Chapter One - Possibly, Maybe
Chapter One – Possibly, maybe.
Me and Celestia...our relationship began a few days ago. But first, let me tell you about me and the world I live.
My name is Gray, Gray Showblind. Born in the Russia (don't ask about my name, it just happens to be that way) , Asian, 22 years old. Applied to the Moscow Power Engineering Institute (MPEI) - Thermal and atomic power engineering institute.
It's a mess. I've barely managed to get here and now I've taking a lot of pressure from studies.
But there is a one thing that keeps me going. It's our “bar-nights” with my new friend Simon.
He is a decent guy. We met only two months ago and instantly became closest friends. And now it’s almost a ritual to get drunk on every Friday evening in the bar called “Stray Sheep”. Weird name eh? Like from videogame. But I think we need this stuff. I mean this pressure man… Sometimes I really want to kill my professor “Atom”. Atom is not the real name, just a nick name. But whatever, I don't want to think about him anyway.
So that's how I live. Not the best live I guess. But this is an independent life. And it’s not that bad.
And one evening, Friday evening when I was really, really drunk...
Simon was pretty sober. Cheeky bastard, he got the upper hand in this “drunk” business. Me, well...I’ll get drunk pretty fast. We've paid the bill in Stray-Sheep bar and headed home. It was late night plus raining, heavy raining.
- Simon you bastard. Just tell me man, about...ugh... - I was ready to puke.
- Easy man. Easy. Can you walk? - He looked worried.
- Yeah. Just wait a minute. Go on ahead I’ll go buy a soda or something to sober up. - Ah, man my legs...
- You sure? I can…
- Go, just go…Oh, don't forget about our meal man.
- Okay, if you say so.
Simon looked worried but I was a big boy so he left.
- Shit...Freaking rain… - I've decide to sit down on a closest bench.
Man. Drunk like shit, again. Is this what I want? Well I need to let go of all the pressure I've taking during the week.
- Such a lame excuse. - I've whispered.
Skies were pitch black. Dark clouds were like snakes entangling the skies. It's November already huh? Good time to have a smoke. Moment passed and I was smoking, enjoying the cigarette in my solitude night.
- Aaaaahhhh!!! - I heard it! Someone screamed!
I've checked the street, no one here.
- Heeeeellllp!!! - Damn, someone in danger!
I've ran as fast I could. It was nearby, almost around the corner.
It was a girl. She was surrounded. Three guys standing up front, one with the knife. Shit, what a delicate situation.
- Who the fuck are you? - Said one of them, I guess he was the leader.
- Okay guys...Let’s talk about this, okay? - No need to be rude with these guys.
- Go talk with yourself prick. Get the fuck out. Or you will regret it. - The “knife” guy was looking straight at me.
So here is the plan. I've get the knife from this guy. Next I broke his finger; dodge the other one, leader according his M.O will act later that everyone else. Got to stay calm though, one mistake and everything is screwed.
- Didn't you hear.... - Started the “knife” guy.
I've slammed his head alright. The other two was shocked. This is my chance! Quickly as I could, I’ve grabbed the knife from him and broke his finger. He screamed and the other one tried to punch me at my face, but too late. One swing and his leg were full of blood. Excellent plan...What? Shit, I've started to feel dizzy...Damn vodka....
The leader realized my vulnerability and punched me at my face. Damn, it's really hurts.
- You fucker! You will pay for this! - This is it. Fucking vodka, fucking me. What have I done? These bastards will probably kill me.
Situation quickly went south. It's the end for you Gray. I've looked at the girl. Man what a beauty. I guess she was worth dying. Strangely, she wasn’t scared at all. With that weird look she was staring at me like I was something that she can’t explain. With a gaze filled with interest and joy. Creepy.
- Got nothing to say? You bitch! - And another "nice" slam at my head. Man, enough already. Finish me off will ya?
One of them takes the knife. I can see the shine of a deadly metal feel smell of my blood on the air. Death draws near and all this is my fault. Goodbye world. It was a pretty good life. I closed my eyes and stood still. I will die like a samurai, with honor to myself.
Usually in the moments like this, all your life passes by in your thoughts. Not in my case. All I can see, imagine is the face of the girl standing near. I hope you’ve worth it girl. I really hope so.
Silence. Only sounds of rain drizzled inside my head.
- Put the knife down. – Wait a minute I know that voice!
- Shit Simon! Glad you here! – I was really, really glad. Fuck, saved after all.
Yeah, it was Simon with a gun. I totally forgot that he had a license! Freaking lifesaver!
- Gray, are you alright? - His voice was too calm. But this is Simon, alright. He can control himself in situations like this.
- Can’t complain… They hammered my “beautiful” face pretty good.
Wait a minute, where is the girl? Just when did she manage to escape? Oh, why I think like a kidnapper?
- Run, motherfuckers. - Said Simon.
Thugs ran off pretty fast. Damn bastards.
- Shit Gray. What the fuck was that? Did you started all this? – He is yelling but I don’t give a shit.
- There was the girl…Did you’ve seen her?
- No, I didn’t see any girls here. Oh, that’s why you’ve done this? Honorable but stupid. So much like you Gray. – Oh, now he is smiling!
- Bug off man. – Shit, just when did she manage to go away…Well at least another princess saved Gray. Plus one to my karma.
- Let’s go home Simon. Nothing to do here.
- At least you’re sober now.
- Possibly, maybe Simon. You know it’s always like that.
Chapter Two - Like no one else
Air. I need air. I’m choking. Too much water. Water everywhere. I can’t see anything. Where I ‘am?
- Wake up Gray. – A girl’s voice. Somewhere nearby.
The girl stands near. I know her. She was there; I tried to save her. Did I succeed? Did I die?
- Who are you? – I asked. I can speak…
I didn’t know it. What a strange feeling. I can’t feel the weight of my body. Am I flying?
- Wrong question. – She is looking. My eyes getting wet. I don’t want to cry. I don’t want to cry anymore! Stop it! STOP! Come on Gray. All this… It’s only a nightmare. Get a grip!
- What? – I can’t hear my own voice.
- Don’t worry Gray. Your life in my hands. Everything will be fine from now on. Let me in.
Her voice was so unnatural and beautiful. What a strange but familiar feeling. It’s certainly feels like death. Everything seems to be unnatural and gray. Like me.
* * *
- Wake up silly! – Yelled Simon and punched me.
- ARRRRWWWGGGG!!! – Jesus what a pain!
Damn, my body is a full of pain! Yesterday fight will leave a mark. Hands shanking, head fuzzing and I can barely feel my legs. But somehow I feel refreshed. “Tyler D.” you were right after all.
- Sorry bro, but I tried to wake you without this. And I failed. – He is smiling. Jerk.
- It’s fine. Jesus I need to take a shower. – Oh, my legs, my elephant legs! This is going to be a nightmare.
But ten minutes later I was fresh and full of energy. The pain was gone, head was crystal clear and I was ready for a new beginnings. Thanks to my training i guess.
- Okay what do we have today Simon?
- I don’t know man. – Said Simon.
- Okay whatever.
Another five minutes and we are in route to university. The bus was full. Morning bus is a really extreme experience. Especially in winter. Too many people in one tiny bus. It feels like I’m inside some sick meat train.
Another ten minutes and I’m standing in the hallway of my university. I almost can feel this morning mood around. Everyone is so sleepy including the teachers. Like everybody asking themselves – “What I’ am doing here for the god sake?”
There is one tendency in the "modern" people. Wait, did I say "modern"? Well fine, let me rephrase that. I noticed that most of the students are sitting all by themselves looking in their smartphones. And in instant they have a “barrier” aura. I just can’t talk with them. Sometimes i like to watch them. But why they are doing all this? Someday they gonna miss all the fun! Of course a bit of high-tech is good but spending all of your time in the net…I was like them. Enjoying my slumber. Living inside an endless dream. Oh no going sentimental again.
Simon and I parted ways because I’ve had different lectures today. Okay, the first lecture – “Modern Society and Science – 403 aud.”. Wow, sounds interesting. Okay, let’s find auditory 403.
While I was searching I overheard a conversation. Two girls were arguing about something. I like to hear other people conversations. It’s fun and interesting.
- Listen, Katya, you can’t stop now!
- Sorry, but I have other things to attend.
- But second season of MLP, is much better that first. And you liked first, right?
- Yeah, but…
- Come on girl! Let’s watch together the second season today!
- But, I have a lot of studies today...
- Forget about your studies! Let’s go!
- Hey but…
The first girl grabbed the “Katya’s” hand and both of them headed to the exit. “Cute”. They were talking about something called “MLP”. MLP? Is that a videogame? Oh wait, she said “watch”, I guess it’s a sit-com or something.
Auditory number 403! I found you! Some folk is nearby, I guess they with me.
- Hello everyone. – Being nice is nice I guess.
- Silence. Okay got it. “Morning mood”
- Ermm…Hi. – Said a girl with the red glasses.
Wow. Someone alive in this county of sleepyheads. It was small girl with dark-blue hair.
- Hello there. I was starting to think that everybody is dead or something.
- Yeah... I ‘am Twilight. -
- Nice name. And i… - I didn’t finish it.
- Gray. I know your name. – She smiled.
- Strange. She knows me. But I can’t remember her.
- Have we met? – I asked.
- Maybe…”Your tears becoming a sea” – She whispered.
- What?
- Ou… nothing. And don’t ask about my name. My parents were hippies. – I sensed a bit of disappointment in her voice.
- Got it. About my question…
- 42, bye. – She ran off. Jesus girl let me speak with you.
- What the hell? Why did she do that? And why 42?
- Attention everyone! – It was the professor Lebedev. The lecture was about to begin.
Everybody awakened and headed inside the class. But I was still in the hall. I don’t know why, but for a moment I think I felt something that I can’t describe. Who is this girl anyway? I have a feeling like i know her. But i just can't remember.
* * *
After the two lectures, I’ve got the phone call from Simon. He was waiting me in the main hall.
- Hi mate. – He was drinking coffee.
- Hi Simon. Hey did you know the Twilight? – During the lectures I can’t stop but thinking about her.
- What? You about those silly vampire movies? I watched all them. – Simon made a serious face.
- Ha-ha. Funny. No, girl with the name Twilight. – I grow impatient.
- Yeah I know her. What about her?
- I’ve told him about my morning. Simon face changed rapidly and it was clear. He knows something.
- Wow Gray. “My tears becoming a sea” What is that mean?
- I don’t know. – I wish I knew it.
- Really poetic and stuff. You should talk to her Gray.
- Why?
- Because you’re a nice person you dumb.
- “Thanks” for advice. Whatever, let’s go find someplace to eat.
Students finally wakened. Gloomy morning mood is passed and now air was filled with energy and cheap perfume. I love this mood. Really help to wake up. Someone there is laughing; someone there is talking, arguing or just kidding around. Atmosphere of the youth I call it.
We bought a two bottles of cola and some fast food and headed to our favorite place. It was university fifth floor. Place usually empty and quiet. And it has a really beautiful garden.
- Listen, Simon do you know about MLP?
- Holy cow Gray! Are you one of them? – He almost choked.
- One of them? What a dumb question. One of whom? – What a weird reaction. Like it was disease or something.
- You know…Bronies? Ponyfags? That hyperactive and crazy folks. They hiding among us and one day they will conquer the world with their power of friendship. – Said Simon while hysterically waving his hands.
- What? Like illuminati but cuter? Quit fooling around and tell me about MLP.
- LSP? – Asked Simon.
- LSP? MLP? RWWW, Simon you jerk! Shuriken toss! – I tossed an empty cola bottle to Simon.
In my surprise, he actually dodged my “Shuriken” and I scored a perfect shot in some girl’s head. Shit, I didn’t notice her.
- Shit! Cast “vanish”! – Said Simon and ran off.
Oh no. Troubles at my twelve. That girl was going for me or for my head. She has nice clothes I say. And face of a model. Jesus, what I ‘am I thinking about? Judging by her eyes my life can end now.
- You! Did you toss it? – She was really angry.
- No. – Poor me. Yesterday I was on really epic fight, with dead serious guys, but now I can’t do a shit against girl.
- No, it was you! – Now she was yelling at me. Got to say something funny or I be killed!
- No it was Gondar. – This is getting ridiculous. But hell the show must go on!
- What? Who is Gonder? – I managed distract her.
- It’s Gondar. And sorry but Gondar casted invisibility and ran off. – I said with dead serious face.
- Rarity! Come on we’ve got to go! – Someone from behind called her.
- Oh whatever. But I have my eyes on you! Got it? Bye “Gondur”. – She walked off.
- It’s Gondar…
She is gone and my head saved. And it was kinda fun. Rarity? What a weird name.
- Nice, Gray! You make me proud. Got two girls in one day. – It’s was Simon. Did he was watching me?
- You puss. Why do you run off?
- It was part of the plan. – Simon “evil” laughed.
- Okay. What next. Do you have more lectures? – I asked.
- Nah…I want to skip them. Do you?
- Yeah. Let’s go. – I replied.
- Where?
- To the Stray-Sheep bar of course! - And we headed to our little heaven.
In that moment I didn’t noticed but Twilight overheard our conversation and followed us. There is gonna be some show today!
DISORDER
Prologue:
- No one here? Good. Well, let's begin. - Said girl with long white hair.
The girl with an expressionless white hair was looking straight at me. Her eyes filled with green, lips red as blood and face...Oh; you can never forget that face. Such a deep face, filled with beauty of a princess and emotions of angel. She was perfection, true beauty. But I was calm as rock. At least I tried to stay calm. It’s was a November evening. Both of us in the classroom filled with evening smells, tender feelings of love in the air. But we were no lovers at all.
- What's wrong? Oh, did I offend you? Sorry about that, but I’m not seeing you as a human person at all. - So cold. Her voice was like winter, cold winter night.
- What am i to you, then? - I was really pushing myself out. Keep calm Gray, keep it cool.
- You are...An “interest”. That's why I summoned you. I want to talk about you.
What?! Interest, she says? The “queen” of this university wants to know about me? Smells really fishy, maybe it’s some kind of a sick joke. I don't want to get involved to some strange shit.
- I know this is really strange. Let's be rational. I'm more that superior than you and now you teasing yourself with a storm of questions. - Her voice like an ice breath. Burns your soul out. Damn, girl now I understand all the fuss about you.
- You damn right, Celestia.
For a second the ice barrier on her face collapsed and I saw...or I think I saw her smile. Oh man, give me a break. Everything is so fucking weird, right now. It's like a dream or...Bad book?
- Listen, Celestia. You kinda evaded the answer back then. So, one last time I ask you this - What am i to you? - Good job, Gray. Now you will lose your chance to make a valuable friend.
- Do you really want to know? - Now she was staring at me. Creepy.
- Yes. - I was ready for anything. ANYTHING. Come, girl. Blow me out, break me up.
- I'm seeing you as a fiction character from “My little Pony – Friendship is Magic” animated series. - So much calm, how to hell she...Wait a minute...
Well I thought I was ready for anything...But not for this.
- WHAT?!
- Keep clam, Gray. It's a honest answer. - Despite my intense reaction, her face stayed cold.
Ice Queen. She is a freaking ice queen in “human” form.
The rest of the evening we spend in silence. I just sit there and like – eyes down, hands in “U” form.
Like a child, ignorant and offended. She didn't left me ether. Freaking strange November evening.
