The Twilight Stars

DarkAxe's POV

Okay, I need to calm down.

I walk down the hall of the dormitory, the silence makes my beating heart sound louder than a Hammer hitting a piece of wood.

I just had the most traumatizing night in my whole guardsmen career. I've seen so much worse but for some reason this was.

This was the worst thing that happened...Why? He's just a day guard right? Nothing more nothing less right? Ugh son of a carroit stick!!! I'm giving myself a headache!

Over some hot headed day guard!

But why? For Luna's sake why do I care about this guy so much?

I walk out of the guards dorms and I walk back to my post trying not to look at LightSpears blood puddle.

And I stand at my post again, holding a emotionless stare. But I'm still thinking...this is something I'm gonna be asking a lot, but I think theirs a reason that I want to refuse to believe because it can't be, I'm not gonna be a....a....coltCuddler.

It's wrong, and it's...just not right! I can't feel this way but...I do don't I?

They say it's a choice...But this just happened.

So are ponies really just born like that? Because I don't want to be but...I think I am...

Maybe this explains why I never really responded that well when Mares tried making moves on me?

Is this why that date I went out on was...ugh.

"You seem to be mindful right now." I hear a cold voice say, and I turn to see a female night guard I know well, MoonSheild she has a long black mane and wears no Helmet because she had no need to.

"Is it about that day guard I saw you save from bleeding out on the concrete?" She says her face showing a cold stare.

"H-how did you know?" I say stomping towards her.

"yes...I did." She said looking at her hooves.

"And you just watched it happen?!" Im starting to get angry at this bitch.

"Yes, I did." She said her voice cold.

I fly up to her, "Why didn't you do Anything about?!" I point my hoof at her.

"I didn't want to get my hooves dirty." She says looking at me with a cold stare, everything about this mare is just...cold

"Also, there were 4 of them, I was out numbered..." she say jump down from where was was standing, onto the floor.

"Four...H-he said there was one!"

"Well...They all looked identical...Very identical."

"Plus...why would I do that for a pony I don't even know." She says looking back at me.
"But knowing you, you would've jumped in a heartbeat." She says flipping her mane.

"...Yeah, I would've." I say landing behind her.

"Now why is that DarkAxe?...What makes him so special? You've only known him for 2 days." She says walking towards me.

"...I...I don't know why but...I just would."
I say firmly.

"...Who, who did this to him?" I ask her being Luna in my head that she would tell me.

"...His fellow Day guard of course." She says walking around me and she's cirlcing me, like a preditor does their pray.

"Why?...Why would they do that?" I say my head fallowing her as she cirlcles me.

"Because...He's suspected to be a ColtCuddler."

I feel my mind going into panic mode, suspected? That's all it takes now? Being supected can get you beaten to a bloody pulp? For they know he could have a wife and a kid!

"Oh did I say suspect?...They know he's a coltCuddler." She says looking right at me.

"W-wait what?"

"Here maybe this will give you some clarification."

She levitates a Journal to me with her purple arua surrounding it.

"May 30th."

That was two days ago

I turn the pages to where she says and what I read makes me feel...weird.

May 30th

Today I lost my hoof shoe again but instead of sneaking into the castle like I usually do, but instead I met this Very handsome bat pony; I don't usually write about the stallion I see here in canterlot considering all of them are indeed very handsome, but this stallion makes me feel different; I don't know what it is about him but, it's just very different with him. I just hope no one reads this, I sound like a teenage filly writing about her crush; well maybe I do have a crush on him; he is really handsome and nice and does care about me, hopefully I'll fall out of this one sided love.

I feel my cheeks heat up, alright yeah I'm blushing, but I feel like anypony would...Or to any homophobic pony...Disgusted but I don't think it is, everything he says is very flattering to say the least...He thinks I'm handsome huh?

"You're blushing..." she says looking at me with a very very very very very very very slight smile.

"W-what no I'm not! Okay maybe alittle but-"

"Nothing...But nothing, there's no point in trying to hide it...You've fallen for the day guard haven't you DarkAxe?" She says stepping towards me

"N-no of course not! I'm not a coltCuddler I'm...I'm..."

"What? Straight? A straight stallion would've stared as the female guards walk by, and straight stallion wouldn't turn down every mare that makes a move on them; and straight stallion especially a guard would've jumped at the chance to take advantage of a poor drunk mare who's lonely and wants a one night love delusion. A straight stallion would've been disgusted with what you read in that journal...But you...You stared at his flank. You never turned down a chance to walk with him before and even after your shift, and you say your always tired...When I see you with him I don't see a tired stallion...I see a stallion who wants to spend time with somepony they really really like." She says flipping her hair.

Luna This girl is good...She made several really good points, every mare that asks me out I usually turn them down. I can esspecially agree with what she said about the drunk mare thing...Most of the guards do take advantage of Drunk mares, I couldn't imagine doing that to anypony; especially LightSpear...

"So tell me DarkAxe...Are you gonna continue to delude yourself into thinking your straight or are you gonna be a real stallion and realize the truth..." she puts her hoof to my chest her eyes showing ether anger or sadness; maybe both.

Maybe she's right, maybe I am Deluding myself... It takes a real Stallion to know the truth and accept huh?

I look at the blood puddle LightSpear was in...A reminder that I could've lost him, even thought he isn't mine to lose...But I want him to be.

I want him...Don't I?

She's right...

It takes a real stallion to know the truth.

It takes a real stallion to know you want somepony.

It takes a real stallion to want to fight and protect somepony they love...

Love...

That sound nice...It takes a real stallion like me know...I love LightSpear