Breaking Self-Loathing.
Begins with a Single Word.
Previous ChapterNext ChapterMorning.
There are two types of people when it comes to mornings. One that enjoy the waking up, the sound of chirping birds outside the window and the taste of freshly made coffee that warms the body after a cold night.
Then there are those who hate waking up, hating the entire world for disturbing their sleep with the heat rays from the big ball of fire in the sky.
But rarely, there’s a third.
Silver opens his eyes as the birds sing outside his open window which restrained Silver from falling back to sleep.
Silver turned his head to the side to look at the end table to find that his phone was still charging on it. Begrudgingly, he reaches over and picks up the phone. 6:00 A.M, I have school in two hours… I should get up.
He sets his phone down, turning his head back to look at the white popcorn ceiling. He knew he needed to get up and shower.
Unfortunately, that wasn’t going to happen. Silver felt a heavy weight on his body that was preventing him from wanting to get up. Constant thoughts of denial of a happy school year. There was no way that there was going to be any sort of happiness in his eyes.
Silver’s breathing began to quicken as his thoughts started to mess with his emotions.
Luckily, his phone went off.
Snapping back into reality, he grabbed the phone and hit the call button
“What? What?” Silver answered quickly, sitting up in his bed.
”I’m calling to make sure you’re awake, get your stinky butt in the shower. I’ll be there in…. Um… an hour?” Over the phone was his best friend Dubstep.
“My stinky butt? I’m sorry, who lives in one of those run down shacks on the outside of town?” Silver smiled smugly as he started getting out of bed.
”Oi! My sexiness compensates the stink my house makes.” He laughs over the phone, he's always the type of guy that laughs at his own jokes.
Silver rolls his eyes with a smile. He enjoys the type of friendship he has with Dubstep, they always tease each other. The best type of friendship is being able to judge each other without caring about feelings. It makes the friendship more enjoyable.
“Alright, I’ll see you when you get here.” After hanging up the phone, Silver went off to do several of his bathroom duties. He accidentally took a longer shower than he realized due to the fact he was going through ideas of what kind of melody he could play on his guitar. It helped distract him from his darker thoughts and to prevent it from making his life a more living hell than it is now.
With the shower out of the way and after drying himself off, Silver wraps the towel around his waist only to take a look at himself in the mirror.
His pure white skin glistened, his short white hair with black streaks looked disheveled which he proceeded to style with a comb. Afterwards, he leaned against the counter and stared at himself. Part of his brain hated the way he looked, absolutely repulsed.
Silver more agreed with the other part of his brain which enjoyed his pure bright blue eyes the most. He earned that trait from his father which he idolized in retrospect.
He sort of envied his father in a way, might have been the fact he was smiling day in and day out. He has rough days every now and again just like everybody else, but he never lets it get to him.
I wish I could be more like him… Silver thought as he stared down at the sink for a moment.
Now it was time to get dressed. He donned a normal graphic T-shirt of one of his favorite shows but hid it with a zip up black hoodie he had. He wore dark blue jeans and a set of black sneakers. He took a deep breath before exiting the bathroom.
Entering the kitchen, Silver began pouring himself a cup of coffee which was prepared beforehand by his mother. After adding two spoonfuls of sugar and creamer, he stirred it to mix it together.
With the cup in hand, he headed toward the couch in the living room where he found his mother sitting with a tablet in her hand and a big cup of coffee next to her. A lavender colored skin tone with straight dark purple hair down to her shoulders. Everything about her screamed purple. Her name is Violet Ward, she works for a nursing home that takes care of seniors who can’t take care of themselves. She has told him a lot of stories of awful people she worked with or had to deal with, but on the good side there were some who are kind to her. The only reason she gets through rough days is her husband. And of course, her loving son.
“Morning, Mom.” Silver greeted with a smile as he sat down next to his mother. He set down the coffee cup to pull out his phone which he proceeded to browse through.
“Morning, bud. Sleep well?” She asked, not looking away from her tablet.
Silver gave his mother a shrug to which she responded. “Same.”
After a few seconds of silence, Silver spoke up. “You don’t have to worry about taking me to school today, Dubstep’s picking me up in thirty minutes.” Silver explained as he took a sip of his coffee.
Violet nodded. “Cool.” She said, taking a small sum of her coffee. “I just hope one day you get your own license so you don’t have everyone driving you around.” She gave her son a knowing smirk. "Most of your friends drive like maniacs."
“I’ve got the car, I just need to pass the test.” Silver said kind of nonchalantly.
After that short conversation it reverted to silence as they stared at their electronics. Even though it didn’t seem like it at first, but that’s how Silver and Violet bond.
Before either of them knew it, a honk was heard outside the house. It let Silver know that Dubstep had arrived.
He turned to his mother. “Alright, I got to get to school.” He gave his mother a small hug before he started heading towards the front door.
“Have a good first day, love you.” Violet called out.
“Love you too, Mom.” Silver responded before opening the door.
Closing it behind him, he heads down the stairs of his porch to meet up with his friend Dubstep who was waiting for him next to his Nissan 350Z which is painted purple for that is Dubstep’s all time favorite color.
There stood Dubstep leaning against the hood of his car, the sun shined upon his red skin tone. His red hair with purple streaks flowing down to his jaw line, he liked to grow out his hair as it made him look more ‘sexy’ in his words. Dubstep wore black slim fit jeans and an Excision T-shirt he got as a gift from Silver. It's obvious from a distance that these two were very good friends.
“Holy crap… Dude, you glo’d up!” Dubstep chuckled, walking up to him with a huge grin on his face.
Silver rolled his eyes. “Dude, how many times do I have to tell you to stop hitting on me?” He joked, knowing that wasn’t really the case.
But Dubstep joked back. “Not till I’m six feet under.” He laughed, putting his hand out for a bro hug.
Silver reciprocated taking a hold of his hand, and pulled Dubstep into a hug. “How long has it been? Three years?” Silver asked, a sense of nostalgia running through his mind.
The two broke their hug. “Too long to count my man.” Dubstep went over to unlock his car while Silver kind of froze in place as he stared into space for a minute. He also knew where he was going inside that very car.
Dubstep turned around to notice him still standing there. “Come on man, get in.” He ushered.
At this time, Silver was having second thoughts about this. Even with his friend he still felt like he was going back to that hellhole. He felt his heart beating in his chest, it was starting to make his ears ring a little, and he started taking a broken deep breath.
Dubstep of course knew what was happening, and took the appropriate action. Dubstep pulled away from his car, making his way to Silver.
Setting a hand on his shoulder, the two of them locked eyes and Dubstep gave him a reassuring look. “Listen, man. I’m telling you, this school is ten times better than Lakewood. You’ll have to see it to believe but I’m helping you step by step break out of that shell of yours. It’ll be a lot easier doing it in person than over the computer.”
Silver let out a defeated sigh before saying, “You might be right....” Silver said with dismay in his voice. He humbly gives in as he makes his way to the passenger side of the car.
Dubstep suddenly realized he missed the most important detail. “Oh, and also man. That school is packed with hot chicks.” He chuckled, getting in. He was trying to break the somber mood so it wasn't all depressing.
Silver rolled his eyes. “Jeez man.” He mumbled as he got in the car as well.
Dubstep started the ignition and Silver was blasted with loud electronic music that shook the car from the bass. "Dude!" Silver shouted, covering his ears.
Turning down the music, Dubstep let out a cackle. "Dude, that was hilarious. I've never seen you jump like that."
Silver groaned, not exactly annoyed but shaken from the loud encounter. "I think my ears are bleeding..."
"Come on, admit it, it was funny." Dubstep pulled the gear into drive and pulled out from the curb to begin the ride to school.
Silver gave a mocked laugh. "You're hilarious." He said sarcastically.
The music playing, which was turned down, allowed Silver to relax in a way after a short time. Canterlot High School... Oh boy...
Author's Note
Introductory to one of my friends OC's who is Dubstep. He is actually my best friend IRL, and I put him in this because he was a big part of my life.
Even though he may be a mess to handle sometimes. ![]()
