I'm...Fine
Chapter 7: Too Deep
Previous ChapterFluttershy laid in her bedroom. She had finished her math homework and had eaten dinner. She was spread across her bed, staring at the ceiling in the dark room, thinking about what Rainbow had said. She kept pondering how Discord could seem so nice when the reality might be that he was actually a bad guy.
But Fluttershy didn't want to believe that...she wanted to ignore the facts and the reason. Why? She didn't really know. Why did Discord have this grip on her that she couldn't shake? Why was it that despite his flaws and what she's been told, she doesn't choose to believe it? These questions keep plaguing her mind and she just wished they'd go away.
He's bad news. HE is not someone with GOOD intentions. Vandalism. Violence. Rainbow's words echoed throughout her head but her heart wanted to defend.
"Get out," Fluttershy whispered, holding back tears, talking to the thoughts in her head. Discord is a bad guy. What if he had lost control and ended up hurting you?
No he wouldn't do that...he wouldn't...right?
Fluttershy was now choking back sobs. Why did this hurt so much? Fluttershy felt so much stress and fear begin to rise inside her.
She slowly turned her head to face the bathroom door and wiped away her tears. She was going to deal with stress and depression the way she usually did...
Fluttershy clutched her wrist as she stumbled out of the bathroom and headed towards her bed. She felt like she had cut too deep this time and it hurt...a lot. She quietly cried, so that no one would hear her. If her parents ever knew, she would never hear the end of it.
They would probably get her into therapy with a therapist that would only pretend to know what Fluttershy had gone through. She didn't like when people did that; try to pretend like they know exactly what she's gone or is going through. Because, to her, the reality was that the ones who tried didn't have a clue.
She ran her hand down the bedsheets and felt the cool air brush against her hair through an open, but screened, window.
Fluttershy cautiously walked over to her window and looked out at the streets. They were dimly lit and she couldn't even get a very good view of them because of an oak tree in their front yard that blocked her view.
Fluttershy slowly turned away from her window, not caring if it wasn't closed. She fell back on her bed and fell asleep.
Discord quietly paced down the dark streets and sighed, staring at his visible breath. He couldn't stop thinking about what had happened during school.
Why had she stayed in his arms? She was probably just scared...but even after Gilda left, she didn't move.
Did she...could she? No, it was impossible. No one could feel that way about him; he was...HIM after all.
He shook his head and took a deep breath. He was walking home from school, after having detention because someone told the Principal that he punched Dumbbell.
Discord chuckled at the name, Dumbbell, it explained so much about the teenagers personality; he wasn't exactly what you would call the brightest of people.
Although his smile soon diminished as he thought back to Fluttershy's face. She had looked frightened and yet, expecting. As if she knew this were to happen.
Did she get "bullied" on a regular basis? He put a hand to his chest and gulped, hoping that that wasn't the case.
Discord continued his long walk home and wondered what she was doing right now.
The next day, Fluttershy was sitting in Science class, watching the bell as it ticked towards the last minute of the period before Lunch.
When the bell rang, every student sprang from their seats and bolted for the door...although Fluttershy did move rather slowly.
She walked towards the cafeteria after she had put away her binder and pencil case. Fluttershy did her best to avoid contact with the students in the hall.
"Flutters!" Pinkie called from the Lunch room. Fluttershy smiled and walked over to her friend(s). Rarity and Dash were also there.
"Hey," Fluttershy said as she sat down, pulling on her sleeves so that no one could see he bruises.
"Hey Flutters, I'm really sorry about yesterday...i-it wasn't my place to-"
"It's ok," Fluttershy reassured. Rainbow seemed to relax a bit and leaned back in her chair.
There was a sudden loud clatter that came from the kitchen and all heads turned in the direction of the noise. There, stood a tall orange skinned country looking girl. She wore a brown cowgirl hat and had white freckles on her cheeks, she also wore a dark blue skirt and a white shirt with green at the top. Her hair was blonde and almost looked like straw.
"I'm mighty sorry everybody," the country girl apologized. It appeared that she had dropped a tray of Apple juice boxes. Rainbow eyed the cowgirl and held a hand under her chin, trying to place where she'd seen her from.
"Hey, isn't that Applejuice...Applecore...AppleJam..."
"HI APPLEJACK!" shouted Pinkie, which surprised Rainbow Dash (not the screaming part). Applejack turned around to face the ecstatic teenager, embarrassed but also somewhat flattered that someone knew her name. She gave a casual wave and tip of the hat.
"Pinkie, you know her?" asked Dash. Pinkie just vibrated her lips and took a sip of her juice box, "Pleeaase Dash, I know everybody," Pinkie smiled. Rainbow squinted her eyes at Pinkie but eventually gave up.
After Applejack had finished picking up the juice boxes, she walked over to the group.
"Hey Pinkie, Rainbow Dash, R-r-r...Rarity," she stumbled, trying to remember her name, "and umm, I'm sorry, I don't seem to recall hearing your name," she apologized.
"It's fine, my name's... umm Fluttershy..." Fluttershy whispered.
"Pardon?" Applejack asked again.
"Her name's Fluttershy, she's kinda, ya know...shy," Rainbow said matter-of-factly. Applejack gave an understanding nod and asked if she could sit with them, which they all obliged... well Fluttershy didn't really say much. She kept worrying about wrists; last night she might have gone too far. She kept tugging at her sleeves and feeling the scars on her skin as discreetly as possible.
Fluttershy paid little to no attention to her friend's conversation. Instead she looked out of the window in the cafeteria and watched the squirrels chase each other around.
"Hey Flutterslut, how are things with your boy-toy?" asked a, sadly, all too familiar voice. Boy toy?
Rainbow stood up and turned around to face Trixie.
"HEY, back off Trixie, what the hell are you even talking about?!" Rainbow defended, as Fluttershy sat behind her.
"Oh, you don't know? Word is, your friend here is having a little bit too much fun with the new kid," Trixie leaned in a little closer to Dash's ear, "If you catch my drift, *snicker, but not the way that he caught hers."
Rainbow gave a powerful shove and knocked Trixie into Snips and Snails who stood behind her.
"How dare you even touch the great and powerful Trixie? I'm not the one slumming it with the bad kid next door," she laughed.
"Discord's not bad," Fluttershy said quietly. Rainbow looked to face her friend but Fluttershy didn't return her gaze.
"What did the slut say?" came a new voice, belonging to Gilda with Dumbbell behind her.
"Hey back o-"
"No Rainbow...it's ok," Fluttershy said softly, standing up.
"Discord isn't a bad guy, he's actually very sweet an-"
"Which part of him?" Gilda snickered. Fluttershy frowned at their immaturity. Picking on her was one thing, but Fluttershy would never let it stand if one of her friend's was being targeted.
"Please just go...if you have nothing intelligent or worth our time to say th-then you should just leave," Fluttershy spoke defiantly and tried to show more courage than she had.
"Wow, looks like someone grew a pair of balls...unlike Dis-," Gilda snorted.
That was it. Fluttershy took a step and tried to hit Gilda but found that her opponent seized Fluttershy's arm and dug her nails into Fluttershy's wrist and right directly on-top of her already scarred skin.
Fluttershy let out a painful shriek and tried to break free but to no avail. Rainbow was about to step in but was too late.
"Hey bitch face!" spoke a loud voice. Gilda was about to turn around and face the speaker but was only met with a punch to the face. Gilda immediately released Fluttershy, who ran out of the cafeteria exit and outside. Discord watched Fluttershy leave and only grew angrier.
Dumbbell came behind Discord but he was smarted and grabbed Dumbbell's arm, hoisting him over his shoulder and body slamming him to the ground. Discord put a foot on Dumbbell's chest and stood there powerfully.
Trixie, Dumbbell and Gilda stared at him in horror, as well as everyone else in the now quiet cafeteria.
"What're you looking at?"
Immediately everyone turned away and pretended to ignore the situation. Dumbbell tried to get Discord's foot off him but Discord was strong.
"Hey Dumbo! The next time you feel like being an asshole, pick on someone in your own league," Discord took his foot off, "Pfft, have fun with the kindergarteners," Discord smirked. Dumbbell was furious but also didn't really catch on to Discord's comment and only watched as the snide new kid walked away feeling victorious.
Once Discord was out of the cafeteria, he headed for the back of the school hoping to find Fluttershy in the gardens.
"Fluttershy?" he called quietly, as to not draw too much attention.
"Ahg!" he heard from around the corner. Discord made a sharp left and saw Fluttershy sitting on a stone bench with her back facing him.
She kept making painful moans as she rubbed her wrist, there was blood on her right hand from trying to stop the bleeding from her left arm's wrist.
"Fluttershy? You ok?" Discord asked, coming up behind her. Fluttershy whipped her head around and pulled her sleeves up.
"Umm hi...Discord. Th-thanks for what you did back there," she thanked.
"Please that was nothing, besides I should be the one thanking you. You know, no one's ever defended me before," he smiled, which Fluttershy returned with a blush.
"Oh, umm, no problem," she spoke softly. Discord noticed that Fluttershy was playing with her sleeve and he could see the faintest of blood stain seeping through.
"My god, did she hurt you that bad?!" he asked, concerned and rushed towards her and sat on the bench next to her.
"Let me see," he demanded, asking for her wrist.
Fluttershy shrank her arm away in fear of him seeing her cuts. Sure, some of it was Gilda but the bleeding wouldn't be nearly as bad if Fluttershy hadn't...
"No, it's ok...I'm fine," she said.
"No, Fluttershy, it's not! You're bleeding, and it's probably pretty bad if it's showing through your sleeve!" Discord demanded. Fluttershy's eyes went to her sleeve and noticed that, it was in fact, seething through.
"Shit!" she swore softly; although the words reached Discord's ears and he was quite surprised to hear her swear, she didn't seem like the type.
Fluttershy seemed to notice his confusion, "Oh, pardon my profanity."
Discord chuckled inside his head but knew that there was a more pressing matter at hand.
"Fluttershy, please let me see your wrist."
"I'm sorry Discord but I can't...it's fine-I'm fine!"
"No you're not!"
Finally. Fluttershy thought.
"Discord, I appreciate you trying to help but it'll be ok...please," Fluttershy pleaded as she started to get off the bench.
"Where are you going?" he asked, forgetting about their more heated conversation. Fluttershy smiled for a brief moment.
"To my locker...I umm need a new hoodie," she said before sighing.
"You can take mine if you want," he offered, about to take off his black hoodie.
"No, no it's alright...I wouldn't want to wreck it."
Discord looked disappointed but he out it back on. Fluttershy was about to turn and leave when-
"Wait!" he stopped her, looking her in the eyes, "Umm, are you *cough, going to that dance thingy?"
"Umm yes."
"Do you, I don't know, maybe wanna go...with...me?" he asked cautiously, closing his eyes and waiting for the bomb of rejection to hit.
"Sure," she replied, smiling, to his surprise.
"Oh really?! I mean uh, cool, so I'll pick you up around 6?"
"Oh, umm me and my friends are kinda walking there together but I'll see you there," she exclaimed.
"Ok, cool, that's cool?" Damn it Discord stop saying cool! "Yes, alright, see you there...bye," he waved her off and then headed to the other side of the school as the bell rang.
He checked his surroundings and when he knew no one was looking.
"Yes!"
Author's Note
I'm so sorry for how long this took!! The next few chapters will definitely be quicker and hopefully better detailed!!
I hope you enjoyed, have a good day! ![]()
