journey down into the proverbial pit, going down deeper was self hate for what she did in Equestria and how she was a failure in everyone's eyes. She couldn't find the strength to go on because there was so much on her mind and how she was over thinking things to the point of obsession. The drinking was the start of all this and wouldn't stop even now with nothing left for her in this world.
Sunset remembered that she brought her journal with her, still clinging to the bottle like a small kid with a plushy she reached out and found her pen in the darkness along with the notebook that was attached. Turning on the dome light in her car, the yellowish amber color stung her eyes until they adjusted to the brightness,
Sorry for doing this to all of you, I know that this is hard for everyone and I know that it will get worse as time goes on. I am homeless, drunk, and alone in this world that was not meant for me to live in it and everyone knows it as well. I do have a final request before I go from this world, send this letter to Twilight in Equestria and if you can, fix the portal so I can be buried in Equestria, on my home soil.
-Sunset Shimmer
