Night time and bad memories

"Why do I have to fuck everything up, like everything good in my life I have to fuck up." Sunset said aloud to herself, "Equestria, fucked up that chance, now Twilight is a princess and I'm here drinking myself to sleep in my car."

The music is almost like dark western and dark western blues type music. Sunset knew she had to slow down on the bottle because she was half way through it and it was now almost one in the morning. She lay with her back up against the door using her pillow for back support and leather jacket for her head and neck while holding the bottle of half empty booze by the neck, softly crying and makeup smearing making her look like a raccoon. There were times where she wanted to kill herself but realized that it wasn't the best option and thinking of all the people that would miss her because of her actions, then again the thought was still at the front of her mind and if the scars on her wrists were anything to tell it was that she was in deep pain that no one could understand not even her friends.

Sunset was in the worst place that she could be in, the pit as some call it but it goes by many names. Drunk, homeless, and lost in a world that has been foreign since day one and that was just the first few steps on this long journey down into the proverbial pit, going down deeper was self hate for what she did in Equestria and how she was a failure in everyone's eyes. She couldn't find the strength to go on because there was so much on her mind and how she was over thinking things to the point of obsession. The drinking was the start of all this and wouldn't stop even now with nothing left for her in this world.

Sunset remembered that she brought her journal with her, still clinging to the bottle like a small kid with a plushy she reached out and found her pen in the darkness along with the notebook that was attached. Turning on the dome light in her car, the yellowish amber color stung her eyes until they adjusted to the brightness,

Sorry for doing this to all of you, I know that this is hard for everyone and I know that it will get worse as time goes on. I am homeless, drunk, and alone in this world that was not meant for me to live in it and everyone knows it as well. I do have a final request before I go from this world, send this letter to Twilight in Equestria and if you can, fix the portal so I can be buried in Equestria, on my home soil.

-Sunset Shimmer