Looking for Love (part1): Discovery

Discovery

Chapter 03

Rarity had never seen her friends look so terribly awkward in all her years of knowing them.

Watching them stare at her and Rainbow on the floor, she began to feel insecure and that they might disapprove of her.

‘Disapprove of what? Well other than getting drunk of your friends booze when she isn’t looking and making out and sleeping next to one of your friends that is.’ Suddenly the enormity of what she did last night hit her. ‘wait, I kissed Rainbow last night. Oh dear Celsetia, what have I done?!’ she thought frantically.

Suddenly, the pegasus cuddled up behind her let out an almost inaudible mumble: “It’s morning already?”

Rarity started to panic: “Why have I done? Do I even like her or was it just the alcoho? Oh I need to stop drowning my sorrows in booze, I don’t even want to remember what happened last time. oh dear’ she thought.

“So um…” Twilight began.

“ARE YOU TWO MAREFRIENDS?” Pinkie Pie Shouted exuberantly while hopping around the couple..

“Ugh, what are you all yelling at?” Rainbow said removing one of her hooves from under Rarity’s back: “Oh my hoof. You must had slept on top of it Rarity… hehe” Rainbow said shaking her left hoof to try to work some feeling back into it.

Suddenly the white mare got up quickly and looked at Rainbow with absolute despair visible in her eyes. The cyan pegasus asked with concern in her voice: “Are you okay Rarity?”

‘I can feel all of them judging me, I need to go hide. Maybe if i just run away and pretend it didn’t happen they will all just blame it on the fact that I was drunk. This is not a thing that you do with friends and besides, you don’t even know if you really like Rainbow THAT way…  or do I?’

“Rarity, are you okay?” Twilight asked.

“No I am not okay…” Rarity burst through her friends heading directly to the front door “I AM SO SORRY RAINBOW!” was all that they heard before the door slammed shut behind the fleeing unicorn.

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All the doors and windows in the botique were locked. Only the sound of sobs could be heard from the Carousel Boutique whereabouts. Rarity was locked in her room crying for what? Hours? Actually it was minutes, but to Rarity it seemed like hours.

A knock at her door took her attention, a voice calling to her from downstairs: “Rarity what happened? Why did you leave us like that?”

Rarity didn’t answer; she held in her tears in hopes that whoever was downstairs would think she was away.

“You aren’t going to come down here, then i’ll force myself in upstairs!” Rainbow yelled.

The white mare entered in a panic state, she didn’t wanted by any means to see anypony, exclusively Rainbow. She came to her window to close the shutters, but it was too late, Rainbow broke through and entered in the unicorn’s bedroom before Rarity was even out of bed.

“So… what do you have to say for yourself?” Rainbow asked angrily.

“I don’t want to talk to anypony now Rainbow Dash! Just leave me alone!” Rarity sank back into  her bed, burying her face in the pillow.

“It didn’t mean anything to you, did it? I was pouring out my heart to you, I told you that I wanted you to be more than a friend and I thought you wanted the same! Why did you do this to me?”

The unicorn haven’t answered nor moved.

“You’re not going to say anything now? Not after you ran out on me in front of you friends?!”

“I don’t know Rainbow… I just don’t know…” Rarity mumbled into her tear-filled pillow.

“Don’t know what?”

“I just don’t know if I really like you that way. I mean… I was desperate for anypony to love me so when you offered yours I kind of… acted by my instincts you know and took it to fill that void.”

“So it meant nothing to you?”

“Rainbow, please go… I have a lot to think over this”

“C’mon, we can start this over, why don’t we go on a date or something?”

“I don’t know…”

“So you’re just going to pretend that nothing happened between us and bury yourself into a long-term depression? Not even Fluttershy is this indecisive about her feelings!”

Rarity let out a contained sob.

“So it really didn’t mean anything to you… I understand now.”

“Please Rainbow, please don’t assume…”

“Assume!? It is pretty clear to me that you don’t…”

“I just don’t want to put our friendship at risk Rainbow…” Rarity said with a pitiful voice.

Rainbow seemed touched for a moment by the mare’s words; she lowered her head and said: “I’m afraid to say that you already put our friendship at risk last night Rarity. I may seem like the pony that isn’t afraid to say what i want and stuff but… I have my own issues with love as well.”

Rarity removed her face from her pillow and looked at Rainbow.

“I always want to look cool and awesome all the time, but I just use my ego to hide my insecurities. For instance, you may have noticed that I don’t take rejection or failure easily.

The alcohol last night just helped me get over those insecurities for once. I want to be with you Rarity, and you broke my heart earlier when you ran out on everyone in the library” she choked out with a sob.

The white mare could see Rainbow’s eyes glowing from the refraction of light that the tears in her friend’s eyes produced. The room fell in the most painful silence broken only by the sounds of Rainbow crying on her friend’s bed. Rarity sat there for a moment, before she spoke.

“Rainbow…”

“W-what?” Rainbow said between silent sobs.

“I’ll go on a date with you.”

Rainbow raised her head again, looking with teary eyes at Rarity.

“And I promise that I will really think about us. I am just so confused, this was all too sudden. Please, I just need a little patience from you…”

The rainbow-maned pegasus sat in silence as Rarity continued: “And that kiss really meant something, I am sure of it. I just don't know what to make of it” Rarity got up from her bed and came closer to pegasus; Rainbow still hadn't moved a single muscle.

The white mare nuzzled Rainbow’s neck with her muzzle and hugged her gently; soon Rainbow leaned over hugged Rarity tightly back.

“Thank you Rarity. Just please be sure on what you’re doing so you don’t hurt anypony feelings okay?”

“Ok, dear” Rarity said “so… where are we going on our date now?” the unicorn added wiping a tear of Rainbow’s cheek with her hoof.

“I don’t know… would you prefer something in the afternoon or at night?”

“a nice would be romantic”

“Hmm, the Ponyville Cafe is open relatively late. How does tomorrow at eight o’clock  sound to you?”

“Sounds fabulous, I’ll meet you there.”

“Care if I pick you up here at seven thirty?”

“That would be wonderful. ”

“Dear Rarity, there are so many things that you don’t know about me yet… haven’t you heard the saying: ‘never judge a book by its cover’?”

Rarity chuckled at Rainbow’s words and freed her friend from her hug.

“Well I gotta go, I have a sky to clean up.”

Rarity was about to say goodbye when the pegasus took her by surprise, giving a her quick kiss in her lips and flying away through the window. She watched the pegasus disappearing in the cloudy sky open-mouthed; her cheeks blushing a vibrant crimson.

“Oh Rainbow you’re so bold…” She muttered to herself with a smile.