Awoken

Awoken - Entry Four and Five

Entry Four

Day Two

I looked at one of the machines. It's made out of a shiny metal, and it's reflective. I did not see myself. I saw my shadow self. I can't stop questioning my reality. Am I hallucinating or is it real? I can't stop thinking it might be real. It's already hurt me, so there is no saying what it may do to the others.

We were just put on alert. 697 and 842 were found dead. I had to go assist with cleanup, and I noticed something that horrified me. They were stabbed in the chest, in the same spots I had been. I caught a glimpse of the mirror in the room of 842 and I saw my shadow. He was smiling, literally ear to ear. He stabbed the body again, and new wounds appeared. I'm not even sure how this works. He is a reflection. How can he manipulate objects if he is a reflection?

Oh Celestia. I just realized. He isn't a reflection. The only way to SEE him is in a reflection. He actually exists, completely invisible to anything but a mirror. I'm not sure I want to be here any more. I'm thinking of escaping, if I can remember how to fly. I'm sick of killing, of thinking its all I do. Should I take a chance at freedom and throw it all down the drain?

Entry Five

Day Three

I was forced to basically take a back seat. I had to watch as my shadow self went and did my job, enjoying all of it. I'm about to go insane. I can't stay here. I have figured out, I AM able to attack it. I stabbed it and I think it's mad. I'm going to take a chance tomorrow. I'm going to go for it. I'm leaving this hell-hole. I am going to need to find a home. I composed a little song.

I've stoked the fire

Seen more pain then you can know

The tears of the broken have washed away my soul

Crushed by desire, to change the way my stream will flow

Now I've awoken, and I'm taking back control

I do the best to block out the screams, but they're haunting me in my dreams

Break my shackles, I want it to stop!

I need to get sleep. I have a long day tomorrow.