Lingering

by wackaditto

Rating: teen
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Nightmare Moon, Princess Luna, Thriller, Drama, Princess Celestia
Length: 2651

Nightmare Moon's own thoughts might kill her.

One dark and ominous night, Nightmare Moon surrenders herself to the princesses.

No one is exactly sure why. They only know that she ended up in the psych ward with little recollection of the event and seething hatred for the very pony who ruined her life. They only know that her mental illnesses keep consuming her. They only know that she is dangerous, and she doesn't know it.

Nightmare Moon herself is angry and mad; but she swears its not the crazy kind of mad. She has an explanation. But what other explanation is there when your mind feeds off of your feelings? And when will she finally relent and let herself get help?

Published 2017-12-15 23:00:07 UTC
Last updated 2017-12-19 02:05:19 UTC

Surrender

She'd surrendered herself.

She didn't know why. She was driven by an invisible force. Her legs had carried her towards the castle, towards her doom. She had walked with purpose, head held high.

But that didn't mean she wasn't panicking inside.

Her heart had pushed against her ribcage with every beat, and every breath was painful. She so desperately wanted to stop walking. Her mind writhed and screamed, stop!

But she didn't. The demon who was handling her wouldn't let up. He laughed with maniacal glee as she approached the steps. She strode up the steps, towards those doors, the gargantuan doors that towered over her.

Stay brave, the voice told her. This was your decision.

No it wasn't, she tried to argue, but the demon still wouldn't let her go. She was trapped. She was in a fight for control--for her own life. As she ascended the steps, her breathing became quick, shallow.

Then it stopped when the castle doors flew open.

She walked. Fixed her stare straight ahead. She approached the guards with not malice, not an intent to destroy, but with...what? She questioned her sanity. She struggled again, but her body did not turn around and flee. She could only watch as the guards' alarmed faces came closer.

She stopped right before one alert guard, towering over his small stature, and found herself breathing again. And before she could register that such a thing could happen, her mouth had opened and out came the words:

"I wish to surrender myself."

The guards glanced at each other. All the while they seemed to be...afraid.

Look, the voice said, they're afraid.

No.

Yes.

No?

Nos and yesses flowed through her mind, and she winced against it. The voice scolded her. STAY STILL.

Why? What do you want from me?

The voice did not answer. The voice was...gone. But the demon was still there, she just knew it...

Why? Why?

She hadn't realized that one of the guards had been talking to her. Oh, she had been so spaced out...disappointed. The demon was disappointed. The guard opened his mouth again, and she turned her attention to him.

"Are you absolutely sure?"

The question stunned her--he was asking if Equestria's biggest enemy was sure of admitting herself. And then...she could say no. She would opt out and then...

No.

Why?

They will catch you.

She ignored the tears that started to burn the edges of her eyes. She nodded curtly. The guard's brow shot up, but he got over it and ordered his companions to escort her to...

She spaced out again. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why...did she do this? No answer. Come on. Give me an answer! Voice! Demon!

Her breathing returned shallow. Still, she traveled with the group of guards towards her demise.

_____

Celestia leaned back on her bedroom door, eyes closed, letting it sink in. She had returned. She was here, and she was...surrendering herself. Beside her was her sister Luna, and, having a connection with her, Luna was shocked and disgusted.

Colonel Hurricane, who had delivered the controversial news, gauged their reactions. He shifted nervously. He was tough, but...what had just happened had shaken him. He couldn't stop thinking about it. What...what had driven that madmare to give herself up? Where was her logic? What...and then there was her blanking out, seemingly consumed by thoughts of her own. And the twitching. Should he mention that?

Luna interrupted his thought flow. "You're telling us that...she's alive and...?"

Colonel Hurricane nodded. His heart raced.

Celestia opened her eyes. "Can you tell me a bit about her disposition?" Luna shot her an inquiring look, and Celestia explained, "I wanted to know why she..."

Colonel Hurricane briefly closed his eyes as well. The information he was about to give would change things possibly for the worse.

Eyes still shut, he spoke.
_____

Time was nonexistent in the dungeon, but a couple voices gave her the time: "Yes, she came a few hours ago...the princess said that she should immediately be placed in..." The voice went quiet.

She looked up from her corner in the cell and saw one of the guards, flanked by two others, at the bars. She stood up and composed herself. "Yes?"

"There is...a change of plans. We will be escorting you somewhere new." He said this with more confidence than his shakiness before, although he was still very wary.

"Where to?" she asked.

"It's...confidential." He seemed hesitant to give her this information.

He used the keys he was using to unlock the cell door. She tentatively took a step. The voice returned to mock her. Scared.

No.

You fear me. You fear them.

No.

"Please." The guard was impatient.

She regulated her breathing and made her way out of the cell.

As she walked the halls of the castle worth the guards on either side of her, she began to notice changes. The dripping sound faded. The walls did not glisten with dew. As they exited the depths of the dungeon, she took note of how many prisoners were within the castle walls. None.

SHE IS NOT--

I wasn't thinking that.

YES YOU WERE. YOU MUST--

No.

DO NOT DEFY ME.

"Move." She gathered her angry thoughts at the guard's word and followed.

The color of the walls changed; so did their texture. They were no longer deep brown, but painted tan. They were no longer rough and rocky, but smooth. She remembered from being taken to the dungeon that the walls looked still a little better than this. They were high and had grand windows. These were two feet above her head and there was no outside view.

They took rights. They took the occasional left. It was a long walk, and she felt herself beginning to tire. On the way they passed a couple doors, and she heard it, a steady thump, thump, thump...

Where was she?

They took another left and there she was: Princess Celestia herself.

As the guards pushed the mare towards the princess whom she feared, the mare tried to collect herself and wait for whatever punishment the princess would lay on her.

This is your chance.

No.

THIS IS YOUR CHANCE.

No. First you want me to surrender, then you want revenge.

DON'T QUESTION ME.

What do you want?

DON'T YOU DARE QUESTION ME. YOU MUST...

She lifted her front hoof, teetered slightly, and balanced. She faced the princess. She prepared.

The princess started. "I have decided your fate."

You are going to die. ALL YOUR FAULT.

From somewhere by the princess came at least four doctors, dressed in their garbs and poised and professional. She had never seen them before, but their stature reminded her of medieval doctors. She made the connection.

Celestia continued. "One of my most trusted guards told me about your...behavior when you surrendered yourself. Me and my sister decided..."

Celestia stopped, letting that word sister invade her mind. It tortured her. It writhed and screamed in agony, and she flinched. Her eye twitched.

The doctor approached her carefully.

And then she knew.

"It's for the best," Celestia said softly.

NO.

nonononono

Panic. Panic.

Run.

She turned, but the guards blocked her way. One of the doctors grabbed her shoulder.

"Come on, Nightmare Moon," the doctor said.

Her eyes widened. Nightmare Moon? Was that...

No. NO. NO! You are not...they are psychopaths! They are killers! They will torture you! Do you not understand? They will kill youkillyoukillyou no no NO and

She squirmed in their grasp. They had latched onto her the moment she started panting. Their hold was firm. Tight.

"Settle down," one of the doctors whispered in her ear.

She was whimpering on the ground. She couldn't blink. Couldn't function.

No no NO MURDERERS DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

Screaming, she tried to escape from their clutches. Tears flowed like a crashing river.

She saw Celestia's alarmed expression as she was dragged away. Then something stabbed her in the back. Crying out, she wriggled once more, then went limp. Her last thoughts before she completely blacked out was they're killing me.

And then her world was darkness.

Restrained

She thrashed in their grip, howling. They didn't let go. They never let go.

"...yes, some signs of..."

The chains tightened as she lashed out. A prisoner. A traitor, that was what she was. A traitor of the demon.

"...surely there is some underlying..."

She had defied him. And now she was chained to the dark corners of her mind.

"...yes. Right away..."

Images flashed before her as she screamed desperately. Help! HELP ME!! The sound of it all echoed through the space.

"...hold on..."

Images of the moon's rocky surface, of a falling Celestia, of a young unicorn, and the rainbow that stood over her, overpowering her.

"We need Doctor Violet!"

She felt it next, the pain sending her nerves into agonized whimpers, and then pleas for mercy. She sobbed and struggled again, trying to escape from her bindings.

"...heart rate increasing..."

One chain suddenly broke off. Ecstatic, she reached up with her free hoof and tried to break the surface.

"It's going to be okay."

Those comforting voices beckoned her to break the surface. Reach further...reach further...

Further...

"She's out of control..."

Further...

"Sh, sh, it's just a dream..."

She woke up panting.

Sweat dripped down her forehead as her eyes darted from one patch of darkness to another. She was fearful that she was in the same depths, the same corner if her mind. But there were differences, she noted to her relief. The steady beeping, the warmth, the sleepy heaviness...

Heaviness...

She was chained. She knew it. She knew it like she knew herself. It was definite. It was precise. She was, and always would be, a prisoner.

The beeping invaded her ears, her pants turned to whimpers, her eyes became a fountain. There it was. The answer. She was doomed. She was a captive of her mind. She decided to plead with the demon. She opened her mouth, but out came only a soft cry. She tried to move her free hoof--

It strained against something. Leather?

She tried her other hoof. Leather. She tried all four of them. Leather. She was tied down by her past, by her demon.

She finally broke through her mess of sobs: "Let me go..."

No one responded.

Not her demon.

Not those voices.

Nothing. She was alone.

She strained against the leather, grunting. She whipped her head from side to side. She did anything to escape, to summon the voices, but all there came was a slam. Light flooded her vision, and she heard a clutter of hoofsteps as a couple of heads loomed into her burnt vision. Her eyes went wide. She screamed in terror, not ready to face her fate.

Fate...

Did someone say something about that? It sounded familiar. It was like...like someone she'd known very, very well had said that to her...

"Hey. Hey! Look at me."

Her eyes snapped up and met a pair of lilac-colored ones.

"You'll be alright. We're going to put you to sleep."

Sleep? No!

Listen to me.

LISTEN TO ME.

The demon was back. It was there, and it once again had complete control of her. Panicked, she began to struggle some more. She was going to escape, and she was going to--

Kill them.

No.

KILL THEM.

No!

HOW DARE YOU DEFY ME.

Something sharp jabbed into her shoulder, and she screamed. Screamed with all her might. Out came a deadly groan that soon faded into hiccuping cries for help. One by one, her limbs succumbed to numbness. Her eyelids felt like the heaviest weights known to ponykind. She fought to stay awake...

She thrashed in their grip, howling. They didn't let go. They never let go.

She was back in the dream.

She was back.

She was there.

She was once again a prisoner...

Her eyes snapped open.

Light flooded her vision again, but this time there was no rushing sounds. She sighed in relief. Maybe she wasn't tied down...

She was.

Leather. Leather. Leather. Leather. All four limbs, leather. She bit back a cry, reminding herself of the last time.

ITS ALL YOUR FAULT.

The demon was back to attack her again, this time screaming and grating its claws on her bones. She tried to shake him off, she really did, but the leather, oh, the leather kept her still and the demon, the demon...

YOU WILL DIE

DO NOT MOVE, OR YOU WILL DIE

Her struggling faded as she processed the new demand. Do not move...or you will die. She fought back a shiver and took a few breaths and lay perfectly still. Her eyes focused on a single point on the ceiling. She lay her head back. It was...relaxing. It brought her calm and resolve but yet...but yet...

DON'T BREATHE. DON'T YOU DARE BREATHE.

The voice screamed in her ear, a rabid scream that roared through her mind.

But I have to breathe.

The voice did not answer. What did it want? Was there room for bargains? What...maybe. She decided to breathe, but shallowly. As long as she didn't move, she could survive. It was a deal.

...

She woke up and found herself still tied down. She stayed still. Did not dare talk. Did not dare let her chest rise more than an inch. It was dark this time. The blinding lights were gone. The darkness lulled her to sleep.

...

"She's actually sleeping peacefully...should we, you know..."

"No. She is a dangerous criminal."

The hope inside of her died a gruesome death.

_____

Celestia watched from the one-way mirror as Nightmare Moon slept. She looked...restful. At peace. She looked like she didn't mind being restrained or being kept in a psych ward. Celestia shivered, remembering what had happened two nights before when Nightmare Moon had woken up screaming.

The doctors had never trusted her; of course, this was a dangerous case. They had immediately placed her in the leather restraints and kept her in a room at the end of a long, twisting hallway, separate from the other patients at the Canterlot Royal Psychiatric Hospital. Patients were kept from being anywhere near the place. Nightmare Moon was considerably a threat, and the doctors treated her so.

Except for Red Violet.

Red Violet had worked with the toughest cases at Canterlot Psych, and she had quite a reputation for it. Word was she had counseled Starlight Glimmer herself after Starlight's reformation. Of course, those were rumors; after all, Celestia would have heard from her former student if such a thing were to happen. Nonetheless, Red Violet was also the most trusted nurse, which was why she was the lead doctor on Nightmare Moon.

Red Violet stood beside Celestia now, nodding and taking notes. She had a long, stringy, dark pink mane usually kept in a bun at the base of her neck, and coat color of a relaxing tan. Her cutie mark was that of a checklist, for she loved to make lists.

Red Violet turned to Celestia. "Princess, I believe that we may start counseling in about a week."

Celestia startled at the comment. "A...week? You think that it's going to take that long?"

Red Violet nodded. "She will need to believe that she needs some help first. It may take a while to convince her, and in her current mental state it may be tough. We're looking at about a month, max."

About a month, max. Celestia felt icy hooves pressing on her spine. A month...was that what it would take to cure and eventually reform Nightmare Moon? Of course, Chrysalis had been given a chance but refused. And Nightmare Moon had shown with her "sister" Daybreaker that she wasn't ready to go without a fight.

Celestia turned back to the mirror and watched as Nightmare Moon slept.

Then her eyes shot open.