Pinkamena vs mane 5

Pinkie pie rushed home and got ready for the dinner that was about to go down. She got decorations, sweets, and main courses because what's a dinner without main courses. As she started preparing everything with a grand smile she passed the mirror and looked and instead of the smile she thought she was wearing she saw the most saddest face in all of ponyville. "NO! NO! NO! I shouldn't be this way, as long as everyone that's coming has a smile I should smile also" Pinkie said this as she felt the small and fearful bitterness in her heart. "No pony should feel this, it'll be okay" she reasoned herself as she forced a smile unto her face looking in the mirror once more for reassurance but you could still see something wasn't right in the reflection of her eyes. She now continues prepping plates and utensils on the dining table, she did linger her gaze on the glimmering butter knife from one of the sets of utensils. "I wonder how it'd feel to just slightly graze the skin. To just feel the little numbing pain?" Pinkie thought to herself but soon snapped back to reality as the ring of her doorbell was heard. It was the baker leaving the cake order for dinner.

Once dinner was prepared and such she decided to get herself ready and wait for her friends. She went to take a bath and soak for a bit in her favorite lavender cupcake soap. As she got the tub filled she was thinking of maybe styling her hair a different way and maybe her friends would notice the slight change. She finally got into the tub and was enjoying the little dip but then out of nowhere a thought came in " what if your friend's don't want to come to dinner? What if they're only coming for the food and not for you hmm?" she refused to believe these thoughts but truthfully she did fear these little things. She sank herself deeper into the tub and went into deep though as held her breath. She saw a flash of something in her mind and realized it was the memory of when she created a picnic in the everfree forest. Her vision slowly dimmed and then was met with bright rays of the sun as she sat on a blanket in everfree forest. She watched as her pony friends were playing but she had so stay and take care of the sandwiches to make sure no bugs got on them. " Everypony is playing tag while I'm sitting here stuck with watching sandwiches." quietly saying this to herself as she decided to put her head down and hide her sadness from her friends because she didn't want to ruin their happiness as she saw them laughing and frolicking about. Within this memory she remembered the feeling.

She thought to herself about the icky feeling and panicked and because of this she took a deep gulp of water and choked. She threw herself out of the tub gasping for air as she spat out the water from her lungs. " Why am i thinking about this now? Why are those memories coming back now?" She whispered as she held herself on the floor of the restroom. She started to feel something unlock in her heart, something that wasn't meant to be open. She splashed cold water on her face and decided not to think about it and got ready for dinner. She styled her hair in a double bun fashion and straightened her tail. She heard the doorbell ring and it was about to begin.

She answered the door and her friends came in and brought gifts they all looked so excited. As everyone got settled in she served the food and sat down at the head of the table and got ready to eat. Of course everypony else was talking and laughing and eating but at the moment no one asked her any questions like how was she doing or how to make the food. Once again she felt left out like her memory in the tub.