Blackout

Woke up, I’m in the in-between

There are things here I no longer want to see

The thunder rolls in through the curtains

And I remember her

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Joy around me, undeniable

I cannot join them

Not from anger or from hate

From guilt

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I see my shadow trailing behind me

It is all of me that anyone else can see

A fraction of myself

Only the things not worth talking about

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One day

I’ll have the power to change

Myself

My world

My heart