What is this feeling?

by SaturatedBubble

Rating: teen
Tags: Drama, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Romance, Sex, Flash Sentry, Twilight Sparkle, Discord, Princess Celestia, Slice of Life
Length: 5229

Twilight and Discord form this strong tension, it was new, the two have bonded closely lately over different things and interests but they stopped talking one day. Twilight is unsure of her feelings, she doesn't know what is going on with her.

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Twilight and Discord form this strong tension, it was new, the two have bonded closely lately over different things and interests but they stopped talking one day. Twilight is unsure of her feelings, she doesn't know what is going on with her. Though she can't help but recall Discord's feelings for Celestia, through this how will the mare overcome her undying dreams, feelings, and discover what this honestly is?

WARNING: Sexual themes are at play here, while it is not a direct clop, it hints at sex and there are some scenes that imply it. You have been warned. Most of it is fuzzy, if you have a problem with this sort of things, just skip ahead. I do not like very heavy sexual themes anyway, so I promise not to shove it in anyone's face.

Any feedback is greatly appreciated! As long as your comment is insightful and you're giving strong advice as to why you didn't enjoy what you read, then please be my guest. I take all comments and try to improve!

Cover art: https://www.deviantart.com/unlocked-shenanigans/art/Twilight-X-Discord-583867934

Published 2019-01-12 15:10:02 UTC
Last updated 2019-07-04 02:34:46 UTC

Dreams and Uncertainy

The purple mare felt her breathing go heavy, her face flushed at the blurry sight before her. A tall being stood before her, she felt uncertain, he had his warm hooves wrapped around her. All of a sudden, she wasn't even certain if it was hooves that were holding her so dear, so close . . . all she could think of was that it was her beloved Flash Sentry, though he was never this warm and inviting. She couldn't help but melt in the arms that held her, a heavy sigh escaping her lips.

" Oh, I see someone down there is getting a little comfortable? " The voice was almost inaudible due to her current state, but the tone of the voice irked her the wrong way. The warmth faded, and she took a silent step back. The eyes peering down upon her were bright red, they observed her closely.

A huff escaped her jaws, she tilted her head. " What do you want? " She said, as if she knew who this was. For some reason it was a big blur, she had suspicions, but she wouldn't jump to conclusions, no-no, she had to analyze the situation.

There wasn't a clear response, only a hoof or whatever it was tracing down her chest, a warm smile came to her in an unexpected way. She didn't understand, she didn't know who this was, did she? Why did she feel so happy around him?

" Twilight... " The breathy voice sent tingles down her spine, she bit her lip a bit, she tried to observe, surely he was tall, she knew many tall stallions. Though he didn't have the same vibe as Flash, it was so different, exciting even?

She felt her hooves wrap around the being, whomever he was, and she stared directly into his eyes. That was the most distinct part she could see. Wonder and desire enlightened in those eyes, she probably returned the same look to this stallion, though she could see a wall like he was hiding so much, it almost made her want to learn more, to discover him.

" Whom are you...? " She whispered, he didn't respond, she didn't understand why exactly. You're here holding her so tightly as if she meant everything, yet you wouldn't even open yourself to her? Something about all of this seemed rather fishy.

" You are mine, before you knew it, you were always mine. You and one other opened my heart, though a bit of fun never hurts, a bit of settling down is alright too from what I've learned. " His breathe was heavier, Twilight's eyes softened, whomever this was she knew had to be someone she cared for.

His grip softened, he cleared up a bit, and the only thing she could see was this blurry figure with distinct eyes leaning into her. The mare couldn't help but part her lips, they still held eye contact, their lips barely apart, their was a small gap in between them both. As soon as she leaned in enough for the contact to be true...

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" Ahh! " She awoke from her dream, how dare she perform such acts with someone she probably didn't know? Oh how her brain was deceiving her and distracting her, afterall, she had been reading quite the good book but alas her body had to fight against her and make her rest.

" Twi! Celestia needs you! " Spike walked in, a smile formed on his face, but he noticed Twilight's tired and confused expression. He tilted his head in concern. " Everything alright, Twi? " The dragon's concern only increased with every moment.

" . . . Y-yeah. I've just been up all night reading this great novel, enough about me though, what does Celestia need? " She tiredly muttered, rubbing her eyes with her hooves. Twilight sighed, Spike was seemingly more concerned with Twilight then whatever Celestia had planned.

" Oh... well, she said she's doing a 'romance night' or whatever fancy name she gave it, it's supposed to help you and some other mares and stallions finally find some love. " Oh just great, she didn't need anymore romance, that dream was a fair share, and whomever she was in that dream wasn't her. Afterall, she did have someone. A handsome stallion who was kind stole her heart already, even if they weren't official yet.

" Spike, tell her I appreciate the offer, but I already found some 'love' as you put it. " She muttered, though she felt a little bad, she was acting out of her tired mind, she could really use a nap. The mare didn't enjoy being grumpy, she sighed and calmed herself down, even if she didn't snap, she felt like she had a rude undertone just waiting to be unleashed. " . . . I'm going, come on, it'd be fun to get you out of this castle. Even Starlight is going! She's going with Trixie, I honestly think something is going on there if you ask me . . . " Spike chuckled at the last part, Twilight cringed a little at the thought of her friend with Trixie. She didn't hate Trixie, but perhaps she didn't approve, though she had no right to say anything. She felt her mind getting side tracked, she shifted her attention back to Spike.

" . . . " Spike gave his award winning grin, before Twilight rolled her eyes, but a smile creeped on her face. " Fine.. only for you Spike. " She had a hunch that the dragon also wanted Twilight there for support, Spike would be trying to woo Rarity afterall. Though these words sent confusion down her spine.

" Are you going to get a date? " She froze a bit, but her mind wandered to Flash, the smile returned eventually. " Oh, going after that royal guard guy again, huh? Predictable. " Twilight's cheeks lit up, but she didn't have any particular remarks.

" S-so... is Celestia bringing a date or is s-she going to just search for love... or do none of the above? " She stuttered a bit, a low cough coming from her, trying to change the subject desperately. Spike thought for a moment, but his face lit up.

" I think Discord is going to ask her! When we were hanging the other day he was talking about not going, but he froze whenever I started joking about him going with Flutters or Celestia.. but knowing how Fluttershy is like family to him, I'm assuming Princess Celestia is going to get a date. " She was almost outright disgusted! How dare the lord of chaos take interest in her mentor? No, she has to calm down. At least Trixie and Starlight talked often, Celestia and Discord avoid eachother! Must be a rumor. " . . . Ah. Well, when is it? " Twilight turned her head, she felt a little more awake, though her mane still messy, she had almost forgotten about that dreaded dream that made her regret even falling asleep. Spike checked a clock, he shrugged a little.

" An hour probably. " The purple mare's eyes widened automatically, her breathing heavy.

" AN HOUR?! Why are you just telling me this now?! I have to tell Flash! I-- " She was running around and teleporting, Spike was a little taken aback by this, but he realized his errors, he probably should've told her sooner, but he assumed Twilight didn't want to be bothered. The past week she's just been reading and sleeping, it's unlike her, but I guess everyone has their moments.

Twilight was brushing her hair like there was no tomorrow, and she assumed at the moment there wouldn't be, it was put into a bun and she slipped on the best dress she could find within ten minutes. The dress was long and covered most of her, it was a nice light blue color, it easily complimented her purple coat. She clipped in accessories, earrings that sparkled and set in nicely with the dress, and she put on light makeup.

" . . . Ugh! " She was rushing about, before a small little gasp stopped her. Spike stared in awe for a moment, before smiling a bit, Twilight always did work and think best under pressure.

" . . . Twi, you look great! " Twilight stopped, a small smile formed on her face, her anxiety melted away as she stepped forward and gave spike a warm embrace. She didn't know why, it felt right, just the fact that this little dragon could melt away her stress with a couple words and a smile was so strange to her, but she loved it more than anything.

" . . . Thank you Spike, you always look great. You're adorable. " She gave a light pat to her best friend, and tilted her head, with a heavy sigh she let go, the small dragon appreciated the gesture so. As much as she'd love to sit here and just talk and such, she had an event to go to. Twilight and Spike set off, a little early, afterall Twilight doesn't want to be a minute late.

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Discord was roaring with laughter, he had played a simple prank on Celestia. The princess wasn't too happy about it, afterall, she wanted to look her best, alas she loved a good prank but this night was suppose to be about love, not pranks.

" Oh lighten up Tia! You know you're laughing on the inside. " His grin was smug as he tilted his head, Celestia gave a small smile, though she wasn't all to amused. Usually she'd enjoy it, but she expected Discord to act a bit more mature.

The two continued babbling on about what they enjoyed, Celestia enjoyed speaking about her sister but Discord couldn't help but ramble about things in the chaos realm.

" You really should visit sometime! I believe you would enjoy no-gravity, being stuck down here isn't all too fun. "

Though, ponies poured in, dancing already began and so did clinking of cups. Nothing all too interesting, though Twilight Sparkle finally found herself in, she slowly gave Spike an understanding nod as the dragon quickly raced to Rarity with a flower in hand, he would 'woo' her as he put it, and he'd dance with Rarity if everything went according to plan.

Twilight on the other hoof couldn't spot Flash anywhere. The stallion wasn't anywhere to be seen among the crowd of ponies, the mare let a sad sigh escape her. Maybe he'd come eventually? For now she'd maybe try and talk to friends.. well...

Rainbow Dash was with Soarin, Fluttershy didn't seemingly attend because she wasn't all too big on romance and would feel shy and left out here, Rarity found herself being talked to by two males which included Fancypants and Spike, Applejack was doing the usual and selling apples and anything like it, Pinkie Pie was dancing and making a party over in a corner with Cheese Sandwich, Trixie and Starlight were obviously together, everyone was occupied!

Though her eyes wandered to Celestia, she was speaking with Luna and Discord, though her eyes seeped into Discord automatically. Something struck a flame inside of her, a familiarity, without knowing it her cheeks flushed. Eventually the Lord of Chaos felt watched, and his eyes struck contact with Twilight's.

He took notice that her eyes were bright and wide, he didn't understand why he deserved this look. The creature didn't understand why he of all people deserved this, he usually got a sneer from her or a look of disgust. Though, seeing her like this made him crack a smile, though it vanished quickly.

Twilight didn't tear her eyes away, though a stallion broke the staring of wonderment, he happened to be Flash. Discord hid his anger in the slightest, though the orange stallion was holding a flower, Twilight's flushed face faded. She smiled and chuckled.

" I'm so sorry I'm late...! " Twilight chuckled at his words and was about to speak before the stallion held out his hoof slowly. Twilight gave a glance to Discord, he was holding out a paw for Celestia, and they begun to dance, jealousy filled her a bit, not because of Discord surely! Maybe the jealousy was because it was romantic to be dancing together, held close by warm arms, and... just in the air above everyone else and looking eachother deep in the eyes--

Flash coughed, which caught Twilight's attention once again. " Oh, I'd be happy to dance with you Flash, just don't step on my hooves. " She chuckled, he tilted his head with a small laugh. The dancing was nice to say the least, nothing enticing that drew you in, but she enjoyed it nonetheless. The slow music made her captivated somewhat. Though her eyes shifted to Discord, he was talented, strange...

Her mind wandered, remembering the times they had spoken, it was so full of life and experience, there was an enticing person underneath that jokey persona, and she was determined to find out who he was. She is curious about everyone, afterall. Though Discord tried to keep his eyes off Twilight, Celestia was a beauty to say the least, he wasn't complaining.

" Enjoying the dance, love? " He muttered, which snapped Twilight out of her thoughts. She nodded quickly, no words escaped her, just a hopefully convincing smile. She loved Flash, no doubt, she was just out of it today. Though she felt off by the nickname 'love.' Flash's heavy breathes came toward her, he was leaning in to give her a kiss.

She happily accepted it, she felt her wings open a bit in surprise, though it was a safe kiss, yet it brought a blush to her face and a smile. She felt his hoof traveling down her dress. Discord growled at the disgusting display of that. 'Hello, it's a public area, go get a room!' he wanted to shout that oh so bad, but he kept his primary focus on Celestia, despite his low jealousy he wouldn't admit.

Twilight's moan was a bit too suggestive, she pulled away before she could continue. Flash's face was redder than a tomato, she chuckled. She gave him a warm nuzzle. He returned it. Though the music seemed to stop in a calm manner, most people were switching partners, Twilight sighed.

" . . . Perhaps we should go dance with a couple other ponies? " The stallion suggested, which made Twilight a bit upset, she was enjoying the moment, they could've easily continued looking into each other's eyes as if there wasn't a tomorrow or a day after that, but alas, she was pushed away.

" ….Alright. " She sighed, Discord lowered and gave a silent bow to Celestia.

Ponies scattered left and right, Flash found himself with Luna oddly, and as ponies paired off, Discord found this dancing thing no longer amusing, though as he was turning, he saw a certain pony in the crowd looking for someone who'd dare offer her a dance. She seemed unamused by the lack of volunteers and those turning away from her, he couldn't help himself, he tipped the fedora he wore with his fancy attire and approached Twilight.

" . . . ? " A paw in a glove was extended toward her, he stared at it cautiously, Discord for once had no words. He just had a grin, though it seemed softer than usual, Twilight gave an uncertain look. Though her hoof found its' way into his, and she was lightly pulled to him. Her face was red and a smile creeped on her.

" You're lovely at dancing. Just thought I'd say that-- I--I mean... well, you're really good for someone I never expected to-- " It was the usual nervous Twilight trying to strike conversation. Discord tilted his head, his chuckle was amused.

" You pick up a thing or two after spending an eternity in stone. " The mare was confused at that, though she just gave a smirk, and rolled her eyes. Though she was lifted into the air, automatically she felt like how she wanted to feel.

The few times they were alone were heaven, for Hearths Warming Discord had given her the best gift she could ask for, not just a plain book, sure she loved books, but there was more to her than that, she hoped ponies would see that. She honestly was entranced by this man, he was so unique in every single way. She wondered how he felt.

Her hooves slowly roamed him, nowhere risky, just holding him close as best she could despite his tall stature. She didn't exactly realize her actions, she just really did feel at peace. Discord arched a brow, he chuckled muttering something that only made her heart stop. " Oh, I see someone down there is getting a little comfortable? " She looked up at him in wonder.

" You... "

" What about me? I did try a new glorious hairstyle if you're wondering. " He chuckled lightly, Twilight didn't know how to feel, emotions swarmed her, it was just a dream, why are you overreacting? Discord of all beings can't make you feel like this. Just no! Flash is your one and only love. Though she felt herself being dragged toward him, Discord seemed confused but seemingly he had the same thoughts, he wanted away, but at the same time he never wanted something more.

They gravitated toward eachother, mere inches away from eachother, they gave eachother suggestive looks, she blushed as his heavy warm breathe was so close to her. This odd tension... though the music ended as if on cue. Twilight felt her face finally rip it's way from Discord.

" . . . " He tried to hide the words 'Well that was anti-climatic.'

They dropped to the floor, still close in someway, but Flash pulled her away from him. It gained a slightly irritated reaction, which didn't go unnoticed by Twilight.

" Come on, one last dance! " He gave a quick kiss to Twilight. " . . . And after how about you and I find a private room? " Twilight turned red, Discord approached and anger surged through him.

" Actually she's doing something with me later. Sorry to cut your pleasure . . . " He seemed smug, Twilight was still speechless, she couldn't find words for anything or anyone. Did Discord just invite her on a date? Or was it something casual... or did he have something chaotic and 'annoying' planned? By annoying she means funny and different from her usual routine.

" Twi, come on, this guy is just bothering us-- " She inhaled and gave a small smile to Flash. Surely this 'thing' with Discord would be platonic, she loved Flash afterall. But he was moving a bit too fast for her. She hadn't even accepted to be his mare friend, and he already wanted to bed her? Ugh. She understands kissing and gentle touches, but any thing more at the moment is too much for her.

" No, I'm going with him later, sorry Flash. Tomorrow? " Twilight muttered suddenly, which made Discord pleasantly shocked, and Flash a bit upset.

" F-fine... " The orange stallion turned his back, and gave Twilight a peck on her cheek, which earned a smile from her, but turned to Discord right after, who was leaning on something.

" So what do you have planned? "

Author's Note

i hope you like!! please leave a comment, it means a lot that people might care about my work. aha.:twilightblush:

Sick Day

Author's Note

haha sorry, i needed a break from everything! this is a self-reflection chapter of twilight chapter to get me into the writing mood again! this is just a gradual transition chapter, enjoy, i promise next chapter will progress the story. this was just to establish her mood and such :twilightblush:

so sorry. very short too. i need motivation, also changed cover picture!

Sick Day

On the day she was supposed to go out with Discord to his oh so fun bar in the realm of chaos, she had come down with a nasty cold. How lovely? Honestly, she hadn't thought better than to lay in bed and try to feel better. Her mane was a frenzy, and she sniffled constantly. The mare even swore her throat was clogged up! Really, it wasn't any good. She hoped deep inside she hadn't upset poor Discord, and she was even more concerned for her poor Flash. She had almost neglected him the other night just because of an urge to see Discord and see what tricks he had up his sleeve. She had to admit, Discord was more fun than anypony else to be around, Pinkie Pie was just as good though.

As her mind wandered, she huffed quietly, before a loud sneeze erupted from her muzzle. " Ugh! " She shouted, her magic swirled around a tissue nearby, and she levitated it over and quietly blew her nose into it. She felt miserable and sick to her stomach. She hadn't vomited, thank Celestia! But she honestly didn't feel any better about the situation, she also hadn't felt more alone. Everyone was too busy to talk to her, and honestly, it made her feel worthless. She was fully aware that everyone was busy, but she longed and yearned for someone to hold her close, cover her up warmly. The only company she had now was her own thoughts. She half expected Spike to barge in, and read her a book to calm her nerves, but he was out with Rarity. They really had hit it off that night.

She tossed and turned, she wanted to be covered up, but she was sweating and overheating at the same time. As her mind wandered back to Spike, she had recalled him coming in, hoping to aid her with her cold. Though she insisted greatly for him to go have fun, she'd do anything for Spike, he was like family. If he was sick, she'd stick behind for days just to take care of him. That was different though, he was young and had a life to live, she on the other hoof? Gave that up the moment these wings were forced on to her, sure from an outside view it might seem fun, but nobody including her friends saw how busy you got. Spike always insisted on helping, he did, and she appreciated that. But lately, she's been yearning to give him a break for once. The entire workload was on you, and you love writing, but sometimes you had to give up time with your friends and family just to catch up on work.

It was a sick day, she had an excuse now not to work, but what was the price? Being alone, that's what. She'd even take a day with Discord over this... I'd take a day with Discord over anything. She blinked at that thought and blinked again, what did her brain just say? Well, at least nobody heard, what if Discord heard? He's all-powerful, what if he read your mind at that exact moment? She felt her eyes widen, and her hooves tremble a bit. Of course, Discord obviously didn't, and maybe he couldn't. She didn't know, but she was quick to panic. She relaxed, she didn't have any truth in that statement at all, she just wanted someone to talk to. Sure, Discord was a fine enough friend but she didn't want him making her upset while she was sick. Though she wouldn't mind his embrace, no, you'd hate it! You shouldn't even be thinking of him like that, only a friendly hug, but you imagined.. him embracing you closely, and warming you up in a way nopony's thin coat could manage.

She didn't hate him, but she didn't like her brain clouding her with these thoughts. The purple mare just liked to think about her amazing Flash, even if he hadn't even made an offer to visit her, it was her fault. She almost went with Discord over him, everybody even Princess Celestia told her that they weren't much of a match. Was it her fault? He was a handsome stallion, kind even. Though everyone arched a brow when she tended to go on rants about how amazing he was, at first they all supported, but they added 'there wasn't much chemistry' as they put it, but she was supposed to love him. Her heart certainly didn't beat for him as much, it was the rush of a kind handsome stallion that had her swooned. He wasn't big in the smarts category, and he didn't much like the books she read.

Her heart stopped when her mind remembered that night. Her horn swirled with magic, and she opened her jour nearby, and a letter levitated in front of her wide eyes. She noticed the stains, her hoof traced along with the tear stain that was still so vivid, she knew one pony who'd be here right now if she knew that Twilight was sick. A pony since day one she called her mother, the letter was written in the most beautiful handwriting she ever had the decency to lay her eyes upon. Her mother's last breath was saved for this letter before it was too late. Her tears were plentiful that night, what did this have to do with her beloved Flash? The ugly truth is, he hadn't made an effort to come and comfort her through the night, that made the scars on her heart widen. All the love they shared dulled a bit. The memory was so vivid, and now she had the time to remember what sparked her interest in Discord, even if she hated to admit it.

She tried to remember the moment vividly. The memory, dialogue and all. It came back to her.

It was a dark night, the rain was more violent than ever. Its' timing couldn't be more disgustingly perfect, it was the night after her mother had been pronounced no more. Only a few came to her aid, mostly her friends, but in the end, she was left alone in her dimly lit ..cold castle. If it weren't for Spike, she swore she might've gone crazy.

The memory was in parts, she found it hard to try and remember since she had suppressed it so far back in her mind.

She was crying by the fireplace and all she could think of was her mother. She didn't want t to be alone. She wanted someone to tell her it'd be okay.

That's when he came by.

A warmth wrapped around her, and she was awestruck at first. It was a comforting red blanket, and it was neatly wrapped around her. She hoped and prayed it'd be her Flash, she turned with a weak hopeful smile.

But it wasn't.

It was the Lord of Chaos. She recalled being in shock, unsure of what to say, that's when he offered her hot cocoa. She accepted it with hesitation and took a sip, lavishing in its' creamy flavor. Discord gave her a soft smile, and she returned it, highly appreciating it. She had not expected it, but she was grateful.

There were barely words exchanged, nothing but a smile, and a gesture of warmth. He sat, and wrapped his arm around her.

She was in shock, but before she knew it, she was crying into his fur. Letting every part of her break for him.

Yes, that's exactly when it happened. That's when they started to pass more glances to each other, that's when she had made an effort to be even kinder around him, that's when he infected her thoughts. It was then she noticed all the kind gestures he did for her, the secret smiles he passed to her, and the extra amount of pranking that occurred in her direction. She liked him before but after that night, she recalled his heartbeat to her's. It filled her in a way she didn't understand. Too bad he was in love with Celestia.

He had full right to be. She saw how he looked at her, how he bragged to Fluttershy about their long conversations. They weren't official, nor were she and Flash, but a part of her longed for his presence. She was annoyed by him at the least, but she loved how she laughed and even occasionally snorted after her annoyance subsided a bit, he wasn't perfect, he wasn't any knight in shining armor, he was.. Discord. He didn't try to be anything else, he surely tried not to wreak havoc, but he still was himself in the end. That's what she admired. Everyone tried to be perfect, scared if they weren't, and she found herself attacking the lack of perfection in herself. It wasn't like organizing a book collection by color, she meant perfection as in . . . you can't always be the kindest or the most organized, even if she truly wanted to be. Discord was chaos, and it was odd whenever he wasn't. Sure you wanted him to be 'normal' but, you didn't at the same time. Her heart thumped as her mind kept thinking of him, seeing so many things right, and no longer wrong. She caught herself and shook her head.

" Ugh... " She huffed, she was still sick beyond reason. She had only her thoughts to keep her company, that's why she was startled when a box poofed in front of her. Her ears flattened as the box opened, and flying tissues swirled around her, a low surprised gasp came from her. A teddy bear magically flew jumped out and snuggled her. A warmth came to her, gradually the tissues entertained her as they flew around. A bowl suddenly appeared, captivating her attention, liquid from nowhere poured into the bowl and a spoon appeared inside. The bowl swiftly dropped into her hooves, she had a bright entertained smile. She sipped the soup and felt suddenly much better, not as great as she'd hope, but the unbearing illness in her stomach lifted a bit. Her coughing even almost ceased a bit, wow!

She had supposed Discord had might've put a spell on the soup, maybe if she ate it all she'd be at a healthy state? Well, she began to sip and eat away. As she was getting familiar with the area once again, a happy balloon with a face appeared suddenly out of the box and yelled a happy, " Get better soon! " Before flying off to Celestia knows where. She felt joyful at this and knew exactly who caused it, she knew it the moment the tissues flew out, Discord. Her heart warmed, and she laid down, holding the bear closely. It was a quick few things, but she appreciated it oh so much, she huffed quietly.

Suddenly, she was even able to find it in herself to find the power to sleep, a smile on her face as she fell into a slumber.