You know those days you have where, everything just seems to go right for once? Those days that are so good, so perfect, so absolutely wonderful, that it all seems to good to be true?
You know those days where you wake up with a bundle of energy, just waiting to be used? Those days where you remember to buy groceries before the next morning, or remember your car keys when you need them? You might even get that job you've been hoping for for the past two months?
Yeah...
This wasn't one of those days.
Instead of a bundle of energy, Trixie woke up feeling like crap. Instead of remembering her groceries, Trixie was forced to eat leftovers because she forgot to visit Barnyard Bargains yesterday. She had managed to remember her car keys, but that ray of hope only lasted for a second before her car broke down in the driveway forcing her to walk all the way down to her current location.
And worst of all, instead of getting that new job...well, she didn't even want to think about that right now.
Basically, her day had been terrible, and the weather seemed to reflect that fact.
It wasn't raining or anything. But the atmosphere carried with it a sort of...melancholy vibe that reverberated all throughout her being.
That and it was really really cold. She'd made the mistake of coming out in nothing but a baby blue top and blue jeans. The jeans were a bit short and cut off before they reached the ankles, leaving her to deal with the consequences of not wearing proper protection from the elements.
She had believed she could handle it, as she wasn't one to get cold easily, but the short socks she wore under her white sneakers were not helping in the slightest, and the white belt she wore to secure her pants to her waist failed in securing warmth to her slowly freezing form.
The sky was in the early stages of dawn, it's blue color cascading over everything and giving all around it a gray sheen that hurt her eyes, despite no glare being present. She had to squint even when looking down at all the cars in the lot around her.
The wind was blowing wildly today, whipping her hair in all directions as it rushed past her ears, seeming to scream, or perhaps cry in pain and agony. She closed her eyes. She knew that feeling all too well right about now.
This day was one of mourning. And it suited her perfectly.
She was in the middle of silently praying, wishing for something, anything to come and whisk her way to some magical land where everything was good, and nice, and perfect.
But most of all, she was waiting for something to take her away to some place fair. Some place far, far away, where the injustice and cruelties of the world couldn't affect her. At least, not to the extent that this world's did.
She was in the middle of waiting for that when, as if to spite everything she had so desired and wished for, as if to deprive her of even the simple right to hope, as if to say, "Stop living in a fantasy," she was cruelly brought back to reality by a voice she thought she'd never hear again for as long as she lived.
"Trixie?"
She sighed. Why oh why did she, of all people, have to be here? And now of all times?
"Twilight. Sparkle." She said. She spoke the name in a defeated tone, splitting it apart as if doing that would stave off the slight annoyance she felt at being here with...her. "What do you want?"
"Please, Trixie, don't do it!" Twilight yelled, rushing over to Trixie's side and grabbing her hand.
Trixie was surprised at the sudden yell, and even more surprised at the sudden contact. "Wait, what? What are you say-"
"Please, Trixie, you can't do it! You can't kill yourself!" Twilight suddenly screamed, cutting her off and causing the girl's eyes to widen.
She looked down at the roof, the edge of which she was standing mere inches away from...and then she promptly started laughing.
Twilight was shocked. "Wha-what? Trixie, this isn't funny. You can't-"
"You...hahaha....you think...haha...You really think i'd... Oh my word...You really think i'd kill myself?!"
Twilight was dumfounded. "But...but i...I thought you were-"
"You thought I would kill myself after all that i've been through? Yeah right! What a load of BS." Trixie said, flipping her hair and giving Twilight a haughty smile.
"Th-then if you weren't going to jump, what were you doing?"
Trixie's smile faded and she looked back out "I was...just reminiscing is all."
"Reminiscing? About what?" Twilight asked, curiosity getting the better of her as she let go of Trixie's hand.
"Oh, nothing. Just old times." she responded.
"Old times?" Twilight asked again.
"Yeah. Look out there." Trixie pointed out over the edge of the rooftop they were both on.
Twilight walked over and stood next to Trixie near the edge, looking out at all the cars, both moving, and parked, below them, and waited for Trixie to continue speaking. When she did, it was with a voice that told of years of never ending pain.
"Do you recognize this campus?" she asked, still pointing.
"It's...Celestia's school for gifted youths." Twilight looked up at Trixie to see her with her eyes closed. It looked like she was holding back tears. "Trixie...were you reminiscing about our old school days?"
"Yep. That's right." She responded, sniffing as she spoke. Her voice choppy and weak from trying her hardest not to burst into tears.
"Trixie. I know we weren't always the best of friends but-"
"No. Don't start with that."
"But-"
"I said no! I''m already over it. I promise. There's no need to apologize or anything like that."
Twilight simply kept quiet. But soon she said, in a small voice, "Okay."
But then Trixie said something that confused Twilight, if only for a small moment.
"I hated you, ya know?"
Twilight looked at her like she was crazy. "What?"
"I hated you." Trixie repeated, and then continued with her statement. "I hated you so much I could've watched you get run over by a car and it wouldn't have mattered."
Twilight was getting uncomfortable now. "O-kay, Trixie. We're getting into some dangerous territory here."
Trixie glared at her. "Oh toughen up already! I had to bow and scrape my way to where I am, and look at what happened to me now! I'm living in a broken down, dilapidated, poor excuse for a house, I have no job, no source of income, and what's worse, I'm all alone!"
Twilight interrupted with a sad tone to her voice. "You lost your job?"
Trixie huffed and looked away. "I quit."
"Why?" Twilight asked.
"Why do you think? No one liked my shows! I was losing customers, losing money, and losing my self confidence. Not to mention what Flim and Flam did to me."
"Flim and Flam? You actually did business with those crooks?" Twilight asked, shocked.
"What else was I supposed to do? I had no other way of getting the money I needed. They said they would help me get back on my feet. Regain my confidence in my skills as a magician. And at first they did but..."
"But?" Twilight gestured for her to keep going.
"But...then things got..weird."
"Weird how?"
"They started making me do things that bordered on illegal Twilight. Hell, I remember they made me go on stage naked once. They told me it would boost my popularity. And I believed them. Just like the desperate, naive, broken girl I was. Oh the things they made me do... It was...horrifying, to say the least."
"Trixie, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to but..."
Twilight trailed off. There was something about Trixie's silence that told her she already had her answer.
She continued with her tale. "Anyway, where was I? Oh right. I hated you so much. I hated everything about you. From your silly outfits, to your ugly hair, those atrocious highlights."
"Hey!"
"From your nerdy way of talking to your tendency to study rather than hang out with others. Not to mention your know it all personality."
"Okay, that's it!" Twilight ground her teeth together. in anger and began stomping over to Trixie to give her a piece of her mind, but she was stopped by an extended hand from Trixie.
"I thought you believed you were better than me. You had it all. Good grades, a nice, attractive body-"
"You thought I was attractive?"
"-A boyfriend-"
"Flash Sentry was not my-"
"-And worst of all, you were popular. You had the attention of the entire student body. Even the teachers fawned all over you."
"No they didn't!"
Trixie turned and glared at her. "You were Principal Celestia's favorite student! And Vice Principal Luna's! Hell, even Ms. Cadence liked you!"
Twilight blushed sheepishly. "Okay. I suppose maybe I did get a little attention..."
Trixie turned around all the way and began walking up to Twilight, stopping directly in front of her. "You had everything I didn't. And I hated you for it."
"Well, I suppose when you put it that way..."
"But, looking back on it now, I don't think it was hatred at all."
"Well, then, what was it?"
"It was Jealousy. Love and admiration as well, but...mostly, it was jealousy. I wanted what you had. I wanted it so bad I would do anything to get it, even if I had to make your life a living hell in the process."
Twilight shivered at that thought, but something about what Trixie said came to the forefront of her mind. "Wait. You said love and admiration. What's that about?"
"Oh...you caught that?" Trixie asked, a sad smiled crossing her face. "Well...yeah, I said it. No use hiding it now. Yeah...I loved you."
Twilight was awestruck. This was new. Trixie continued speaking. "I admired you, Twilight. As much as I hated you, I also admired you. You had everything I didn't. You were everything I wanted to be. You were my goal. I idolized you."
Twilight, too shocked to properly form words, managed at least one in her haze to make sense of the situation. "Really?"
"yes, really. I just...couldn't say anything because I was too busy trying to take everything you had from you rather than figure out how you managed to get it all in the first place."
Twilight was still too stunned to speak properly, but was at least able to manage a quick, "Wow, Trixie, I...this is...unexpected, I just...don't know what to do."
"You don't have to do anything. I know you don't feel the same way. I only found out I felt this way right around the time you started dating Flash Sentry. And then, when you went off to college... Once I found out that my only chance at being the center of your attention was gone, I guess I decided to keep trying to make sure you weren't anyone else's center of attention. Petty I know, but what can I say. Love is blind."
"Trixie..." Twilight started. "I don't blame you for anything that you did. Well except maybe that chewing gum you put in my favorite notebook back in junior year, but that's besides the point. How do you know I don't feel the same way?
"How could you? I made you life miserable on a daily basis!"
"Well, that is true, I can't deny that. But! You have tried to change haven't you? You're not the same as you were before?"
"I should hope not. Otherwise all that work you put into teaching me my lesson when I tried to fight that bully back in school would have been for nothing."
"You still remember that?"
"You showed me up in front of the whole school. Of course I still remember!" Even as she said this, Trixie was smiling.
"Ahahaha! Well, how about we start out as friends, and see where that goes?"
"Sure thing, Twilight. That'd be great. Now let's get off this roof. My fingers are cold."
Twilight laughed again. "Ahaha! Yes, let's!"
And with that the two left the roof, side by side. On this day of mourning, this terrible, horrible day full of nothing but bad news, a new friendship was born. And one day, possibly something more.
