Nobody Will Ever Understand...

by Mensonge Singer

Rating: teen
Tags: Original Character, Sex, Suicide / Self Harm, Profanity, Non-consensual, Death, Narcotics, Sad, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark
Length: 2646

Script Singer talks about why she has depression

WARNING: This story deals with the topic of rape which is why I put the sex tag. I won't be going into too much detail of it, but if you're squeamish, read the censored version. This is based off a dream I had....

Late at night, Script Singer is walking home from a day out with friends, when she meets an unwanted visitor...

Published 2019-06-15 22:30:01 UTC
Last updated 2019-07-22 03:15:00 UTC

Nobody, But You...

I walk alone down the streets of the town as I head toward home after my night of fun with some friends. I hum to myself as I walk down the road that I know well, knowing my way home was safe, but I still had a feeling in my gut that made me feel uneasy.

I tried to ignore it and just hurry home to ease my nerves. Little did I know what would happen to me lurking in the shadows.

I thought I heard something behind me, so I turned around trying not to panic. I didn't see anything due to the darkness of the night, so I just quickly turned around and began to walk at a faster pace. I then heard hoofsteps trotting behind me, so I went faster but the pony behind me only followed my pace.

That's when I ran. I ran as fast as my hooves could carry me. I let out a scream but it was silenced as I felt somepony tackle onto me covering my mouth, dragging me to a dark shadow side of the town.

I continued to scream as I shut my eyes tight crying and praying somepony would hear me.

"Shut up!" said a voice as the pony slapped my face. I let out a whimper, realizing who this was. I squirmed harder.

"You know struggling will do you no good, Slut." Shadow Mane growled as he pinned me against a wall. I felt him ignite his horn, his spell surrounding my body making me unable to move. I stared at him into his dark cold blood red eyes, letting out a whimper as I turned away, my mane falling down my face.

I let out a soft frightened whimper. "P-Please...don't....hurt me..."

Shadow only chuckled at my plea. "You know what happens to bad fillies like you though..." He grabbed me by the mane hard. I let out a painful whine as I shut my eyes tighter.

"S-Sir, you're...you're hurting me..." I whimper." Please, stop..."

He only threw me to the ground grabbing me by my throat. I just lay their helplessly as I curled into a ball, still refusing to look at him. I felt him move on top of me, just laying there.

"P-Please, stop..." I whimper. "Don't...don't do that, please..."

Shadow only chuckled as he stared into my eyes. "Oh, come now, little flower. You know you want it." He said as he poofed up a gag and tied it around my mouth.

I only shook in fear as I let out a soft squeal shutting my eyes tight. I felt my body tighten up as I felt him invade me. He leaned over to my ear and started licking my neck as he let out moans of pleasure. I only shook in fear as my whimpers grew softer as I finally gave in, knowing it was hopeless to fight back.

"Mmmph...you're...so....tight..." he mumbled. I felt a shudder run down my spine as I heard his deep raspy voice whisper into my ear. He moved faster and grew more rough with me as I began to cry out in pain, trying to bite down on the gag to keep him from hurting me more. "Such a dirty whore...who would ever want to be with you, you don't deserve anypony..."

I felt my body giving into the pleasure as I felt him getting closer causing me to open my eyes slightly, rolling into the back of my head letting out a moan. I felt him move the gag off my mouth and quickly kissing my lips rolling his tongue inside of me as I moaned louder, giving in to the pleasure. I hated myself for this... I hate this... why does my body betray me...?

My body spasmed as I felt him inside of me and slowly pull out, leaving me there on the ground, I lay there drooling on the ground as my legs twitch. Why did I do this... Why did I let him do this...? I hate myself for it... I heard him chuckle as he kicked me in the side and left me there exposed.

I must have passed out, because the next thing I knew, the sun was almost up. I got onto my hooves shaking as I continued walking home. I tried to get the memory out of my head but to no avail. So I just gave up and walked home.

I opened my door as my legs grew weaker as I felt like my stomach was going to explode. I walked into my bedroom and collapsed onto my bed and curled into a ball and sobbed.

After a few minutes, I heard a knock at the door. I opened my window to see who it was.

I saw my dragon friend Flare Flame standing at my door. I opened the window and called out to her.

"You ready for Tuesday Morning Brunch, Script?" she asked.

"No, sorry..." I shook my head. "I don't feel too well this morning..."

"Oh, well... I hope you feel better soon."

"Thanks," I say as I shut the window. I then walked out of my room and went into the bathroom to go take my morning shower. Dispose of the evidence of the pony I want to forget...

And to cut away all of my pain...

"S-Sorry, I...need a moment..." I wipe the tears from my face as I sit Flame Flare's room. She handed me a box of tissues. "Thanks..." I say with a sniff.

"Hey, it's okay, Script," she uttered. "This wasn't your fault..." You tried your best, but you could only do so much..."

"I just...can't help but feel I have to take some of the blame from it... I don't know why, but... I... I just..." I struggled to find my words. "Ugh, this is why I don't like talking about it..."

"But it's better to than to keep it bottled up..."

"I know, I know..." I say slightly irritated. "It's just I get so upset I can't talk...what's the point anymore..."

My friend just held me in an embrace to give me comfort as I just let myself wail out in sorrow.

Author's Note

....I guess you could say this is based off true events...but it's also part of the reason why I keep to myself....

Nobody, But You... (Censored)

I walk alone down the streets of the town as I head toward home after my night of fun with some friends. I hum to myself as I walk down the road that I know well, knowing my way home was safe, but I still had a feeling in my gut that made me feel uneasy.

I tried to ignore it and just hurry home to ease my nerves. Little did I know what would happen to me lurking in the shadows.

I thought I heard something behind me, so I turned around trying not to panic. I didn't see anything due to the darkness of the night, so I just quickly turned around and began to walk at a faster pace. I then heard hoofsteps trotting behind me, so I went faster but the pony behind me only followed my pace.

That's when I ran. I ran as fast as my hooves could carry me. I let out a scream but it was silenced as I felt somepony tackle onto me covering my mouth, dragging me to a dark shadow side of the town.

I continued to scream as I shut my eyes tight crying and praying somepony would hear me.

"Shut up!" said a voice as the pony slapped my face. I let out a whimper, realizing who this was. I squirmed harder.

"You know struggling will do you no good, Slut." Shadow Mane growled as he pinned me against a wall. I felt him ignite his horn, his spell surrounding my body making me unable to move. I stared at him into his dark cold blood red eyes, letting out a whimper as I turned away, my mane falling down my face.

I let out a soft frightened whimper. "P-Please...don't....hurt me..."

Shadow only chuckled at my plea. "You know what happens to bad fillies like you though..." He grabbed me by the mane hard. I let out a painful whine as I shut my eyes tighter.

"S-Sir, you're...you're hurting me..." I whimper." Please, stop..."

He only threw me to the ground grabbing me by my throat. I just lay their helplessly as I curled into a ball, still refusing to look at him. I felt him move on top of me, just laying there.

I must have passed out, because the next thing I knew, the sun was almost up. I got onto my hooves shaking as I continued walking home. I tried to get the memory out of my head but to no avail. So I just gave up and walked home.

I opened my door as my legs grew weaker as I felt like my stomach was going to explode. I walked into my bedroom and collapsed onto my bed and curled into a ball and sobbed.

After a few minutes, I heard a knock at the door. I opened my window to see who it was.

I saw my dragon friend Flare Flame standing at my door. I opened the window and called out to her.

"You ready for Tuesday Morning Brunch, Script?" she asked.

"No, sorry..." I shook my head. "I don't feel too well this morning..."

"Oh, well... I hope you feel better soon."

"Thanks," I say as I shut the window. I then walked out of my room and went into the bathroom to go take my morning shower. Dispose of the evidence of the pony I want to forget...

And to cut away all of my pain...

"S-Sorry, I...need a moment..." I wipe the tears from my face as I sit Flame Flare's room. She handed me a box of tissues. "Thanks..." I say with a sniff.

"Hey, it's okay, Script," she uttered. "This wasn't your fault..." You tried your best, but you could only do so much..."

"I just...can't help but feel I have to take some of the blame from it... I don't know why, but... I... I just..." I struggled to find my words. "Ugh, this is why I don't like talking about it..."

"But it's better to than to keep it bottled up..."

"I know, I know..." I say slightly irritated. "It's just I get so upset I can't talk...what's the point anymore..."

My friend just held me in an embrace to give me comfort as I just let myself wail out in sorrow.

I'm Sorry To Give You Pain...

I stare down at my body, watching it grow pale until dawn. There was a knock on my door, I look out the window, finding my friend Lotus Moon and Ellie at my doorstep. They repeatedly knock, growing more concerned.

Ellie gave Lotus a worried look, then opened the door rushing upstairs. I heard them knocking on my door.

"Script, it's us. You awake?" Ellie asked.

"She's usually up by now..." Lotus commented.

I only stood there as they waited in silence, knocking once more.

"Script, answer us, please."

I only hung my head, knowing how they would react.

That's when the banging began.

"I'll go get help," Lotus uttered as she teleported away, leaving Ellie banging on the door, trying to get it open.

I'm sorry, girls... I think to myself. I couldn't take my pain any longer...

After a few short minutes, Lotus returned with my dragon pony friend, Radioflash. He frantically pounded on the door.

"Script, please open the door!"

I felt a tear run down my face as I could do nothing to ease my friend's nerves.

Radio began bucking my door, trying to break it open. You won't like what you see...

The door busted open with my friends running inside of my room, stopping once they saw what was in there.

My body layed there, pale with my eyes wide open, foam coming out of my mouth. Radioflash ran up to me, holding me in his arms as tears filled his eyes.

"Script, wake up!" he cried. "Please!" He began shaking me, trying to wake me up. Ellie put a claw on his shoulder, trying to comfort him.

"Radio, I'm sorry-"

"NO!" he yelled. "I don't believe it!"

"Radio, look at her..." Lotus uttered. "She's..."

I stared at my crush. Even though we both agreed we're better off as friends, that doesn't mean we still had strong feelings for each other. I hung my head as tears formed in my eyes for the pain I caused him.

Author's Note

*shrug* tried to get all dramatic with a guy for once. Even though sadly RadioSinger isn't gonna be a thing, the friendSHIP will forever burn in my heart. Plus I wanted to finish the story.... might fix later

But You Can't Feel My Pain...

Author's Note

....figured I would add something onto it.....think of it as a sequel... I do warn you, this is detailed information of an overdose. Also this part is inspired by the YouTube short "I'm Here Too"

....I'm actually considering doing this to myself tonight...so I'm sorry guys, but I can't take the flashes of this man any longer...hate me all you want, I don't care anymore.....not like anybody would care if I die anyway..........

But You Can't Feel My Pain...

I wake up screaming at the top of my lungs, the image of Shadow Mane laying on top of me once again. I curled up into a ball as I began to sob. I'm so sick of this nightmare...

After a few moments of rocking myself, I opened my nightstand drawer, pulling out a pill bottle.

I stared at the bottle in my hoof for maybe a minute or two, then opened the lid as I poured a large hoof full into my grasp. I hesitate a moment as I just look at the small colorful objects, wondering how they can cause so much harm.

I slammed them into my mouth as I quickly drank a glass of water to wash down the taste, choking slightly due to the large amount. I panted slightly as my mind went into shock at what I was doing, but it had to be done. It's better this way...

After a few minutes, I felt my body growing hotter. I leaned against a wall as I felt my head grow dizzy and light headed. I tried to fan myself with my hooves, but my body only grew hotter. I walked around frantically as I tried to calm myself down, saying this is what I wanted.

I felt like my lungs had been clenched up as I found it hard to breathe followed by a sudden sharp pain in my stomach, causing me to cry out in pain. I lost my balance as I caught myself on the floor, clutching my stomach. I let out a loud scream as the pain grew more. My stomach grumbled as I felt everything inside churning up as I felt the urge to puke, which I did. My body only grew hotter and the pain wouldn't stop. I fell onto the floor as I screamed out bloody murder curling into a ball.

It felt like this was going on for days, or even months, and I deserved it. "This...is what I deserve..." I think to myself as I let out another scream.

I just rolled onto my back as I felt tears filling my eyes as I began to pant rapidly, feeling the foam roll down my face as everything went dark and cold as my eyes rolled into the back of my head.

This is what I deserve...