Who we really are?
Facing old fears
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Sunset and Twilight enters the throne room and sees Celestia. The fiery haired unicorn walks closer to the throne and begin to talk.
"Princess Celestia, last time we see each other I was a bad pony who disapointed and betraied you, nothing that I could say is enough to justify all I did, but now I'm here, a different pony, better than I was before, humbly beging for your forgiviness."
Celestia said nothing, she leaves the throne and stops in front of Sunset, before the unicorn could say anything, the princess huged her with their forehooves and wings.
"I've missed you, was not your fault Sunset, all you did, was not your fault but mine" Said the princess.
Sunset broke the embrace and looked on Celestia's eyes.
"What you mean? I betrayed you, stole Twilight's crown, throw off all you teached me, is all my fault, I had nothing and you gave me everything, a purpose, your guidance, care, love, and ..."
Celestia touches gently the unicorn's face and says:
"I'm the true culprit here Sunset. Allow me tell you a story that I should told you a long time ago. Everything began almost thirty-one years ago, when I dated a young stallion named Night Light..."
"WHAT??? You date my father? How in name of Equestria this is possible?" Screamed Twilight before the princess could spoke more.
"I'm just speaking about this Twilight, if I could finish the story you will understand." Said Celestia.
"Sorry princess, is I'm never thinked of you in this way." Said Twilight apologising.
"Anyway, almost thirty years ago I meet your father in one of my escapes of the castle. Was a ordinary monday, the Sun already was in the sky, and I was bored, nothing important to do all day and I decided take a break and simply walk arround. I go to my room and said to not interrupt-me unless the Equestria's fate is in danger, so I used a simple ilusion spell to look like a normal unicorn and teleported myself to the Canterlot streets.
I was trotting when I hit somepony and we both fall. I look to him and my heart skip a beat, he's so hansome. I apologised, and he asks what a so beautiful place like me is making in a girl like this, I laught and my mussle make a snort, I love him since then. We spend all day together, talking, lauging, I felt so free like I don't feel since I was a filly.
Near the sunset, we was in the Canterlot gardens when we first kiss, I felt so alive, a heat in my chest, butterflies in my belly, I don't feel this in almost a millenia. We said goodbye and from this day we was dating. Every free time that I had, we spend together, so two months after we first meet, I tell him who I really was. At first he has upset, I lied to him but he felt that all we had lived couldn't be a lie and he forgive-me. We stay together for eleven joyful months, but this couldn't be for ever, I was the ruler of Equestria and my subjects come first than my happiness. One day, after we, er, 'spent the night togheter', I broke up with him, if he stay at my side, someday he could be a target of the enemies of the kingdom. They could use Night Light to hit me, force me to give up the throne.
He understod and forgive me, I broke his heart but he smiled to me and promise don't tell nopony about us . About a year after, I was hear that him was married a young mare named Twilight Velvet."
"I still don't see the link between your story and me princess"
"I agree with Sunset princess." Said Twilight.
"Well, when Night Light and I broke up, we don't know, but I was pregnant of your half-sister Twilight. When the baby was born, your parents was alredy married and your mother was pregnant of Shining Armor and I choose don't tell Night Light about our child, could be dangerous to him and your family, and until today he not know. I take care of the little filly for almost one year before leave her on the Canterlot Orphanege, where I could visit her every time I wish without attracting suspicion. Few year after, I took that little girl as one of my most loved students. This girl is you Sunset, you're my daughter."
The room set in silence for a few seconds.
"I'm your daughter?" Asked Sunset.
"She's my sister?" Asked Twilight
"I'm your daughter?" Spoke Sunset, her voice was a mix of anger and sadness and so she upper her tone.
"WHY YOU DON'T TOLD ME THIS YEARS AGO? YOU KNOW HOW MANY PAIN I FELT, HOW MANY TIMES I STAY ALONE, CRYING UNTIL SLEEP, WAITING ONE DAY DISCOVER WHO ARE MY PARENTS, WHY THEY LEAVE THERE?"
Sunset's horn began to glow, sparks fying while she walks side to side, staring Celestia.
"They don't love me? I wasn't planed? They wanted a foal? All ponies there was adopted, except me, all they found a family but not me. All my childhood I was alone, suffering until I decided that if my parents don't want me, I don't need they. The only thing that makes me happy on that place was your visits princess, showing that you cared of us, you cared about me. Some years after I entered in your School of Gifted Unicorns, I saw you like a mother I never had. For the first time in my life I think I could be happy, so you continouly denied to explain what I see in the mirror, what is my destiny, denied me this, expulsed me of your company, the company of the only pony I ever think loved me and I truly loved. I loved you and you abandoned me, I run to the other side of the mirror and you not even cared if I was good, if I was alive"
Celestia remain in silence while Twilight just watches motionless. With Tears in her eyes, Sunset continues to speak.
"I was alone for years and years in a strange world, without family, without friends, without nopony to support me. When the portal opened again, I stole Twilight's crown, and I will use it to take over Equestria, to show you I wasn't the pony who admires you, who wanted to be like you, I will show that I was stronger than before, that you don't had any domain over me. If you don't give me my place at your side, I would take yours.
Twilight and the others defeated me, and even afer all the bad things I did, they forgive me, acepted me and be friends with me and helped me be a better person. Twilight, Applejack, Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, Rarity and Pinkie Pie, they became my family, something I always dreamed but I never had when I was here in Equestria. They recived me in theirs homes, theirs families. After so many suffering I find my place, my peace and now you tell me that is all your fault? You know everything and do nothing, you left me think that nopony loved me, that I was alone in the world. I came here to beg you pardon for all my mistakes, to try a come back to you, but I don't know if I want this anymore."
Sunset sits with her backs turned to Celestia. Twilight place a hoof on the fiery unicorn shoulder.
"I never imagined that you had passed for all this Sunset. After all you lived, you become a better person, a better pony, can't you forgive her? We all makes mistakes, but we need be able to forget..."
Sunset quickly stand up and turns to the her friend.
"SHE LIED TO ME TWILIGHT!!! ALL MY LIFE WAS A BIG LIE!!! I WAS NOTHING MORE THAN A BIG JOKE TO YOUR BELOVED PRINCESS, HOW DO YOU EXPECT I COULD FORGIVE HER FOR THIS? If today I'm a better person is because you show me theres another way, that I can left my past behind, that I can exist beyond my errors, but all that happned to me was her fault, she knows we're sisters and send you to stop me without tells how deep we're related. All could be different if I at least know there was somepony in the world who cares about me, I didn't would turned into a demon full of hate and thirst of power, I never will meet my friends and hurt they, I could be a happy person Twilight and she, your beloved princess denied me this."
"Sunset, the princess..." Twilight is unsure what she can say anything to defend Celestia, but happly she don't need to, the princess place a hoof on her shoulder and began to talk
"She's right." Celestia leaves Twilight and sit on Sunset's side.
"Sunset, I know that after all what I did to you I don't deserve pardon, I will never forgive myself for all the pain I caused to you. All this time we was apart I missed you so much, abandon you was my biggest mistake, you don't had any guilty and I make you pay for mine."
Celestia walks and sit in front of Sunset, looking the unicorn on eyes she takes off her crown.
I'm here not as Celestia, the ruler of Equestria, but as a mare depply sorry for her acts, beggin you pardon, even knoing that I don't deserve any, please give a chance to restart and finally be your mother and stay at your side. Let me be part of your life even if not as you mother, but if in your heart you can't forgive me, I'll understand and not more will interfer in your life."
Sunset stay silent for a few seconds before talk to Celestia again.
"Princess, I need to think very well in al this before I can talk to you again. Now I'm really, really upset with you, and don't want to say nothing that I could sorry later. Goodbye princess."
Sunset stands up and slowly walks lowerheaded throught the path until the throne room doors, and teleports herself out of the castle. The princess remain on the floor, watching her daughter disapear, Twilight walks and touches her back.
"You will be ok princess?" Asked Twlight.
Celestia close her eyes and takes a deep breathe before answer.
"Imortallity is a huge burden Twilight, the kind of I don't wish to no pony. They say with the years the wisdom comes, that you grow up and learn with you younghood, but look at me, alive for more than a millenia and even so makes the same mistakes. I banished my own sister to the moon, and in my fear, my cowardness, abandoned my daughter, a defenseless little filly for who I was her world, all the bad choices he made, all that happened to her was my fault, I destroied her life. I was a fool thinking that she could forgive me" Said Celestia with a deep sadness on her voice.
"Princess, I know Sunset, I could not know how was your relationship before, but one thing I know is that today she's a better pony, a deeply changed pony, not more those young mare who runaway of you years ago. She learned the value of the friendship and how important is forgive those who fail because she already was in that place. I'm sure she will forgive you one day, just give her some space and a litte time to process all this" Said Twilight cleaning the tears of her former teacher's face.
"When you became so much wiser than me Twilight Sparkle?" Spoke the princess with a little smile on her lips.
"What can I say, I had a great teacher. Princess you and Sunset are my friends and if I know both of you, you will be fine soon, I'm pretty sure. Now, I have to find Sunset and see if she's fine, you will be ok?" Asked the young alicorn.
"I'll be fine Twilight, don't worry. Now go find your friend, she needs you" Said the Sun princess.
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