Lost and Alone.

by One with the Shadows

Celestial Regrets

Previous Chapter

Celestia got out of her mothers car and waved her off back to work. She came to the door to find ink on the door handle. This concerned her and she opened the door while avoiding the ink. Staring at the watery solution, she looked over to Luna who was playing on her Game Boy on the sofa. Splodges of ink were in various spots around the room leading into the bathroom. "Luna what is this about? Why is there ink on the handle?"

Luna's reply was "Bullies, thats what."

"Maybe you should brighten up your attitude and make some friends."

"And become like you? Little miss popular." Luna said with clear irritation in her voice.
Celestia wanted nothing more than to end this conversation and make her point clear.

"It gets me away from the ideal target for bullies, atleast I actually do have friends to talk to and hang around with."
Luna looked over at her for a second, a tear starting to form in her eye. Then she ran off down the hall with a burst of tears.
It took a moment for Celestia to twig at what she just said. Oh shit. She decided to let her sister cool off for a few minutes, or atleast to stop crying for a while.

An hour later and the crying stopped, Celestia waited to hear Luna open her door to possibly get a drink or something or just to talk. Nothing. 5 minutes and still nothing. Celestia was worried, so she went to check. Knock Knock Knock "Luna, are you okay? Do you want to talk?" Nothing "Luna, I'm sorry, please let me speak to you, I didn't mean what I said" Still nothing. Celestia pushed the door open, the room was dark and too quiet. "Luna this isn't funny anymore, if you wanted to get back at me you win, please just talk to me." Celestia walked around the bed. She gasped when she saw Luna on the floor, some bottles of tablets around her were empty and a bottle of alcohol. "Oh my God! LUNA!" Celestia ran over to her, she wasnt breathing, there was a very slow heart beat. Celestia ran to get the phone and rang 999. She said everything she knew and paramedics were sent out to help quickly. Celestia did what she was told to do, she began CPR. Thankfully she knew how to do it well with rescue breaths.

The paramedics arrived two minutes later and took over from Celestia. She rang her mother who panicked over the phone and rushed home as fast as she could. When she returned to Luna, the paramedics were not doing anything, equipment had been placed down and used but all moved away again. "What are you doing?" Celestia asked panicking.
"Time of Death, 5:24 PM, her heart stopped beating and to no avail would not start again with the maximum number of shocks registered, death caused by overdose via alcohol and sleeping tablets. Intent of suicide."
"No" Celestia whispered, tears starting to roll down her face.

Mother arrived after ten minutes and got inside quickly, she ran over to the crying Celestia and held her close, seeing Luna limp on the floor in her room. They both cried, noticing a note on the bed. It read:

Dear Mum and Celestia,
I'm sorry but it has come to this, I have killed myself to stop the pain in my life, I feel unloved and uncared for, I have no friends and am bullied constantly at school because of my natural awkwardness and geekiness. I couldn't take it anymore, coming home too often with scars and bruises and no help from you, the school or its especially useless counsellers who offered no help no matter how many times I asked. I felt ignored at home and I was pushed over the limit today for the final time. i'm sorry but I do not belong here anymore, not even on this world.
-Luna

The waterworks sped up for both Celestia and her Mum. This is my fault, I pushed her to the final step with one comment, I'm so stupid, why couldn't I tell the signs?."Don't beat yourself up about it, many factors lead to this and we are both to blame for not listening" Mother looked down at Luna, sorrow in her eyes, "I wish I could just turn back time and change this mess."

"We all do." Celestia replied.

"We all do."

Breaking News! Student commits suicide in local area, Luna declared dead last night.

The headline appauled the principle, but she strove for change. New policies for bullying were put in place and cameras placed to cover the entire school to find any form of bullying and stop it. She gathered all of the bullies stated in her daughters diary and they were all arrested for causing the suicide. Things were going to change, a plaque was placed on the wall near the main door with a picture of Luna. It said 'In Memory of a Good Student, Drawn to suicide to escape her Torment that was her life, may she Rest in Peace and be Remembered.' Students all saw this and wished they could have changed it, saved her from this fate, but it was too late now. Now things had to change, to help those in need.


Author's Note

Thank you for reading this story. As I said in the description, I would have a rather large Authors note.
This story was something I wanted to write that wouldn't be too long adn puts a point across. To help those who suffer from bullying and depression, listen to what they have to say and help them. This story does relate to me in some ways, I did suffer from mild depression adn still have some traces of it, I spoke to no one about it and thoughts of suicide did come to mind to end it all, but I did have some friends to tlak to and soon enough pulled myself back up. This story, however shows the consequences of such actions and the consequences of bullying as stories like this do crop up quite alot. Please, talk to someone if you feel like this or are getting bullied. Seek help, and if you know someone who shows signs of depresison, talk to them and possibly get some help. Thank you.