Cause I love to Make you Smile

by nlinzer

Rating: teen
Tags: Drama, Suicide / Self Harm, Pinkie Pie, Main 6, Profanity, Slice of Life, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad
Length: 1405

Pinkie makes sure she is friends with everypony, makes sure she everypony has a smile on their face. Why?

Alternate ending to Party of One

Pinkie makes sure she is friends with everypony, makes sure she everypony has a smile on their face. Why? Does she need attention? Did something happen to her? Was she unloved as a child? Is she just kind and wonderful and its nothing beyond that?

Published 2019-01-24 03:10:01 UTC
Last updated 2019-01-24 03:10:01 UTC

It fills my heart with Sunshine

"You Girls are the Best Friends Ever!!” I shouted.

”Yeah, which is why I’m wondering something,” Dash whispered.

“Rainbow,” Applejack warned. “

"No Applejack I want to know something. Why did Pinkie think we would leave her hanging!”

Wha did I, I did that, didn’t I. How could I have believed so little of my friends? I…

“Rainbow Dash, it’s Pinkie's birthday, and she already felt bad, why’d you have to make it worse?”

She didn’t make it worse I did. I’m just...

“girls”

“Well I was just.”

“It ain’t always about you.”

“girls”

“All of us.”

“See anypony else upset.”

They're fighting about me, I need to stop them, make them happy.

"Girls!” Fluttershy screamed “Look at Pinkie, she needs help!”

No, no, I need to help, I need to. I need to escape.

“Morning in Ponyville shimmers, Morning in Ponyville shines, and I know for absolute certain that everything is gonna be... Oh, Hiya ,Twilight! Would you like a cupcake? They're pink icing with blueberries. Ooh, what about pink berries and blue icing.”

“Pinkie, we need to talk,” Twilight said.

“How about icing berries in a blue and pink cupcake? Wait, is there an icing berry there should be a berry made of icing!”
“Pinkie!"

Putting my head through the window of Sugarcube Corner “Yes Twilight?”

“We need to talk about last night.”

Bouncing on the ceiling I exclaimed, “Ooh last night was so fun I loved the cake, and the icing, you know icing is really fun to say, it sounds like it’s cold but it's not, it sounds like ice skating. Could you have a ice skating rink made up of icing.”

“Pinkie, we never got to that, we need to talk about what happened when Rainbow said what she said.”

I felt the color drain from me. I...no....can’t think think of something else. “Ooh, you mean when Rainbow said I could clear the air in 10 seconds flat? I checked; it was actually 10.02 seconds which means it wasn’t in 10 seconds unless flat means 0.02 ooh maybe words are codes for numbers.”

“Pinkamena Diane Pie!”

“Yes, Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight” bouncing out of Sugarcube Corner.

“Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight Twilight. Hi Rarity Belle. Do you know that Twilight is Twilight Sparkle the 3,026th, Spike is kinda like her brother, but also like her son, so is he Spike Sparkle, ooh what if he was a girl dragon would she be Twilight Sparkle the 3,027th?”

“Pinkie dear we need to talk about last night.”

“No, because that would be confusing. Wait! What if the Sparkles have more than one daughter in a generation? Would there be 2 Twilight Sparkles? 3, 4, 18? Or is it that the oldest gets the name. That’d be no fun.” “Pinkie!” “Wait why don’t you go by Rarity Belle? I need to ask Sweetie Belle!” And so I bounced out of Carousel Boutique.

“Why doesn’t Rarity go by Rarity Belle? Maybe the Belles don’t give the last name to the oldest. Ooh, ooh, maybe she's in disguise and she doesn’t want anypony to know she’s Rarity Belle because she's a spy who goes by the name...” Pulling the trench coat over my muzzle. "Rarity! oh hi Roseluck, watchya writing?”

“Nothing Pinkie.”

Do I look? What if it hurts her feelings? I can’t do it. But maybe I should? It could be something I could throw a party over. Then she’d be happy and then I’ll be happy. “Ooh that's fun. It says ‘Pinkie’s Here.' Well of course I’m here, silly billy.”

“Pinkie!” I saw a rainbow streak come at me.

“Hi Dashi!”

“We need to talk.”

“Okey Dokey, your birthaversary is in 132 days; what do you want to do?”

“No Pinkie about last night.”

Nope, nope, nope, I started running as fast as possible.

“Pinkie you can’t run from me I’m too fast.”

“But I can hide,” I said poking out from Time Turner's window.

Rainbow sighed “Ok Pinkie, you win. Let's talk about my birthaversary.”

Really, it's that easy? Wait, I can’t doubt her because the fastest way to lose a friend is to not trust them. “Sure Dashi!"

“But we have to do it at Applejack's Barn”

It’s a trap! No, I have to trust her. I have to because otherwise I’m a bad friend and if I’m a bad friend I can’t make her smile and then what am I? “Okedydokey Lokie!”

“We could have rainbow cake, not real rainbows because those are spicy whoo, unless you want real rainbows.” Bouncing into the barn, I heard the latch close behind me. That’s when I saw the rest of the girls.

“Whaa! Rainbow, what’s going on?” I bounced to the window, but in a streak of rainbow it was closed and locked with the culprit behind me. Don’t think culprit; she’s a good pony.

Floating above, Rainbow frowned at me. “We need to talk not just about last night but also before then when you thought we had stopped being your friend.”

No, I can’t talk about that. I failed them. They they don’t want to be my friends. They... no...

Fluttershy walked over to me. “Pinkie, why did you think we were not your friends anymore?” I failed them; they're not going to be my friends anymore. The floor sunk beneath me. Friends friends... I... Hi Mr. Hay-Bail, I won’t disappoint you.

“Pinkie” Fluttershy's voice called out. “Why have you been not willing to talk to us today?” I made them sad. I should have lied. I should have made up something. “Pinkie what's wrong?”

I turned and saw them. It wasn’t Fluttershy who said that - it was all of them.

“If I am not for others what am I?”

“What was that, Sugarcube?”

“I I need to make others happy! If not everypony is happy, I shouldn’t be happy!” I screamed. “Why should my happiness go before anypony else? Princess Celestia said, “If I am not for others what am I? And if not now when?, I need to make others happy. It is what Celestia ordered! I have to be for others in every way and I have to always do it!”

”Pinkie,” Twilight whispered. “She also said If I am not for myself who will be for me.”

“That part doesn't apply to me.”

“Can I ask why not dear?”

“Because it doesn’t, because it doesn’t matter if nopony will be for me. All that matters is I am there for others.”

“Pinkie, who told you this! Who told you this crap!”

“Nopony, I just know. I've always known. It's what my cutiemark is telling me.”

Fluttershy came close. “Pinkie, your cutie mark is for parties.”

“No it’s not! My cutie mark is for making others happy. Why do you think I don’t charge for my parties!” Fluttershy was cowering. No, no, I scared her I scared somepony. I’m horrible. I’m worse then Tirek I’m...

“Pinkie!” I felt a hoof with Twilight's voice. “It’s ok. Fluttershy’s ok. You don’t have to hit yourself.” I stopped. My head felt dizzy from hitting the wall. “Your cutie mark doesn’t mean you have to make others happy over yourself! I’m going to write to Princess Celestia and have her recommend a therapist”

“Ah know one. Name’s Lemon Hearts. She helped a lot when we lost Ma and Pa.”

“I don’t need a therapist! Nothing bad has happened to me. I have 4 parents and 3 siblings who love me.”

“Don’t mean you don’t need a therapist. You obviously need help and if we have to do this every week to get you to therapy then, by Celestia, we will.”

“We’re all here for you, darling, whether you want it or not.”

“I never leave my friends hanging.”

“Pinkie, I’m sorry for what I said about your mark. You all make us happy and you need to be happy.”

“Pinkie, you helped us so much, we have to help you - friendship is a two way street.”

I looked at them, my friends, and cried. "You girls are the best friends ever.”

Author's Note

First story. Constructive criticism welcome! Wanted to write something that showed not all depression comes from tragedy. (Also Princess Celestia is Rabbi Hillel)