Fanfic Nightmares

-=-=-=-=-Be Anon=-=-=-=-=

“Well I’m finally done that essay.” you said to yourself cracking my knuckles. You were glad it was over because that English essay took you hours. But that was only because you had to separate your time. At least now it’s all over. Your fingers were hurting like hell but it’s done.

New year's eve had recently passed and you were trying to start off the new year with a more responsible attitude. Your friends thought it was a good idea. They've always been supportive of you since you first met them. But if there was one friend that you liked the most, it would be your crush. The day you met her changed her had changed your life forever.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=2 years ago at least-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

It was a warm summer day. School had just let out and you were walking around the neighborhood until you came across the school you've been going to for a while now. You've been at this school since 2013, the year when Sunset Shimmer, your former best friend, had changed her ways. It's now 2017 and everyone is enjoying their summer right now while you were standing here staring at the school in it's empty likeness. Suddenly you hear a flash from the statue next to you and look over to see flashing white lights appear out of this specific side of it. You look over and see the most beautiful girl you've ever come across. She wore a black thin vest that covered her aqua green shirt, and wore a shade of gray jeans with holes around her knees. She had purple hair with mint-colored highlights had light purple skin and oceanic blue eyes which sparkled when the sun shined over them. To anyone she was another human but to you, she was a goddess born in heaven. You never were a type of guy who had a lot of confidence. Just enough to be able to talk to people. But when you laid eyes on this girl, this goddess, that all washed away. At first you were curious of where she came from but then you remember Sunset telling you about how this specific part of the statue was a portal that led to her old home in a place she called Equestria and it only made sense that this girl could have been from it.

She takes a long look at you before copying of how you were standing and tried to do the same but she kept on falling. Quickly, without any hesitation you run over to her and pick her up before she fell again. She brushes her clothes off before looking at you.

"Thanks."she says giving you a warm smile. Your heart started to beat faster as you felt her warm breath caress your ears. She's only said one word to you and you can't even think straight. You didn't know what to do. You were frozen admiring her beauty.

What do you do?
What do you say?
Why is she so hot?
Why are you staring at her?
Why are you getting so nervous?!
Why are you asking yourself these questions?!
Just stop being a wimp and respond! Say something goddamnit!

"Um...hello? Are you okay?"she asks waving her hand in front of you. Shit! She started to notice! And her arms smells so amazing! Goddammit dude! What the fuck are you doing?! Say something?! Anything just fucking something!

"Bananas!"

"Uh...what?" Really? Really?! Bananas?! Say something relevant you retard!

"S-Sorry, I was just thinking about eating bananas, they're uh...my favorite fruit?"you said. Wow. Are you really trying to make a fool of yourself in front of the most stunning goddess of the universe? You look at her. And she looks at you. You look at her. And she looks at you. You start to sweat from how awkwardly long the silence was until she finally broke it.

"Ooookay then. Well anyway, I'm Starlight Glimmer. It's nice to meet you."she says with a cute smile spread across her face. She extends her arm and was having a little trouble with it. She glanced at you a felt a little embarrassed as her cheeks turn a light shade of pink. You chuckle and pull her arm out for her and shake her hand. She smiles warmly which made you smile.

"Thanks...again. What's your name by the way?"she asks giving me a larger smile.

"Oh! Um...my name? It's uh...Anon." I said trying to find my confidence but she was too beautiful for it. The sun was shining over her making more beautiful than ever.

"That's a nice name. Do you happen to know where Sunset Shimmer is?"she asks. I shake my head.

"No I'm afraid no-" as if on cue, you were interrupted by the sound of your phone buzzing. You groan and take it out of your pocket. It was a text message from Sunset.

If you ever come across a girl named Starlight Glimmer. Bring her to Sugarcube Corner but don't tell her that we're here. !)

You were a little confused of what was going on in her head but you decide to role with it.

"On second thought, I think I might know." You said looking up from your phone at her. She was staring at your phone with her hand on her chin.

"Um...Starlight?"

"Hmm? Oh sorry, I was just wondering what that thing is that your holding?"she asks. That's right, she's from another universe.

"This is a cell phone. It has many uses like being able to contact your friends when they're not around. It sends a signal to their phone." You explain.

"And...there's no magic needed?" Starlight asks. You shook your head.

"Nope. It ain't magic, it's technology." you say jokingly. Starlight giggles. You assume it was just because of your tone. You honestly thought that they probably don't have technology back there.

"That's sounds really cool. Where can I get one?" Starlight asks.

"Maybe look in one of your pockets." You said pointing at them to make sure she knows what they are. Starlight turns her pockets inside out and finds nothing. You take a step closer to her with your face slowly starting to heat up. You look down at her.

"Do you mind if I check?" You ask with a slight blush. She nods and lifts her hands up and unfortunately, so does her shirt a little. You try not to look as you check her vest pockets for a phone when you felt something hard and pulled it out.

"Here it is." you said gently pulling it out of her pocket. It was a purple phone with a light green highlight, the same color of her hair. You gently hand it to her as you try to get rid of your blush as fast as you can before she notices. Starlight found the power button and turned it on.

"Wow this is really cool. Now how do I contact you?"

"It's actually very easy but I'll have Micro Chips set it up for you later. Right now we should head to Sugarcube Corner." You said. Starlight gasped.

"There's a Sugarcube Corner here too?"

"Yeah, though it might be a little different from how you saw it back in that land of Equestria."

"Here. I'll take you there. After all, I don't want you to embarrass yourself by falling again." You said grabbing her hand. You felt your face heat up from how close you were to her now physically touching her. Her hand was soft and warm. Your faces were a little close to each other as you slowly pull back and become flushed to what just happened. You idiot! You made her feel uncomfortable!

"Uh...sorry about that." you say letting her hand go.

"Um...it's okay. L-Let's just walk together to Sugarcube Corner." Starlight says as you slightly scoot away from her. She starts to crouch down and walks on her hands and knees giving you a perfect view of her...don't even think about that Anon.

"Uh...y-you should probably get back up Starlight. It must feel weird to not be a pony anymore but you will attract a lot of attention to yourself if you do that." You said. Starlight's face grew a little red.

"Oh right. I forgot about that. Sunset always said I made a good distraction."she said. You chuckle and help her up. You both start to walk down the sidewalk to Sugarcube Corner talking about various things like your friends, how things work here, etc.

Finally, you arrive at Sugarcube Corner and not much to your surprise Starlight has a look of disappointment.

"Well here we are Starlight. Sugarcube Corner." you said. Starlight take a long look at it as a random tumbleweed passes across the street.

"It looks...deserted. Where is everypon-err everybody?" she asks rephrasing her grammar. You shrug.

"Probably enjoying themselves at home. It's summer vacation after all." You said. Starlight was about to open her mouth asking what that was but you answered before she could ask.

"And by that I mean a 3 month break from school for kids and young adults and certain jobs for other mature individuals." you say trying to impress her with your way of words. Probably a stupid idea.

"Alright so let's head on in." you say as you and her look both ways before crossing the street over to Sugarcube Corner. Slowly, you open the door for her. She smiles and nods at you signaling a thanks. When you open the door on the inside, you and her become startled by the rush of a bunch of girls you recognized jumping out from behind the furniture of the place.

"SURPRISE!!!" they exclaim. Starlight gasped and put a hand on her heart.

"Welcome back Starlight!" Pinkie Pie exclaimed giving her a big hug.

"Pinkie...did you do all this for me?" Starlight asks.

"We all did silly. Sunset here said you were coming back so we decided to throw a welcome back party for you." Pinkie explained.

"Are you visiting darling?" Rarity asks.

"Actually, Princess Twilight decided to send me here after I was done being her student so...I guess I'm staying."

"That's wonderful sugarcube!" Applejack exclaimed. They all gave Starlight a hug and pulled you into it too. Of course it was probably gonna choke you to death but you're next to an angel that could probably bring you back at any moment. After a few minutes they release the hug and you take a long and huge gasp of air.

"So who's gonna let her stay with them?" Rainbow Dash asked.

"I can. If you want to Starlight." you said as your face heated up a little. The others started to exchange giggles.

"I was gonna stay with Twilight since I recall her having a bigger house." Starlight said smiling at her. You were still smiling but your brain was doing it's best to hold back your tears.

"Okay then. Just making a suggestion." you said as your blush faded. Sunset then spoke up.

"Hey Anon, maybe you can help her get settled in."she said. Starlight gets a little extra happy.

"Yeah. That's a great idea Sunset! Are you willing to do it Anon?"she asks turning to you. You were still nervous but you put on a confident smile.

"I'll be willing to do anything." You said.

"Great! Is it okay if we get to it now Twilight?" Starlight asks. Twilight nods.

"Sure. I'll give you the grand tour." Twilight says jokingly. For a real bookworm, Twilight has a good sense of humor. She walks towards the door with you and the goddess of beauty following behind as you all waved bye to your friends. You had a good feeling that Starlight had a good impression of you and maybe she even likes you back considering how shy she was when she saw you. But you’re thinking way too much about this. Just start off as friends, those always workout a good relationship.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-Present Day=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

Since then, you and Starlight have gotten to know each other a lot better. You never felt so happy in all your life. Though the only problem was that you were easily flustered around her. Your friends had taken notice of this and always teased you about it when Starlight wasn't around. They would say lots of things like,

"It's only a matter of time lover boy!"
"Hi Anon it's me Starlight. Come give me a smooch."

They would constantly nag you about it. It made you flustered but it also annoyed you. You always told them that you would only confess whenever you felt like it. Though, it may have opened a can of worms because they added that to the list of 'things to nag Anon about'. You looked down at your watch and it read 2:00.

‘Seems like I have some spare time before the bell rings.’ you thought.

‘Correction, I have a lot of spare time before the bell rings.’ you thought. You started thinking about what you could do with this large amount of spare time. All of your homework and projects were done. There weren’t any upcoming exams or tests. You couldn’t bother your friends because they are probably still working on something. You kept thinking about what to do until you got an idea.

‘A good way to pass time is to read some fanfictions.’. You quickly typed up fimfiction.net and pressed enter to reveal a colorful logo with a rainbow at the top of it.

‘They never fail to disappoint.’ you thought smiling. You started to explore the website. You were actually quite impressed with this. The majority of fanfics you read over the years were pretty well written and they still are now. Though there were some that you thought could use a little adjustment and you made sure to give the writers some feedback on it to let them know. It seemed rather enjoyable at the moment to read these because most of them were happy and easy to imagine in your head.

You then come across a certain fanfic that seemed new to you but you had the urge to do it because it was a fanfic about your hoping to be future girlfriend, Starlight Glimmer.

But the title showed a picture of her with a sad face and the fanfic had a tag that said it was a sad fanfic. Now you were a guy who shows a lot of emotion towards anybody but that was only positive emotions, so if this fanfic really is sad then maybe you might not be able to handle it. Still, it was Starlight Glimmer, the most beautiful girl that was made from heaven and you were a little furious but also curious to why she was crying. You were about to click on the link to chapter one when you think about this for a moment.

'I love Starlight deeply so if this is sad it might change me. I probably shouldn't do it. Still...it's Starlight Glimmer. The angelic girl from heaven. Besides it's just a fanfic. How sad could it possibly be?' Slowly without hesitation you click on the link

When you clicked on the chapter title, it took you to the story with a author's note at the top saying that this now has a fanfic reading. You always loved the fanfic readings because it helps you follow along and imagine the scenario. It embraces the nature of imagination.

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You were wrong. This was really sad. So sad that you had to stop the audio play with one third of it through and logged out of the computer. The drops of tears you shedded fell on to the keyboard most likely washing off any germs that had been there and possibly short circuiting it. Never before have you read something so depressing. When you heard the words, ‘Starlight’ and negative words like 'suicide' or 'depressed' in the same sentence, that was all it took for it to leave a stain deep in your heart. Sure it wasn’t real. It was just a fanfic but, you didn't know for sure since you could barley make it through the first part of the fanfic reading. Hearing those words together just makes your heart sink. It was hard to know what exactly to think about this.

Whoever written this fanfic was clearly a really good writer and cudos to whoever decided to make a fanfic reading on it. You meant that sincerely because it truly felt sad. It was sad enough to make you believe that this was real. This broke your heart deeply and you knew it did because you felt your heart shatter entirely. It pained your soul to see one of your closest friends, moreover your crush, pass away. You never had anyone die before in your life, but after hearing and reading that fanfic, you could already tell how painful it must have felt. You turned off the monitor of the computer and walked out of the library. Your eyes were puffy and red from all of the tears.

You've been sad plenty of times in your life but something like that is just...devastating to think about. Honestly, you loved all your friends with all your heart, though that was the whole school. But the friends you loved the most were, Sunset Shimmer, Twilight Sparkle, the other Twilight Sparkle, Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, Rarity, Trixie Lulamoon, Pinkie Pie, Applejack and...Starlight Glimmer. A massive chill went up your spine as you thought about her name. It was always so pretty but now, this gave it another meaning as well. You grabbed the part of your chest where your heart was located tightly and tried to hold back your tears but to no avail. This just couldn't stop you from crying.

The last time you ever felt this devastated was when you saw the end of that YouTube video, My Little Dashie. That stabbed your heart pretty bad, but compared to what you just read today, that video could barely leave a mark in your heart. Though it still triggers the waterworks, it couldn't do any better than that fanfic. And to think that was only a fraction of the whole thing. You then saw a bathroom and quickly rushed to it before anyone was able to catch you in your emotional breakdown.

You close the door and take a huge sigh of relief. This feeling has taken almost sixty percentage, if not more of your brain. You could barely maintain myself out in the hallway. You suddenly felt a little queasy as you ran inside a stall and threw up your lunch in the toilet. You pushed down the shiny metallic handle on the toilet and it flushes the vomit away. You got scarred the moment you felt yourself do that. You've never expected that to happen. You didn't know that being sad could do that to you. Maybe this was more than just sadness you was feeling. You already feel like shit right now after reading that fanfic and this wasn't helping in any way. You walked over to the sink and splashed some water on your face to wipe any excess vomit on your face and to cool yourself off. You then looked in the mirror and felt worse. You looked worse than a homeless guy who hasn't showered in god knows how long.

"I can't tell my friends this. They will worry like crazy." you said to yourself. It was true. Starlight and the other really did care about you when ever you had a problem but if you told them anything negative, you'd feel that they'd be more depressed than you would. You know how depression tends to be slightly contagious. This was gonna be a real challenge. If you couldn't handle yourself out in the hallway, there's no telling what could happen in the lunchroom tomorrow.