Anon's Goodbye.

by Dustchu

Rating: teen
Tags: Human, Main 6, Drama, Anon, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad, Suicide / Self Harm
Length: 1763

Through a letter left for the Main Six, Anon says goodbye to everyone.

Through a letter left for the Main Six, Anon says goodbye to everyone.

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Featured: 8/14/2018

Published 2018-08-14 15:10:01 UTC
Last updated 2018-08-14 15:10:01 UTC

Goodbye my friends, I'll never forget you.

Author's Note

Edited and made the whole story in italic for easier bookmarking

Goodbye my friends, I'll never forget you.

Hey... if you're reading this, then I guess you're awake finally? I hope you slept alright, Twilight, I know how fitful you can get in your sleep after finishing reorganizing your library so many times, three times in one day? That's a lot of work for that little tree, isn't it? Nonetheless, I know you're a pony crazy enough to enjoy that kind of excessive work.

Just watching you stand there in the middle of the room, horn lit up like a candle and with that little shimmer of magic and some concentration, books flew all around the room like birds. Each one moved in sync with the other, flying in intricate patterns and woven through the air in that way only you could do.

It was always so strange to me... you ponies and your magic, unicorns, pegasi or earth pony, just the way you saw and manipulated the world around you, so fascinating and yet... so odd. So much power tucked inside such tiny snuggable bodies, kind of like a nice toasty four cheese burrito on a Friday night.

Sometimes I'd watch you when you reorganized or when you were doing experiments on your friends - gauging Rarity's magic level, or how much power was in Rainbow's wings, trying to see how Fluttershy's Stare worked, just how strong Applejack's kicks were, or worse... trying to decipher Pinkie Sense. It was fun to see how they reacted to your experiments, Twilight. Pinkie's was especially funny, and Fluttershy's... the poor mare.

Even the ones you did one me were actually pretty fun even if I said otherwise... your curious eyes lighting up whenever I told you something new about myself, my family, or my world, it was cute how excited you would get when new knowledge no one else knew was thrown at you. That's something I admire about you, Twilight... you're driven and it really shows in how you do things, from your magic, studies, your friendships, anything and everything you do, it's... it's amazing.

I wish I had that same kind of drive when I was your age, but I was too busy chasing girls and being a general nuisance to everyone, including my parents.

However, when I say that your drive is admirable, that goes for everyone else.

Applejack's the kind of homegrown girl you want to take home to your parents, she's driven to provide for her family, she's strong, honest, blunt, and knows how to work the fields. She's a healthy girl too, at least I'd imagine so from all of the work she does, I don't doubt that if we ever got into a fight she could drop me with a good kick... doesn't even have to be a kick, honestly, could just knock me over with a tap on the side if she tried.

She's a good friend... one I'll never forget, the fondest memory I have of Applejack was her parents taking me in so long ago. I guess if you're reading this AJ, I did actually know your parents... they were some of the greatest ponies I'd ever met since coming to this world so long ago. Your mother and father took me in, fed me, clothed me... even let me sleep in the barn before moving into the house, considering you were still a baby back then, I could understand their hesitation to let me into the sanctuary of their beloved baby AJ.

I miss them... I really do, I've never stopped thinking about them, even to this day. Pear Butter's beautiful smile every morning when she brewed up some coffee, Bright Mac's pat on the back if he asked if I was free to help out in the fields later.

I wasn't always so healthy and fit like I am, I have your parents to thank for that. Had me working on that field for years and I enjoyed every bit of it... well, maybe not always, was pretty rough the first couple of months but... it grew on me, that simplistic lifestyle they had.

Even recently when I kept finding Rainbow in the trees, it was still an enjoyable experience. Heck, when I first saw her sleeping in one of the trees I helped plant, just lounging on the branch, I wondered to myself if all pegasi were this silly, sleeping in trees like cats. Knocking her down proved to be a mistake, thought I was a spy or some such nonsense but I proved her wrong, heh... she had been living in town for a couple of years before we met, kind of strange I had never met her until that day.

Rainbow Dash, you were an odd one, but not as much as Pinkie Pie was. Always kept trying to figure out what I was, if I really lived here for so long, if I was a spy... you were a silly mare but once we got friendly enough to learn more about one another, you proved to be another good friend... kind of like AJ. You're a strong mare as well, courageous, fast on your hooves, and loyal to a fault, that's something I like about you... you don't ditch a friend when they need help.

You're a mare that can hold her drink as well, all the times we went to the pub for a night out to drink, it had been awhile since I had met a girl who could almost drink me under the table... almost. Your world's booze is about as strong as twenty-five proof booze back where I'm from, so outlasting you wasn't hard, but I still enjoyed those nights together, just drinking some hard cider during a starlit night at the pub, listening to the music that played on the jukebox...

Rarity would always look at me funny whenever I walked home past her shop... but she never gave me the stink eye or kicked me out if I happened to pass out on her front steps, she always drug me inside and plopped me down on the couch, even left me some water and an aspirin for the morning hangover. Guess it helps you're the Element of Generosity, eh Rares? Always so helpful and willing to sacrifice so much, even if you didn't look like you would, what with how 'prissy' and 'noble' you come off as to some.

Regardless, you're such a wonderful mare, always willing to go above and beyond to make sure ponies around you have what they need. Your generous nature, your way with making clothes, just... everything, really. It's no wonder ponies adore you and love working with you. You're a mare with a heart of gold.

Reminds me of Pinkie Pie in a way, a more... eccentric version I would guess. You're the funny one of the group, the one who keeps the smiles going for the group... or even the crowd. Hell, Pinkie, you've gotten me out of more then a few ruts... helped me get out of my slumps on a bad day, and I love you for it. You're so young, so full of life, you still have that fire of innocence in your heart that keeps you going throughout life. I know things had to have been rough for you for a bit... you hide it behind that sweet smile of yours...

But I can see it in your eyes, I know that look because I've seen it every time I look in the mirror, don't be like me Pinks...

Don't think I've forgotten you, dear Fluttershy... sweet innocent Fluttershy, the epitome of a gentle soul. What is there I can say about you that hasn't already been said? You're a wonderful mare... one who's helped me in tough times, listened to me on my darkest days and hugged me when I felt down or couldn't bare the pain anymore. You were there to listen, there to offer me a cup of that tea you love so much... I forget what kind it is... guess my memory's slipping more then I thought, but I know it had such a sweet taste...

Almost as sweet as your heart.

And Spike... little Spike, who could forget you. You're someone who was like a little brother to me, so young and eager to explore the world, help your friends and make sure everything was just right. You're Twilight's perfect assistant of course, and a beloved little brother to both her and me... I'm sorry to say I'll never get to see you grow up and become the big bad dragon you wanted to become, but I know deep down in my heart, you'll grow up into a fine dragon... one this world needs.

You might be wondering what it is I'm saying here... maybe why you're reading this instead of hearing me say it.

I'm saying goodbye to you all, Twilight, Applejack, Rainbow, Rarity, Pinkie and Fluttershy... I'm saying goodbye to my dearest friends in the whole wide world, the ones who stuck by me and helped me so much throughout the years.

Today... today was too much for me, and there's nothing I can really tell you except I'm in so much pain, that I can't bare it anymore... I don't want any of you to think you've failed me, you haven't.

You gave me memories I'll cherish for eternity, gave me such wonderful things I never thought a little pony could give... you made me feel welcome in a world that wasn't my own, and I thank you so much for this, for everything.

Goodbye my friends, I'll never forget you.

I love you all.

With much love...

Anonymous.

Twilight and the others stared at Spike as he let the letter slip from his fingers, drifting down to the floor next to Anonymous' bed... which was currently empty. His belongings still sat where they lay for all this time... timeless photos still in their frames, hung up proudly in his room at the Apple Family Farm, so many memories all captured within a single image; little trinkets he had been given as gifts from everyone... even a stack of journals and a book he had borrowed from Twilight.

There was not a single dry eye in the room, and there wouldn't be for some time...

No words were said... nothing filled the room except the soft sniffles and sobs.

Anon had said goodbye...

For the last time...