"Hello Anon! What can I do for you today!"
I am greeted by Mrs.Cake as I enter Sugarcube Corner. That's strange, Pinkie isn't working today. Usually Pinkie is always working the counter. As a matter of fact, I don't think I've never not seen her not working the counter. I would know, she's one of my best friends after all.
"Hi Mrs.Cake. Is Pinkie Pie around?"
"Of course! She's in her room, but she told me she wasn't feeling good today so she asked if she could have off today."
"I see. Well could I visit her for a while? There's something I need to speak to her about."
"Oh, of course Anon! Just be careful not to catch whatever sickness she has!"
"Haha don't worry, I'll be fine."
I made my way up to Pinkie's room and gave it a gentle knock. After I knocked, I could hear a weak Pinkie Pie faintly say "come in". I enter the room to see Pinkie buried under her blanket on her bed.
"Hey Pinkie, I heard you were sick? Do you need me to get you anything? Soup? Something to drink?"
Pinkie's head pops up from out of her covers when she realized it was me who had entered. Instantly, it was as if she was completely fine. Wait a minute. Fine. She doesn't look sick at all now that I think about it...
"Wait a second...you don't look very sick."
Pinkie smiles embarrassingly.
"I.....am sick!"
"Oh really? You don't sound very sick, and you don't look sick either. How do you explain that huh?"
Pinkie starts to sweat. Maybe she just didn't want to go to work today?
"Just...shut the door behind you and come sit down Anon..."
She seems different today. As if there were something making her sad. I shut the door behind me and slowly walk over to her bed to sit next to her. Something doesn't seem right here.
"You don't have some weird stomach bug or something do you? Because I can't afford to catch anything like that."
"No Anon. I'm not sick."
"But you just said you were Pinkie."
"I am."
Oh that makes a lot of sense.
Pinkie has a more saddened tone now. I don't understand. How can you not be sick, but be sick at the same time. That doesn't make any sense whatsoever. Perhaps she just has a tooth ache or something from all the sweets she eats.
"What do you mean?"
Pinkie sighs and looks me straight in the eyes.
"I'm sick Anon. Sick in the head."
Is this a joke?
"Your pranks won't work on me Pinkie. Maybe on Rarity or Twilight, but not on m-"
"This isn't a prank Anon." Pinkie says in a serious tone.
What? Sick in the head? What, does she have hallucinations of cupcakes dancing and singing on rainbows in la la land all day? I mean, that's what I assume it's like to be inside of Pinkie's head.
"Are you okay? Do you need any medicine or anything?"
"Anon...you don't understand."
"Well, then help me understand Pinkie. I'm confused as to what you're trying to tell me."
"What I'm trying to say is...that....."
Pinkie looks as though she's having second thoughts. I don't understand. I've never seen Pinkie Pie act this way. She's so happy and out going, what is going on here? Has somepony been bothering her? That better not be the case.
"I'm sad!"
I stare at her for a moment processing what she just said to me and then I open my mouth.
"I'm sorry to hear that Pinkie. We all get sad occassiona-"
"No Anon, you don't get it. I'm always sad."
This has to be some sort of elaborate joke or a dream or something because I can't believe what I'm hearing right now. The happiest pony in Ponyville wants me to believe that she's sad all the time?
"Always sad? You're always so happy and cheerful though, how could you be sad?"
"I know, and I love to make ponies smile...but everyday I can feel it, deep deep down in my tummy, this sadness that won't go away."
Pinkie Pie slumps down in despair.
"Well...is there something I can do to make you happy? I came over to spend time with you while you worked since I haven't seen you in the past few days."
Pinkie looks up at me with tears in her eyes.
"That's the thing Anon...I don't think there is anything that will make me happy. Making everypony happy makes me happy for a little bit...but the sadness is still there Anon. I don't know what to do...I don't want to feel like this anymore Anon. I just want it to stop. It's always been like this. Please help me make it stop Anon."
This is really bothering me. Has Pinkie really been harboring these feelings from everyone this whole time? I don't know what to do. I grab Pinkie and pull her into a tight hug.
"Listen Pinkie...I don't know why you feel this way, but I will do everything in my power to help you get better. Okay? You're going to get through this, I promise you."
Pinkie breaks our hug and looks at me with despair in her eyes.
"I...I don't know how much more of this I can take Anon...I just want it to end. I just can't take it anymore!"
I put my hand on Pinkie's shoulder to comfort her. Seeing her so sad is making me sad now.
"Please Pinkie...it hurts me to see you like this...there's nothing that I can do at all to make you happy? I'll do whatever you want. If it comes down to it, I'll have Twilight and Starlight cast a happiness spell on you to take it all away."
"But then I wouldn't be me Anon...I would just be some spell. I want to be happy because I am happy, not because of some silly spell."
She's right. I can't just have my friend put under some spell that will make her instantly happy. That's just not ethical. I really hate seeing her like this though...
"...I don't know what to tell you Pinkie...I'm here for you, I'll do anything for you, anything in the world! We can go out and eat some of your favorite cupcakes if you want? Oh, or maybe we could go hang out with Rainbow Dash and the others? Or maybe we cou-"
"Anon. There's only one thing that can keep me from being like this..."
I stared at her for what seemed like an eternity awaiting her next response.
"...You're not going to like it..." Pinkie said as she looked down.
I stay silent while she ponders whether to tell me what's on her mind. There's nothing that I wouldn't do for this pony, what could I possibly not like about the one thing that can make her happy?
"...Death."
Oh.
I stared at her in shock for a moment before finally wrapping my head around what just left her mouth.
"Don't...don't say that! Don't even say something like that! That will never happen okay? Promise me you won't do anything like that Pinkie...please promise me.."
"Anon I...I can't promise you that. I'm so tired Anon. So. Very. Tired."
I'm balling my eyes out now. Is this real? This has to be a dream right? My best friend just said she wanted to die, how am I supposed to take this? I don't know what to do...
"No! You're going to be alright Pinkie, I promise you. Don't do anything you'll regret okay? Please Pinkie..."
"I'm sorry Anon...if things don't work out, just know that you were one of my bestest friends ever." Pinkie says with a sad smile.
"Things will work! Trust me! I...I don't know what I would do without you!"
Pinkie visibly thinks it over for a minute.
"I'll...okay Anon..."
I give Pinkie a big hug and a kiss on her forehead. Tears are still streaking down my face.
"Listen to me, I'm going to go do some research okay? I'm going to make this pain stop for you, no matter what. I'll be back in a few hours, okay? I promise."
"Okay Anon..."
"Be safe.."
With that I left Pinkie's bedroo-
"Wait!"
Huh? I turn back around to see what Pinkie has to say.
"What is it Pinkie?"
"...Thank you Anon." Pinkie gives me a warm smile.
"You're very welcome Pinkie."
I swiftly left Sugarcube Corner and instantly made my way to Twilight's castle.
I flew through the castle doors and straight to the library where Twilight likes to spend some of her free time.
"Twilight!"
Twilight fell out of the chair she was sitting in, my sudden appearance startling her. She embarrassingly gets up and approaches me.
"Hi Anon, is everything okay?"
"Listen to me Twilight, Pinkie is depressed and if we don't do something, I feel as though she might hurt herself. We need to do something about this but I don't know what to do. I feel so hopeless..".
Twilight looks at me, confused.
"What? Pinkie Pie's depressed? What did she do?"
"She just keeps saying she has a deep sadness in her, and that nothing she does can get rid of it! She needs our help Twilight! Right now!"
"Okay okay, ummm... let me see if there is a spell of some so-"
"We can't use a spell Twilight. Pinkie said she wanted to be happy because she is happy, not because of a spell."
"Oh my...I think I have a book on this subject somewhere, although it will take some time to do the research.."
"That's fine, you do the research and I'll go get the others okay? This is very important. I will be back as soon as I can."
Twilight nods and gets to it.
After rounding up the others, we make it back to the castle. It took awhile to find everyone, so I hope that's given Twilight enough time to figure out how to help Pinkie.
"Alright Twilight, is there anything we can do to help Pinkie Pie?"
"Well...the thing is...there is no say, cure for depression."
"Why don't we just bake her a huge cake or something? That should cheer her up!" Says Rainbow Dash.
Twilight looks at Dash with a sad expression.
"I'm afraid it doesn't work like that Dash."
"Why not? Everything makes her smile! She smiles at everything for crying out loud!" Dash yells.
"Pinkie has been fighting a silent battle it seems...she hasn't told any of us about this. She just told Anon today..." Says Twilight.
We all stand in silence for a moment, thinking on what we should do.
"So...what can we do darling? I hate to hear that Pinkie feels this way...perhaps having her sister visit her would cheer her up?" Rarity Says.
"Starlight told me that Maud is out of town currently. Something about a rock project of some sort. She won't be back for another month." Says Twilight.
"Umm...I have a suggestion." Fluttershy says quietly.
"Maybe, we could throw a party for her at her house? I know how much she loves to throw parties for others...maybe that will help her?"
That's not a bad idea actually. I think at the very least, she will be a little less sad than she is now.
"That sounds like a good idea. I guess we'll just show up at her house and surprise her? I did tell her I would be back in a few hours..."
"Well, it's not like we got any other ideas so we may as well." Rainbow Dash says.
"Very well then. Let's go." I say.
I really hope I didn't keep Pinkie waiting. I always keep my word, and it has been a few hours. I just hope this will cheer her up a bit.
We all make our way to Sugarcube Corner. After talking to Mrs.Cake for a minute, we walk upstairs and I knock on her bedroom door.
"Pinkie? May I come in?"
"NO!"
Well, so much for a surprise.
"Huh? Why? I told you I would be back in a few hours, I even brought our friends with me."
"Yeah come on Sugarcube, we know yer havin' a hard time right now, let's just talk about this for a little bit." Says Applejack.
"No! Don't....I don't want you to see this..."
"See what?"
I open the door to her bedroom.
...
Red. Everywhere. Pinkie's bed was drenched in blood.
"Pinkie! What did you do!"
I think I'm going to be sick. The sight in front of me is just unreal. It's like a scene out of a horror movie.
Everyone starts crying and screaming. Fluttershy was having a mental breakdown, while Rainbow Dash just stared in disbelief.
Mrs.Cake runs up the stairs upon hearing all the commotion.
"What's going on in here? Is everything oka-"
Upon seeing the brutal sight, Mrs.Cake gasps and faints.
"Anon...I'm sorry...I tried to hold out. I couldn't take it anymore..."
"You're going to be okay! Help me get her to the hospital!"
I rush over to her bed and pick her up in my arms. Twilight uses all the strength and magic within her to teleport all of us to the outside of the hospital. I run in and up to the front desk with Pinkie in my arms.
"You need to help my friend right now! She's bleeding to death! Please!"
The pony working the front desk realizes what is going on and calls for help. In an instant, 4 ponies run in and put Pinkie down onto a hospital bed and wheel her down the hallway as quick as possible. Everyone was still shaken from what just happened, but the atmosphere was a lot more softer knowing that Pinkie was safe.
I was covered in Pinkie's blood. Even though I didn't carry her very long, I still managed to get a lot of her blood on my arms and clothes. Why would she do this? I can't begin to understand what it feels like to be in her position, but if she were to....I would be lost...
Hours pass of us just sitting in silence in the lobby. A pony who I assume is a doctor walks out and grabs our attention.
"I'm assuming you are all here for Miss Pinkie?"
We all nod.
"I'm sure you'll be happy to know that your friend is quite alright. She cut herself pretty badly a few times, fortunately it was nothing we couldn't fix. She's stable now, so if you would like to see her now, you can." The doctor says.
"Yes. We would like that." I say in a monotone voice.
"Alright, follow me."
We follow the doctor to the room Pinkie was in. I reached for the door handle but hesitated. This is going to hurt me seeing Pinkie all messed up like this. I told her I would help her through this no matter what, so I'm going to have to endure this.
I open the door to her room and we all pour inside. Pinkie was laying in a hospital bed, bandages over her cuts. She looks at us with sadness in her eyes.
"You....saved me..."
I couldn't say anything. I walked over to Pinkie and gave her the biggest hug I think I've ever given in my life. The others soon joined in on the hug and a minute later we were all hugging Pinkie Pie.
After another minute or so, the hug breaks and we all stand back up.
"Why Pinkie? Why did you do this?" Says Twilight.
"I...felt like I was in an abyss. An abyss that I couldn't escape. It took me going through this to realize that I am worth it, and my friends love me and care about me so much. I spent all my time and effort making everyone else smile and making everyone else happy...but deep down, I wasn't happy at all. Now I know that everyone cares about me, and that me making them smile means a lot to them. I still can't quite explain it, but I feel a lot better now..."
"You...you really scared me Pinkie Pie! How could you even think about doing something like that to your friends!?" Says Rainbow Dash.
"I'm sorry Dashie. I didn't mean to put you all through this, I really didn't."
"Well...at least you're alright...so...it's whatever.."
The others converse with Pinkie a little while I sit down in one of the chairs in the hospital room. I'm exhausted. I just want to go to sleep now. At least I can rest easy knowing my friend is alive and well.
Pinkie looks over at me from her hospital bed.
"Anon."
"..?"
"Thank you...so much. If it weren't for you, I probably wouldn't be here right now...so thank you for being such a great friend. I don't know what I would've done without you."
"You're very welcome Pinkie..."
Pinkie gives me a confused look.
"Hey...how come you chose today to come and hang out with me anyway? We hadn't hung out in like 3 days! We always hangout together!"
Oh, I've been waiting for this. There was something that I was going to tell her, but considering what happened today...I don't think I want to talk about it now.
"There was...something I needed to tell you. Now's not the time though."
"Oh come on Nonny, you saved my life! You can tell me anything!"
"Yeah, come on Anon! You might not have been able to tell her at all! You may as well tell her now." Rainbow Dash says.
The others speak up and encourage me to tell Pinkie what it is I had to say as well.
"Well...."
"Come on Anon, just tell her already!" Says Rainbow Dash.
Here goes nothing I guess.
"I...love you..."
The entire room falls silent when those words left my mouth. Everypony was staring at me with expressions of disbelief in their eyes. Pinkie however, had a giant smile on her face.
"I know you probably don't feel the same way, seeing as I'm an alien from another world and all that, but I just had to let you know how I felt. You've been my best friend for as long as I've been here. If I were to lose you....I don't know what I would do with myself."
A few seconds pass. All of a sudden, Pinkie jumps from her hospital bed onto my lap and wraps her hooves around me.
"I LOVE YOU TOO ANON! I'M SO HAPPY THAT YOU FEEL THIS WAY! I'M AS HAPPY AS EVER! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! THANK YOU FOR SAVING ME! THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT FRIEND! THANK YOU FOR CARING ABOUT ME SO MUCH! THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER!"
Pinkie starts showering my face in kisses.
"Hey hey, take it easy, you don't want to open any of your wounds up on accident or anything."
Pinkie giggles with a giant smile on her face.
"Oh it's okay, they used magic to heal most of the wounds already. They're just little baby cuts now!"
"Oh. Well, in that case..."
I pull Pinkie into a deep kiss and hold her tight.
I'm the happiest man in the world right now. Literally.
After a few seconds I break the kiss.
"So, when's the wedding?" Rainbow Dash says as she starts giggling.
"Real funny and original Dash." I say sarcastically.
Me and Pinkie started cuddling on the little chair in the room. Everyone was talking with each other about whatever. I was focused on the beautiful pink pony that was in my arms. I was truly at peace.
I look deep into Pinkie's beautiful eyes. I can't believe what happened today. It was so fast, and so unreal. At least I can rest easy, knowing that I have saved a life, and found love. Today truly was an extraordinary day.
"Hey Pinkie."
"Yeah Anon?"
"I love you."
Pinkie gives me a giant smile.
"I love you too Anon."
END
Author's Note
Just a little something I decided to write in my free time. It's nothing special, but I just had to get it down somewhere.
