Starvation and fright

By Thomasfactotyuntold

As I walked in the snowy forest, in this cool air, in the pitch-black night, I was alone, in the dark of my exile. I have dreams that were all in vain if they have called this mercy, then it was not a forgiving one. Because by day and by night, I have been driven to madness with starvation and fright.

I have walked through the snow, I have wanted to have a family and to have food on hearth's warming, but I was too naive to ever think this for I have made a terrible mistake that was easily made by anypony who was clumsy and unforgiving, I couldn’t remember who my family is, but all I can remember is that I was having an argument with my uncle, and my parents with my issues that I cannot recall. They have disowned me right in December. And I have walked into the forest. My heart was filled with sorrow and despair for my tears had melted the snow like hot water from the sink that was spilled to the thick shell of ice. There was no hope for me to live on, and the only chance of sleeping in the night is death. I have resisted my exhaustion, and it was strong as the weight of a lion, or a tiger. And it would eat me if this would happen.

Walking in sorrow, I saw the only shelter I can find in this snowy forest, and there was wood in this ancient temple for me to make a campfire. I did not have anything with me to help me survive in the wild, but I did not care, the only thing that can help me now, is by waiting for my death. Pessimism and suicidal thoughts overtook me, for when I killed myself with the butterfly knife I have in my pocket, and the only thing I have brought, wild carnivorous animals would have eaten my flesh, to have their hearths warming meals. I didn’t care for anything else anymore, despair would take my life and I would rather be in Tartarus then to live like this in the cursed forest.

But as I was going to commit self-harm, I heard a noise of another animal, it did not sound like any other animal I have ever heard when I have walked in the zoo. It sounded like someone had been struggling with they're breathing for whatever reason, it sounded more ghastly, savage, and unforgiving. I brought out my pocket knife and had been looking for whatever was making that noise, my body shaking with fear. I was waiting for nature to punish me, then to give me mercy that I did not deserve, but this was not natural not even the sounds of it.

My stomach began to rumble, my hunger took me. I found where the sound was coming from, and it was from the bushes at my left turn. My campfire has shined a light partially to its face, it looked like a malnourished pony, its eyes were glowing a misty pale cyan colour, unlike the colours of the sky in the winter. I slowly took steps back away from the creature, it lumbered towards me like a starving cannibalistic pony desperate for survival. I took one more step on the snow, and I ran away from the creature.

I called anypony for help, but nopony will help me they either abandon me or want me dead for all I cared. I had been running from the creature for countless minutes. I could not tire out now even if I needed to, I had to get away from the monster as best as I could. The creature was chasing me like a cheetah chasing an antelope in an amazon wildlife, or a wolf hunting down a deer in a forest looking for food. As I have looked back the creature looked familiar to someone I knew, it was shaped like a malnourished deer, it had glowing mane which it’s is grayish cerulean like the sky in a snowstorm. As I lost sight of it, I have planned to set up a trap to determine who or what that creature would be. I was very curious about the creature, and I want to know why it was chasing me, could it be a carnivore? Could it be a predator eating the other ponies, or was it keeping it away from its territory? Whatever the case might be, it was not a natural sight.

While I was looking for resources, I have found some wire from the crazy ponies that have been catching the bikers like rabbits. They have been caught by Celestia's royal guards, and the wire had to do to catch the monster. As I walked in a pitch-black night, with a flashlight I had found along with the wires all over the place, I have been looking for more resources to catch the creature. It did not take long to see what I can actually find. I fear that the creature might hunt down and find me, I believe that it might have a strong sense of smell follow the scent of its prey and it will eat me from that there and on.

While I was looking for resources, I have found an abandoned campsite. I was surprised to see that the tents are still standing regardless of how old the camp was. I noticed that the tent was still open like it had been left open for millennia. The campfire had been stained with blood, and there was a skeleton of a pony I have taken a look inside the tent, and what I had found was a book on the withered out sleeping bag. The book was a journal of my childhood friend, sunflower. I have to read her journal and find out what had happened to her.

As I read the journal, it had mentioned how she came to hear. Apparently, she had her boyfriend broke up with her, and she had been abandoned in this forest. She had her brother to look out for her in the forest, but they have run out of food, and they had both been getting hungrier. Her brother seems to be very patient, but sunflower had been losing her sanity out of starvation and the fear of the dark. What disturbed me the most, is how the journal ends. She had killed her own brother and she had eaten his flesh with a wooden rotisserie. That would explain the bloodstain on the campfire, and the skeleton that I have sound when I was looking for resources. What is even worse in this journal is that she had been confronted by her hunger, but had lost her confrontation and kills her brother and ate him alive, I hope that her little sister Babs seed was perfectly ok and intact, for I have no idea what came over her. I have a theory that whatever supernatural force has changed her into the beast that has been hunting me down but still does not understand what the beast wants when it had confronted me. My hunger has grown even worse, and I am starting to become physically afraid of what was going to happen. I went off into a search for more traps to capture the beast.

I have gathered enough resources to made more traps for the beast to get caught, the wire will trigger a net to capture the beast, even if it's not painful, it will have to do to capture the beast in a pitch-black night, I have put a lantern on top of the tree where the whare the new should be so that I will take a glance look at the creature and see who or what it was that creature is that was confronting me. I have soaked my own blood into the paper towel to lure it into the trap since it does have a sense of smell from which I can theorize. While waiting patiently for the creature to come, I decided to head back to the ancient temple I have gone earlier, for I will wait patiently for the beast to come. While I was waiting I grew curious to look inside this temple.

I have gone inside the temple and right inside tells the origin of the windigos and how they have come to the ponies. Millions of years ago, long before Equestria was found the ponies were all in a terrible famine in the cold, they were so hungry and so scared, they were trying to find a way to believe their hunger. The ponies who were blessed by nature will finally have gained enough food and their hunger was relieved as happy and free as butterflies of a sunny day, but for those who were not blessed by nature, were none upon the blessed, and were treated badly as a result of their misfortune. They were found by ithaqua and he had offered them the power to get revenge on the ponies. They took that offer, and they had eaten each other and they slowly make a painful grotesque transformation into the windigos we see when the three tribes were struggling in a snowstorm, from which was caused by the windigos. But instead of eating pony flesh they can now feast off of hate from other ponies.

After the windigos are defeated, they were hiding in borea through the portal on the snowy forest that I have been walking on, but when the stars were right, the outer gods will rise from their slumber along with the windigos. More windigos will form from the insanity and hate of other ponies when they have awakened from their slumber, and chaos will be even worse than discord’s reign of chaos.

This story may have given me a clue of who that creature is. The creature may have been one of the ponies who have been starving millions of years ago, but I won’t know for certain if this was real for my hunger grew even worse than before, and I am slowly becoming malnourished, but I snapped myself out of it, trying to keep my sanity intact. As gained my vision back, I heard a roar from within this forest, I have run to see the monster.

As I rant through the snowy forest, my theory was proven to be right, for the creature that I have caught was, or what it had one time, been sunflower, I can tell by the cutie mark that it was her. The story from this ancient temple had confirmed this creature was a pony once. The grotesque sight of the creature’s colours was all grey, and in a malformed shape, had no muscles beneath the skin, but only bones are shown as a walking corpse upon the ground, her teeth were shown beneath her lips and were red as blood itself. My heart began to pound from my chest full of terror, and my hunger has become worse as I began to drool with hunger. I couldn’t take my hunger even if I was trying hard to resist the pain. The creature spoke in a demented voice of sunflower, she seemed to have broken down in shrieks of anger fear and sadness when she was caught. She had been screaming,

“Ithaqua! The wind walker! He found me! He forced me to kill my brother! He wanted me to become one of the windigos! I have killed anypony who has entered this forest for 6 years! I have been changing when I ate their flesh! The transformation, it hurts! It hurts so badly! So cold! So hungry! Starving! Starving! Starving! Starving! They want me to be one of them! I can’t live like this anymore! I suffered from starvation for too long! I can’t live like this! Put me out of my misery! Kill me! Kill me! Kill me! Kill me!!!”

She sounds like a tortured soul during her screaming, tortured her mind, soul and her body. Sunflower wanted to die before her transformation and meets her fate, and I was trying to kill her and put her out of her misery to put an end to her suffering of a warping mind; spasm and traumatizing torture, but I was too hesitant to kill her, and I never wanted to hurt anypony even if they had suffered enough. No… she has suffered enough, but it was not her time to die. I have dropped my butterfly knife down and had walked away from the creature without looking back, especially if she was screaming louder.

“Fine! I'll do it!”

To my shock, I heard slashing behind me, and the creature was not breathing anymore. She had finally committed suicide, putting herself out of her misery to make the pain fade off. For all I knew, she didn't relieve the pain, in fact, she made it even worse in Tartarus. As my hunger became painful, I hear a demented voice in my head, a voice that sounded like a whistling wind of white silence, telling me to eat the flesh of the ponies, and relieve my pain. Either I seemed to be snapping or was it the voice of an outer god, telling me to go back to the temple and eat the flesh of ponies frozen for me to feast upon.

I have a bad feeling about this voice telling me what to do in this situation I am in, but I was hypnotized by this voice, following orders like a lost lamb following a wolf disguised as a sheep, offering the meat of its own brethren. I headed back to the temple, I finally knew that my punishment had finally come. I have made too many mistakes in my past life, and everything I do was unforgivable and not merciful and it only gives me judgemental misfortune.

I have been asked for forgiveness, but even if I had asked once, it was all in vain. And right now I can only meet my fate instead of asking for mercy that I didn’t deserve. My life was cruel and it will never bring kindness, not even once. For my punishment, I shall take sunflower’s place, and become a windego, forever….

I do not care for my life, for everything I've seen cannot be true, and I knew that this madness of my own would lead me to my death of starvation, or to Joint ithaqua on a planet called, borea. I'm writing the suicide note down in hopes that my dark chronicle would spread throughout Equestria. Oh, great was the sin of my spirit, and great is the reach of its doom, not the pity of Heaven can cheer it, nor can respite found me in this tomb. I have passed the gateways of slumber, Past the waning moon's abysses in the darkness in this temple. I have lived all my life without number, I have sounded all things with my sight, and I change in a grotesque manner, after the brightest of day and the pitch-black night, being driven to madness with starvation and fright.

Juniper Montage.

Author's Note

If ypu don't like the story I have uploaded in the missing series collection, then I will make better stories in the future.