Who we really are?

by FieryUnicorn42

Rating: teen
Tags: Equestria Girls, Main 7 (EqG), Profanity, Princess Celestia, Slice of Life, Human, Sunset Shimmer, Twilight Sparkle, Drama, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Alternate Universe, Romance
Length: 7417

Sunset Shimmer goes to Equestria to reconcile with Princess Celestia, however, this meeting makes her know more about herself and her former teacher than she ever expected.

After many years away from Equestria, Sunset Shimmer decides it's time to go back and get things right with Princess Celestia. Even uncertain of how the princess would react to her, Sunset goes to meet her hoping Celestia has forgiven her as well as her friends, however, what she does not expect is that things are not so simple between her and her former teacher.

Edit 12.17.2021: I've realized that the previous title was a little too long, so I changed from Who we really are? (or just another Sunset Shimmer background story) to simply Who we really are?

Published 2018-04-05 05:20:11 UTC
Last updated 2021-12-17 23:43:34 UTC

Will happen, happening, happened

Chapter 1

“There’s something in my schedule yet?” Asked Celestia to her secretary while stretches her legs and wings before set the Sun.

“No your highness, that was the last one.” Said Raven Inkwell.

“Well, I think we’re done today” spoke Celestia while the Sun lowers on the horizon.

“Yes, your highness” Said Raven.

Celestia began to walk in direction of her bedroom, but before she left the throne room, she spoke to the other mare again.

“Raven?”

“Yes, princess?”

“This week was a really long and exhaustive, take the weekend off. We see on Monday morning”

“Oh, thank you princess.” Said Raven while Celestia walks through the hallway to her bedroom.

Is almost 01:00 AM and Celestia still working, even after finish her turn as a princess of the day, there’s a lot to do. She’s tired and looks to a pile of papers on her desk that demand her attention “Isn’t nothing so urgent that can’t wait until morning” She thought while left the desk in direction of the bathroom. After a relaxing warm bath, the princess walks to her bed.

Laying on bed, she thinks on her life, how many ponies she meet on all those centuries, who was her friends when she was just a common mare. She remembers her early years, when she was only a young pony with nothing to worry, when her only responsibility was her young sister Luna and not a kingdom with so many ponies that she can’t even count. " Oh Luna," she think about all those centuries of solitude after banish her sister to the Moon “ I can’t even imagine how you felt, alone in that place for a millennia. How I could be so blind, how I could ignore you and makes you felt that you was unloved? How I could banish you, the pony I loved more than myself?

For thousand years, she thought every night about it, She really did the right thing? Being the judge, jury and executor for her own sister? Banish Luna without offer her a chance to redeem herself? through this pain, she remembers all the joyful moments that she had, all the ponies who helped her in more than a millennia of life and thinks about that who one day was her most talented and loved student. Using her magic, she grabs a photo on her nightstand desk, is a image of her and a young unicorn, both are smiling. A lot of memories came to her mind, they soon transforms in tears of pain and sadness to her eyes. She gently touches the photography with her hoof, “I miss you so much my little sunshine, hope you come home soon and maybe someday you can forgive me for my mistakes”. She embraces the photo and sleep.

In her dreams she sees a lot of young ponies playing together, her attention is catch by a yellow unicorn filly with a fiery mane who is running and laughing with the others. The image changes, the young unicorn is now a teenager, her pupil, the princess sees a shadow cross the unicorn’s eyes but she ignores. Now she and the young unicorn is on the castle library, the girl scream with the princess but there’s no sound, but this is unnecessary, Celestia had those words carved deep in her heart.

Now there's only darkness, the unicorn has gone, Celestia is sit in front of a mirror, the same that years ago the young unicorn crossed, “She will never come back, why I expect she will? There’s nothing that can makes she wish come back to Equestria. I've messed all up” The princess looks to the ground and close her eyes when feel a touch on her shoulder. She turns her head and sees the night princess at her side.

Luna sees a deep sadness on her sister eyes, unfortunately this is not the first time she found Celestia this way, she have this same nightmare once or twice a week. See her sister living this again and again, hurts deep the night princess heart. She sits and place a wing over Celestia.

“This dream again sister?” Said Luna dissolving the image with her wings. “Tia, to this nightmare have a end, you both need to talk and move on with your lives, even if apart” Luna's voice is firm, but kind at same time, she know Celestia still blaming herself, but for her own experience, she also know that forgive herself is one of the most important steps to left the past in the past.

Celestia said nothing, she look to the ground and let a long sigh escapes.

“You’re right Luna, if I don't talk to her, I'll regret for the rest of my life." Celestia spoke with a bit of sadness on her voice.

"Now sister, is time to have a good dream, since you have to rise the sun in a few hours." Said Luna leaving Celestia with kiss on the cheek and a dream full of cakes.

Meanwhile, on the other side of the mirror, is Saturday, 01:30 AM

Sunset Shimmer is awake in your apartment while the girls are sleeping after the sleepover. She grabs her journal and writes to Twilight.

Dear princess Twilight,
Hope I won't wake-up you with this message. How are the things back in Equestria? A lot of friendship problems to solve? Here in Canterlot High is everything ok, no one was affected by equestrian magic. Our new magics become better day after day, I think in this point here and in Equestria magic works the same way, more practice, more control. Change the subject a little, I want you opinion about a thing. I was thinking a lot in goes back to Equestria, i mean, I've been there twice before, but this time is different. I want to apologize with princess Celestia, when i leave Equestria, said awful things to her. There's so many things i need to spoke to her, and I'm not sure if i had enough courage to face her after all I did, but every time i see principal Celestia, I'm fell so bad and small not knowing what the princess thinks of me. I need to talk to her to move on, turn this page of my life, i know this sounds (looks) selfish and maybe are, but I can't still living without saying to her that I'm so sorry for all things I have done before.

Some minutes latter, Sunset's journal starts to glow, she's received a answer.

Sunset, I already said you don't need call me princess, we're friends, there's no need for all this formalism. I'm happy with your progress with the geodes magic, even not knowing how they arrived on the crystal cave near the Everfree camp. I presume they work like the elements of harmony here from Equestria, so there's elements in other worlds? I don't know but can be, right? Unfortunately only Starswirl knows how the mirror works and I don't think he is happy with us jumping through the worlds. Sometime ago Equestria and other mirror world almost was destroyed by this, but this is a story for other moment.

Turning the subject back, I will be more than happy if you comes here, after all in your last visit we can't talk. I'm sure princess Celestia will be happier than me meeting you, every time we meet she asks about you, she really miss you Sunset. If you want, I can arrange a meeting for you two.

Say to the girls they will be welcome if want come, and i guess Rarity is dying of curiosity to see the castle, and I really want to talk with your world Twilight Sparkle, I think we have a lot in common.

Before Sunset could answer, she receives another message.

Why you don't spend the weekend here in Equestria? So we can see princess Celestia tomorrow afternoon.

Sunset look to the text in her journal for some seconds before answer.

I'm not sure if I'm ready Twilight. You want know, damn it, I'm going to Equestria face the princess! I would have to do it sooner or later. Just don't forget, if she burns me until ashes, I'll blame and spook you every night for the rest of you immortal alicorn life ;-) Jokes apart, I'll ask the girls if they wanna go with me.

When Sunset dropped the pen, Pinkie touched her back and said: "I'm in". In another situation this could be weird, but is Pinkie, thinks Sunset, so she just tilt her head.

On the morning, after the girls awakes, Sunset talks about princess Twilight invite, while she talks, Pinkie sat on the floor, holding her backpack waiting the talk ends. The girls agree this is so sudden, but would be impolite if they don't accept.

"I don't know if are a good idea change our weekend plans this sudden. What I would say to my parents? I can't tell I going to the magical land of talking ponies, this sounds crazy, well my life was been quite uncommon last months" Said Twilight.

"Just say that you goes visit a friend who lives outside the city darling." Pointed Rarity.

"But it's a lie" Said Applejack

"Not really my dear Applejack, is just a half true. Princess Twilight lives in Equestria, that's technically outside our city, so if Twilight here says we are visiting a friend who lives out of Canterlot city, is true."

"You must admit she have a good point here". Said Pinkie to Applejack

"I won't agree, but is fine for me" Said Applejack.

Sunset sees that Twilight isn't saying nothing. She touches her friend's shoulder.

"What's the problem Twilly, something worries you?"

"I'm don't know if i must go. Princess Twilight and I barely know each other, we just talk for a minute or two last time we see, not to count is a quite strange talk to her, since we look very similar and we are alternate versions one of other. She's a magical pony princess for another dimension and I'm just a girl who looks like her".

Sunset give a sweet smile to the purple girl.

"Twilly, she asks you to goes for Equestria just for talk to you, she wanna be your friend, like us."

Twilight sighs and looks in Sunset eyes.

"Fine, I go. This could be fun right?"

Author's Note

Dear reader, thanks for reading my story, I hope you enjoy (or enjoied if you already read). If there's something that don't makes sense is because english is not my first language, so I'm not so good writing, or I'm just a bad writter, you decide. Anyway if you have some sugestion, I'll be happy reading these.

A strange, but still familiar, new world

Chapter 2

The girls goes to their homes, pack her things before meet with Sunset in front of CHS. Few minutes before 11:00 AM, they arrive and find Sunset waiting beside the portal. The fiery haired girl began to spoke.

"Ok, before we go, there's somethings I need to advise you: When you cross the portal, you'll feel your body a quite strange, like a tingling, is absolutelly normal. Oh, and before I forget, your clothes will dissapear".

"WHAT?!" the girls asked together.

"It's means we will be... naked?" Fluttershy asked with a huge blush in her face.

"It's not a problem to me" Said Pinkie giving a wink to Sunset.

"This is really necessary Sunset?" Asked Applejack.

"We will be so exposed. Are you sure that we need stay naked there?" Said Rarity clearly unconfortable.

"Well, ponies normally don't wear nothing, unless we're in a formal situation like The Great Galloping Gala. And don't worry, no one will think strange we're walking naked. Any other question?" Sunset spoke to her friends.

"Many, but I think we don't want make princess Twilight wait so long for us" Said Sci-Twi.

"So here we go! The last one pays milkshakes for the others" Said Rainbow Dash enthusiastic. "There's milkshakes on there, right Sunset?"

"Yes Dash, we have milkshakes in Equestria" Replies Sunset.

After cross the portal, the girls feel a bit dizzy, her eyes adjusting to the light in the castle and they see a purple pony surrounded by other five.

"Welcome to Equestria. Let me introduce you Rarity, Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, Applejack and Pinkie Pie, they show you Ponyville after lunch." Said princess Twilight.

Sunset tries to walk and almost fall.

"All right, ponies don't walk on two hooves, I always forget it" Sunset say to herself.

She walks and hugs Twilight.

"Last time I was here, the mirror is in the library, good to know you moved it." Said her to princess.

"Yeah, Starlight told me you fall on a pile of books last time, sorry, so I decided move the mirror to a empty room, I don't wanted you hurt when came here." Explain the princess.

"It's ok, thanks princess, I mean Twilight"

The mane six watches curious his others "me", sure they already seem duplicated before, when fight the Changelings, but is different, they're not clones or shapeshifters, but themselfs, or something like it. While the others thinks, the Pinkies jumped together out the castle.

Twilight so starts to show the Friendship Castle to her CHS friends. During the lunch, they talk about how different and simmilar their worlds are.

"Well, after this joyful meal, I belive you are nuts to explore Equestria, or at least Ponyville, and there's something i would like to do. Twilight can you come with me?" Said the princess.

"Me? I think so. Where we go?" Asked Sci-Twi

"Soon you'll know" replied the princess.

The two purple alicorns walks through a corridor and less than a minute after, stop in front a large double door, using her magic, princess Twilight open it and the Sci-Twi's jaw almost falls on the floor.

"I never saw so many books in one place, it's wonderful. This is your library princess?" Asked the former girl to the other her.

"Yes, this is my library. Here you can find a book about almost every subject, but is not like the royal library in Canterlot, that are a really big library. Anyway, you don't have to call me princess, we are friends, call me just Twilight." Said the princess.

"I feel weird calling you Twilight, I'm Twilight, is like have a twin sister who have the same name as me." spoke Sci-Twi.

"Well, I belive is couldn't be more strange than that time when I back in time to speak to myself. Funny story, I'll tell you latter."

"So, can I ready this books, I mean, I will understand they?" Asked Sci-Twi.

"The modern equish is quite simillar to the language that you speak in your world, when I first came there, I could read your books, so I think you can do the same." Aswered the princess.

"Makes sense. So you will stay here with me princess, I mean Twilight?"

"No, Sunset and I are going see princess Celestia, they need to talk and Sunset said she feel more confident with me on her side." Said princess Twilight.

"Well, see you latter I guess. I hope everything goes well there."

"We too Twilight, we too." Said the princess with a tone in her voice that sounded like sadness and hope at same time.

Author's Note

2nd chapter done.

I'm still practicing with chapter length, this one was especially short I admit.

So if you like or dislike this history, please tell me, I'll love to hear (read?) your comments, constructive criticism is always welcome.

Facing old fears

Chapter 3

Sunset and Twilight enters the throne room and sees Celestia. The fiery haired unicorn walks closer to the throne and begin to talk.

"Princess Celestia, last time we see each other I was a bad pony who disapointed and betraied you, nothing that I could say is enough to justify all I did, but now I'm here, a different pony, better than I was before, humbly beging for your forgiviness."

Celestia said nothing, she leaves the throne and stops in front of Sunset, before the unicorn could say anything, the princess huged her with their forehooves and wings.

"I've missed you, was not your fault Sunset, all you did, was not your fault but mine" Said the princess.

Sunset broke the embrace and looked on Celestia's eyes.

"What you mean? I betrayed you, stole Twilight's crown, throw off all you teached me, is all my fault, I had nothing and you gave me everything, a purpose, your guidance, care, love, and ..."

Celestia touches gently the unicorn's face and says:

"I'm the true culprit here Sunset. Allow me tell you a story that I should told you a long time ago. Everything began almost thirty-one years ago, when I dated a young stallion named Night Light..."

"WHAT??? You date my father? How in name of Equestria this is possible?" Screamed Twilight before the princess could spoke more.

"I'm just speaking about this Twilight, if I could finish the story you will understand." Said Celestia.

"Sorry princess, is I'm never thinked of you in this way." Said Twilight apologising.

"Anyway, almost thirty years ago I meet your father in one of my escapes of the castle. Was a ordinary monday, the Sun already was in the sky, and I was bored, nothing important to do all day and I decided take a break and simply walk arround. I go to my room and said to not interrupt-me unless the Equestria's fate is in danger, so I used a simple ilusion spell to look like a normal unicorn and teleported myself to the Canterlot streets.

I was trotting when I hit somepony and we both fall. I look to him and my heart skip a beat, he's so hansome. I apologised, and he asks what a so beautiful place like me is making in a girl like this, I laught and my mussle make a snort, I love him since then. We spend all day together, talking, lauging, I felt so free like I don't feel since I was a filly.

Near the sunset, we was in the Canterlot gardens when we first kiss, I felt so alive, a heat in my chest, butterflies in my belly, I don't feel this in almost a millenia. We said goodbye and from this day we was dating. Every free time that I had, we spend together, so two months after we first meet, I tell him who I really was. At first he has upset, I lied to him but he felt that all we had lived couldn't be a lie and he forgive-me. We stay together for eleven joyful months, but this couldn't be for ever, I was the ruler of Equestria and my subjects come first than my happiness. One day, after we, er, 'spent the night togheter', I broke up with him, if he stay at my side, someday he could be a target of the enemies of the kingdom. They could use Night Light to hit me, force me to give up the throne.

He understod and forgive me, I broke his heart but he smiled to me and promise don't tell nopony about us . About a year after, I was hear that him was married a young mare named Twilight Velvet."

"I still don't see the link between your story and me princess"

"I agree with Sunset princess." Said Twilight.

"Well, when Night Light and I broke up, we don't know, but I was pregnant of your half-sister Twilight. When the baby was born, your parents was alredy married and your mother was pregnant of Shining Armor and I choose don't tell Night Light about our child, could be dangerous to him and your family, and until today he not know. I take care of the little filly for almost one year before leave her on the Canterlot Orphanege, where I could visit her every time I wish without attracting suspicion. Few year after, I took that little girl as one of my most loved students. This girl is you Sunset, you're my daughter."

The room set in silence for a few seconds.

"I'm your daughter?" Asked Sunset.

"She's my sister?" Asked Twilight

"I'm your daughter?" Spoke Sunset, her voice was a mix of anger and sadness and so she upper her tone.

"WHY YOU DON'T TOLD ME THIS YEARS AGO? YOU KNOW HOW MANY PAIN I FELT, HOW MANY TIMES I STAY ALONE, CRYING UNTIL SLEEP, WAITING ONE DAY DISCOVER WHO ARE MY PARENTS, WHY THEY LEAVE THERE?"

Sunset's horn began to glow, sparks fying while she walks side to side, staring Celestia.

"They don't love me? I wasn't planed? They wanted a foal? All ponies there was adopted, except me, all they found a family but not me. All my childhood I was alone, suffering until I decided that if my parents don't want me, I don't need they. The only thing that makes me happy on that place was your visits princess, showing that you cared of us, you cared about me. Some years after I entered in your School of Gifted Unicorns, I saw you like a mother I never had. For the first time in my life I think I could be happy, so you continouly denied to explain what I see in the mirror, what is my destiny, denied me this, expulsed me of your company, the company of the only pony I ever think loved me and I truly loved. I loved you and you abandoned me, I run to the other side of the mirror and you not even cared if I was good, if I was alive"

Celestia remain in silence while Twilight just watches motionless. With Tears in her eyes, Sunset continues to speak.

"I was alone for years and years in a strange world, without family, without friends, without nopony to support me. When the portal opened again, I stole Twilight's crown, and I will use it to take over Equestria, to show you I wasn't the pony who admires you, who wanted to be like you, I will show that I was stronger than before, that you don't had any domain over me. If you don't give me my place at your side, I would take yours.

Twilight and the others defeated me, and even afer all the bad things I did, they forgive me, acepted me and be friends with me and helped me be a better person. Twilight, Applejack, Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, Rarity and Pinkie Pie, they became my family, something I always dreamed but I never had when I was here in Equestria. They recived me in theirs homes, theirs families. After so many suffering I find my place, my peace and now you tell me that is all your fault? You know everything and do nothing, you left me think that nopony loved me, that I was alone in the world. I came here to beg you pardon for all my mistakes, to try a come back to you, but I don't know if I want this anymore."

Sunset sits with her backs turned to Celestia. Twilight place a hoof on the fiery unicorn shoulder.

"I never imagined that you had passed for all this Sunset. After all you lived, you become a better person, a better pony, can't you forgive her? We all makes mistakes, but we need be able to forget..."

Sunset quickly stand up and turns to the her friend.

"SHE LIED TO ME TWILIGHT!!! ALL MY LIFE WAS A BIG LIE!!! I WAS NOTHING MORE THAN A BIG JOKE TO YOUR BELOVED PRINCESS, HOW DO YOU EXPECT I COULD FORGIVE HER FOR THIS? If today I'm a better person is because you show me theres another way, that I can left my past behind, that I can exist beyond my errors, but all that happned to me was her fault, she knows we're sisters and send you to stop me without tells how deep we're related. All could be different if I at least know there was somepony in the world who cares about me, I didn't would turned into a demon full of hate and thirst of power, I never will meet my friends and hurt they, I could be a happy person Twilight and she, your beloved princess denied me this."

"Sunset, the princess..." Twilight is unsure what she can say anything to defend Celestia, but happly she don't need to, the princess place a hoof on her shoulder and began to talk

"She's right." Celestia leaves Twilight and sit on Sunset's side.

"Sunset, I know that after all what I did to you I don't deserve pardon, I will never forgive myself for all the pain I caused to you. All this time we was apart I missed you so much, abandon you was my biggest mistake, you don't had any guilty and I make you pay for mine."

Celestia walks and sit in front of Sunset, looking the unicorn on eyes she takes off her crown.

I'm here not as Celestia, the ruler of Equestria, but as a mare depply sorry for her acts, beggin you pardon, even knoing that I don't deserve any, please give a chance to restart and finally be your mother and stay at your side. Let me be part of your life even if not as you mother, but if in your heart you can't forgive me, I'll understand and not more will interfer in your life."

Sunset stay silent for a few seconds before talk to Celestia again.

"Princess, I need to think very well in al this before I can talk to you again. Now I'm really, really upset with you, and don't want to say nothing that I could sorry later. Goodbye princess."

Sunset stands up and slowly walks lowerheaded throught the path until the throne room doors, and teleports herself out of the castle. The princess remain on the floor, watching her daughter disapear, Twilight walks and touches her back.

"You will be ok princess?" Asked Twlight.

Celestia close her eyes and takes a deep breathe before answer.

"Imortallity is a huge burden Twilight, the kind of I don't wish to no pony. They say with the years the wisdom comes, that you grow up and learn with you younghood, but look at me, alive for more than a millenia and even so makes the same mistakes. I banished my own sister to the moon, and in my fear, my cowardness, abandoned my daughter, a defenseless little filly for who I was her world, all the bad choices he made, all that happened to her was my fault, I destroied her life. I was a fool thinking that she could forgive me" Said Celestia with a deep sadness on her voice.

"Princess, I know Sunset, I could not know how was your relationship before, but one thing I know is that today she's a better pony, a deeply changed pony, not more those young mare who runaway of you years ago. She learned the value of the friendship and how important is forgive those who fail because she already was in that place. I'm sure she will forgive you one day, just give her some space and a litte time to process all this" Said Twilight cleaning the tears of her former teacher's face.

"When you became so much wiser than me Twilight Sparkle?" Spoke the princess with a little smile on her lips.

"What can I say, I had a great teacher. Princess you and Sunset are my friends and if I know both of you, you will be fine soon, I'm pretty sure. Now, I have to find Sunset and see if she's fine, you will be ok?" Asked the young alicorn.

"I'll be fine Twilight, don't worry. Now go find your friend, she needs you" Said the Sun princess.

We're not flawless

Chapter 4

Twilight is flying around the castle seeking for Sunset when she finds the fiery haired unicorn a few meters of the main entrance, sitting in shadow of a group of trees. The princess lands, walks on Sunset's direction and sees the unicorn is sobbing and crying.

"Sunset?" Spoke Twilight softly.

"Twilight?" said the unicorn turning to the princess.

"I'm sorry for yelled with you" Said Sunset wiping her eyes with the back of her front hooves.

"Don't worry, It's ok, guess there's a lot of things in your mind now." Said Twilight sitting on Sunset's side and putting a wing over her.

"I would like to hear, if you want to tell, but if you don't feel ready, we can just stay here or came back to my home"

Sunset let a long sigh escapes of her nostrils.

"No, I think is time to tell you. After all these years living out of Equestria, Canterlot, the School for Gifted Unicorns, all this seems so distant now, like if was just a dream or a memory of other life. I remember the joy i felt when was accepted as a Celestia personal student. Even if all the sadness I felt when I was a little girl, I mean a filly, her visits makes my days happy, I felt I was loved. Now when I thinks on those days, I see that I was so trapped in the pain for not know nothing about my parents that I didn't cared about make any friends. When I start studying with Celestia, she always tell me the importance of having friends, not be alone in the world, but I ignored her every time, wasn't the friendship who was make me the best student, was my own effort, my skills, my dedication. When I came to that world, I was alone again and worse, without my magic to help. Took a long time to me discover how that place works and I did a lot of awful things that I'm not proud of, but I'm not like this anymore today"

"Now I see that I wasn't a good friend to you Sunset, never came to my mind that so many things have happened to you before our first meet, I don't even cared about why you leaved Equestria or how many years have you spent in those world. I'm sorry" Said Twilight with a bit of sadness in her voice.

"It's ok Twi, you aren't the first who don't know almost nothing about my life, but I think that like our friends, you don't asked me because was waiting I was ready to speak about my past. I'm not ready to tell you all, not yet, and just for you know, I'm living in this city for almost seven years"

"Seven years? When princess Celestia told me you was her pupil before me, I thought that was a year or two, but you're older than Shining Armor, what makes you our older sister, wow."

"I'm not sure how I feel about this, we're friends and sisters, I sort of like this, at least one good thing in all this. I think I could deal with the fact that I have a sister now." Said Sunset smiling to her sister.

"Me too." Said Twilight smiling back. "And about Celestia, what you will do? You'll forgive her?" asked the princess.

Sunset turn away her eyes from Twilight, looking to the ground before answer.

"Still hurts inside when I think on this, in all that I had passed until here. I stayed a long time without anyone at my side. Before you and the girls be friends with me, I was alone, most for my own guilty, I hurt all people around me because I was jealous and angry, I felt angry because all they had someone who loves him, they loved and was loved back, something that I never felt. Now I know you care about me, and I'm not alone anymore, you and the girls accepted me even after all I did and I'm very happy for this."

Sunset stops and look to her sister before continue.

"Now, after all she told me, I can't stop thinking in how my life could be different that is today, who I could be if I was raised by my parents, if I was lived with my family? Who knows if you and I could be friends on my mother's school? Without has necessary you save the world from the demon I once became." Tears fall from Sunset's eyes.

"Sunset, I know you're mad with Celestia now, but I truly believe she's sorry for her mistakes, for all the pain she caused to you."

"I know she's sorry, I could see in her eyes, but me, at least one part of me don't want forgive her for all she did, at least not now. It means that in the bottom I'm still evil? That I'm the same bad pony I was before? I thought I had changed, that now I was a better person, but seems like I was wrong" Said Sunset looking sadly to her sister.

"You really changed Sunset, if you still was the same pony that one day stole my crown, you'll hadn't felt any remorse for what you did and wasn't ready to forgive like are now. We all make mistakes."

"Not you. You're perfect Twilight. All that I never will be you are. You have friends who love you because who you are and not for pity, you deserve all of you have conquered, I'l never be good as you." Sunset rubs the back of her hooves in her eyes, wiping the tears. Twilight place a hoof on her sister chin, upping the unicorn face's and look in to Sunset's eyes.

"I'm not perfect Sunset, we're not so different, our friends loves you for who you proved to be and not for pity. When I was studding with princess Celestia, I don't even cared about have friends. I had my parents, my brother and Spike, so I don't need any friend, at least was I thought on that time. Was so many ponies around me who wanted be friends with me and I ignored all they. When I moved to Ponyville, I left all my friends behind like they was nothing, and there's one that I hurt more than all, Moondancer, she always saw me was her best friend. One day she throw a party, her first party, her first attempt to out of her shell because she was so introverted and I, the pony who few years after became the princess of friendship, the pony she thought was her best friend simply left her behind and never came back at least to say that was sorry. After I start living in Ponyville, I just forgot all they for years. I faced so many things, monsters, the end of Equestria in so many occasions that I can't even counts, but nothing hurt me more than see how she suffered because of me, and this is only one of my many errors. Even the princess of Friendship can be a jerk sometimes. Don't let your past or the errors that other ponies made define who you are today. We can't change the past, but can change how we react to him."

"None of us have to be perfect I guess, we are only persons, I mean ponies, we all make mistakes after all. You forgiven me and I'll be a big hypocrite if don't do the same to the princess, but I need some time to process this, to accept she's my lost mother. Can we go to the castle now? I wanna rest a little and if I know the Twlights, they lost herself easily in the books and I have to remember that exists a whole world out they." Said Sunset hitting a little punch in her sister's shoulder.

"You really like her, isn't? Every time you talk about her, your tone is so kind and sweet that I almost feel jealous."

"Yeah, she's my best friend. Please don't tell to the girls" Said Sunset with a little smile

"Don't worry sis, your secret is safe with me." Answered Twilight with a wink.

"I was in her place not long ago. The last thing I want is that she have to live all that I lived. Even after all I did to all in Canterlot High the girls did her best to make me feel well, to help me let my past in the past, but they don't lived what I lived, so even with all the support they give me, I still had to accept that I wasn't that monster anymore, not only that one who I turned when put the crown, but that one I was since arrived there and even before. Twilly was no guilty for all she did when turn in Midnight Sparkle, she was only other victim of my acts, if I never had stolen your crown, the magic will never came to my world and she would never corrupted by power. Is all my fault Twilight, and I have to do all I can for she stay safe, I would never forgive myself if she get hurt by my fault, it will not be fair."

The princess stands up and extends a hoof to her sister

"Well, let's go home. The day is almost over and I guess the girls are starting to worry about us."

Sunset grab her sister's hoof and stand on her hooves.

"You're right, thanks Twi"

"You're welcome, this is what are sisters for. Come on, you need a mug of hot cocoa and a good night of sleep. Tomorrow we can discuss what to do next"

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Chapter 5

Luna raises the moon and left the east balcony of the castle. Walking through the halls she finds a quite strange situation: there's no pony walking or even talking on the castle, even after all the reunions of the day, always is a pony or two doing anything until later, and this pony almost always is her Sister. The night princess inquires a guard pony and he says that princess Celestia canceled all her compromises after the visit of princess Twilight and another unicorn.

After a brief walk Luna stop in front of her sister's room, and knocks on door.

"Sister, are you feeling well?"

There's no response. Worried, she pushes the door and sees that is not locked. So she enters and sees Celestia near a window, looking to the sky.

"This is a really lovely night that you give us Luna." Said the Sun princess without turning to her visitor. Luna realize that her sister's voice is carried of sadness, and she slowly approaches to Celestia.

"What happened sister? The guards said you canceled all your duties after the visit of Twilight Sparkle. The only occasion I remember you canceling your duties was when father and mother dies. What could be so serious to you do such thing?" Asks Luna with a genuine concern.

"She came to see me" said Celestia emotionless.

Luna stops. Few seconds passed until she talk again.

"By 'she', you mean Sunset Shimmer, I presume" Said Luna, with a bit of sadness on her voice. Not long after she return of her exile on the Moon, Celestia told her all about Sunset Shimmer, and she knows how talk about it hurts her sister.

Celestia only nods. Luna walk and sits on her sister's side.

"So is this. And by your state, I think you told all to her." Said the night princess. She only knows Sunset for what her sister's told and she wasn't sure how the girl could react to the fact that Celestia is her truly mother. Base upon in what Celestia told, their relationship was... complicated, to say the minimum. Sure they appreciate the company of each other, but Sunset was a challenge to Celestia. She was one of the few ponies who ignored Celestia's advises and argue with her sometimes.

"Yes, and now she hates me more than ever" Celestia who was looking to the stars, lower her head, and look to her sister. Luna finally could see her sister's eyes, they are red and her face is wet with all tears she cried. Luna embraces her older sister and for a moment they remain in silence, until Celestia broke the embrace and talk again.

"I'm so tired Luna, tired of be wrong, of be strong for all the ponies of Equestria, tired of hurt the ponies I love to protect Equestria." The sun princess voice is not more than a whisper full of regret and sadness.

"I know how you feel sister. Everypony see you like you're flawless, as a benevolent goddess who never fails, but you and me knows the truth, we're just mares, so much powerful than others, but in the end, we and our subjects wants the same, be loved and live a happy life with ours family and friends" Replied Luna with a little smile, wiping the tears of her sister eyes with a wing before continue to speak.

"We both done things we regret. Not long ago you and me was enemies, I put Equestria in danger and you had to banish me to the Moon to protect our loved ponies. For thousand years I hated you, and when I returned all I wanted was revenge, but when I fought against you, you don't fought back. At first I thought you was weak, but after Twilight and her friends defeated me, I realized you're sorry, and don't wanted hurt me. Sister, I know how much you love all the ponies and how difficult was for you choose between me and they, you loved me and loved the ponies of Equestria, and because of this love for they, you choosed be the princess they need and not my sister. With Sunset you faced the same hard choice: Keep a loved one with you and risks put Equestria in danger, or give up of her and again break you heart to keep this land safe."

Celestia remains in silence, Luna kiss her sister forehead and stands up, she knows Celestia have a lot to think and decide give her sister some time, maybe few hours of sleep could help.

"Good night Tia, I'll bring you a good dream" The night princess walks in direction of the door when Celestia calls her name.

"Luna?"

"Yes sister." Luna stops and turn to her sister.

"You don't miss that time when we was just normal ponies, living with our parents near the ocean?"

Luna noticies a bit of sadness on Celestia's voice.

"Sometimes, why? Are you planning left the throne?" Spoke the night princess after few seconds.

"No, is just even a princess can dream, right?" Said the older alicorn with a tiny smile in her lips.

Luna walks and sit on her sister's side, and look though the window.

"Tia, when we became princesess, we left that old and normal life in the past, you knows better than me that we can't live like commons ponies anymore, we have our duties, they come first than our desires, we are the leaders of Equestria and until the day when another ponies come to take our places, Equestria needs us."

The room sat in silence, until Luna spoke again.

"You and Sunset need to sit and talk properly, so if you want, you can take a break of your princess duties, I can make our jobs so you and my niece can calm down, listen each other and finally be a family.

Celestia stood up and face her sister.

"I'll never ask you to do it Luna, it wouldn't be fair..."

Before she can continue, Luna gently put a hoof on Celestia's lips.

"Tia, I love you and I know that now you aren't in your best, so as Equestria's ruller, for you own emotional health I command you to leave the throne for a few days. On the morning I'll send a message to Twilight Sparkle and she can came here and help me for a few days, I know she will be more than happy to help. Everything will be ok."

Celestia hugs her sister.

"Thank you Luna, you're the best sister I could ask for."

How can I be home, and still feel of off place?

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Coming home

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An unexpected visitor

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I wonder, what is next for me?

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Familiar

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My past is not today

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Familiar, but this time I have some practice.

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Solaria

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A great and powerful something, I guess

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I’ve begun my path, headed for something bigger

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A Celestial meeting

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The finals countdown (also, a gift for miss Shimmer)

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Turning a new page

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It was just a dream, and dreams can't hurt you, right?

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