Author's Note

This was sitting in my files unfinished, so, I might as well publish it how it is.

Why Stay? (Draft)

Pinkie's eyes stared to flutter open, not seeing any light. It must've still been dark out. She tried raising up, but some kind of force prevented her to do so, making her plop back on the bed. She turned her head to the left slightly, seeing Twilight against her body.

Her hooves were wrapped around her waist, her chest against her back. When she plopped back on the bed, she felt Twilight squeeze tighter, her body getting closer to her.

She felt her warm, shaky breath on her neck, her chest going closer and closer against her body.
With a shaky breath, she said, "Please don't go... Please..."

Pinkie cringed at her marefriend's words and her breath against her neck. Her hooves tightened against her waist, panting loudly.

The alicorn's body twitched against her own, and she know she couldn't do anything about it. She couldn't touch her, she couldn't try to calm her down, she couldn't whisper to her. She could just lie there, and feel every breath, every whimper, every force against her body. She forced her body to show no reaction towards her marefriend's actions. It was hard, but not impossible.

Warm. Twilight's body was warm, and she couldn't move. She couldn't react.

"Don't go..." Twilight whispered sleepily. She pushed her body forward, her chest closer to the pink mare's back.

Pinkie bit her lip as she felt Twilight get closer.

"Don't leave me..."

Tears threatened to spill from her eyes, but she kept her emotions in.

"Without you... I'm nothing..." she said in a harsh whisper, wrapping her hind legs around her the pink mare's legs, her chest going upwards. She heard the alicorn moan as she was asleep, having a delusion that Pinkie can only imagine.

"Twi.."
"I love you, Pinkie..."

That's when the pink made broke down. While Twilight was having delusions and asleep, therefore she couldn't hear her, she was sobbing loudly, rubbing Twilight lovingly.

It felt like forever for Twilight to actually wake up. Though, when she did, she did it rather quietly. She didn't expect her shake her awake or anything, but she swore when she slipped from the embrace, it felt like a ghost. When she raised up however, she saw Twilight looking out the window.

It was dark out, despite it being 8:30 a.m. Fire reflected through her eyes, and she swore she felt like it was burning onto her skin.

Her gaze then went towards Twilight. She showed no reaction to what was in front of her, and to be honest, who would be after this long? Her ears twitched against the sound from outside, but she didn't show any emotion towards it. Pinkie even realized she didn't even blink, which kinda made her flinch, but to be honest, she have seen worse reactions from the broken alicorn.

Pinkie gulped quietly, feeling fear in her chest as she found her voice. "How are you feeling?" Pinkie asked in a quiet voice.

She saw the alicorn tense up slightly, which made her heart stop. She placed every strength in her body to not hug her.

Twilight was silent for a while before she whispered, "Worse."

The pink mare clenched her eyes shut, blocking the dead tone in her marefriend's voice. Every time she would hear it, she would block it with the alicon's normal caring, friendly, loving voice. A voice she would never hear again.

Her hoof went up to touch Twilight, but she stopped herself immediately. She felt her breath stuck in her throat, feeling overwhelmed by this. The alicorn's heartbeat pounded in Pinkie's ears, noticing that it started to quicken every few moments.

"Why?" She whispered tearfully.

"Why what?" the pink mare asked in a leveled voice, trying not to startle Twilight.

"Why... why are you still by my side... and I'm only hurting you?"

Her heart ached. Twilight was getting worse and she's not doing anything to help her. Twilight has been through Tartataus, she has seen things that would be in her head forever, she has lost someone important to her...
And she think it's her fault.

She couldn't hold it anymore. Going against her thoughts, she wrapped her hooves around Twilight and hugged her. Immediately, she felt twitching against her body and whimpers in her ears. She was trying to move from her grip, which made her heart ache even more, but she squeezed her tighter. An aura was around her, but she placed all of her Earth pony strength into the hug. The magic was burning her skin, but she kept her hooves around the alicorn.

"Le- Let g- go... Pl- please..." She begged her.

The other mare groaned softly under her breath due to her pain from the aura.

"N- no... Y- you shouldn't think I would ever leave you... especially if it's something that isn't your fault."

The aura began to disappear from Pinkie's body slowly, a sign that Twilight may have some faith. Maybe. Pinkie felt Twilight's breath on her neck, inhaling and exhaling slowly.

She felt Twilight's shoulders limp, her breathing slowing, but it sounded just as harsh as she was panting. They stayed like that for a while until Pinkie finally spoke. "C'mon Twi, let's go eat some breakfast, okay?"

Twilight mumbled against her neck.

"You need to eat, Twi."

A groan was her response.

Pinkie sighed sadly. She needed to eat. She's killing herself if she doesn't.

"Twi... Please... I... I don't want you to die..."

Twilight didn't respond.

Without thinking, she tightened her grip on the purple mare, causing the mare to let out a terrified shriek, causing the pink mare to loosen her grip.

"Sorry. I'm sorry. Are you okay?"

She nodded against her neck. Pinkie rubbed her back softly. "Let's eat Twilight. And we can talk if you want, okay?"

The alicorn mumbled before she whispered, "Okay."

Those eyes. Those violet, dead eyes. They were casted downward on the food in front of her, refusing to make eye contact with Pinkie Pie. She was eating slowly like she was unsure if she wanted to. Her breath was still hitched in her throat, panting slowly. The Earth pony couldn't help but stare at the alicorn with guilt, concern, and sadness. She could even see the fork that was in her aura shake as if someone was out to get her.

She was obviously afraid. Of what? She wasn't sure. Probably her own thoughts in her head.

She locked her baby blue eyes with the alicorn's purple ones, biting her lip as she tried to speak.

" What are you thinking about?"

Twilight bit the inside of her cheek, still avoiding her marefriend's concerned gaze. "Equestria, our friends, you, Spike..."

Pinkie nodded in understanding. "Do you want to talk about it?"

She didn't get a response.

"You don't have to if you don't want to. This isn't about me or anypony else. This is about you and only you. It's okay if you don't want to," she reassured with in a soft voice, flashing her marefriend with a soft smile.

She tried to make her feel loved. Feel welcomed. Feel safe.