I'm...Fine

by BrilliantCreativity

Chapter 4: Dreams

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Fluttershy was by her locker. As she opened it, she didn't notice the many silhouettes that circled her. She turned around and all of a sudden the world around her sped up and turned white. All she could see were the tall and dark silhouettes that blocked any exit.
They started yelling insults that began to plague her mind. She sat down and curled up in a ball, trying to protect herself from the pain that they were causing.

"Stop!" a strong and defiant voice called out. Fluttershy looked up and realized she was standing suddenly and that she was just a bit shorter than everyone else, being naturally short. She saw a figure cut through the crowd. He was coloured and looked normal. It was Discord.
For a moment Fluttershy felt a weight lift off her shoulders.

He walked towards her, but she was surprised when he grabbed her chin and pulled her closer. He was rough, and his grip hurt. The scenery around her changed and it was just the two of them in a black room, yet she could see him clearly.

Suddenly, a hand made its way down to her ass and started to squeeze it. Fluttershy was taken aback and tried to push away, but he kept persisting.

"No," she said. It didn't matter; he didn't care whether or not she protested. She didn't give up though.

"No!" she said stronger. This time, she felt something long touch her lips. It was his pointer finger. Discord made a long "shh" sound. Fluttershy stared up at him but then was greeted by a slap to the face. His grip on her released as she stumbled backwards. She put her hand to her cheek and could feel it burning.

"I-I-I don't understand," she choked. Discord slowly walked up to her and stood still like a statue.

"You really are stupid, not to mention gullible," he laughed. "You actually thought that I would like you? You were just an easy target. No man in his right mind would ever actually care about a pathetic girl like you," he scoffed sinisterly. Fluttershy took a step back, still clutching her cheek.
He was right, how could she have been so foolish.

The scenery changed again and she was surrounded by the same group of silhouettes, with Discord being in front. She was small again, like an ant waiting to be crushed.

She stared up and felt the ground underneath her start to shake. Discord bent down to look at her.

"Goodbye," he smirked as the ground underneath her seemed to give way. She was falling and staring up at Discord's smug face.

"No, no please! Discord! Disc-Agh!" Fluttershy woke up with a start, as she sat up in bed. She looked around the room, relieved to find she was in her own bedroom. She could feel the sweat on her face as well as the tears that had stained her cheeks. She stared down at her lap and sighed as she wiped her oncoming tears away.

"I really am a fool," she whispered. Of course Discord didn't actually care for her. How gullible she had been, after all, she had just met him.

Fluttershy slowly placed her bruised arm on her lap and examined the slits in her wrists, running her right hand over them.
She silently cursed herself for putting herself in such a vulnerable position.

*BEEP *BEEP *BEEP

Her alarm went off, causing her to slowly clamber out of her bed. She stalked off towards her dresser and pulled out a white soft, long sleeved shirt that revealed her shoulders, to cover the cuts and the bruises on her arm, along with a classic green skirt that she usually wore. She slipped on some high pink socks with white polka dots and put on her high green shoes that were tipped with white at the end.

She went into the bathroom and brushed her teeth and hair, placing a butterfly clip in her pink locks. She gave one last solemn glance at herself in the mirror before she walked out and closed the door.

Fluttershy walked over to her backpack that was still leaned up against the wall. She picked it up and went over to the floor beside her bed to pick up her sketchbook and place it, carefully, inside.

She gave one last look at her dark room before exiting and heading downstairs for breakfast.

When she reached view of the kitchen she could see her younger brother, Zephyr, eating, what appeared to be peanut butter, toast. He looked up from his food towards his sister.

"Morning big sis, how are you doing this jazzy morning?" he asked. Zephyr was far more outgoing and rambunctious than Fluttershy and usually talked loud and a bit obnoxiously.

"I'm fine," she replied softly giving a small smile. That was the response Fluttershy usually gave him, in fact that was usually the response she gave everyone. I'm fine. Even though that was definitely not the case.

Fluttershy made her way over to the cupboard and scanned through the cereals that were displayed before her. Her mind wavered at the options, so she decided to settle on toast. She knew they had jam somewhere in the fridge.

When she finished her breakfast, she placed her dishes next to the sink and then headed towards the door. Looking outside to find it was a bit chilly, she grabbed her green hoodie off the coat rack and put it on.
Fluttershy waved to her younger brother and left through the door. Zephyr went to a different school than Fluttershy because he thought that he needed...special attention for his "talented" abilities.

Fluttershy waited by the bus stop as she let the cool breeze flow through her hair. She took in deep breath and exhaled slowly. By the look of the clouds, it seemed that it might rain, which made her smile. Fluttershy like the rain. She felt that it was nature's way of relaxing and giving off stress, which is also what rain did for Fluttershy. She loved the feel of raindrops on her cheeks, for she knew that when it rained...no one would see her crying.

The bus came up towards her and opened its doors. Fluttershy went up the steps and sat in an empty seat, two rows from the front. She took off her backpack and placed it next to her right.

Fluttershy just stared out the window the whole ride there. Nobody sat next to her, but that didn't bother her too much. She wasn't one for socializing anyway.

The bus pulled up to the school and Fluttershy got off, heading towards her locker. She had Gym first, which she wasn't looking forward to. She would have to wear her jacket the whole time to hide the cuts on her arm.

At the front of the school, Dumbbell had just gotten off of his bus and spotted Gilda near a bench. He grinned mischievously and walked over to her.
Gilda looked up to face Dumbbell.

"Uh, can I help you?" she asked, irritated.

"Well, I thought you might want to know some juicy gossip, or whatever it is you girls call it cause seriously you guys need more interesting things to talk about-"

"Just get on with it," Gilda said, annoyed. She flicked her hand to signal him to just spit it out.

"Anyway, yesterday after school..."


Fluttershy heard the first bell ring to get to classes and headed towards the gym. She had her gym strip and runners in hand.

She entered the large gymnasium and went to the Girl's Change room. There was no one in there yet, thankfully. Fluttershy never enjoyed changing in front of her classmates.

She had just finished pulling up her shorts when she heard the door open. Her head bolted up but her mind was put at ease when she realized that it was just Rainbow Dash.
She was thank full to have Gym with Rainbow, otherwise she might never survive.

"Hey Flutters!" Rainbow smiled. Fluttershy gave a small smile back.

"Hey," she replied quietly. She finished tying up her shoe laces and headed for the door.

"Uh, Flutters?" the Rainbow haired teenager asked. Fluttershy turned around.

"Hmm?"

"Aren't you going to be hot in that?" she wondered aloud. Fluttershy just shook her head.

"N-no, I'll be fine," she grinned weakly.

"Ok, suit yourself," Rainbow said before returning to changing. Fluttershy was relieved that Rainbow wasn't the poky type of person.

Fluttershy was the only one in the gym so far, except for the coach who was just in the small staff room that was in between the Boy's and Girl's Change rooms.

Fluttershy just swung her arms back and forth as she looked at the over bearing space the she occupied. She eyed the basketball hoops that hung from each end of the gym and frowned at the thought that she sucked at basketball. She was a bit short for her age but if that wasn't enough, she was terrified of fast objects coming towards her.

Her parents loved her very much but they wished that she would be a bit more outgoing like her brother. That thought stung her. Fluttershy always felt disappointed in herself whenever she failed to meet her parents expectations.

Her thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the gym doors opening. A bunch of her classmates came in and headed for the change rooms. Once they all filed in, Fluttershy heard, yet another, door open except this time it was from the Boy's Change room.
She turned around and went pale as she realized that Discord was in her Gym Class. She quickly turned around and tried to pretend to be doing...something. After her earlier dream, Fluttershy believed that he was only in it for her body and to find out her secrets and then expose her.

She prayed that he wouldn't notice her but it was too late.

Discord examined the large space but stopped when he realized the pink haired girl in the middle of it. He walked up towards her.

"Uh, hi," he said. Fluttershy slowly turned around to face him, after all, she couldn't be rude.

"Umm, hi," she replied nervously. She looked down as she twiddled her fingers. Discord felt hot...why? He did not know, but what he did know was that he was fine earlier.

"Not to be rude or anything but-umm, why are you wearing a hoodie? Aren't you hot-er warm," he said, mentally kicking himself. Fluttershy looked up at him. What was he talking about?

"I umm, just w-wanted to...I guess," she said softly. Discord wasn't quite satisfied with the answer but decided to leave it alone.
Then Rainbow Dash came out of the Change Room and walked up to Fluttershy.

"So what's n...who's this?" Rainbow asked, pointing to Discord.

"Oh, umm he's a..." what would she call him? "...a new student."

"My name's Discord," he said bluntly. Rainbow eyed him suspiciously.

"I see...well Discord how do you like our school?" Rainbow said, putting a well known tension between the two.

"It's...charming," he said through gritted teeth. He wasn't stupid. He could sense the very obvious vibe that Rainbow was putting out.

The second bell rang to begin Gym class. Fluttershy's classmates were Rainbow Dash, Discord, Lyra Heartstrings, Hoops, Flash Sentry, a girl named Sunset Shimmer who joined the school a few months ago, Derpy, Trixie and a few other students.

Fluttershy had noticed a few times that Trixie kept giving her strange glances, stranger than usual anyway.

During all of gym class, Discord tried to make conversation with Fluttershy but she just seemed to pull away. He was confused, yesterday he thought that things had cooled down a bit between them but now, all of a sudden, she seemed so distant. Did he do something wrong? Should he confront her? Was it just that time of the month or something? All these thoughts, even the weird ones, kept running around his head.

The coach dismissed the class to get dressed before the bell rang. The bell rang to end class and Discord tried to change faster to run back out into the gym to see if Fluttershy was still there but he was disappointed to see that she was not there. She must've left. He thought.

Fluttershy was back at her locker with Rainbow Dash.

"Who's the new kid, Discord?" Rainbow asked.

"I'm not too sure. I did give him a tour of the school but I don't know much about him," Fluttershy replied, unknowingly. Rainbow gave a small "mhh, hmm" while nodding her head.

"He hasn't been giving you any trouble right?" Rainbow inquire, concern etched across her face. Fluttershy turned away and thought about everything. Discord hadn't actually done anything that she didn't like, right? But then she remembered her dream and gave a slight shudder. She also recalled how he kept trying to pursue her in gym class. He may have not done anything but she felt that it was clear what he really wanted...and it was not good. Even with her head clouded she was able to reply with a simple and quiet, "No."

Rainbow noticed the hesitance and quiet tone, even though quiet wasn't exactly a rare term with Fluttershy, in her voice she decided to leave the subject alone.

"Well...if he does give you any trouble, give me a heads up," Rainbow added playfully while giving Fluttershy a light punch in the shoulder. The pink haired teenager gave her Rainbow haired friend a smile.

"Well, I'll see you at lunch Flutters, laters," Rainbow said before dashing off towards her locker. Fluttershy gave a last glance at her friend before turning back towards her locker.

She saw Trixie, holding her math supplies, come her way and tried to get her Math binder faster. Trixie leaned up against the locker to Fluttershy's left.

"Hey Flutterdumb," Trixie spat her meaningless insult. Fluttershy wasn't effected very harshly, as she was simply set on getting to Math class. Trixie could see that her words hadn't done anything towards Fluttershy, and she grew a bit irritated that she was being ignored.

Fluttershy fumbled with her lock but quickly managed to lock up her cabinet. She turned towards Trixie's direction but looked right past her and started to take a step.

"How's your boyfriend?" Trixie inquired. Fluttershy stopped n her tracks. What did she mean? She didn't have a boyfriend...right? At least not that she knew of anyway. Besides how could you have a boyfriend without knowing.
Trixie was pleased with herself for getting Fluttershy's attention. Trixie moved in front of Fluttershy so that she could look in her eyes.

"Although, I never thought you a girl to go after a new student...or any student for that matter," she muttered the last part.
New student? Fluttershy thought. No...

"I believe his name was Discord," she said evilly. Fluttershy paled.

"N-n-no, w-w-we er h-him and I we aren't-"

"A bit embarrassed I see," she mocked. "Don't worry I won't tell...anyone else at least," she grinned maliciously. Fluttershy stared at her as her pupils shrank. People were coupling her and Discord together?
This was the last thing she needed...she had been trying so hard to avoid him, although feeling bad. Every time she made an excuse or ignored him he always looked hurt. But it was all an act...right? Yes, of course it was.

The second bell rang, signalling for classes to begin. Fluttershy shook away her thoughts and headed towards Math Class, feeling nervous knowing that Trixie shared the same class with her.

It was going to be a long class.

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